Finished the LP course

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I checked out the WhatsApp Group of my old theatre club yesterday, in particular the pictures of the members. I am finally taken out. 

The old theatre club still has such a massive grip on me emotionally though.

I have so much anger. 

I knew I couldnt look at the emotional pain of the loss of the old theatre club straight because I needed to protect myself emotionally. I had so much love for this place, looking at the reality that all my dreams crashed and that I will never have it is just too much to accept. 

Maybe thats why I cant let go off my anger.

 

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Also I partially dont have a Plan B. I am too old to get accepted to an acting school. 

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A lot of unproductive thoughts come up as soon as I dont take my adhd medication. 

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