Tackling life problems one at a time

[Deziree]

If reality was not structured this way, over time eventually everything would get so corrupt that the universe would turn into a grotesque abomination, a monstrous sphere of unimaginable corruption that would fly apart from incoherence and disorder. The purity of Truth is the mechanism by which all corruption, all evil, is cleansed from the system. How does God cleanse corruption? By annihilating you along with your corruption inside itself. You die and become Nothing. This wipes the slate clean of your bad habits and evil ways, healing you in perfect wholeness. When you die you are reabsorbed into God, into an infinite ocean of Love that annihilates everything, including of course your sense of self. You become annihilation itself. You are the very corruption that needs to be cleansed in order for the Universe to maintain its health. When you die, you become Infinite Truth. From this place of perfect purity you can be reborn as an innocent child, ready to get corrupted all over again. Death is God’s washing machine for dirty minds. Your mind gets dirty enough, God kills you, washes you in Infinite Truth, then throws you back into the game. In this way God’s purity remains Eternal and the fly-wheel can keep turning forever.

Nothing ever touches the Source except Nothing itself. This ensures that God remains eternally spotless. Pure Infinite Truth. Endless. 

 

Edited Monday at 05:08 PM by Deziree

[Deziree]

Note 1 (from my OneNote) 

Think back to the last time you felt frustrated with yourself. Was there a voice of negative self talk you heard inside your own head? 

There is a secret in that voice, and it is time that secret is revealed. 

Martin Luther King once wrote, "There can be no deep disappointment where there is not deep love." 

If you feel down on yourself, might that just mean: you believe in yourself? 

 

Look at those disappointments of yours. Bring your frustrations out of the shadows. Shine a really bright light on them here in the Fabulous world, where it is safe to get a really good look at them. 

One is never upset that pets do not speak French. They never could. So there is no frustration to feel. If you knew you weren't capable, you might not feel disappointed at all.

But maybe, in truth, we do know what we are made of. We know what we deserve. 

Maybe the deep disappointment only exists because there is deep love. And belief. And strength that has been hiding. Maybe that frustration is proof that you know you can do it, all those hopes of yours. 

Now is the time to galvanize that negative energy and befriend it. Mark its good intention, but don't let it run away down an endless spiral. Redirect next time. Remind it of the path you're already on here in this fabulous world. Let that despair feel some relief that you are tending to those hopes. 

Maybe that's what it wanted all along. 

Edited Tuesday at 02:11 AM by Deziree

[Deziree]

Some of my musings (from one note) 

This is your time. The knight has arrived in full armor. You are a living, breathing, human being that deserves to connect with how the air feels right now, warm or cool, how the scents filter in through the window or how the steam rises in swirls from a mug of tea. Breathe in now and grant yourself this time to integrate your experiences from the day into your growing body of wisdom. 

Stanford Professor BJ Fogg writes, "In order to design successful habits and change your behaviors, you should do three things:

• Stop judging yourself 
• Take your aspirations and break them down into tiny behaviors 
• Embrace mistakes as discoveries and use them to move forward."

Now that the day is behind you, take a deep breath and think back to anything that felt even a little bit like a mistake today. Breathe in and see if you can let the judgement go. Rest with it a while. Let your body relax as you welcome kindness into your bones. Notice compassion sinking in where tension used to be. 

The musician Patti Smith wrote, "The transformation of the heart is a wondrous thing, no matter how you land there." 

What if you brought curiosity to anything that didn't go your way. What is the real message you have for yourself? What is the feeling that still lingers? Is it a residue of frustration? Shame? Anger? Embarrassment? Ego? If so, speak to that part of you with kindness. Ask what it would do differently? You are always the victor if you are learning. If solutions emerge, just break them down into their tiniest pieces. There's nothing you need to do right now but rest. 

Breathe deeply. Notice, it is not only your habits that are changing. You are developing the habit to look straight into the heart of difficulty and use it to move forward. These are the treasures you are discovering along your fabulous path.

Edited Wednesday at 03:56 PM by Deziree

[Deziree]

 

[Deziree]

I sleep at 10.15pm and permit 10-10.15 as last screen time where I quickly check and deal with some news, emails, texts. The period 8-10pm, I allow for entertainment so that's screen time too but it's passive consumption. The hours 5-8pm are for dinner and meditating. So for me the evening is all a gradual wind-down of screen time.

