The Princess Diaries

[Princess Arabia]

When a volcano erupts, it just erupts. No volcano management needed. Volcanos don't go around explaining away why it erupts, it just does. When a hurricane comes, it just comes. No hurricane management needed. Preparation by humans and some species, yes, but the hurricane doesn't say to itself I wonder why i'm going to hit, why do I hit these towns and cities, I need to fix that. No, it just rams itself into existence and leaves like nothing ever happened. Same with a tsunami and any other natural disaster.

A fly doesn't go to therapy because it keeps buzzing in your ear, it doesn't think to fix the fact that it eats dog shit then pitches on your burger in a grilling fest. A roach doesn't care that it invests your home and ants doesn't care that they form a line around the front yard and creep inside to steal your bread. 

The wind doesn't give a shit whose wig it blows off and whose skirt pops up because it blows, it doesn't care who is in it's way and it doesn't seek therapy and wind management for its destruction. The sun burns your skin and doesn't give a shit. It doesn't wonder who will suntan today and get burnt, whoever is in its way will feel it's wrath and it doesn't apologize for it. 

Now, all of those scenarios I just mentioned when they happen, we deal with it, we don't ask the hurricane for an explanation as to why it's coming and we don't look for answers and question a roach as to why it creepy crawls on our bed and we don't inquire about why the earthquake hit and destroyed our town, we just simply move on and adapt to nature's wrath. We just simply say a hurricane is coming, let's prepare. We don't take it personally and say the hurricane is coming for me, or a hurricane happened to me; no it's a hurricane and that's it.

Here's the thing. It's the same with feelings, emotions, seeming wrong doings, corruption, envy, fear, accidents, anger, whatever. They just come without any warning. I'm going to be angry now so please move out the way. Who says that. No, anger just arises. It comes and it goes just like an earthquake or hurricane. What us humans do with these emotions, however, is take them personally. We expect others to explain away why nature hits. It's my anger so I must explain why I was angry. I never have to apologize for a hurricane blowing your house away, but i'm expected to apologize for anger arising. Same with anything that offends a human, that we take personally. It's just anger, but we see it as my anger. I will get flux for saying this and it will be mistaken as shunning responsibility for actions taken and that's OK, I'm exposing truth. You want truth here it is. This is why I say humans can't handle truth. 

The truth is, there's nothing that belongs to you, not even suffering; it's just suffering. Not even anger, love, jealousy, rage, honesty, corruption, lies, peace, happiness, judgment, criticisms, you name it. None of it is yours. None of it is aimed at you. If someone tells you to your face that you're a piece of shit, you will not look at it the same way as if a tornado hit you in the face and tore your arm off. You will not tell that tornado to apologize and that it hurt you. It's the same thing only different object. Why then do we tell the person you rejected me, hurt me, traumatized me, embarrassed me and not go tell the earthquake while it's happening to apologize or that it's hurting me.

No, we as humans are different. We have a sense that whatever looks like us is just like us or we relate to what looks like us personally. The hurricane doesn't have a heart, neither does a pen. So we don't blame the pen for stabbing us we blame the heartless criminal for using the pen to stab us. The hurricane that used the zinc to slit out throats in passing isn't blamed and ostracized, we just deal with it and say nature is a beast and we don't blame the zinc.

To be human is horrible, it's the worst thing that could have ever happened in nature. That sense that has bestowed itself upon us is human's demise. We suffer because of it and personalize everything because of it. It is also in animals but the difference is, animals don't take it personally. They will fear you, but they don't look at it as you did me wrong, it's just fear but they've associated that fear with something - you; so now they run when they see you out of instinct. (Example there). They don't see it as 'my fear' or 'my trauma' it's just fear and trauma appearing. Us however, it's personal and if it wasn't personal, we wouldn't have to create stories about those fears or whatever happened. What happened just happened but because we have the capacity, we invent and create stories behind those fears and whatever else happens and now it's happening to me, by me and for me. 

