Beans & Joy’s Journal 🐯🌈

[Yimpa]

Cannot do silent meditation. My mind keeps yapping. Silence is the end of me. Is there a yapping meditation technique? Lemme invent that… 

I am simply observing and doing nothing while the mind runs its course. Not forcing silence onto the experience.

Edited 22 hours ago by Yimpa

[Yimpa]

This song perfectly demonstrates what being in a relationship with BPD is like:

 

[Yimpa]

badass

 

[Yimpa]

communicating with peeps who responds at a slower pace and small talk has been humbling. i am so used to quick dopamine hits, especially when using ai chatbots and being a slave to social media . i assume if they don’t respond right away they hate me. this is a mistake. meow, i am learning not to get my way all the time. putting me in my place.

[Yimpa]

someone was tailing me while i was driving, then overtook me and started speeding off. all while approaching a school zone. in the past i would have people pleased (car pleased?) and sped up, but i didn’t cave in. i didn’t lose my poise 

[Yimpa]

i dont brake the law. i find loopholes within the law to suit my survival agenda. 

[Yimpa]

SOOOO cute ^___^ 
 

 

[Yimpa]

things are not as simple as they seem…

 

[Yimpa]

Today I reconnected with my body after weeks of rest and healing. Injuries I suffered from a couple weeks ago was intense. The recovery especially brutal. But today, feeling ready to be active again, I tested that trust.  Gently and cautiously.
Fear came up. Insecurity. Of course it did. Fear of re-injury, fear of my own body betraying me again.

But I moved through it anyway. And my body and soul held me.

I’m learning to trust it again. Not blindly, but with presence. Not judging or jumping to conclusions when the intrusive reactions tell me I’m wrong. Instead, I listen to my higher wisdom, and trust the process with care and patience.

The fear was still there throughout the process, yet I was willing to reconnect with myself anyway. I am glad I did. Slow and steady is the way to go. Let’s keep going 

[Beans]

On 2/9/2026 at 0:43 AM, No1Here2c said:

@Yimpa glad you Love the song i shared, its definitely on my list of favorites.

Edit: I should have asked first if I can post in your journal. Apologies for my derelictions.

Anyone is welcomed in here 

as long as your kind and respectful. 
 

we hold space for everyone 

[Yimpa]

Let’s slow down and bask in the Love, which is You.

[Yimpa]

The truth is I quit threads cus a couple of dorks harassed and bullied me. I lost my poise! But then if I rejoin threads that is conformity! Doggone!

Edited 24 minutes ago by Yimpa

[Beans]

5 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

The truth is I quit threads cus a couple of dorks harassed and bullied me. I lost my poise! But then if I rejoin threads that is conformity! Doggone!

Be joy. 
 

not anyone else.

if it’s genuinely something you want to do then do it, but if not then don’t. 
 

 

[Yimpa]

@Beans You have such a high tolerance for hate it’s insanity. Respect 

[Beans]

I don’t have a high tolerance I just like talking shit back 

[Yimpa]