Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

I want someone to make sense of situation but in the end I have to do it on my own. 

I think the buttom line is that most people dont have healthy relationships, they lack love and they arent saints about relationship rules, if something better comes along that can be taken. 

For me that means I wont be understood if my moral standards are to high and also that I should carefully look for a gf. 

[Jannes]

Why is that beautiful? Why is that opening me up to painful emotions? How can a picture do that? 

[Jannes]

Well association but is that the end of the story ? ...

[Jannes]

I appreciate the honesty

 

I like the dudes outfit, the blue color match well

 

[Jannes]

Today an experience I made times and times again repeated. 

I wasnt really feeling it, not really getting into a social mood. And it felt like someone I am starting to get to know atm didnt even want to befriend me anymore. I felt pretty rejected. So I took some initiative and sat to a girl I was interested. And all of a sudden I was in a super social state. Being brave and possibly also feeling that I dont get everything handed to me. 

I wonder if there are strategies to get that faster. Like maybe I could deliberately do something I am usually uncomfortable with just to get into a social mood. 

[Jannes]

There is an interesting power dynamic between masculinity and femininity. Masculinity which is characterized by an alter ego has more potential to surpress emotions in the moment. But in the end it isnt immune to it and needs feeding. So masculinity can sometimes win a short emotional fight but then loose the war at the whole. 

[Jannes]

I am just sitting on my ass the whole day and cant get up , wtf. 

Welp I am recovering a bit from yesterday and didnt take medication today but its pretty trippy. In cases like these blocking all access to technology would be magical. 

[Jannes]

The artist girl is gonna leave the city. She has a place to become an ergo therapist somewhere else and wants to get kids with her husband as well. 

Men she is really kinda one of the few people I have feelings for. 

[Jannes]

The mind gets corrupted in two ways. When it doesnt have power and competence it finds excuses and miscredits the powerful. When it has to much power it also gets corrupted because it needs some sort of resistance, its not built to hold together on its own.  Will formulate that better at some point. 

...

Power should be proportional to love. 

[Jannes]

Found a new route for a walk. That was good. Thought about some good things. 

[Jannes]

Things seem so disconnected from their essence. 

When people argue about something, they have to do it through their meatsuit, through time and space, through a limited vision, through limited processing power, through a survival agenda. 

The challenge is to somehow move the original thing through all these practical challenges. 

How much is getten lost in this way. 

[Jannes]

Maybe thats why people often look for eye contact, things are more connected to their essence there.