Witness The Unthinkable

[ivankiss]

Well this morning started fun. 

Guess who I bumped into? That's right. The crazy little blondie that I had to run from. She wanted to talk, of course. And I was like, nah, thanks, I'm good. Bye. Haha! 

And then guess who texted me again? Yup. My ex. She sent a picture in a bikini too. 

The fuck is going on?!

 

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Good news is, it is still payday, and that's of course my favorite day. 

About to set things in motion, any moment now... 

[ivankiss]

Take it all
I never needed any more
Than days on days and gentle nights
When nothing could stop me

Keep it safe
Take its secrets to the grave
When I was the king
Just for that one day
When nothing could stop me

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Feed my soul
Force a smile, ignore the hole
Wishing like hell that I was still god
With nothing above me

Read my eyes
Weary lines
Taking what's mine
Just soil below and nothing above me

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Leave me there
Pockets full of empty air
Paying my penance, curse this prayer
Regret never touched me

'Cause she will stay
Dressed in choices that I made
Head like a king, but crown like a gravestone
Don't touch me

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Feed my soul 
Marigold
And I'd rather starve than choke what's killing me down

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Give me heresy
We were never told the truth
The world that spoke, calm these hands
Before they can reach your throat
 

Give me eyes to see her never growing old
Good news
They hope you choke
Take heart
It's all fool's gold

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With these hands, I could change the world
More than gold, more than I deserve
I'm a wealthy man, I am loved
Tell me hope's not lost

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She's on the beach. I bought her ice cream an aperol spitz. Her favorite. 

How, you ask? She's still uses the same wise account. Wired her 20 bucks. 

Of course she melted. 

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I got my holiday allowance. Felt like giving back a bit. And I know she's not earning much. 

But yeah. Don't judge. I'm going kind of retarded today. I'm aware. 

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It's also scary how timeless and free I feel right now. 

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Too! Much! Power!

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And I made it. I'm on the country side. There's only greenery around me. Super kind staff too. Very cheap. 

Have a real good feel about my stay here! It's too beautiful and too peaceful! 

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Yesss, the birds are chirping, pleasant breeze, no noisy traffic and stupid tourists... 

Just lovely. 

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I hope you're all enjoying the show. Because you could not handle actuality. 

That is why I packed this so carefully and so cleverly, in such a way that it reveals to you what a judgmental narrow minded idiot you are, gradually, over time, instead of dropping it on you all at once. You simply could not take it. 

That's right. I care not only for my personal success and evolution, but for your awakening as well. No matter how illusory or paradoxical that may be. 

It's far more twisted than you think. 

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Today I was reminded what bliss tasted like. It's delicious as fuck.

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Polish friend insists on me coming back to the hostel. Says the Slovenian girl was asking about me, wants to see me. But I feel like it's more about him. 

Italian girl texted, we both couldn't make it yesterday, but it's all nice and cool. We will meet at some point for sure. If nothing else, I  at least want to collaborate with her professionally. She's a great photographer. Like, really great. 

Kind of hit the pause on our conversation with my ex yesterday. I don't want this to become a standard now. We can't be in touch all the time. It would not have a positive affect on me. It would make me too soft. 

And that's just to name a few that are pulling on my strings right now. But don't worry, I'm not too bothered. I am at peace, I am in love. 

I am on point. 

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Btw, I am simultaneously working on  two, not one, but two breath takingly beautiful original pieces. While also learning Lacrimosa by Mozart. 

I'll throw you a short audio soon. I promise. 

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For my grand finale, as a symbol of my victory, I am planning a short but glorious little concert, in the heart of Amsterdam, more precisely in Rijksmuseum. Don't worry, it will be documented. 

But shhh. This is our little secret. You know nothing. 

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A little birdie just landed on my shoulder and told me that I'm about to receive a giant gift by the end of this week. 

Must humble myself a bit and stay in an open, receptive state and not fuck this up. Because it's truly a blessing.