I've been getting drunk again, sorry

[TruthFreedom]

Spiritual work and alcohol are somewhat oppositional.

I suppose Leo might describe me as a Zen Devil. 

I haven't even been putting any effort in to this for years.

It's the alcohol. I have become dependent, but I'm working on getting sober again. This is day one.

Edited 8 hours ago by TruthFreedom

[Hojo]

Saying sorry wont help you quit just keep going.

Alcohol dosent have sentience.

Keep making an ass of yourself its the only way.

Edited 7 hours ago by Hojo

[TruthFreedom]

@Hojo hahaha

[Hojo]

@TruthFreedom I used to be like you, I would get drunk because I was scared of myself. Then I wouldnt like myself so I would want to talk to people when I was drunk and made an ass of myself thousands of times. You are just lonely cause you are not connected. Keep crying God will answer one day. Dont stop you are on a path.

'Taking a break' is self humiliation as well. You dont want to stop you want an answer. God rewards those who dont stop until they get an answer.

Just get to ultra low vibration,

Be honest

I am a piece of shit

I am a loser

No one cares about me

I am abandoned by all including myself

I have no friends family dont like me

I am a robot 

I am a slave 

There is no hope.

It will be like this forever and I will die and go to a void of nothing and not exist and never get any dreams fullfilled.

Even if I do get to reincarnate eventually everything will die and there will be nothing to latch onto.

You are doing something highly intelligent you just have to honest with your situation which takes more ego hit,

Edited 2 hours ago by Hojo

[Joseph Maynor]

People get drunk on their own ego without any alcohol needed.