Needing an answer to this for breakthrough

[5-D - L O V E]

Where do I even start with this ? 

To me this line of inquiry encompasses the most important questions in life, yet it feels to me that nobody cares about this, or rather nobody cares to address these things consciously, but I'm still willing to give this a chance, maybe I'll find somebody here who can present insight into these matters.

This is gonna be a long post, so please be patient with me.

 

First of all, I have always felt that everything in life stems from God, no amount of ego effort can will anything into life (whether it's an experience, an outcome... anything). Everything is a miracle, everything is grace, every door is opened by forces that are and will forever be beyond the ego's grasp, yet all of us pretend that it's an ego game, and we go on giving props and "rewards" based on that when it's not, I can summarize this point by saying that's everything is karma but I won't pretend that I know what that means.

I'm starting up with this point because I KNOW that there has always been some sort of glass ceiling I can't seem to breakthrough from that pertains to this, I'll try to explain; all my life I have been "denied things" or "denied myself things" because of a set of beliefs that I have inherited from my situation (family, culture, society, systemic issues, generational curses...)  I know the amounts and types of efforts I have done in this lifetime, most than anyone I personally know across almost all  dimensions (this may sound delusional by I don't care...) yet, it feels to me that everyone is ahead of me when it comes to almost everything, and this gets to me, A LOT.

I missed on most opportunities to have a "normal" upbringing, by that I mean that I missed on a lot of experimentation, play, emotional connection with other people... and that made me follow a path of truth from very early on, I felt like I had no choice when it comes to this, had I gone the more classical path of developing my ego before I go balls to the wall with spirituality (knowing the place I started from) it would've taken me decades to reach a stable enough of a point and burn enough karma and I recognized from the get go that it was just gonna end up making me miserable and full of regret, and that was not gonna capitalize my strengths, so I just bet everything on god... many years later I feel like I have been betrayed, or rather that I have betrayed myself from the get go (if that makes any sense) because I put myself on a life path that was WAY too heart breaking, TOO MUCH heartbreaking to even begin to describe, I still hold tremendous amounts of regret, apathy, resentment.. (you name it) towards me, towards everything and everyone and towards reality, I feel like I have missed on everything, I know now in retrospect that God granted me the kind of grace I needed but I was too wounded to take it (I'm not gonna go into details when it comes to that... I'll just leave it at that)

Now my situation doesn't make any sense anymore, I feel like I don't understand anything anymore, and I don't even think that understanding to the degree I'm looking for can ever be obtained, everything feels circular, outdated and the people who teach (anything) all seem to only emphasizes on generalities or big picture understanding, and everyone is missing the REAL insights...

 

My second point is that reality is ultimately a mirror, more than that, it is a meta-mirror, it mirrors one's deepest self concept in it's entirety (Intent, beliefs, habits, identity, systems...) this is the first degree of mirroring, the second degree is regarding the dimensions one places himself in, someone operating from a 6D or 7D can have a say in the rules of the game he plays contrary to someone operating form 3D or 4D...

Now, I know all these things on a deep level, yet I seem to have blockages on such a fundamental level that have to do with self love (which I can't seem to solve... and please don't bring psychology into this... shit goes way deeper than that), and those said blockages make me have a crooked/broken self-concept, so even if I put in all the work, I feel like I can't "ask" for the outcomes in a way that is fair, basically I never felt like I'm playing a fair game.

 

The next point has to do with asking for god to open doors for me, I feel like almost everyone else has more opportunities than I do, regarding everything, I know that by this point I may start to sound like a broken record, a cry  baby, and that I'm lost in victimhood mentality, which all maybe true to some extent from a certain POV (the one that gives the ego more agency than it really has...) but regardless, how does one breakthrough from something like this ? seriously ??

 

The very last point (of this post atleast because it's starting to get long) is why don't reality seem to work for me, why don't I seem to make any sort of progress regarding healing and love, I've taken the decision the forgive countless times yet the backlash always seem to have more force, no kind/amount of work seems to do it, I know this is not normal, sometimes I feel like I may never fully heal in this lifetime (well this is something I'm almost certain of) but even the alternatives seem cheezy, I know I'm gonna have to re-incarnate in a reality that portrays the opposite of the energies I've been dealing with this lifetime, I know a couple examples of people who have this life and you can call it fantasy, but I'm pretty sure that the only way for things to go full circle is for me to have the life of one of those two people, the only way for these two persons to exist I had to exist beforehand, it's the only explanation that makes complete sense.

 

A very last inquiry I would add is the following, this may seem as a judgment, but it stems more from curiosity, why is everyone including everyone on this forum so obssessed with their lives, is that self love ? is that LOVE ? I couldn't care less if my current existence got erased for me to pass on to something more fair.

Why don't people care about these things, matters of karma, cards dealt, fairness, reality clearly having insane kinds of disparity between singular existences, jealousy, overthinking... EVERYTHING really?

