New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #114

2.23.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 3

Journal: 113

Brush teeth streak: 113

Floss streak: 6

Shower streak: 87

Meditation streak: 1

Approaching women visualization: 1

Abundance of sex affirmation: 1

Funniness affirmation: 0

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 0

Free talk exercise: 0

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 1

Wash face streak: 1

No electronics before bed: 1

 

"Whole day" goals:

No ejaculation streak: 21

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1

No alcohol streak: 115

No smoking weed streak: 70

 

Total number of women cold approached: 4

Edited Tuesday at 03:16 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #115

2.24.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 4

Journal: 114

Brush teeth streak: 114

Floss streak: 7

Shower streak: 88

Meditation streak: 2

Approaching women visualization: 2

Abundance of sex affirmation: 2

Funniness affirmation: 1

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 1

Free talk exercise: 1

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 2

Wash face streak: 2

No electronics before bed: 2

 

"Whole day" goals:

No ejaculation streak: 22

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2

No alcohol streak: 116

No smoking weed streak: 71

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

 

 

 

Edited Wednesday at 11:26 AM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #116

I have been doing really well recently, I've been consistent, I understand my vision, I have a girl that I'm dating, I am actively approaching women and hitting on them, things are really clicking. The funny thing is the better that I am doing, the less likely I am to include a personal journal on this thread. I usually come on here to vent about things when something is going awry. But when theres nothing to vent about, nothing gets written. 

There is one thing though: there is a girl (not the girl I'm dating) that I cannot get out of my head. She is crazy but at the same time intoxicating. She is one of the funniest women I've ever met, she is an impressive dancer, and is super creative. Overall, she has this intoxicating feminine energy that I cannot get enough of. On the downside, her emotional states fluctuate like crazy, she can be depressed one day and then act like a giddy school girl the next. She has a lot of emotional mastery work that she must get done before becoming someone that is capable of being a stable girlfriend.

I would characterize my dating life with the song listed below. The line "You do make me hard, but she makes me weak" is absolutely perfect. The girl that I am dating does make me hard, but this other girl makes me weak in the knees. This other girl will end up being my mistake.. 

I do see a future with her, or at least I want a future with her. I want to provide her with the masculine energy that she needs in order for her true feminine self to flourish. That is my role as her dance partner, but I want to make this my role in every day life. Will this actually come into fruition... only God knows. 

The cool thing about all of this is I know that this is a long term vision. I am going to continue to see this girl on a weekly basis. In the meantime, I am going to continue to date other people and develop myself into the perfect "provider guy" for my future wife. If I don't end up with her, I will end up with someone that is an even better fit for me. 

 

2.25.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 5

Journal: 115

Brush teeth streak: 115

Floss streak: 8

Shower streak: 89

Meditation streak: 3

Approaching women visualization: 3

Abundance of sex affirmation: 3

Funniness affirmation: 2

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 2

Free talk exercise: 2

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 3

Wash face streak: 3

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No ejaculation streak: 23

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3

No alcohol streak: 117

No smoking weed streak: 72

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

Edited Thursday at 08:33 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: What do I want? 2/26/26

I want a highly conscious girlfriend that I can have fun with 

I want to get really good at sex, never ejaculating and lasting for hours

I want to be a world champion dancer, very masculine and expressive on the dance floor

I want to express my attraction towards a female in a confident, fun, expressive, direct and respectful way 

I want to teach 30 lessons a week

I want to be full gold certified in dancing

I want to have lots of sex

I want to master my emotions, being able to regulate and handle difficult situations with calm and grace

I want to be in a constant no - thought state, completely surrendering to the present moment at all times 

I want to be a supremely attractive man not just in looks but in the way that I carry myself 

I want to be able to let go of attachments with ease

I want to view the world and handle situations with a pure detachment and dispassion 

I want to be able to have very honest and direct communications with women 

I want to be able to tell a woman that I have feelings for her 

I want to be emotionally mature and be direct in my confrontations 

I want to take every situation that I experience as a learning process, one that is going to push me to grow 

I want to make lots of money doing what I love

I want to host parties in the summer at my house with a pool and outdoor bar, surrounded by all the people that I love

I want to go on incredible adventures with my awesome girlfriend 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #117

2.26.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 0

Journal: 116

Brush teeth streak: 116

Floss streak: 0

Shower streak: 90

Meditation streak: 4

Approaching women visualization: 0

Abundance of sex affirmation: 0

Funniness affirmation: 3

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 3

Free talk exercise: 3

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 4

Wash face streak: 4

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No ejaculation streak: 24

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0

No alcohol streak: 118

No smoking weed streak: 73

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

 

 

 

Edited Friday at 12:35 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: I will never be depressed 

I just watched a video of Connor McGregor saying that he is fighting with depression every day. This is a man that is one of the most widely known and most famous UFC fighters ever to step foot in the octagon. He has more money than he needs, has an amazing wife, and is a master in his field. 

