About protection mechanisms and freedom

[PurpleTree]

So at some point we build a lot of protection mechanisms out of the belief that we have to protect ourselves.

Protecion mechanisms could be anger, victim mentality, drugs, having the last word, narcissism, acting a certain way - it’s endless

But what are they trying protect? The self? It doesn’t really exist it’s just a narrative. The body? Then it’s doing a bad job because a lot of protection mechanisms seemingly harm the body.

Maybe it’s trying to protect a narrative which was probably wrong and unfree from early on.

[krazzer]

The ego

[PurpleTree]

4 minutes ago, krazzer said:

The ego

Which is mostly a narrative and protection mechanisms.

[Hojo]

@PurpleTreeEverytime you wanted to cry but didnt, everytime you wanted to scream but didnt, everytime you felt embarrassed but ran  instead of facing it, everytime you feel abandoned but ignored it, everytime you fear death but went onto the next thing, everytime you were bored of life.

When you stop those they flood back.

They are just a narratives but the narrative is built to pull an emotion out of you. God is trying to get that emotion out of you when your body feels something and you dont let it feel it has to put it somewhere in the muscles and tendons and shit.

Like if your pants dropped in front of the class and they saw you wiener and you got embarrassed and ran and then ignored that it ever happened, over going back and saying it happened and feeling the embarrassment, that will go into your body and is saved for later. We do this with everything, buddy pisses you off calls you names but you are the better man. You want to jump and fight him but have been trained not to, that energy is trying to come out God is trying to make you do it and you want too. But you are civil, now that anger is stored in your body. Now you are very angry and to not beat the shit out of your annoying girlfriend you drink alcohol. Anger is still there.

You cant always express your emotion but your body has too you can surpress and surpress its still there.

Its there so that you dont go around killing everyone who pisses you off, so we can be civil. Instead of shooting the man I can go to the shooting range later and burn this anger off while I curse his name.

If an animal gets angry its attacking there and now its not saving it for later. Unfortunately we dont have that luxury.

I also beleive it has something to do with language particularly. We can metaphysically traumatize each other with sounds. and then feel like we have to defend the metaphysical thing thats being attacked. Then we will thought loop hate ourselves instead of just admitting we are that phony thing.

Its basically a mechanism that allows you to put emotions to the side when you feel overwhelmed. They are still there but you dont have to deal with it now. But now you should. The problem is now you dont know whats in there and everytime it does it will automatically loop to the thought you protected yourself with.

If you dont do it you are a 50 year old and your body is so traumatized you can barely move. Achy back achy legs sore back. If at the end of the day you can go home and cry really hard, every single day you will stay on top of it.

Edited May 30 by Hojo

[PurpleTree]

10 hours ago, Hojo said:

@PurpleTreeEverytime you wanted to cry but didnt, everytime you wanted to scream but didnt, everytime you felt embarrassed but ran  instead of facing it, everytime you feel abandoned but ignored it, everytime you fear death but went onto the next thing, everytime you were bored of life.

When you stop those they flood back.

They are just a narratives but the narrative is built to pull an emotion out of you. God is trying to get that emotion out of you when your body feels something and you dont let it feel it has to put it somewhere in the muscles and tendons and shit.

Like if your pants dropped in front of the class and they saw you wiener and you got embarrassed and ran and then ignored that it ever happened, over going back and saying it happened and feeling the embarrassment, that will go into your body and is saved for later. We do this with everything, buddy pisses you off calls you names but you are the better man. You want to jump and fight him but have been trained not to, that energy is trying to come out God is trying to make you do it and you want too. But you are civil, now that anger is stored in your body. Now you are very angry and to not beat the shit out of your annoying girlfriend you drink alcohol. Anger is still there.

You cant always express your emotion but your body has too you can surpress and surpress its still there.

Its there so that you dont go around killing everyone who pisses you off, so we can be civil. Instead of shooting the man I can go to the shooting range later and burn this anger off while I curse his name.

If an animal gets angry its attacking there and now its not saving it for later. Unfortunately we dont have that luxury.

I also beleive it has something to do with language particularly. We can metaphysically traumatize each other with sounds. and then feel like we have to defend the metaphysical thing thats being attacked. Then we will thought loop hate ourselves instead of just admitting we are that phony thing.

Its basically a mechanism that allows you to put emotions to the side when you feel overwhelmed. They are still there but you dont have to deal with it now. But now you should. The problem is now you dont know whats in there and everytime it does it will automatically loop to the thought you protected yourself with.

If you dont do it you are a 50 year old and your body is so traumatized you can barely move. Achy back achy legs sore back. If at the end of the day you can go home and cry really hard, every single day you will stay on top of it.

It’s funny you know yesterday i felt that one of my core limiting beliefs is that i feel i don’t deserve to be loved and so on. And then i was sad. But i couldn’t cry. But i guess i can just feel the sadness. And i know from a non dual perspective it’s an illusion. There is isn’t a seperate self which doesn’t deserve to be loved it’s a narrative. But it’s very early and seemingly stored in the body.

[Hojo]

@PurpleTree i think not deserving love is the protection mechanism. You do deserve and you have it right now. One time or 50000 times you didn't feel loved so you come to that conclusion the release is to know you are loved uncondiontally by God in every action that you take. The sadness is actually love waiting to be released. You have never done anything wrong and are loved unconditonally even if retarded people told you and made you feel like you aren't. You are always in the center with God and always at home with God.

If there is a mother in a hospital room and she's dying and her sons are around her crying they are not crying out of sadness her sons are exploding with love. If you can pin point the switch then you can release your sadness and realize its love of God.

Edited May 31 by Hojo