New Chapter in My Life: Habits and Disciplines

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #52

Okay, I am going to attempt to redo my post from yesterday as I think it will be constructive to recap it. The first thing I did was overhaul the habit tracker. So heres the thing, I started this journal with a lot of grinding and brute forcing my way into completing tasks. Now, this worked for a while and it was a great way to start things off, however, I've been reading lots of books about "letting go" such as Ask and It Is Given, The Sedona Method, and The Field of Love and I am starting to realize that life is only a grind if you make it a grind. You can in fact work hard in a totally peaceful state without any clenching and grinding involved whatsoever. And this is the much more spiritual way to live and it leads to a happier life. So let go, you are not in control anyways, the Universe has a plan for you that is unfolding. 

Next, I'd like to write down my top 3 goals in life, these should be ones that I simply cannot live without, do this quickly as these should be intuitive answers:

1. Reach LOC 1,000
2. Write books about Truth and Enlightenment
3. Win dance competitions

 

Here are some extra goals, but they are less important than the ones listed above:

• Have a highly conscious girlfriend / wife
• Express my attraction towards women in an authentic and direct way
• Have a cute house with a man cave in the basement, a pool, outdoor bar
• Create a self - help YouTube channel talking about masculinity and following my career as a dancer and how to hit on girls (I really want to inspire young men to express their attraction towards women in a confident and direct way) 
• Have an absolutely shredded physique (chiseled chest, 6 pack abs, broad shoulders, massive back, trunks for thighs, bulging forearms and biceps, defined calves, and a muscular butt)
• Access a no - thought state, in which I am flowing without using my mind
• Read every book on Leo's book list
• Help grow my students in LOC
• Make 6 figures off of just dancing

 

Interlude: Contemplating how to make a positive impact on other men

Next, I want to explain a story that happened a couple of weeks ago that I would like to contemplate:

I walk into a salsa club and there is a girl that I know there and she is with a man. I walk up to them and the girl's attention immediately reverts to me. She is attentive and laughing at me without giving him the light of day. We flirt with each other for the rest of the night as the other guy has to sit back and watch. Now, it is my true desire to yes get good at attracting women, which I am practicing in this situation, but I would also like to have a positive impact on this young man that was talking to her. Lets take a look at what happened from his perspective so that I can better understand his situation. This will be in 1st perspective from his perspective. Ready, go:

I think to myself "wow, this cute girl is giving me attention, this is awesome! Maybe I'll even get laid tonight." But then, a charismatic guy walks up to her and starts talking. He's barely even paying attention to her, yet her eyes are all over him, and she is laughing at everything he says. Whats so special about this guy anyways! And why doesn't anybody love me for me! Maybe when we start dancing, I can win her back. The night goes on and she continues to be all over this man, what a dick! Fuck that guy! He's not even that good looking! He tells me he doesn't drink, what pompous prick! He says that its because "He values being clear headed and alcohol doesn't help with that." Ughhhhhh this guy sucks, how about you live a little! I watch them leave together and I get in my car. Now I am thinking thoughts like "Why doesn't anyone love me, why doesn't anyone desire me, what's wrong with me? I'll never be loved again." 

Now, the reason I can explain this man's mindset with such conviction is because I USED TO BE HIM. I was frustrated with my lack of success with women for YEARS and YEARS and YEARS. It was EXTREMELY painful. And this allows me to have GENUINE and DEEP empathy for these men. And I want to help you because you deserve to be LOVED. You deserve to have all of the sex that you desire, and for that matter, all of the money and happiness and wellbeing that you desire. 

The problem with this guy is he was sooooooo low energy, there wasn't an ounce of fun and expressiveness to him. The reality is that if he is going to attract a girl of this quality, he has to work on his social skills and expressing himself in an authentic manner. So get out of your head and do some things that are going to challenge you, you don't even have to hit on women at first, just do difficult shit, do shit that scares you, and I promise you will get used to curving into the scary situations and you'll realize that they're really not that bad. So take every opportunity to push yourself out of your comfort zone and I assure you that this will lead you to all of your desires being met. Good luck to you. I love you. 

