Do you have glimpses of God when contemplating?

[Mixcoatl]

It just happens when I am sitting on my couch and I suddenly remember that outrageous experience with bufo alvarius. The best thing is that I get amazed for that and I think: "it's real". 😱😱

I'm having these flashbacks more constantly since I quit weed.

[Yimpa]

Opposite experience for me. I go “Omg, it’s imaginary!”. I also take my medicine regularly again. 

[Mixcoatl]

5 hours ago, Yimpa said:

Opposite experience for me. I go “Omg, it’s imaginary!”. I also take my medicine regularly again. 

When glimpses are not occurring I tend to deny my experiences as well.

[Yimpa]

3 hours ago, Mixcoatl said:

When glimpses are not occurring I tend to deny my experiences as well.

I don’t understand what you mean by this. Please elaborate.

[Mixcoatl]

@Yimpa when I am doing my everyday stuff, I doubt anything I have experienced with bufo, LSD, etc. I try to find explanations why there cannot be a single being here in my room. Then I take my time to contemplate, sitting on my couch and I suddenly have this memory of what happened with 5-meo and I remember how vivid and true was it. How I am the only thing that exists. It's just glimpses. I don't feel the same during my everyday normal life.

Edited 12 hours ago by Mixcoatl

[Yimpa]

A beautiful spirit just delivered my Taco Bell order. Wow!

I am not on any substance today.

A wink from no where 

“But Yimpa… that’s just a human being doing their job. So what?”

So what?! No… not so what! That’s not nothing >.< 

Edited 10 hours ago by Yimpa

[Willy Phallicus]

1 hour ago, Mixcoatl said:

How I am the only thing that exists.

That doesn't change when you decide to log back into your MMORPG.  You just forget.

[Yimpa]

8 hours ago, Mixcoatl said:

How I am the only thing that exists. It's just glimpses. I don't feel the same during my everyday normal life.

Indeed, there is absolutely no way you could live a normal, everyday life, from such high degrees of consciousness. It’s non-human. I’ve been there.

There is even a higher degree of consciousness than ego death. For context,  I’ve had non-dual experiences on psychedelics where I could still speak, and that was profound as fuck. But this non-human alien state, we are talking like 1000x higher degree of consciousness more radical than even that. And it wasn’t a psychedelic that took me to that state. It was like I acccidentally won the jackpot and discovered something  super duper cray cray for a brief moment. 

I’ve talked about this in other threads in the past, but I am so obsessed with experiencing that again, but at the same time I still want to live my human life. It’s like I discovered a completely new dimension of consciousness, but no scientist or academic would take me serious. Again, only an Alien Mind could understand.

I will experience it again when I stop caring about being human. But not yet. 

Edited 3 hours ago by Yimpa

[Mixcoatl]

47 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

Indeed, there is absolutely no way you could live a normal, everyday life, from such high degrees of consciousness. It’s non-human. I’ve been there.

There is even a higher degree of consciousness than ego death. For context,  I’ve had non-dual experiences on psychedelics where I could still speak, and that was profound as fuck. But this non-human alien state, we are talking like 1000x higher degree of consciousness more radical than even that. And it wasn’t a psychedelic that took me to that state. It was like I acccidentally won the jackpot and discovered something  super duper cray cray for a brief moment. 

I’ve talked about this in other threads in the past, but I am so obsessed with experiencing that again, but at the same time I still want to live my human life. It’s like I discovered a completely new dimension of consciousness, but no scientist or academic would take me serious. Again, only an Alien Mind could understand.

I will experience it again when I stop caring about being human. But not yet. 

Thanks for sharing this. I cannot even imagine what you're saying! I guess the possibilities are infinite and go beyond human comprehension. But at the same time I'm happy you're wearing that human avatar right now and when it has to happen again, it will happen.

It's hard to explain my highest trips so far. But I will try as it is related with the main thread. 

Once I was sitting and thinking about what God could be. Suddenly, I remembered that one experience that happened when I was a "figure" (it wasn't exactly that), but this thing appeared in the nothing and across the eternity and across every piece of space I could imagine. I remembered that it was the truest thing that happened to me ever! In that moment I comprehended that only God can realize God, but at the same time I have the memory of it and it came so vivid that in that moment I was so sure about God.

Another trip I had, I became a sort of fractals in the void, but those fractals were nothing... but I was still there, alone in the everything, completely full of peace, the most absolute peace I have ever felt.

Today I had a normal human life with work and stress, a lot of thoughts in my brain that I forgot about all of this.

I don't really know if those experiences are really awakenings but, so far, they are out of what I could brand as normal. But I am sure these things are true as I have experienced them.

[Yimpa]

@Mixcoatl Thank you for sharing! Good to know I am not the only one who has experienced the awwsomeness of Love :3