choosing weed over my soulmate... and father

[Julian gabriel]

i went to the airport to go to her

i needed to transfer my money from cash to my bank to have enough 4 the flight but couldn't figure out a way to do this

after trying i picked up a weed roach from the sidewalk and smoked it 

then i felt like i missed my dad and so i used my apple which i was keeping on the back burner incase i couldn't manage without it (except 4 the map) to call him

then we met and i felt torn between 2 people 

 i wasn't ever really able to decide so i just turned to weed as my need instead of my father or her

few months later my father went to italy where she is and offered to pay 4 me to go to her but i chose the solitude and weed

both my father and her are vegetarians, osho said eating meat keeps u within the dimension of need 

but the thing is I'm a vampire 

its not myfaultttttt 

the psychologists took my blood, they love it

i just keep desiring your food

i can feast on your perspectives for days 

then feast on food forgetting where it came from for there are so many who made it 

if u don't eat for a long time people will pressure u to eat 

but if u tell them u r fasting they think ur so disciplined and cool

kid cudi said in entergalactic to love on purpose 

i fear having 2 much of a plan 2 fly away with peter pan 

 

 

[integral]

Is the problem inaction and passivity?

If your girlfriend's in another country and you're sitting at home smoking weed. Clearly you got to just get on the plane and go.

[LordFall]

Seems like you're stuck in escapism. Try to elaborate on what exactly is keeping you stuck and what your fear is based on and we can give you some outside perspective. You can also vent it out to an AI that helps me break things down when I can't make sense of a situation in my life.