 

Now, I would like to explain my thought process when it comes to changing the habit track, lets take a look, shall we....

12.22.25

Morning routine goals:

• Wake up at 7:30 am I decided that I am going to take out "wake up at 7:30 am" because I started it to develop discipline within myself, which definitely had a positive impact on me. Heres the thing though, waking up at a certain time doesn't have a positive impact on my life in it of itself, and it was causing me a great deal of stress waking up every day at that time. The more efficent and wise thing to do is to wake up at whatever time that allows me to fit in the habits that I REALLY prioritize. 
• Brush teeth streak: 54 KEEP
• Floss streak: 3 KEEP
• Shower streak: 25 KEEP
• Meditation streak: 0 KEEP - this is probably the most important one when you look at the goals that you have for your life and should be done as soon as possible
• Funniness free talk exercise: 3 I have decided to take out "I see funniness everywhere" as I believe I've exhausted this one, meaning this thought pattern has been instilled within me, I don't need to beat myself over the head with it anymore. I am definitely going to keep the free talk exercise, in which I talk with absolutely no filter for 10 minutes. The other affirmation was "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" - I am leaning towards getting rid of this one too, but I will keep it around for a little while longer
• Sexual abundance affirmation: 3 This one is EXTREMELY important to me as it is probably one of my authentic desires, to have an abundance of sex in this lifetime, its just something that I NEED to experience and I just haven't yet, and after about a month of using this one, I have felt the shift in my psyche and outside reality and I am very excited as to where this will lead

Night time routine goals:

• Brush teeth streak: 5 KEEP
• Wash face streak: 5 KEEP
• No electronics before bed streak: 1 KEEP

 

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 3 KEEP - theres no need for porn, especially since this was an addiction, let this go
• No ejaculation streak: 3 KEEP for now, I may transcend this but there is noticeably more energy within my body when I go long periods of semen retention, which helps with my goals
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3 KEEP - you have to do this
• No alcohol streak: 52 KEEP
• No smoking weed streak: 8 KEEP

 

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 This whole thing is new, so I have done a great job of doing push ups and pull ups every day, probably doing between 80-90% of days since I started. However, I want to get BIG and I feel like just doing push ups and pull ups is not going to help with that, also I have twigs for legs and I really want trunks so I decided that I am going to go to the gym every morning before I go into work and get these exercises done. If I miss it in the morning, which hopefully I wont, then I will go in at night
• Monday: chest 
• Tuesday: legs
• Wednesday: push ups and pull ups
• Thursday: legs
• Friday: back 

Edited Wednesday at 01:18 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #53

I know I've got to start my day soon, but I'd just like to take some time to say that I am TRULY happy right now. I came home from work yesterday, I had just received a Christmas gift from one of my long time students in which she wrote a "Performance Review" for me as an instructor and the amount of work that she put into this gift made me feel sooooo grateful. Of course the review was a joke and the things that she put into it were firstly hilarious and secondly, spot on, calling me out for forgetting choreography and saying "Wait, thats not it" often... She also wrote me a heartfelt card where she wrote down her favorite memories from the past year... It was just the cutest, most thoughtful gift a guy could have received... I am so grateful for the life that God has allowed me to create for myself. And guess what.... I've worked my ass off to get here, truly, I have. And now, I am reaping the benefits, in a sense I am coasting off of my hard work, it feels REALLY REALLY good.

I am not sure if I am making the right decision to cut out push ups and pull ups from my daily habit. Then again, if I get to the gym and do my workouts, there you have it, those are you muscle building exercises, you really haven't given that a shot yet... And you are seeing the growth. Yeah, I mean you're right, the new plan is to wake up, shower, MEDITATE, eat breakfast and journal, pack your lunch, then head to the gym, get in the sauna, shower there again, and then start your day... Now, firstly I honestly want to do this every single fuckin' day, even on days like this where I don't have any real obligations. 