 

[Deziree]

From Leo's blog post, 

My god this is so helpful. I'll just slobber this shit up. 

Survival, sanity, psychology, and sociology come first, science comes a distant second at best. 

 

Some more, leo keep it coming. 

I can write from my own understanding of the entire domain of philosophy, psychology, epistemology, metaphysics, and spirituality. It writes effortlessly because I know it all like the back of my hand. But it still takes hundreds and hundreds of hours to write it all out, to phrase everything elegantly and beautifully.

Mastery at its finest. 

 

 

 

Edited Wednesday at 11:19 AM by Deziree

[Deziree]

Some of my musings. 

The time has arrived. This is your time. The knight has arrived in full armor. You are a living, breathing, human being that deserves to connect with how the air feels right now, warm or cool, how the scents filter in through the window or how the steam rises in swirls from a mug of tea. Breathe in now and grant yourself this time to integrate your experiences from the day into your growing body of wisdom. 

There's nothing you need to do right now but rest. 

Breathe deeply. Notice. It is not only your habits that are changing. You're developing the ability to look straight into the heart of difficulty and use it to move forward. These are the treasures you're discovering along your fabulous path. 

Edited Wednesday at 03:53 PM by Deziree

[Deziree]

Damn, bro, I just love leo's post on this one. 

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Notice that it is possible to believe true things for the wrong reasons.

Religion is a prime example of this. Religious people believe in God, which happens to exist. However, they believe it for the wrong reasons. God is not the province of any religion, religious ideas of God are deeply wrong, and God cannot be understood through religion. So religion is superficially right. But religious believers take this as validation of the rightness of their faith. No. The existence of God means your faith is wrong, a profound mistake. Just because you lucked out by believing in a thing which happened to be true does not mean that your belief was epistemically sound or intelligent. Religious belief is not sound even though it turns out to be true. You weren't intelligent, you were just lucky. Which is why religious people believe all sorts of stupid shit. Because they will believe anything. It just so happens that some of the things they believe turn out to be true. But this is nothing to be proud of.

Notice, if I walk through my neighborhood with a machine gun, spraying bullets blindly in every direction, I might get lucky and shoot a serial killer who just happened to be walking down the street at just the right time, and that might turn out to be a net positive since killing him saves a few lives he would have taken had he still been prowling the streets. However, this does not mean that firing a machine gun wildly in a neighborhood is a valid behavior. A religious person is right about God in this same way — right, but for completely perverse reasons.

Conversely, you can believe false things for good reasons.

Atheism is a prime example of this. Atheism is factually false — God does exist. However, the reasoning behind atheism is sound and healthy. It is correct that one should not believe in supernatural entities without serious evidence and proof. It just so happens that that's true, but God still exists.

Atheists did all the right things but turned out false. Theists did all the wrong things but turned out true. Sometimes it's just better to be lucky than good. Sometimes a total fool ends up being right. But that doesn't mean being a fool is the way to go. Eventually the fool's luck runs out. Which is exactly what happens to all religious believers. Just because you got God's existence right does not mean you understand God or solved the problem of self-deception. Yeah, you got lucky and got God right, but so what? You're still completely self-deceived.

In the long-term it's better to be wrong for the right reasons than right for the wrong reasons. Just as it's better to get the wrong answer on a math test but with good mathematical steps, than get the right answer but with all the wrong steps.

It is foolish to envy the lucky fool because his luck will soon run out.

 

I like religion to some extent I'm ngl, and I have been contemplating leaving christianity but at the same time it just bugs me because religious attachments can be heavy and difficult to let go off if. It gives you a structure you don't want to leave and the sense of comfort that comes with it like having a cup of coffee with your mates at church or in the evening a sense of connection and belongingness you don't want to miss. A lot of my friends are trump supporters and I don't want to piss them off. 

[Deziree]

Leo has a list of 10 rules that I'm really appreciating. 

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After following Leo for 10 years I can speak on his behalf.

