I am going to annihilate everything to see if I can get past solipsism

[Yeah Yeah]

Camus said the first philosophical question is whether or not to commit suicide. I’ve been thinking about this deeply. From my own perspective I experience life as profoundly painful and alienating — I often feel hatred toward the human condition and wish I’d never been born.

Philosophically and ethically, should someone who feels this way but isn’t terminally ill have the right to opt out through legal assisted dying? Should antinatalism be taken more seriously as a policy position?

I’m interested in hearing thoughtful perspectives on this rather than platitudes.

[LifeEnjoyer]

The magic word here is, "allow."

[theoneandnone]

On 9/27/2025 at 11:04 PM, Natasha Tori Maru said:

I would recommend always staying grounded by looking to your experience.

Your thoughts and concepts cannot pollute the raw truth to be found there, as long as you prioritize clarity.

As from your comment earlier yes I have ocd I obsess over solipsism. Even all of you on this forum say you are part of my mind I will continue to pretend and play the game because what’s the other option death? I mean I thought awakening was about universal consciousness and unity. Not a cosmic void screaming for eternity but nobody to hear you cry. Sigh..

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[theoneandnone]

1 hour ago, Yeah Yeah said:

Camus said the first philosophical question is whether or not to commit suicide. I’ve been thinking about this deeply. From my own perspective I experience life as profoundly painful and alienating — I often feel hatred toward the human condition and wish I’d never been born.

Philosophically and ethically, should someone who feels this way but isn’t terminally ill have the right to opt out through legal assisted dying? Should antinatalism be taken more seriously as a policy position?

I’m interested in hearing thoughtful perspectives on this rather than platitudes.

What’s this gotta do with what I said?

[theoneandnone]

21 minutes ago, LifeEnjoyer said:

The magic word here is, "allow."

I don’t get it..

[Natasha Tori Maru]

12 minutes ago, theoneandnone said:

As from your comment earlier yes I have ocd I obsess over solipsism. Even all of you on this forum say you are part of my mind I will continue to pretend and play the game because what’s the other option death? I mean I thought awakening was about universal consciousness and unity. Not a cosmic void screaming for eternity but nobody to hear you cry. Sigh..

I can only speak from my own experience.

I never felt, and do not feel, the way you describe.

After the fear and terror - I realised exactly why I chose this. All pointers turned right back to reality - all of this - and the beauty, experience, awe, majesty and love of it. The beauty of the connection between subject and object; the experience generated there is the creation of love and the energy that binds us all.

Duality was created as an appearance for the experience of the love that exists in the connection between everything.

But this is my own, personal, realisation. 

Solipsism isn't a thing in a relative space within time. From the absolute yes - but not within time and space. Individuation is apparent for a reason. 

I will add I have had some experience with mantis beings while in a clear, sober & coherent state - so feel free to lump me in the crazy bin. I keep returning to what I experienced with them and cannot deny it. They revealed what I required to not be solipsistic. 

I'm fine with being called insane for the above. Used to it now.

[Someone here]

3 hours ago, Yeah Yeah said:

Camus said the first philosophical question is whether or not to commit suicide. I’ve been thinking about this deeply. From my own perspective I experience life as profoundly painful and alienating — I often feel hatred toward the human condition and wish I’d never been born.

Philosophically and ethically, should someone who feels this way but isn’t terminally ill have the right to opt out through legal assisted dying? Should antinatalism be taken more seriously as a policy position?

I’m interested in hearing thoughtful perspectives on this rather than platitudes.

Why are you suicidal?  What makes you want to kill yourself? 

[Yeah Yeah]

@Someone here Unconditional love white light bliss is better than being a shitty limited rot of a human fuck humanity I hate being on Earth when I could instead be god mode and create whole new worlds, universes and realities to explore 

[Yeah Yeah]

@Someone here why is there not a wake up switch except to have to die, and if that's the case then I should have painless options that are humane than to drag on through this shit people prop up called 🙌 life 

[Yeah Yeah]

I’ve been thinking about how society regulates dangerous substances but ignores the biggest one of all: reproduction.

Anyone, regardless of mental health, stability, or resources, can create a new human being. There are laws around who can drink alcohol, buy cigarettes, or take certain medications. But sex and childbirth — acts that literally create an entire lifetime of suffering, responsibility, and risk — are treated as unregulated, private “rights.”

This creates a contradiction. On one hand, governments say they’re here to protect people from harm (seatbelt laws, drug laws, workplace safety). On the other hand, they allow unlimited reproduction, even when the outcome is poverty, neglect, or more children born into cycles of trauma.