How long will a routine like this take? Okay, so showering and grooming takes 30 minutes, meditating takes 30 minutes, eating breakfast AND journaling takes 30 minutes, packing a lunch lets say takes 30 minutes, then I would leave for the gym. So that means the full routine at home will take 2 hours. So If I wake up at 7:30 am, I would be able to leave for the gym by 9:30 am, get to the gym at 10 am, work out for what... I'm not sure honestly, lets say 30 minutes for now, then hit the sauna for 15, then shower and groom for 15.. By then, I'll be out of the gym by 11 am, then I could head to the studio to start working on my craft and stay until I get out at 10pm. 

Now, is this feasible?

Kind of, so on Mondays it definitely is, everything is perfect for a Monday. On Tuesday, I usually have a coaching at 11 am, which means I'd have to leave the gym by 10: 30 am, which is fine, that just means I have to wake up at 7:00 am instead of 7:30. Then on Wednesday, I have a dance training at 10:00 am, which means that I'd have to leave the gym by 9:30... which means I'd have to wake up at 6:00 am, which again is fine I guess, although I have been doing dance practices on Tuesday night after work which can go until midnight or later... not sure about that one... but I can at least try it, its very important for me to work out in the morning and then hit the sauna... I love this idea.. But I could always take out Wednesday mornings to accomodate for a healthier dose of sleep. I'm also not sure if 30 minutes is enough time for a good workout, but I think its a good start, just go REALLY hard for those 30 minutes. 

Next, on Thursday, I don't have dance practice until 12 pm so that means that I can sleep in until 8 am. YIPEEEE! It'd be nice if I went out on Thursday night to social dance in order to 1. practice being social and 2. practice my craft. Next, on Friday, I always head to my moms for 10 am to do some work for her (I am working for her in oder to pay back a debt that I owe her.) If I were to get to her house by 10, I'd have to leave the gym by 9:30 am, which means I'd have to wake up at 6 am.  I guess thats fine... Then I'd head to work and I would love to go out again on Friday night to practice my craft and socialize with some people. 

Now, lets crack into the weekends. So I'm still figuring out how I want to spend my weekends. Firstly, its really nice to decompress from a long week and just take some time to myself.. that is all great stuff... but firstly, lets ask ourselves, which habits do I REALLY want to keep... on the weekends, and the answer is EVERY SINGLE one of them, except going to the gym, I will allow myself to take the weekends off from the gym. This means that I will wake up at I'm not sure what time yet. But I wake up, get in the shower, do my meditation, journal and eat breakfast and from there... well we haven't decided what we are going to do yet. At first, I was thinking that I'd head to the city every single Saturday and hit on some women... I have since allowed myself a brief hiatus from this activity. The Universe knows my authentic desire to express my authentic attraction for woman and my desire to help other men do the same. I am going to "let go" of this for now and see what turns up, the path that I have to take to fulfill on this desire will be revealed to me in due time.. 

Now, on the weekends I honestly really want to read like all day and take notes on my computer, just do personal development, maybe occasionally I'll hit up a friend or friends and see if they want to go on a hike or grab a bite. The other thing I could do is schedule dance practice with my dance partner, that is not a bad idea... there is also a new girl at our studio, I would love to practice with her on the weekends... All of these are great ideas. Also, now that I think about it, I think I want to go to the gym on the weekends too because 1. It will get me out of the house and 2. I just love going there, the workout, the sauna, the people there, all that shit is great. 

Random thought: The crazy thing about having a competitive dance partner is you are seeing them multiple times a week for hours at a time, working and growing together, laughing and joking, there is physical touch, we travel together around the country to compete, this is a very intimate experience that we are sharing with each other.