Here are the rules:

1. Pursue truth for the sake of truth.

2. Direct experience is king!

3. Always respect the sovereignty of other.

4. Never try to manipulate anyone.

5. The truthful pursuit of real philosophy, metaphysics and epistemology will lead you towards a truthful life.

6. Question all of your assumptions and biases! 

7. Always be on the lookout for self deception in yourself! Self deception is how the devil corrupts you.

8. Pursue independent thinking! Stop looking for daddy figures to spoon feed you ideas or truth.

9. Study spiral dynamics! Make sure you integrate in yourself all the healthy aspects of the tier 1 stages while avoiding their negative aspects while striving to deveop into tier 2.

10. Develop high integrity. 

But I have decided to revise reframe and expand it a bit and add a bit to it. So here's my addition. 

1. Pursue truth for the sake of truth. Only truth, no lie. This is applicable to all categories including how you treat people. There shouldn't be even the slightest omission of information. Perfect transparency is the way to go. 

2. Direct experience is king. Such direct experiences should be shared via reports, video reports might even be better. This gives a direct visual understanding of the direct experience in a comprehensive manner. 

3. Always respect the sovereignty of other. Always. There should not be exceptions to such a rule. Others include everyone. It should be a fair game. 

4. Never try to manipulate anyone. Transparency always reduces manipulation or the opportunity for it. There should never be any agenda beneath the expression of one's narrative nor the need to suppress the narrative of others to further one's own agenda. 

5.The truthful pursuit of real philosophy, metaphysics and epistemology will lead you towards a truthful life. Such an endeavor can be carried out solo too. But within a group, it's important to consider the need of others to follow an honest and truthful path and their truth and honesty should be honored to the highest degree. 

6. Question all of your assumptions and biases. Always. Even when it comes to others. Welcome their assumptions and biases too and be ready to dismantle them using truth. Suppression of their assumptions will not help them come to the truth. 

7. Always be on the lookout for self deception in yourself! Self deception is how the devil corrupts you.Always be on the lookout for self deception in others too. Question their self deception to the necessary extent possible. Give them the freedom to such questioning. 

8. Pursue independent thinking! Stop looking for daddy figures to spoon feed you ideas or truth. There are lot of daddy figures in the market mushrooming everyday trying to spoon feed you with the ideas of truth. Needless to say stay away from such. Critical thinking on your own will bring you closer to the truth. 

9. Study spiral dynamics! Make sure you integrate in yourself all the healthy aspects of the tier 1 stages while avoiding their negative aspects while striving to deveop into tier 2. Make sure to not ever display or engage in the negative aspects of Tier 1 stages to achieve your goals, in other words do not use them as a means to your end.

10. Develop high integrity. Developing high integrity comes at a cost. Be ready to understand the cost and be fully invested in maintaining such high integrity without any under the table tradeoffs. 

Last but not the least smoke some 5 MeO-DMT  to get tripping on truth! 

 

Edited Thursday at 03:02 AM by Deziree

[Deziree]

Some of my musings 

As you settle in for rest, breathe in deeply. You have become a good friend to yourself here on your fabulous path. Let your muscles relax as you exhale. Breathe in again and feel your shoulders drop. Let your arms become heavy. Listen to a poem by Jane Hirshfield and realize your extraordinary power to heal. 

There are names for what binds us:

Strong forces. Weak forces. 

Look around, you can see them. 

The skin that forms in a half empty cup 

Nails rusting into the places they join, 

Joints dovetailed on their own weight. 

The way things stay so solidly 

Wherever they have been set down —

And gravity, scientists say, is weak. 

And see how the flesh grows back 

Across a wound, with a great vehemence. 

More strong,

Than the simple untested surface before. 

There's a name for it on horses, 

When it comes back darker and raised: proud flesh,

As all flesh, 

Is proud of it's wounds, wears them.

As honors given out after battle, 

Small triumphs pinned to the chest - 

And when two people have loved each other, 

See how it is like a scar between their bodies, 

Stronger, darker and proud :

How the black cord makes them a single fabric 

That nothing can teal or mend. 

 

Edited Friday at 02:28 AM by Deziree

[samijiben]

On 6/25/2025 at 9:14 AM, Deziree said:

Damn, bro, I just love leo's post on this one. 

