Why I Choose To Keep Living

[Beans]

 

Life is hard, and when youre constantly pushed to your breaking point some of us can't take anymore. I was definitely one of those kids. I can't help, but to wear my heart on my sleeve, i can't help, but to feel so intensely. That's just who I am, and I'll be this way forever. These are the reasons why I decided to keep living.

1. The gift of love

2. my grandparents

I take their gift of love very seriously, before as a kid. my heartached for the day I would be without it, because I truly didn't feel like i could handle it. A world without my light, my safe haven, I couldn't do it. I tried being strong, but I kept getting floods of nightmares of my sa (sexual assault) attacks, violent dreams of my loved ones being hurt, i couldn't sleep, I was falling apart fast. When that day finally came to where I was at my boiling over point, I called my nana and told her what I had done. Not even when her husband died did I ever hear her cry, but she cried on that phone call. And it helped me realize what I had just done. my nana saved my life. and she's the reason why I continue to fight every single day. she is the reason why I didn't give up on myself, nana who's never asked me for anything. All she's ever wanted was the best for me. And because I didn't give up, im able to share this message. my hope is that someone in the same or similar circumstance sees this and decides to keep going. my story may not have had the happiest of beginnings, but now i can use this to push me into things im passionate about. and thats content creating, connections, and doing my best to be kind and to help others when i can.

Thanks so much for listening, please if you'd like to support me. dont forget to follow, comment, and like. love yall a bunch, i'll talk to yall later bye.  

[Ulax]

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