Now why is he depressed in his years of retirement? Because he never transcended out of stage orange in the spiral dynamics ladder. He wants to continue to produce at a high level and kick people's asses but he is out of his prime, his body will not allow him to compete in that way anymore. 

The cool thing about myself is I know for a fact that I will never be depressed by life because I understand the trajectory of things based on my understanding of spiral dynamics as well as Ramaji's level of consciousness map. So sometimes I question why I spent so much time in my early 20s reading about spirituality when I should have been chasing girls and developing a career, but it is this foundational knowledge that has given me such an eagle's eye scope of reality. 

This understanding allows me to not be bothered by tiny things in day to day life because my life has an overarching trajectory and my overall goal is to just let go and enjoy the ride. And this is not some wishful thinking bullshit, this is me touching the spiritual side of life, the letting go side of life, the surrendering to the cosmos side of life. 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #118

I had an interesting morning yesterday. I finally admitted to my dance partner that I have feelings for her, but the way that I framed it (in order to protect myself) was that it is not ideal because she used to date my friend and I would ideally like a dance partner that I am not romantic with. I told her that I feel bad for having the feelings towards her because of my friend but at the same time I can't control how I feel. She said she appreciated me telling her that and that she still has feelings for her ex,  who is my friend. So basically she does not see me like that and it is partially because she still has feelings for her ex. 

I am very proud of myself for finally having the difficult conversation with her. Now, where do I go from here? Right now I am feeling very vulnerable and hurt, as if I just opened up a wound and now it is susceptible to infection and salt being thrown into it. At the same time I do feel free, as if a huge weight has been lifted off of my chest. I can now hit on any woman that I want without having to give her a second thought. For a while I didn't want to hit on others "out of respect" for her which was rather silly in hindsight, but I guess I was being empathetic in a way. 

I will bring up memories that I have with this girl that are very memorable to me and she barely even remembers them. This honestly says a lot. I kind of hate this girl right now, I also think that she doesn't deserve me liking her, she is all over the place, she's not really that caring, yeah I fuckin' hate her right now... Why do I have to like her... she didn't deserve to have her ego built up. When all of this went down, thats how it felt, it felt like I was building her ego up while tearing my own ego down. But at the same time, this vulnerability is what it takes in the dating world and you're going to have to get used to it so it is a good growth experience.

So yeah I'll probably hate her for a little while even though she doesn't deserve it. My ultimate goal however is to deal with this with "dispassion" and "detachment" in which my emotions are not swayed either way, I am centered and grounded. But in reality, I do feel jaded after this incident and I wish I didn't give her the fulfillment of having someone like her. I gave her the satisfaction of knowing that someone finds her attractive and is interested in exploring the romantic side of things, this must have stroked her ego. It just kind of pisses me off that I did that for her while my ego takes a hit because she doesn't feel the same way about me. 

I'm so sick of all of these fuckin' girls in the studio that I dance with. Maybe I need new dance partners. They're so fuckin' annoying because I always end up liking them, but I keep getting rejected. Its such bullshit. I don't want to dance with any of them anymore. I want to be done with it. At the same time, it is great having a competitive partner and its great having someone to work on "certification" with so I am either going to have to find a way to deal with this emotionally or maybe I could have a guy as a "certification" partner from now on. But of course, I have learned that in general, avoidance is not the answer so you should probably just stick to what you are doing. 

It takes a certain type of girl for me to get attracted. Unfortunately the types of girls that I am attracted to are my two dance partners. I've had other dance partners before in which I wasn't attracted to them, that was much easier because there wasn't an underlying "I want to fuck you" within our interactions. This is the problem, because I will become frustrated that I am not fucking them and I feel unwanted and undesired because they don't want to fuck me. 

Side note: Foxtrot Explosion move is left foot forward, right foot forward, then left foot forward, then right foot back, then you get into the the "run around" part - such a cool move! 

Another thing that I am realizing is that I am far too selfish. I thought that I was more conscious than I actually am, but in reality I am a big old hypocrite that only cares about himself and that can't even meditate every day for one week. 

This is going to be a transition period for me as I continue to navigate the dating field. I would also really like to start getting back into spirituality as I have been learning that I want to fulfill my duties in the LOC 400s area in which I start to use my mind to catapult myself into material success. This requires my mind to be clear and focused on my goals. It requires discipline and execution. By the end of that journey, I will be ready and willing to transcend into the LOCS 500 and beyond. I also want to start taking The Book of Not Knowing more seriously as I love learning more about Truth work. 