Okay, thats enough for today, I am going to work some of these things out later.. and remember, do not kill yourself hitting on these habits right now, you are still in a phase of setting up your life for success, this is a future endeavor, eventually you will have an absolutely SHREDDED and muscular physique, you will be one of the sexiest men on this planet, you will have abundance of sex, an abundance of money, you will be in a constant no - thought state, you will understand the deep TRUTHS about reality, but these things will take years to manifest, some will even take decades, so give yourself some grace and continue to allow WELLBEING to come into your life.

 

12.23.25

Morning routine goals:

• Brush teeth streak: 55
• Floss streak: 4
• Shower streak: 26
• Meditation streak: 1
• Funniness free talk exercise: 4
• Sexual abundance affirmation: 4

Night time routine goals:

• Brush teeth streak: 6
• Wash face streak: 6
• No electronics before bed streak: 0 

 

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 4
• No ejaculation streak: 4
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4
• No alcohol streak: 53
• No smoking weed streak: 9

 

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 
• Monday: chest 
• Tuesday: legs
• Wednesday: push ups and pull ups
• Thursday: legs
• Friday: back 

Edited Wednesday at 02:23 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #54

 

I am not easily impressed by people nowadays. I look around at all of these insecure and unhappy and unexpressive faces and I think to myself, what have you been doing with your time here on Earth? How have you not dealt with this yet?  How are you still working a job that you hate? Why are you settling for mediocrity? I want to help these people more than anything.. And at the same time work on myself... so that I can teach with integrity. 

I must also remember that I came from the exact that place as them, I was insecure, I was unhappy, I was unexpressive. I see myself in them, but I climbed out the gutter and made it out to the other side. It took a while too and I had A LOT of help, you cannot forget that; Leo, former and current bosses, parents, family members, friends, authors of every book that you've read.. all of these people have helped form you into this magnificent version of yourself. 

 

12.24.25

Morning routine goals:

• Brush teeth streak: 56
• Floss streak: 5
• Shower streak: 27
• Meditation streak: 0
• Funniness free talk exercise: 5
• Sexual abundance affirmation: 5

 

Night time routine goals:

• Brush teeth streak: 0
• Wash face streak: 0
• No electronics before bed streak: 1

 

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 5
• No ejaculation streak: 5
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 5
• No alcohol streak: 54
• No smoking weed streak: 10

 

Weekly Goals:

• Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 
• Monday: chest 
• Tuesday: legs
• Wednesday: push ups and pull ups
• Thursday: legs
• Friday: back 

Edited yesterday at 01:26 PM by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: My new life

Here I am, sitting in my bed room on Christmas Day, I'm not with family, not with a girlfriend, not with anyone but myself. And I am happier than ever. I am so excited for the life that I am going to create for myself. I can see how far I've come and I am so excited to create something magical, something magnificent with this life. I have many ideas of what I want to do, which include getting out of debt, building up my savings account, buying a houe, winning dance competitions, showing emotion while performing, becoming intimate with women, having full body orgasms, having enlightenment experiences, teaching 30 lessons a week, entering non-dual states, I want it all.. And guess what, I am going to get it all because you can receive ANYTHING THAT YOU DESIRE in this life. ANYTHING. So dream fuckin' big, stop limiting yourself, get your head out of your ass and into the clouds. 

I've also realized that it truly is better to feel pain than nothing at all. Pain really isn't so bad, that nip on your neck and nose when you walk outside, that bottomless pit feeling in your stomach when you get heat broken, the hot sting on your hand when you cut you slice your hand open, the weakness that you feel when your body is sick or recovering from surgery. Every experience like this is a wonderful opportunity to explore a new feeling state. You should feel it and use the Sedona Method to let it go and allow wellbeing to flow into your consciousness. This is the way.

 

Its better to feel pain than nothing at allllllllllll 

Keep your head up, looooooooooove 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #55

Here I am, I woke up at 5 am today with the intention of heading to the gym as a part of my morning routine. I'm not sure how long this is going to last, but I want to challenge myself to do this. I will add "working out" to the morning routine habit tracker. 

