Finished the LP course

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Okay lets simplify: goal of today is to get into a body doubling call and regulate myself. 

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If freezing to death is muss less painful then burning to death, the ability to think that while you are in the freezing cold is ... intelligent/ abstract?

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I am wondering if I prefer people to sleep with I dont have feelings for because I am scared of actual intimacy. 

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If everything works out I can put 39 credits of my old math studying into my new degree. This way I would have the option to do some math teaching if I want to. 

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Jaaaayyy I did something productive !! 

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Tees for mentally ill people 

https://www.hottopic.com/guys/tees/?start=160&sz=32

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I like these ones

https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-caine-dark-wash-t-shirt/34210798.html

https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-pomni-glitter-t-shirt/34210797.html

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Went out and socialized a bit. 

Gosh I feel so much better now, I really need more socializing/ I need to recognize more if there is a lack thereoff. 

Edited Sunday at 09:23 PM by Jannes

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On 12.8.2025 at 4:11 PM, Jannes said:

I finally did a trial session in remote viewing. I wasnt fully recovered from the festival yet, but it was the last possible date before summer break from this provider.

 

First I asked a few questions about how you can get paid for the work in remote viewing etc.

He also explained some theory to me -- if I had to explain it remote viewing works like this: you just connect to something via a target number and then ask the universe, the matrix, whatever.. about it and you get direct experience about it and also concept. You write down your direct experience which he calls essence about it and also the concepts you have about it. The concepts are always bullshit but by writing them down you get them out of your head and can connect to direct experience again. Like in meditation where you dont fight your thoughts, you let them pass. 

 

At the beginning he said that he would connect to me and basically view what I view which raised an eyebrow in me, as this made remote viewing even more hard to believe. 

We did an exercise and it was really hard for me, half the time nothing at all came up. 

Somestimes it felt like he was present, but it didnt feel good, I didnt like his presence, it wasnt as deep as mine, I would have liked to kick it out. 

There were so many distractions going on, I was tired, my headphones stopped halfway, people working outside, ...

At the end it was revealed it was a yellow speed boat. Self critical I said that I maybe got 30 percent right to which he responded it was at least 50 percent. I did get a few things spot on though, like yellow was the first thing I wrote down and freeing was an emotion I wrote down which also fit perfectly. 

Cant tell from this if remote viewing works or not, but it seems believable, like the kind of woo woo that remains when you take all the bullshit out of it. And it takes a lot of awareness to pull off which could explain why not everybody does it for a living.

 

I dont have a really good feeling about him though, I liked Stefan Franke way more. But his course is way cheaper and it gives me immediate access to work afterwards (if it works). It also felt like he was unfomfortable around me. I needed to go pee at the end, maybe he remote viewed that information incompletly haha.

wtf !?!?

I am doing this for almost a year now with appearently close to no results. 

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On 20.8.2025 at 8:22 PM, Jannes said:

This is somewhere in Leos Blog. I took a lot of understanding out of what this GIF conveys.

 

Gold

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On 28.6.2026 at 1:39 AM, Jannes said:

I CAN BLOCK EMBEDDED CONTENT HOLY SHIT !!!!!!!

Completly blocking embedded videos makes a huge difference holy shit. 

Its really weird atm, I am so used to mindlessly consuming stuff that I have little strategies on what to actually do when everything is blocked. 

I also noticed that I seem more quick in my thinking and more confident. When free dopamine isnt available you are more willing to get it elsewhere. Like when your brain thinks you are doing survival when playing video games easy peasy then why would it pour resources into socializing which is risky. I noticed this before as well when I quit video games and its interesting that it also works when I block youtube. 

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What is interesting is that the good life that I imagine never has anything to do with mindless consumption, I always imagine myself in a creative process. 

But then practically that feels too hard. 

Well ... what does that mean? Is the version I have of myself correct and I simply need to catch up to that practically? Does it mean I need to account for real life?

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Oh no, I just realized that a good chunk of how I imagine a good life is through the lense of apple products. 

On a trip I also imagined a good social life through the lense of an IKEA catalogue, so nothing unique about apple. 

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Germany just got kicked out of the WM.

I actually feel kinda sad about it which surprises me.