Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

5 minutes ago, LordFall said:

If there are 3 insights that are your main takeways from the course, what would they be?

 

What am I willing to stand up for, bleed for and die for?

Unwillingness to do great work. You will resist doing your greatest work.

Your top 10 values will tell you how to be happy in life. Different from all your friends and family.

 

There are mine 

1) I am truly not at a point in my life where I know myself or my values good enough to really know what my LP is 

( If I havent taken the course I would have thought that I just didnt think about it long enough ) 

2) But somehow there is still a clear calling which needs to be discovered

3) Its in the direction of conveying spirituality and it will include my strenghts like thinking outside the box, empathy, creativity and so on. 

[Jannes]

Chilled with my friend after impro. It was so super nice, we had a great chatter. Well actually I talked about stuff on my mind as well. But it was just so smoth and effortless, like I couldnt imagine how that could ever happen before but it did. 

I think its all thanks to blocking youtube. 

It went so well I didnt even know when to end it, like I wasnt used to talking and talking effortlessly and thought we need to stop at some point but really it wasnt nessaccary. I needed to pee at some point pretty badly so I stopped then. Interestingly I didnt really feel like hugging for a goodbye and he also BECAUSE it went so well I think. Which was really strange. 

[Jannes]

7 minutes ago, Jannes said:

Interestingly I didnt really feel like hugging for a goodbye and he also BECAUSE it went so well I think. Which was really strange. 

I think its because much of social interaction is a bit forced, in this moment there was a real vibe going on so you didnt need to force anything. 

[Jannes]

I just texted a girl from university which I like. 

Well, at the point where I had the least sexual interest she seemed like the best choice. Not because she isnt sexually interesting but when you take sexuality out of the equation she seems healthy. 

But really this confronts me with what I really want. I am telling myself that I am not interested in casual sex and emotionally I actually do feel drawn towards her but there is just this inner will to bang a lot of girls still.. 

I think I have never observed this inner conflict so closely. 

[Jannes]

My inner thighs hurt like crap. They are so sore from last training session.

Maybe thats one way to increase the size of my legs. 

[Jannes]

A lot of that gloryess vibes from yesterday are gone. 

I have only slept for 6 hours, thats probably part of the reason why.