A Beginner’s Slight Awakening at 22 Years Old

[freddyteisen]

I know I’m still at total beginners level on this journey. But here’s what I’ve experienced recently:

I took a break from my social media & many of my social commitments. I felt I was too attached to the identity I’d built—my brand, ‘thevitalfred’ / “Fred” / “Freddy” and the concept of a 22-year old Unistudent and health coach. Attached to followers, likes, shares, views etc.

And while that identity can be helpful to engage in modern society and to help people, I don’t wanna get trapped by it.

After listening to a lot of Leo’s content, and contemplating, I became conscious, yesterday, of the fact that…

I am consciousness itself.

I’m not Fred, thevitalfred or Frederik or a ‘22-year-old man’ or any story associated with that identity.

I just ‘am’. It’s wierd it’s like a slight shift in my state, a realization that this identity isn’t me. I guess it’s a little nugget of awakening.

I’m still a total newbie on the awakening journey. But it becomes clear the more I embody that way of perceiving.

It makes me detached from the ‘Fred’ identity. And instead makes me realize I am Consciousness. It’s a subtle shift in awareness.

This was very wierd for me before. Woowoo and wishy washy, because I didn’t understand what it meant. And I still don’t understand it fully—I get slight bouts of understanding, of realizing, of embodying it.

Soon, this summer, I’m gonna venture into 5-MeO DMT. That’s probably gonna make me realize this even more. But I’m not in a rush.

I’m sharing this raw, from the place I am at now, so you guys can get a newbies humble beginning view of realizing this.

i shared my experience of this here: 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DJucjmwiC-Z/?igsh=djN0eDZjMDA5a2g=

Edited May 16 by freddyteisen

[ExploringReality]

@freddyteisen

That's a very powerful realization, to suddenly suspect that the story and self image isn't what you Truly are. Consciousness is so mysterious, you will continue to unravel the mysteries of consciousness on your journey. Prepare for paradoxical mindfucks that will flip your reality inside out. Keep exploring and breaking through the filters. See you behind your eyelids 💪🏼

[freddyteisen]

@ExploringReality That’s a powerful and helpful response—thank you!

Edited May 17 by freddyteisen

[Yimpa]

9 hours ago, freddyteisen said:

i shared my experience of this here: 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DJucjmwiC-Z/?igsh=djN0eDZjMDA5a2g=

Wow, the ending was unexpected, I had to view it multiple times!