Feeling torn between ego development and the pursuit of deepest truth

[manuel bon]

8 hours ago, Spiritual Warrior said:

Best of luck to you brother, I relate to your situation. 

Thanks!❤️🙏

[yetineti]

Figure out why you seek Truth until it is the only thing that makes sense to do. If you are unable to do that; figure out why. If you are unable to do that; figure out why • ♾️

You are always going to wish you had better sleep, money, food, relationships, hobbies, crafts, etc. Never stop pursuing those, simultaneously. It will be true regardless of ego perception.

Only an ego can pursue Truth, anyhow— these things are not separate.

You need to survive in this body to pursue God. It is the whole point.

If either pursuit clashes, you are doing it wrong.

 

 

Edited February 22 by yetineti

[Spiritual Warrior]

8 hours ago, Joseph Maynor said:

Truth allows creation from the finite to be much more enjoyable and consistent because the Infinite and finite are joined, no longer at odds.  

We are all One 

[manuel bon]

5 hours ago, yetineti said:

Figure out why you seek Truth until it is the only thing that makes sense to do. If you are unable to do that; figure out why. If you are unable to do that; figure out why • ♾️

I imagine that giving my life situation, to some extent I feel called towards truth, but at the same time I also use it as escapism

[Ziran]

11 hours ago, manuel bon said:

I imagine that giving my life situation, to some extent I feel called towards truth, but at the same time I also use it as escapism

What does happy-healthy-successful look like for you in 5 years? 10 years? 20 years?

[manuel bon]

1 hour ago, Ziran said:

What does happy-healthy-successful look like for you in 5 years? 10 years? 20 years

Right now I would tell you that I’d love to make my first million before I turn 30, working with meditation, maybe opening a wellness centre or having some kind of online academy… working online would be great, so I would not have problems on travelling and working from wherever I want, but also retire my parents and help my mom with dad’s therapies and take care of him. I think this is what my success would look like. Financial freedom, conscious job, helping family. Then with money health is something that would be easy to achieve (speaking of quality food, exercise, etc. - of course you never know what can happen to you, but I’m talking about the things you can control)

[Ziran]

1 hour ago, manuel bon said:

Right now I would tell you that I’d love to make my first million before I turn 30, working with meditation, maybe opening a wellness centre or having some kind of online academy… working online would be great, so I would not have problems on travelling and working from wherever I want, but also retire my parents and help my mom with dad’s therapies and take care of him. I think this is what my success would look like. Financial freedom, conscious job, helping family. Then with money health is something that would be easy to achieve (speaking of quality food, exercise, etc. - of course you never know what can happen to you, but I’m talking about the things you can control)

Are there glimmers of financial freedom, conscious job, and helping family in your life right now?

[manuel bon]

@Ziran I’m trying to build a business coaching people with mindfulness and these techniques, but right now I’m not getting any results. I’m not fully invested into it right now as I’m still a student and I am also scared since no one around me has a business. 
also as I study abroad I’m not so helpful for my family, although every time I go back home I help a lot

[Ziran]

31 minutes ago, manuel bon said:

@Ziran I’m trying to build a business coaching people with mindfulness and these techniques, but right now I’m not getting any results. I’m not fully invested into it right now as I’m still a student and I am also scared since no one around me has a business. 
also as I study abroad I’m not so helpful for my family, although every time I go back home I help a lot

Any other glimmers of financial freedom in your life right now?

[manuel bon]

37 minutes ago, Ziran said:

Any other glimmers of financial freedom in your life right now?

Nope haha

[Ziran]

3 hours ago, manuel bon said:

Nope haha

Your parents are supporting you?

[manuel bon]

Just now, Ziran said:

Your parents are supporting you?

No I have a student job, enough to pay uni, rent, and food

[Ziran]

Just now, manuel bon said:

No I have a student job, enough to pay uni, rent, and food

Perfect!  Any significant debt?

[manuel bon]

3 minutes ago, Ziran said:

Perfect!  Any significant debt?

Yeah 10k for uni😢

[Ziran]

5 hours ago, manuel bon said:

... I study abroad I’m not so helpful for my family, although every time I go back home I help a lot

When was the last time you were there?  Any future trips planned?

[Ziran]

55 minutes ago, manuel bon said:

Yeah 10k for uni😢

Do you know the interest rate?

Is the interest defferred?

[manuel bon]

@Ziran Honestly I don’t remember

[Ziran]

11 minutes ago, manuel bon said:

@Ziran Honestly I don’t remember

In general, if the interest is deferred the debt can be ignored for now.  If not, the interest rate determines if and when to start chipping away at the debt.

The last item on your list was a conscious-job.  You currently have a job.  Any glimmers there?

[manuel bon]

2 hours ago, Ziran said:

When was the last time you were there?  Any future trips planned?

I’m going there on Sunday and we’ll go to Slovakia for a stem cells therapy and other intensive treatments. 
 

Speaking of the debt and job: I don’t remember the precise details about the debt, but it was not such a bit deal from what I remember. I will have to start paying it back 3 years from now (3years after I end my studies - which is in June or July)

about the job: as of right now I don’t have a job cause on Sunday I’ll go to my family for a long time so nobody will not fire me haha

sometimes I play gigs with my girlfriend, we have a guitar flute duo, but of course we don’t make enough money to live from that, it’s almost impossible. In a year we made roughly 1000€ each, so you can imagine. When I’ll go back to the Netherlands end march I’ll look for a job that I will keep for a couple of months until I end my master. After that I’ll go to Italy and look for a stable one.