[Hojo]

The answer i see here is to sit in boredom. Theres something hiding behind it. Sit in a chair stare at a wall and say im bored im bored im bored. Something will open up.

I won't work cause you want something. Be bored with everything and doors will open. Take a piss this is boring. Walk around this is boring. See a hot woman she's boring. See a couple in love that shits boring. Your favorite song comes on its boring as fuck. People do stuff you want they are boring.

Your desires are boring. Any thought that comes to your mind is boring. Anything anyone says is boring.

Your wants and desires automatically won't come cause you desire them. Be bored of them and they will come.

Sadhguru - 'it dosent matter what I'm doing i always want something more.' The key to life is being bored.

The gods are bored.

Boredom without action is the ego killer. Without ego you get your desires.

Theres a reason people get so offended by someone who openly states they are bored.

Edited Monday at 10:27 PM by Hojo

[jimwell]

25 minutes ago, Hojo said:

Your wants and desires automatically won't come cause you desire them. Be bored of them and they will come.

Is this based on your experience or you just pulled this out of your ass?

@5-D - L O V E

I might provide an unusual and lengthy reply tomorrow if I find time and am in the mood.

[5-D - L O V E]

@jimwell Please do, I would love to know your opinion on this stuff

[Hojo]

@jimwell so within so without.

Sadhguru - 'don't get excited over ever little thing'

Rupert spira - 'boredom is like a black Screensaver to the screen'

Edited Monday at 11:13 PM by Hojo

[jimwell]

21 hours ago, 5-D - L O V E said:

@jimwell Please do, I would love to know your opinion on this stuff

Here's the delivery.

 

On 12/2/2025 at 4:35 AM, 5-D - L O V E said:

First of all, I have always felt that everything in life stems from God, no amount of ego effort can will anything into life (whether it's an experience, an outcome... anything). Everything is a miracle, everything is grace, every door is opened by forces that are and will forever be beyond the ego's grasp, yet all of us pretend that it's an ego game, and we go on giving props and "rewards" based on that when it's not, I can summarize this point by saying that's everything is karma but I won't pretend that I know what that means.

I remember you asking this forum a few years ago how to manipulate reality at a metaphysical or spiritual level for material success. I replied that it was not possible, and that the only way to manipulate reality is via Newtonian or material processes (such as typical self‑development or business).

My reply was erroneous in 2 ways: 1) Reality manipulation can, indeed, be accomplished via the Spiritual Substrate but I failed to acknowledge this. 2) I also foolishly imposed limits on your spiritual and material aspirations.

This is a good opportunity for me to correct that error. And as a gesture of apology, I’m investing time and energy in this response.   

 

On 12/2/2025 at 4:35 AM, 5-D - L O V E said:

The next point has to do with asking for god to open doors for me, I feel like almost everyone else has more opportunities than I do, regarding everything, I know that by this point I may start to sound like a broken record, a cry  baby, and that I'm lost in victimhood mentality, which all maybe true to some extent from a certain POV (the one that gives the ego more agency than it really has...) but regardless, how does one breakthrough from something like this ? seriously ??

When you find yourself in a desperate and hopeless situation, your best chance lies in applying the Law of Correspondence or Manifestation. Conventional strategies such as hard work, networking, learning new skills, or endlessly applying to salary slave jobs often provide little relief because they are too limited for truly hopeless situations or grand ambitions.

 

AS INSIDE, SO OUTSIDE - the Principle of Correspondence (the 2nd of the 7 Hermetic principles taught in The Kybalion)

This law is about correspondence, alignment, and fractals across every domain of the universe. What exists inside must fractal outside. Although the flow is bidirectional under the law of reversibility, the inside-to-outside direction is stronger because consciousness or mind is more fundamental than the universe, the Earth, and the vicinity.

Another good example is that if people around you consistently love and respect you, you tend to love and respect yourself. The reverse is also true: if you consistently love and respect yourself, those around you tend to love and respect you.

Mind must exist first; only then can the universe exist. You imagine the universe, the Earth, and the vicinity into existence. The law of wish fulfilled or the law of attraction sprouts from this principle of correspondence. This principle is magical because it goes beyond mindset or personality navigating the world. It goes as far as the universe orchestrating people, events, opportunities, and situations to correspond to the internal world.

 

Law of Correspondence Resources

 

 

Individuals Who Apply the Principle to Shape Reality

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Motivational Videos

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My Manifestation Experience

I started investigating and applying this principle around the middle of this year. In retrospect, I realize that I have embodied and practiced this principle for most of my life. There are too many related experiences to mention them all.

But the core reason I was able to marry a Japanese girl, migrate to Japan, and start an English school there was because I unconsciously implemented this principle. I can’t provide many details because it was a very long and complex process. But to give an idea, I started changing my energetic vibration: mindset, and thought and emotional patterns via self-hypnosis. After a few months of this work, I started to see the world differently and the world in turn, started to see and treat me differently and favorably. It’s crazy to think that I didn't connect this to the Principle of Correspondence despite the enormous positive change in my external reality.