I also switched up the weekly goals and replaced them with financial planning to get a handle on income and expenses, giving yourself a haircut to look fresh, and grocery shop and meal prep for better organization and protein intake.

The last thing, I am still in debt, but i am climbing out of it, paying back my parents as well as a debt relief company, I would like to track that as well, it will feel so fuckin' good to get out of that, it should take me 3 months. Then I can really start saving.

 

12.25.25

Morning routine goals:

• Brush teeth streak: 57
• Floss streak: 6
• Shower streak: 28
• Meditation streak: 1
• Funniness free talk exercise: 6
• Sexual abundance affirmation: 6
• Work out: 0

 

Night time routine goals:

• Brush teeth streak: 1
• Wash face streak: 1
• No electronics before bed streak: 2

 

"Whole day" goals:

• No porn streak: 6
• No ejaculation streak: 6
• Eat 150 g of protein streak: 6
• No alcohol streak: 55
• No smoking weed streak: 11

 

Weekly Goals:

• Financial plan for the week
• Give yourself a haircut
• Grocery shop & meal prep
• Circulate sexual energy

 

Debt relief figures

This is how much money I have left to pay back:

• For mom: $340
• For dad: $685
• For debt relief program: $825

 

 

Edited 4 hours ago by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Interlude: Pesonal Journal ~ The day after Christmas '25

I woke up at 5am this morning, and I was angry. Its difficult to be in a state of Love when you are angry. Anyways, I went to the gym and got my work out in. I called the mechanic to let him know that I am leaking oil. I think they messed something up when they did my oil change last week.. It was Christmas yesterday and I went to my sisters house. My car was in their driveway and I left an oil spill and they were freaking out about it… Jesus christ guys… calm the fuck down. They put cat litter on it to soak it up. This rattled me emotionally as I felt embarrassed, but then I used the Sedona Method to release my emotions. I don’t love being around my brother in law as I feel no Love from him. Then again, ideally, Love comes from an internal source. In this way, you are completely non- needy and independent of other people giving you things. After releasing, I did feel better, we watched the football game and I bonded with my dad. I love him so much and I will be so heartbroken when he passes on, hes 67 I think.  As I’m sitting there trying to enjoy family time, I kept thinking about getting back to my house so that I could read more books and get my life sorted out. 

Family time feels hollow to me at times, I mean I do love my sisters and my parents, but at the same time, all I want to do is make a greater impact on others and work on my physique and have enlightenment experiences and dance and work on my intimate relationships. Family time doesn’t help with these things.Then again, you can practice being Loving towards them… thats right, you still need to write some cards for your family and also print out some photos, show them some Love. That is your job today. I also need to deposit that money at the bank. Those are your two tasks before going to your moms house at 12:30 pm. 

This brother in law also throws the vibes off, he is just so disconnected from Love, truly he is, it is very obvious. My other brother in law is also disconnected from Love, I witnessed him beat the shit out of his dog. He’s an absolute piece of shit for that actually… I avoided him for about a year after this incident… What is wrong with these men… 

I am disappointed in both of them in a way, but I know deep down that they are me and I am them because we are all One. I should also remember that I have also done some terrible things in this life that I do not care to share on here… remember that… we’ve all done terrible things, that doesn’t mean we don’t deserve Love. God Loves every single human being on this Earth, no matter how heinous their crimes are, God even Loves Adolf Hitler.. And I can become that person, I can become God-like… and why not…. Why not become God-like… I mean what else is there to do here????? 

The thing I’m most excited about is having another intimate relationship. There is something about sharing insecurities and vulnerabilities with someone, sharing a bed together, sharing intimacy, sharing secrets, telling them things you haven’t told anyone… And intimacy is right around the corner for me… I can feel it. 

 

Edited 23 minutes ago by Spiritual Warrior