Im proud of how far youve come

[kavaris]

Iuno someone said that once, and i felt like its apropos for what i was thinking. And that is how, even though its goin fairly slow and steady, that there is progress happening, tangible changes happening within that...

Like, its on a (domain or something like that), increasing, one thats up to you, that you are trying to develop, however its gonna culminate, cause yous know im sure, whatever it is you are to focus on the most, is what everythings building around / changing around... like the constant change, i mean...

I mean, its not like theres a flat level, like you have layers or you have nothing, and to be staggered in the *in between direction is what prolly causes alot of discomfort. I mean, its not like it makes sense at the boundary outside of the small circle that weve called sensible, so we take that w/ a grain of salt as far as what can even be said around it, as far as trying to disect that edge realm. you know?

Edited 11 hours ago by kavaris

[kavaris]

3 hours ago, kavaris said:

whatever it is you are to focus on...

Ima jus highlight "focus on" as i dont have am explanation for what that means, and so someone else can either fill in pieces, or write it down nd describe it later.

[kavaris]

Everyones a candidate for excellence. Its very early in the morning, and i got to thinkin of this, that is this memory of something ~ i wanna say it was a friend who was considered like an A+ student at writing or math or something, and when he started getting real cocky/confident, one of the previous failing students actually outshined him... And i experienced this in 3rd grade, but then, it happened like 10 times afterwards in wholly unique ways, one time i was that failing student who overcame, and there was the advanced students who were real good at something like writing or whatever it was... And that is all to say that, theres this thing that we're working towards, irrispective of the anticipation of a final graduation or event at the end, since we dont know what it is at the end, meaning the end of our ability to say anything *has ended, otherwise its just a continuous thing, and we're not conscious of its continuity. But like, the excellence in the area of ourselves, that is like the only project thats ever mattered; prior to, it wouldve been learning subjects, going to classrooms, but now its like, the excellence can be granted by yourself, through yourself, like, you arent in need of a teacher or someone to say "oh wat you are doing, thats actually wrong". You are making the rules as to wrong and right, and then you are sharing it, such that you can see if it makes any sense. So that stuff that might not make sense, it may turn out to make sense, nd vice versa. Like some of this is battle testing the senses.