samijiben

How Did You End Up Where You Are Now?

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Always wanted to be free. Always wanted to know how the world works. Studied economics. Felt like that became a dead end. With nothing better to do, entered a corporate career track.

Few years in, got a gf from underground techno scene, started backpacking, visited my first big festivals (Ozora).  Tried psychedelics stronger then weed then first time. Felt like "what the fuck am I doing here?" and "Oh shit what is this that I am suddenly feeling?".  Soon after, I quit my job, my relationship, my flat and left with a one way ticket, not knowing if I ever return to my home country.

Did Vipassana first time 2019. Changed a lot. Continued doing it, and combined with personal growth, psychedelics, traveling, it changed everything.  

Often felt that the "thing" that is most in my way is myself. So I looked for solutions for that. Came to the conclusions that the solution does not seem to be that much in the conscious, not on the surface but somewhere deeper. 

This year I realized that all I ever thought about life is wrong so I am adapting to this recognition. Other then that, I got again and again incredibly fucking lucky, with life gifting me situations, people, opportunities. 

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3 hours ago, Cheese said:

I was certain that I found Truth, then I went all in.

Lalala enjoy bro.

2 hours ago, Human Mint said:

What lead me here? Geography, school, genetics, parents. Two decades and a half of life basically. But something interesting was weed, seriously. If it wasn't for weed I would never have been interested in psychedelics and I would certainly not have encountered Actualized.org. What about you?

PD: I stop using weed because is harmful, don't use it.

Same here bro, used to smoke a lot, now am sober almost a month, but I wouldn't say that it had anything to do with "how I ended up where I am now" anymore than the other countless variables at play (family, genetics, geography, blahblahblah)

But yea, glad you asked about me, answer is: 

I ended where I am now because I was born into this world. Mommy and daddy had sex and out came Swamijiben.

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