New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: change the structure and the habits will follow ~ 4.17.26

This habits things has a structural flaw in it. I am trying to build habits and Disciplines in order to accomplish certain goals in life. But it's not changing the behaviors that are going to create the success that I want, I have to change the structure of the system that is my life. The structure has to change, not the content. There is a massive difference between those two things which you are going to have to unwire. 

And look at that... Now we're on a new page, perfect. 

It's not necessarily about changing your behaviors in order to create something new in your life, it's about changing the underlying structure of your life, which will create the need for certain behaviors and habits and disciplines. The underlying structure is the vision that you have for your life. Create the vision and the habits and disciplines will follow. 

Edited yesterday at 08:38 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

What is the current underlying structure in terms of my mind and where do I want to take this structure?

As of right now I allow my mind to control the show, it has full control over my Spirit. 

Now, what do you want? 

I want to understand the world at a metaphysical level, beyond the material. This is my ultimate goal in life. Now, how do I get there? Right now, I have no direct experience of reality at a metaphysical level, none whatsoever.. I have some beliefs and concepts that relate to it, but I do not have any DIRECT experience of this situation. I have had short windows, mostly while on psychedelics when I am able to access a mind-state that is other worldly, but the problem is I am so bombarded by thoughts that I cannot experience the state for what it truly is. 

And what have you experienced?

I've experienced what it feels like to have no identity, to have nothing to grasp onto. I understand what it feels like to be a floating ball of consciousness, to live in a world without labels, and it is .... TERRIFYING. To lose yourself, to lose what keeps you sane and grounded and stable and supported is one of the scariest feelings that a human being can experience.

Why is it scary?

Because losing my identity is the equivalent to death. If I lose myself then I will die. This is the conundrum that we find ourselves in when it comes to spirituality. Every one of us is searching for myself that in the end will kill us, we have to let go and surrender everything that we hold near and dear to our hearts. 

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The Masculine comes from the Heart

I had a couple of cool insights about masculinity on my shrooms trip last weekend. Firstly, be who you are. No one cares about this made up version of yourself. Be secure with yourself. Don't feel like you need to subjugate yourself to ANYBODY... quite precisely because you are that somebody, therefore you don't need their approval or acceptance... you craving their acceptance is in essence craving your own acceptance of yourself, so focus on that first and foremost, love yourself for who you are.. for what you've done... for what you've accomplished. Love your being and it will shine outwards... you will have so much more room to make a positive and loving impact on the world. 

Sometimes I go through it, I don't know what to do, I'm confused, I need assistance, I'm sad, I'm annoyed, I'm not happy about this or that, but at the end of my life, I will die.. and I will meet my Maker, and I will tell him that I did the best I could with this life.. And thank you for allowing me to live it. I am eternally grateful. Ben is eternally grateful for this opportunity. 

Every man, as he climbs up the ranks in life will have more and more people depending upon him. A woman needs support to birth a child. The man's job is to be that support person, to be strong for her, to be stable and grounded, to love her being, to love her to the bones. He will also be a father, he has the same role there, he must be strong and emotionally stable yet loving. 

Edited 3 hours ago by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I would like to do something new, I am going to simplify my list of habits, its too much right now for me record all of this shit. What am I going to keep? 

Brush teeth, meditate, make bed, wake up at 7:30 am, working out, eating the right amount of calories, brushing teeth and washing face at night, no smoking weed... and no drinking alcohol. Can we do that? Yes, we can.

Wake up at 7:30 am:

Make bed:

Brush teeth:

Floss:

Meditate:

No alcohol:

No smoking weed:

No electronics past 11 pm:

No alcohol:

No porn: