Finished the LP course

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I am literally getting nothing done atm 
I was doing body doubling and I don't know why I am not doing more of that atm 
Maybe that I unblocked YouTube is the problem even with the careful selection of channels. 
I mean I am learning a lot but practical things need to get done as well.

I would really like to have my shit together relationship wise and then be there for other people as a free psychologist. That's what I thrive as.

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Gay people dont make me uncomfortable, but this homophobia, this expressed uncomfortableness about homosexuality makes me uncomfortable

 

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Cutting someone in pieces with this thing seems so uncivilized, I prefered the bomb version. 

 

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Body doubling works again. I got some things done.

Wohoo

Starting body doubling aint that easy though. 

[Jannes]

That I started with body doubling yesterday is a bit of a shock to my whole system which flooded me with productive thoughts and healthy productive emotions, like I could emotionally work through some stuff. I needed to get out of bed two hours earlier even because my system switched to productive mode. Its ridiculous in a good way. And a bit scary tbh. 

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RV was great today. Well, not the results but the doing itself. 

I am way more emotionally stable from just yesterday, which makes the RV practice way more enjoyable. The silence doenst kill me as all the emotions that would usually flood me were already dealt with. Thats at least how I think it works. 

I need to make body doubling an essential part of my daily routine.

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Tutoring for students doenst pay well over the website I would use. Minimal wage or less. 

But here is the thing, I can learn a lot from that. I can learn if I like to work with people 1 on 1 and its probably a pretty chill job. Like seriously. Rather a chill job where I dont burn out then the opposite. 

So I am thinking a lot about it. 

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Its so trippy to get things done when doing body doubling. 

These task feel impossible and then in this calm state I just gently dismantle them. Before my eyes I see that they are nothing more then small practical inconveniences. I breath through this .. fear I guess .. with this gentle, calm energy. 

The goal is actually to get all the practical things out of the way so I can tackle tasks which I want to tackle. I actually didnt push myself to that point. Before that I usually went doing game in Berlin or something. 

So this is something I should do now. Get the practical stuff out of the way and that work on a passion. 

[Jannes]

My amount of things that can be done in terms of grooming are insane. 

Yesterday I trimmed my eyebrows and picked out some hair. And it does make a positive difference. In a way I kind of like the process though. I dont think I am getting out of hand yet. 

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13 minutes ago, Jannes said:

Tutoring for students doenst pay well over the website I would use. Minimal wage or less. 

But here is the thing, I can learn a lot from that. I can learn if I like to work with people 1 on 1 and its probably a pretty chill job. Like seriously. Rather a chill job where I dont burn out then the opposite. 

So I am thinking a lot about it. 

I think I need to brainstorm alternatives. 

But I have to be honest with myself that this isnt a mechanism to postpone the tutoring. I can ofc quit my tutoring job as well so thats that..

[Jannes]

I need to reserve myself more time to cut some slack. 

Only watched one Rick & Morty episode today after work was done and my block is coming. I dont need to be a workaholic all of a sudden. 

[Jannes]

Finally logged in with my phone. 

Don't know why I haven't done it before. 

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11 hours ago, Jannes said:

Finally logged in with my phone. 

Don't know why I haven't done it before. 

Okay now I needed to sign in with my Laptop. Can you only be signed in with one device at once .. ?

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I had a consultation meeting with this skincare professional right away today. 

I felt very uncomfortable, I mean I have no job atm, its expensive, I already look attractive and my skin doesnt deform me or anything, its just a slight aesthetic inconvenience. 

The women doing the consulation there also wasnt really that warm, everything was super bright white (literally the whole room and all the items) and she talked basically purely professionally with me. I eased into it after 10mins or so and finally owed my vanity. 

So the best option I basically have is laser on my cheeks where it is possible that 1 or 2 sittings are enough for 67 Euro a session and for the forehead she also offered treatments in the same price range, it would be more treatments though.