No Fap - No Games - No Shit, Save Time And Energy

[Time Traveler]

Thanks hengFa for well-considered advise !

I didn't write journal to make detailed report on my life's journey, so, to save time, I record the minimal amount of info needed for current task. Current task is try out effects of excluding some addictions from my life. 

Actually I write it for myself, but so that anyone can keep me accountable. I don't need understanding I need surveillance.

Paradoxically, I strive to keep promises made to other people much harder than those made to myself.

Hope that explains reading the "Name of the rose" all day long

[Time Traveler]

Day B1

Fap, Internet, Games - 0

Felt sad all day, but decisive to do the trial from beginning.

On the other side, felt urge to take a "day off"

 

[Time Traveler]

Day B2

Struggled with urge to visit pornsites. To divert attention visited news sites more than needed and also searched our forum.

[Time Traveler]

Day B3

Zero shit

[Time Traveler]

Day B4, B5,B6

Busy all day no time for shit.

Edited March 7, 2016 by Time Traveler

[Time Traveler]

Day B7 (Tuesday, March 8)

Busy all day no time for shit.

Looks like problem with addictions is too many free time

Edited March 10, 2016 by Time Traveler

[Time Traveler]

Day B8

Browsed internet bullshit too much.

Was tempted to watch sexy babes, but checked myself.

Tension is growing again, sexual scenes in dreams, etc.

[ZenBlue]

Good luck man. I tried this challenge once. My best record is 40 days.

 

Believe!

[Time Traveler]

Day B9

Bad day. Watched porn many times.  Stopped, then watched again.

Luckily, I didn't touched myself. Don't know how to release tension.

All nofap sites is full of talk about benefits, but I cannot find anything practical.

[Time Traveler]

Day B10

Still browsed inet and watched movies to divert attention from porn/fap. It was hard.

No porn/fap today.

[Time Traveler]

Day B11, 12

Still browsed inet and watched movies to divert attention from porn/fap.

No porn/fap today.

Edited March 13, 2016 by Time Traveler

[p a r a d i s e]

Hi Time Traveler, 

I've just read your thread from the beginning and I have to say that from just looking at the patter in motivation and confidence in not "giving in" to your addictions is somewhat similar to what I can imagine mine to be. I personally haven't tried this sort of challenge but am intrigued by it and will definitely give it a go at some stage. For now however, I have substituted some unhealthy foods and drinks for healthy alternatives. For example, instead of taking coffee to my lectures, I take a bottle of water with half a lemon sliced in and I shake it about before every sip so it goes cloudy and that gives me the same energy as a cup of coffee. 

 

I wish you all the best of luck on your challenge and I will be sticking around to make sure you are feeling good at all stages, even if it means failing at some parts. Don't beat yourself up about failing by the way, because no one that succeeds hasn't tasted failures beforehand. 

 

Take care Time Traveler

[Time Traveler]

Day B13, 14

Feeling depressed. Watched movies and slept long hours.

No porn/fap today.

[Evilwave Heddy]

RIP

No but seriously, how's it going now?  Have you thrown in the towel?

Edited March 19, 2016 by Evilwave Heddy

[Time Traveler]

Day B15 - B18 (March 19)

The news about my death have been greatly exaggerated.

Was very busy these days. No fap no games, but I've returned to frequent news browsing to take some minutes off from work.

I know that in these cases it's much better to do something physical or just meditate for few minutes, but browsing news is easier.

Need to work on that.

So far only hard deliberate work on something meaningful can divert me from sexual stimulation, I just put more pressure to work and sexual tension goes away. But if I give me some rest then it's next to impossible divert from sexual tension.

Does it means that I need to become workaholic to cure porn addiction ?

Edited March 19, 2016 by Time Traveler

[Falk]

@Time Traveler 

Addicted to games and porn? i can relate , i´ve been there.

What does games and porn have in common? How do you acces them? With your PC/Laptop!

So: Put the Laptop away in a different room or just unplug the PC-monitor as default setting and ONLY!! plug it in when you need to do something important / also unplug the inet-cable or switch of the rooter as default setup.

You will get withdrawl symptoms but you will have amazing free energy to finaly start to get you life going! 

 

[Time Traveler]

Days B19 - B28 (March 29)

I was very busy these days with project which I must do quickly, but to do this I need to learn massive amounts of knowledge. 

All my energy goes into this and nothing is left for fapping. I'm not even interested in watching porn or playing games at the moment.

But in the moments when my head feels like it will explode from new knowledge I need some way to change focus. When it is daylight time I go out and do something in my house or garden, but in the night I just read news on internet. I think that meditation would be correct way but somehow I automatically switch to news reading.

[Time Traveler]

Lost again in day B29-30  (March 31)

Fuck !

I don't know how it happened but I just started to watch porn. It was almost on autopilot, some random image ... I remember, I watched Pinterest, how to draw humans, there was drawings of sexy woman, I think this was the moment the battle was lost, then I watched porn for almost 2 days, turning it off and on and telling myself to stop, but I cannot stop watching until I fapped. 

Now I am depressed and don't know what to do.

 

Iļl take a pause and think it over.

[Sri McDonald Trump Maharaj]

5 hours ago, Time Traveler said:

Lost again in day B29-30  (March 31)

Fuck !

I don't know how it happened but I just started to watch porn. It was almost on autopilot, some random image ... I remember, I watched Pinterest, how to draw humans, there was drawings of sexy woman, I think this was the moment the battle was lost, then I watched porn for almost 2 days, turning it off and on and telling myself to stop, but I cannot stop watching until I fapped. 

Now I am depressed and don't know what to do.

 

Iļl take a pause and think it over.

Just relapsed after about 4 days. It's okay to fail, find out why it happened and start over again. You can do it!!!

[Time Traveler]

Summary after challenge

No games - easy accomplished 100%.

One of my biggest time parasites eliminated. 

No silly internet browsing - accomplished 50%.

I will continue to work on this after challenge.

No fap, no porn - not for me.

It is like water rising every day in spring and then the flood goes off, I cannot stop it. And, frankly, I even don't see why I should. If some day I will learn how to transform sexual energy to something more valuable , then I'll return to this issue.

Conclusion

Definitely it was useful experience. 

Accountability helps to keep to plan - I doubt if I could have been able to abandon gaming so easy without journal.

Edited April 2, 2016 by Time Traveler