Psychedelics vs Meditation

[TheGod]

I moved in Canada around 4 years ago and ever since I did that, I was trying a lot of new psychedelics (LSD, DMT, 5-MeO-DMT & Mescaline). Before Canada I had only been on 15-20 mushroom trips and now, 4 years later, I reached 100+ trips with total of 30ish breakthroughs.  

In November of last years, it became very clear to me that I had developed addiction to psychedelics (mostly to 5MeO-DMT) and that I became a bit mentally unstable, therefore, I stopped tripping completely and started avoiding spirituality because I wanted to ground myself. I felt very ambivalent about psychedelics & spirituality because on the one hand, I wanted to reach the awakening but on the other hand, every time I would break-trough I would realize that everything was and is completely fine, and the reason I am living this life is because I had chosen to do so. But still, I was trying to push myself to prove myself wrong, to prove that I actually want to awaken and the one in me who doesn’t want is ego. But every break-through I had on 5MeO would always lead to the same result. That’s why I finally stopped tripping.

Recently, I realized that my mind and psyche have become more stable so this time I made a decision to work on my meditation skills, I had never meditated more than a month or two . Also, all my meditation experience was acquired  before psychedelics and didn’t give me anything.

A few days ago, I decided to give meditation another shot. After having breakfast one day, I set up a timer for 20 minutes and just sit on my couch in complete silence. In another recent post I had mentioned that although I stopped any spiritual work, my state of consciousness has been going up on it’s own for unknown reasons. Anyways, as I was sitting maybe 10-15 minutes into the mediation session, I realized that thoughts in my mind are not as strong anymore and that I can actually just stop thinking for a while. Also, after that many trips on psychedelics I have developed enough reference experience to be able to understand what being is. And the point of meditation isn’t concentrating on breathing or energy fields. It is simple as that – just being. Being unfortunately can’t be described because any description of being is partial and will trigger a lot of personal assumptions about it that consist of the ideas you heard or read and eventually misunderstood. Unless, you had multiple direct experiences.

I’ve been mediating just the last few days but I can reach levels of Being in 15 minutes that I couldn’t do in hours when meditating before. If you want to be good at meditation do psychedelics but wisely. The truth is that you need to do both - meditation and psychedelics.