From an antinatalist perspective, bringing new people into existence is never a necessity. Nobody is harmed by not being created. But once a person is born, they inevitably experience harm. That’s why thinkers like David Benatar argue it’s “better never to have been.”

So if governments are serious about preventing suffering, why not treat reproduction the same way we treat addictive or dangerous substances? Require licensing, screening, or even discourage it altogether — and at the same time, give people the freedom to opt out through legalized assisted dying. Otherwise, we’re stuck in a system where anyone can force life into being, but no one is allowed to freely exit it.

Edited yesterday at 03:41 AM by Yeah Yeah

[theoneandnone]

1 hour ago, Yeah Yeah said:

@Someone here Unconditional love white light bliss is better than being a shitty limited rot of a human fuck humanity I hate being on Earth when I could instead be god mode and create whole new worlds, universes and realities to explore 

I agree this stupid Truman show game is getting enough I’m tired of being bound to this dream.

[Someone here]

@Yeah Yeah  you are hilarious do you know that ?your sense of humour is enough to keep you alive .

[Yeah Yeah]

@theoneandnone

I keep hearing the same line from spiritual teachers, gurus, channelers, even NDE reports: “Human life is the toughest school in the universe.”

Out of infinite possible realities the Godhead could dream up — this one, this Earth, this short, shitty human lifespan — is supposedly the hardest one? And we’re supposed to be grateful for that? To see it as some divine gift? Really?

Because I’ll be straight with you — this “school” hasn’t taught me love. Not really. It hasn’t exactly made me more compassionate, more open, or more whole. Instead, it’s taught me how to suffer. How to endure endless pain. How to live with rejection, abandonment, and isolation. How to hate myself. How to become cruel.

People say, “Oh, but that’s the curriculum! You learn through suffering.” No. If the point of school is to teach love, then this is a failed curriculum. What I’ve learned isn’t love — it’s bitterness, brokenness, and how fragile life can feel when you’re treated like you don’t matter.

And don’t come at me with “be grateful, life is a blessing.” This life doesn’t feel like a blessing. Most days it feels like dragging myself through dogshit, smearing it on the wall, pretending it’s art. A cosmic joke where you’re supposed to smile while your guts are burning.

So my question is: if this really is the toughest school in all existence, where the fuck is the payoff? Where’s the transformation into love, wholeness, anything beyond endless trial by fire? Because from where I stand, this “toughest school” is just turning people into harder shells, not radiant beings.
 

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[Someone here]

@Yeah Yeah look at the things you say and you will quickly realize the proplem you are having .

You basically think your life is shitty then you judge life and existence as a whole as shitty .

If I'm not mistaken..you mentioned multiple times before that you struggle with being a single virgin. Boom here's the entire riddle man..go out there and do what a man should do to get a girfriend . As a man you are worthy of the most beautiful feminine ladies. That's your right as a man. 

Why do you think girls have a pussy ? Because you have a dick .

[Natasha Tori Maru]

Immense projection woah

[Someone here]

@Natasha Tori Maru what projection? He has been bitching about "dying as virgin " .my analysis is thats where his existential angst is stemming from . Women have no idea what kind of nightmare it is being a single guy in the age of reproduction

you're a Mod...haven't you read his posts ? Sometimes all you need is love .

[Yeah Yeah]

@Someone here I'm not fucking whores folks like you have already finger banged in their prime and I should be happy with sloppy 8ths 

[Yeah Yeah]

@Someone here that ain't love, I know how shitty hookup culture has been, I'd rather die than to humiliate myself by waiting my turn in line behind "men" like you to finally get my dick wet at 30 to a Bonnie blue 

Edited 19 hours ago by Yeah Yeah

[Someone here]

@Yeah Yeah OK sir good bye have a nice day/evening.  It seems like you don't want advice and you are going to flush away anything that's being said down in the toilet . 

Edited 19 hours ago by Natasha Tori Maru

[Natasha Tori Maru]

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@Natasha Tori Maru what projection?

@Someone here  not you  also, your analysis could be wrong. As much as you read posts, gather data and reply - you are still filling in some gaps.

2 minutes ago, Someone here said:

Women have no idea what kind of nightmare it is being a single guy in the age of reproduction

I have 4 brothers - I seen that shit. It is all consuming. You haven't had to clean your brothers room only to find the little shit has been skeeting on the drapes so much they have legit turned to plaster.

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you're a Mod...haven't you read his posts ? Sometimes all you need is love .

I am a mod. Yep. ???