Recently, my manifestation work enabled me to acquire in just a few months the things I could not obtain in many years. My home country experiences summer every day throughout the year. I feel discomfort from the heat if I wear boxer briefs that are not made of cool material such as polyester. I endured this discomfort because such boxer briefs did not exist in my home country. But after only 1 month of manifestation work, an advertisement from a foreign online marketplace appeared on my smartphone, offering me 6 free polyester boxer briefs (or something similar) if I purchased 3 items worth at least one thousand. I was surprised! Of course, I risked being scammed, but I seized the opportunity. The following week, the marketplace invited me to shop through their discount page, with offers as high as 70% off. So I did. I could hardly believe my eyes when I found a power bank with emergency light and portable fan features at a 60% discount. I had desired such a product for years but had given up hope of obtaining it, thinking it either did not exist or would be too expensive. I also desired a beautiful Android tablet capable of running TradingView for my trading endeavors, but I never pursued it seriously, believing it would be too costly. I thought "Why not invest the money into my trading capital instead?". But then the marketplace offered me a voucher worth thousands, which could be applied to the tablet I desired, reducing its price by 50%. Hence, I bought the red, beautiful tablet. Were these pure coincidences or mere luck? No, they were material manifestations.

 

My Health and Longevity System

I have also designed and implemented my Health and Longevity System. I accomplished all this in only 2 months; something I hadn't been able to for many years despite wanting to. This system includes a vegetarian diet but permits seafoods and eggs for health preservation, and matcha. I have reduced red meat consumption by 70%. At this point, I feel I could even go fully vegan. But I have chosen not to because I want to honor my body. Veganism is probably not the optimal diet.

My Health and Longevity System also includes a natural parasite-expulsion protocol. It excludes red meat and sugar (although not entirely because the body requires some sugar). And of course, signature affirmations, regular walks and runs, as well as push-ups and pull-ups, are integral components.

Before manifestation work, I always avoided designing such a system because of anxious thoughts: “Designing such system is too laborious and involves too much research. I don’t have the time and energy.”; “If I succeed in designing this system, I will make enormous changes to my diet. What if I damage my health?”, “It’s dumb to design that system now because I should focus on accumulating money first.”, “Would I even be able to implement this system even if I succeeded in designing it? Look how busy I am.”.

These fearful thoughts felt valid, so I honored them year after year until almost 10 years had passed. But after starting my manifestation work, these fears were overpowered by desire and determination. Desire and determination over fear and hesitation.

Designing my Health and Longevity System was not entirely my own doing. The universe collaborated with me. The YouTube channel I follow for its philosophical and spiritual videos suddenly uploaded a video about the importance of eliminating parasites in the gut. It was a surprising deviation from its usual content. This prompted me to research the risks of having parasites in the gut and how to eliminate them naturally.

 

 

I had difficulty finding natural ways to eliminate parasites despite my research because my AI suggested mostly pharmaceutical solutions. I was afraid of the possible side effects of ingesting such chemicals. But only a few days later, Sara Jane Ho, the Chinese girl I had subscribed to a few months earlier on YouTube uploaded a video about natural ways to eliminate parasites in the gut. I hadn’t followed her for her content. In fact, I didn’t even know what her content was. I had subscribed to her simply for her physical beauty. I just wanted to see a beautiful girl on YouTube.

I was astonished by all this synchronicity. I felt that the universe was responding and collaborating with me. Was this all mere coincidence or luck? No, it was because of my manifestation work.

 

My Life’s Signature

The most beautiful material manifestation of my manifestation work is that it enables me to design my Life’s Signature. I won’t provide details because it’s too personal and sacred. But it features the creation of my Highest Missions and Signature Affirmations. These embody my highest values and are unique to me; can’t be replicated by anybody else. The highest purposes of my human existence have become clear.

 

My Manifestation System

This is also too personal so I will not provide details. But it includes my Signature Affirmations, visualizations, breathwork, and a yoga‑meditation routine that I practice both after waking and before sleeping. I also perform the affirmations during my walks, runs, and even while showering.

 

My Recommendations:

1. Spend significant solitary time contemplating these questions: What are my highest values? What things can this world offer that are worth living and dying for?
2. Create your Signature Affirmations based on the answers to step 1. 3 to 6 affirmations are ideal.
3. Perform these affirmations day and night. Visualize or imagine them as you recite them and believe they will eventually manifest in your physical reality.
4. Support them with actions. Your thoughts and actions should consistently align with your affirmations.
5. When doubts arise, recognize that they are normal and unavoidable. Simply return to your manifestation work.
6. Sustain your manifestation work and faith even if it takes years. Remember that this is your best chance. If your manifestation work doesn’t help, nothing else will.

 

Bonus:

• Always remember that you and God are the same entity. The creative power that forms and shapes the universe is your core and essence. The only reason the world exists is that you exist.  
• Download the YouTube videos (and search for similar ones) mentioned in this post as MP3s. Listen to them every day until they are deeply embedded in your subconscious mind.