New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: change the structure and the habits will follow ~ 4.17.26

This habits things has a structural flaw in it. I am trying to build habits and Disciplines in order to accomplish certain goals in life. But it's not changing the behaviors that are going to create the success that I want, I have to change the structure of the system that is my life. The structure has to change, not the content. There is a massive difference between those two things which you are going to have to unwire. 

And look at that... Now we're on a new page, perfect. 

It's not necessarily about changing your behaviors in order to create something new in your life, it's about changing the underlying structure of your life, which will create the need for certain behaviors and habits and disciplines. The underlying structure is the vision that you have for your life. Create the vision and the habits and disciplines will follow. 

Edited 21 hours ago by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

What is the current underlying structure in terms of my mind and where do I want to take this structure?

As of right now I allow my mind to control the show, it has full control over my Spirit. 

Now, what do you want? 

I want to understand the world at a metaphysical level, beyond the material. This is my ultimate goal in life. Now, how do I get there? Right now, I have no direct experience of reality at a metaphysical level, none whatsoever.. I have some beliefs and concepts that relate to it, but I do not have any DIRECT experience of this situation. I have had short windows, mostly while on psychedelics when I am able to access a mind-state that is other worldly, but the problem is I am so bombarded by thoughts that I cannot experience the state for what it truly is. 

And what have you experienced?

I've experienced what it feels like to have no identity, to have nothing to grasp onto. I understand what it feels like to be a floating ball of consciousness, to live in a world without labels, and it is .... TERRIFYING. To lose yourself, to lose what keeps you sane and grounded and stable and supported is one of the scariest feelings that a human being can experience.

Why is it scary?

Because losing my identity is the equivalent to death. If I lose myself then I will die. This is the conundrum that we find ourselves in when it comes to spirituality. Every one of us is searching for myself that in the end will kill us, we have to let go and surrender everything that we hold near and dear to our hearts. 

Edited 15 minutes ago by Spiritual Warrior