Also, continue to work on emotional mastery while you're at work and your dealings with dance partners and women that you are dating. In terms of dating, you are now approaching girls occasionally, you have one woman that you're talking to, and another girl messaged you on IG saying that she wants to hang out in a group setting. That honestly sounds great, but do I want to put the effort in and set that up? Not sure. I want to be talking to at least 5 different girls at once. That is truly what I want. I want to have such an abundance of women at my fingertips that I am completely numb to losing any one girl. I can see that this M.O. is going to get old real quick, but I believe that I have to go through a stage like that in order to practice and understand what it takes to seduce women. That is the skill that I am currently lacking.

I have heard that the more women that you sleep with, the more desensitized you become to the romantic side of things. This is an unfortunate truth of the dating field. Right now, I love the romantic side of life, being in that honeymoon phase with a girl that you feel you're destined to be with in this moment is such an amazing feeling. However, I look forward to turning into "Darth Vader" in which I am going to fuck a bunch of girls. I am partially doing this because I'm mad at all the women that have hurt me. I am, I'm really mad at them. Just like many women are probably really mad at all of the men that have hurt them, its the same shit. 

 

2.27.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 0

Journal: 117

Brush teeth streak: 117

Floss streak: 0

Shower streak: 91

Meditation streak: 0

Approaching women visualization: 0

Abundance of sex affirmation: 0

Funniness affirmation: 4

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 4

Free talk exercise: 4

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 0

Wash face streak: 0

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No ejaculation streak: 25

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1

No alcohol streak: 119

No smoking weed streak: 74

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

 

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #119

2.28.26

Morning Routine:

Make bed: 0

Journal: 118

Brush teeth streak: 118

Floss streak: 0

Shower streak: 92

Meditation streak: 0

Approaching women visualization: 0

Abundance of sex affirmation: 0

Funniness affirmation: 0

Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 0

Free talk exercise: 0

 

Night time routine goals:

Brush teeth streak: 0

Wash face streak: 0

No electronics before bed: 0

 

"Whole day" goals:

No ejaculation streak: 26

Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0

No alcohol streak: 120

No smoking weed streak: 0

 

Total number of women cold approached: 5

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: Move on

Beginnings always hide themselves in ends. 

Truthfully, I've been feeling very sluggish recently and I have no one to hang out with on the weekends. This is sad to me as I used to have a girlfriend that I could always kick it with. I need new friends to go out with, I need a new life. I am sick of the life that I've been living. But what do I want? I want to be disciplined and meditate every day. I want to be clear headed. I want to be able to approach any woman out there in the wild and call her beautiful. I want to keep going down this path of self mastery and self discovery, no breaks, no more getting off. Continue to push yourself out of your comfort zone, even when you don't want to, especially when you don't want to. We are all rooting for you. Attract anything and everything that you want into your life. Only you have the power to do this. 

 

 

I am going to become a famous and very important figure within the dance community. I am going to inspire others, old and young to maximize their full potential and to be fully creative and expressive and hard working in their endeavors. Never settle. Always continue down your path until you reach the end. I am the greatest thing to happen to this studio. I teach 30 lessons a week. I win every dance competition that I enter. I have an amazing girlfriend that loves and takes care of me. I have a magnetic masculine presence that women cannot get enough of. I am also humble and quiet when I need to be. I am amazing at sex, able to last for hours without cumming while my girl cums over and over and over again. 

I have a nice house that is totally paid off. I make millions of dollars doing the one thing that I love, dancing. I am an emotioanlly mature person that does not get effected easily by the opinions of others. I am emotionally sound and grounded, able to handle life's challenges with calm and ease. I read lots of books in my spare time, creating a wealth of knowledge within my brain. I am disciplined, when I say I'm going to wake up at a certain time, you can be dammned sure I'm waking up at that time. I am the man who knocks. I am the guy that your attention should be on. I command attention. I dominate situations when I need to. 

At the same time, I am capable of completely shutting off my brain. I am organized and ready for war when I am called upon. My car is clean and I am ready for anything.

Edited 10 hours ago by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: I am not a lyricist, I am just a bastard child, here to experiment

 

I want to start taking my life more seriously mainly on the spiritual front. I am all set up to be a successful dancer and dance instructor. All of that will fall into place, as well as my intimate relationship, this all has its place and I can let go and coast off of the foundation that I have built. 

Where I need a conscious push is in my spiritual pursuit. I am not taking this seriously and I am in a place in which I have so much damn potential. I understand what it means to be enlightened on a conceptual level, which is a rare thing. I understand that a human being increases his level of consciousness in stages. I understand that it is going to take an experimental shift towards the Truth. I can also feel that something is off in my life right now, I see that everything that I am doing is shallow, it lacks meaning. 

More important to this I might add is how on earth do you know what to pursue when you don't know what the Truth about reality entails? You have it ass backwards.. you are right now pursuing things without knowing how everything works. But how could I understanding everything, is that even possible? 

I don't know but I'm willing to put in the work to find out. 

Edited 5 hours ago by Spiritual Warrior