It's a fucking demise and a sad situation - us humans. That sense is nothing but a bitch and we clap and congratulate a baby for being born and cry when we die. A baby cries at birth and a human is silent at death. I wonder why.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited July 23 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

Imagine that you lived forever. I don't mean like we never die and we weren't born type shit. I mean your life as you know it right now but without death. Not that death is a concept and the Absolute only appears as a dead body with no one inside, type shit. Not as there's no one, type shit but you actually lived forever and ever and ever and ever in this same world and with your same life FOREVER. What are you depressed and sad about. We should be rejoicing life that it gives us some type of relief. Imagine if this was forever and there was nothing you could do about it, not even the s word because it just couldn't happen. Happy yet. 

Edited July 24 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

Leo says to look and stare at the hand for hrs to see that it's imaginary. No, looking and staring at the hand may reveal that the looker is imaginary, not the hand. There is no looker, it's just looking happening. I say reveal, but that's simply energy and revealing is happening but to no one. 

I'd say looking through the eyes but not for hrs it only takes a few minutes here for that revelation. It's still illusory but the effect is what I'm speaking of. Look through the eyes. It's quite obvious there's just seeing happening and no one is looking. This is also why I state that I'm looking at the same thing you're looking at but see the same thing with a different set of eyes. Seeing isn't separate from what appears, the seer is seeming to be, but isn't really because there is no actual seer, ony appears to be. That's why I said, the looker is imaginary not the hand. 

Edited July 26 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

The reason we feel feelings and call them our own is because there is no separation between the body and feelings nor an ice-cream truck or a hat. There is no sense that senses a hat to be visceral or have a visceral effect so we don't associate a hat with feelings only maybe an object that's owned or not. We don't feel a hat or that car because it's not a part of the separate sense's  package but feelings are because it innately feels something is wrong already with what's appearing so feelings is a part of its illusory nature there to be felt.

 

Feelings aren't ours but its interpreted that way because of that separate sense. It is literally felt in the body and is not illusory on its own, it's like a package. I feel sad. No sadness appears. No separation, so automatically, because of the sense of perception and the IAM sense, it automatically claims that sadness. Seeing a car isn't claimed as a feeling because first of all it's not actually seeing a car and secondly a car isn't a feeling. Feelings are just feelings but because of its nature it will be felt even though that feeling belongs to to one and us felt by no one the same as a car is seen by no one.  

[Princess Arabia]

That sense of self separation is so narcissistic, neurotic and arrogant and also self-centered. It believes it's more special than others. Thinks it's capable of seeing God while excluding the rest of society that doesn't do certain spiritual practices. Does the sun only shine for the special and privileged or the moon; and does the rain decides to only water some gardens. Nature doesn't discriminate, only people do. Why would God reserve it's presence for practices and processes. Why would it take to have to know about certain things or be fortunate enough to stumble upon certain teachings to be able to see God, have a realization or know that you are God. This is so ridiculous, it's past ridiculous. 

What about the normal average man on the street that doesn't know or even heard of such a thing. He would live his whole life ignorant to this. Why would God even allow for some and not others. God didn't reserve air and gravity for some and left out the rest, it pertains to all. The moon isn't hidden from some (unless you're in prison), and the sun doesn't need a process to be accessed. Why God. Why enlightenment and awakening. This is just utter delusion. 

What I'm saying here is, when it comes to such matters (not worldly things and achievements), everyone and everything is included. There is no God hidden somewhere to be realized and no person is more special than a frog - just different in appearance. Why is it that frogs, ants, roaches and squirrels weren't made to realize something of this magnitude. A squirrel recognizes a peanut and a walnut and a tree. It knows what to do with those things naturally without being taught or having to learn or practice. It's nature at it's finest. A roach recognizes water and food and knows how to eat and run from people to survive. That's all it does, pretty much. Why would a roach only know how to do all those things and then die but not have the capacity to get enlightened, or to realize God. God that's so great and mighty. That's not fair that only humans have this capacity. Poor animals and trees and mountains. Such a mundane existence to just be that and not able to experience the most wonderful thing imaginable - to recognize GOD.

