5-MEO 1st trip in over a year

[Jordan]

As I am writing this, I plugged around 25mg of 5MEO DMT 1hr 22 min ago. I wanted to take some time to write down some things that I noticed and share with anyone that is interested.

There is a lot of avoidance of looking at things wrong with my health and taking it seriously. My heart does a double beat very often, my feet hurt after 5 min of wearing steel toed boots which is a requirement at work but I don't wear them and people are turning a blind eye to it. My sleep is not great, I haven't been giving myself time to feel into my emotions and destress. I really need to take 2 hours a day feeling into my emotions to destress and get my heart working properly. I need to exercise more too. Both those should help sleep. I can probably fix my feet by massaging them every day and doing exercises for the foot muscles.

I noticed that I really have a strong desire to help people. I noticed Leo has that desire too. I noticed people I spent time with recently really desired to have someone take an interest in them and be curious about them. I noticed there are many things my girlfriend brought up but I avoided communicating about and getting into. I noticed I have a lot of curiosity about things but am afraid to ask people questions to find out. I really should find ways to help out more at work, ask more questions and express my curiosity there. 

What is important seems to be to find a way to help other people as much as possible. Time and energy I spend on things that feel good but that aren't helping anyone seems like a trap I would like to avoid. 

To anyone reading this I wish you the best. I am going to feel into my emotions for 2 hours then go to bed. 

[Yimpa]

Goodnight buddy 

[Jordan]

@Yimpa Thanks, I saw your message from my phone before bed but I am not logged in there. It was nice to hear.

I found it hard to just feel into my emotions. I think I need to purposely bring up emotions I am suppressing like anger, loneliness, anxiety, shame, guilt. I know I suppress these because I barely ever feel them haha. That might work better then just sitting there trying to feel however I feel. I can try that today while massaging my feet and getting those fixed up a bit. I worked out for 10 minutes this morning. I am really out of shape compared to when I was exercising a bit every day doing pushups pull ups lunges at home.

[Yimpa]

@Jordan