Solo Retreat - Satisfaction Meditation

[CARDOZZO]

Today is the last day of the retreat. I'll do 2pm-6pm.

[CARDOZZO]

The retreat is done. Lots of pain, suffering and learning.

The last day was amazing. 

[UnbornTao]

33 minutes ago, CARDOZZO said:

The retreat is done. Lots of pain, suffering and learning.

The last day was amazing. 

That's what I like to hear!  

[CARDOZZO]

10 minutes ago, UnbornTao said:

That's what I like to hear!  

😂😂

The retreat was about everything except satisfaction.

[UnbornTao]

24 minutes ago, CARDOZZO said:

😂😂

The retreat was about everything except satisfaction.

Good, good.

[CARDOZZO]

Writing the final report.

[CARDOZZO]

Report - Day 05 (Final Day)

I started the meditation retreat at 2:08 PM and ended at 6:21 PM. I divided the retreat between 1 hour of meditation and 5 minutes for bathroom breaks, writing insights, and stretching.

Process, Events, Insights:

1. I began the last day of the retreat thinking about the next challenges on my list to tackle.
2. I had an insight about making my personal and spiritual development related to hardcore challenges and experiments rather than just acquiring information and reading books.
3. I got distracted for a while listening to rap music in my head.
4. I returned to the focus of the meditation.
5. I had an insight about doing challenges and solving problems that I truly admire and care about. The reason for doing the challenges is about who you become after completing them, having gone through a tortuous process.
6. I had an insight regarding the importance of asceticism, suffering, and accepting the process. The first person that came to mind was David Goggins. I was able to understand experimentally why he does what he does every day.
7. This revealed another insight about David Goggins' mindset and how I perceived myself in the same process after 5 days of retreat. You start to develop an addiction to hardcore challenges, imagining what can be done, realizing how much you'll evolve if you complete them, and how much it will make you an uncommon, powerful, different human being.
8. Contemplation: When you look inside yourself, what do you assume exists? An inner voice? Emotions? Thoughts? An inner world? Is this true or invented to deal with other human beings?
9. I had an insight about possibly using only 3% of my potential as a human being. The retreat certainly raised my expectations and possibilities about what's achievable in my life from now on.
10. I realized how extremely violent and challenging the retreat had been.
11. I remembered Dr. Benjamin Hardy's book "10x Is Easier Than 2x: How World-Class Entrepreneurs Achieve More by Doing Less." The addiction to doing extremely hardcore challenges is possibly related to the amount of benefits gained after completing them.
12. After 5 minutes, I started feeling an absurd level of self-confidence, like a psychopath. I tried to stay still, but it was truly absurd energy.
13. 5-minute break.
14. I returned from the first break with an insight about the meditation retreat itself. The retreat was about everything but meditation. It trains you to do something extremely difficult, go through intense hardships, suffer, feel all possible emotions, and deal with that emotional rollercoaster.
15. I continued meditating, but feeling anxiety and excitement at the same time.
16. I lay down to rest a bit and continued the meditation process.
17. I realized that today was the easiest day of the retreat.
18. 5-minute break.
19. I returned from the break and started having visions related to the future of robotics, imagining various types of robots, functionalities, and how robotics will change humanity's future.
20. I returned to focusing on the meditation, feeling my whole body and breathing in a synchronized way.
21. I contemplated: What happens if I don't connect my concept of being ME with what occurs in my inner world? (Emotions, Thoughts, Sensations, Images)
22. I realized that if I don't connect my self-image/concept of being myself with my emotions, thoughts, and sensations, life STOPS being ABOUT ME.
23. After this insight, a new subjective experience emerged. When there is no I, who is going to think or feel something?
24. I realized I was existing just as a body without a conceptual I. This was one of the most insane experiences I've had.
25. After a few minutes, I continued intrigued with this possibility of being/being in the world.
26. In this experience of being just a body existing in space, nothing feels personal to you, nothing affects you. There is only calm, silence, and extreme tranquility.
27. Contemplation: Who is existing inside my body?
28. 5-minute break.
29. In the last hour of the retreat, I had the experience of how important it had been to do this.
30. The retreat taught me about consistency, persistence, dealing with chaotic processes, and accepting this emotional rollercoaster.
31. I had an insight about the creative process, doing challenges, or solving problems. The process will almost always be messy, non-linear, or chaotic no matter what you're doing CREATIVELY.
32. My mind started projecting noises in the room, and I thought someone was entering my house. But it was no one—just my mind trying to distract me.
33. I did a meditation counting from 100 down to 1.
34. I focused for a few more minutes, and the retreat ended.

(Translation made by AI - Portuguese to English)

Edited 20 hours ago by CARDOZZO

[UnbornTao]

@CARDOZZO Muito obrigado.

[CARDOZZO]

30 minutes ago, UnbornTao said:

@CARDOZZO Muito obrigado.

De nada, amigo! (thanks, friend)