I like religion to some extent I'm ngl, and I have been contemplating leaving christianity but at the same time it just bugs me because religious attachments can be heavy and difficult to let go off if. It gives you a structure you don't want to leave and the sense of comfort that comes with it like having a cup of coffee with your mates at church or in the evening a sense of connection and belongingness you don't want to miss. A lot of my friends are trump supporters and I don't want to piss them off. 

You don't gotta leave your friends and your church and your Christian community to transcend the belief-sysyem that goes along with it.

Behold the enlightened churchman!

[Deziree]

5 hours ago, samijiben said:

You don't gotta leave your friends and your church and your Christian community to transcend the belief-sysyem that goes along with it.

Behold the enlightened churchman!

Thanks! 

[Deziree]

During meditation, a powerful insight struck me: Motivation is like thirst, needing constant replenishment. This led me to consider how I seek inspiration, often consuming motivational content that builds up an intense internal energy—like a volcano about to erupt. However, I realized I lack a clear purpose to channel this energy, only vague desires to 'be better.' This is dangerous: repeatedly getting excited about my potential without a true goal, then falling into despair because I fail to apply that motivation constructively, becomes detrimental to self-improvement.

[Deziree]

In late May I started getting these unique experiences.

It started with a walking mindfulness meditation, where 20-30 minutes in I started to really feel everything around me, the hardness of the concrete, the heat of the sun, the noise of the passing trucks. It all became overwhelming.  

I had to take a break from it all and ended up in a park. Deeper meditation made the colors vivid, and I could feel the plants, hear the bugs, people walking by were moving in slow motion.

The weird thing is that it felt like it had been 15 minutes, but an alarm in my phone indicated it had been almost 3 hours.

Although it is inaccurate the only experience that is similar was the weed I had before But it wasnt quite like that either.  

[Deziree]

I liked this. And I'm going to follow this. 

Consider that when it "hurts", is not about the other person but what your thoughts are telling you about yourself in that moment.

Basically your mind is playing a trick with you, is saying the problem is outside when actually is inside.

You can´t let your mind tell who you are. Because it will always tell you who you are based on your experiences, past and karma. 

Because that´s what the mind runs on: information about the identity it has constructed. It can´t reveal who you are.

So if you use your mind to tell who you are it will always tell you the same story. You need to stop letting the mind telling you who you are. 

 

[Deziree]

(self referential notes) 

Dear OceanicBlizzard - OceanicWorm/BlizzardWorm. 

Breathe in, the Knight has come in his warrior clothing. Let yourself relax into it. You are an important part of everything. 

Waves are traveling across vast lengths of ocean,rising and falling right now. Just as your circadian rhythms tick on, the tides are responding to the moon. The trees nearby are taking in the carbon dioxide you exhale. They send back the very oxygen that circulates through your bloodstream, allowing your muscles to relax in this very moment. 

You live in an interconnected world, as your own story revolves here in a Fabulous way, do not be surprised if it becomes easier to have patience for those around you. You are learning to have patience towards yourself. The simple act of breaking habits into tiny pieces and committing to just the first, is an act of patience. You are creating space and time for your own ups and downs, free of judgement. 

The Serbian poet Dejan Stojanovic takes perspective taking into poetic levels. As you breathe in again, imagine yourself, embodied in every one of these lines :

To be a lantern in the darkness;

Or an umbrella in a stormy day;

To feel much more than know. 

To be the eyes of an eagle, slope of a mountain. 

To be a wave, understanding the influence of the moon. 

To be a tree and read the memory of the leaves. 

To be an insignificant pedestrian on the streets. 

Of crazy cities, watching, watching and watching. 

To be a smile on the face of a child. 

And shine in their memory. 

As a moment, saved without planning. 

Know that, someday, your own memories will be made of unplanned moments. You are planning your habits, true, but you can remain alive to the experience. The way water feels as you drink, the tree you never noticed on your walk. Let each moment be vivid so that, when you look back on the tapestry of your life, each is still beautiful to you. Tomorrow may contain a moment that will shine on into your future and, someday, bring a smile to your face as you look back. 

 

 

Edited 8 hours ago by Deziree