Such crap, such delusion and thinking we're so special. Why is a drug addict not rich and living it's best life. Why are the rich and wealthy still miserable and lonely and depressed. We think that there are people who are more fortunate than others. No, there are no people and there are no others. It's just the Absolute being everything and everyone. If that's the case, who is doing the recognizing of a God. Who will be getting enlightened and who is awakening. These are just experiences for the one that thinks it's separate and alive living in a world that is separate from it. It's energy. That sense arose in that body and it is what's living it's own reality and being delusional. Luckily, it's not really happening and all is well. All I just said is a projection from this energetic force that thinks it's also living in a world with others. Nothing of the sort is happening and, thank God, it's a dream. I'm not dreaming because there is no "I". This is the dream talking. 

It's quite obvious that it's all a play and noone is doing anything. I just can't be the only one seeing that there's no one here and that the eyes are seeing from separate bodies the same things and that there is a God to be realized from some drug. I reminisce on this everyday and I see that there's simply magic happening and stories being told in Playland and how I'm making all this up as I live in my own bubble of dreamland and how someday, which will never come because I won't be around to see it, it will all be over and I'll just disappear into the absence that THIS IS. SOB SOB!! There's no one here or out there. SOB SOB!! Tears are literally flowing from these eyes. I'm just in my own bubble making all this shit up, to feel alive. There's a sense here that senses that. No one is out there nor here. I've been avoiding this sense my whole damn life.

 

 

Edited July 29 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

What is Freedom.

Freedom is all there is. There is nothing but Freedom. It isn't personal and it cannot be felt. Nothing struggles to be what it is. Nothing is in chains and shackles. Suffering isn't trying to be suffering and struggling to be suffering and isn't bounded. Limitation doesn't struggle to be limited. There is nothing outside of limitation limiting limitation. There is nothing to stop limitation from being itself. A person behind bars and in a prison isn't struggling to be a person behind bars and in a prison. Do you see them half in prison and half out. Trying to make it to prison and half way out of prison. No they're in prison. That's the situation. Nothing struggling to be what it is there. Stupidity is never free to not be stupidity. Do you see stupidity in chains and shackles trying to be stupid. Does it struggle to be stupid. Free as a bird to be stupid. 

Hatred. When does hatred strains itself and resist itself. Hatred never tries to be love. It's hatred and it's free as a bird to be hatred. There's nothing that can stop hatred from being hatred. Replace it, yes, but nothing else can be hatred itself. A non-working fan. Freedom again. Doesn't struggle to be a non-working fan. An earthquake. When have you seen an earthquake not free to be an earthquake. Nothing stops anything from being what it is. Everything is free to be what it is. A concept. Free to ve a concept. Let me see you stop a concept from being a concept. Doubt. Anyone ever stopped doubt in it's tracts. Stopping doubt. Anyone ever stopped 'stopping doubt' in it's tracks. Understanding, free to be understanding and nothing else can be understanding. Not understanding. Again, free to be not understanding. 

You thinking this post doesn't make sense. Nothing stopping that from happening. Where was the struggle in you thinking this post doesn't make sense. There is nothing but effortlessness. Trying to be something you're not doesn't take any effort to be that. Show me something that takes effort to be. Struggling is effortless. Isn't chained and shackled. Struggling is free as a bird to be struggling. There is nothing, and I mean nothing. that is in chains and shackles to be what is. That also includes circumstances, ideas, thoughts and any action, I mean everything. 

THAT'S FREEDOM. There's nothing but freedom and nothing can or is stopping anything from being what it is. The problem is it's not personal and is not for anyone and is free to even be as slavery, shackles and confinement. What you seek is liberation. Liberation from what. The self. Can't happen. The self can only be the self. It cannot be anything else. There is no freedom from or for anything. That's limiting freedom. Liberation cannot be attained. That's also a limitation. All is already free and liberation is already the case. The one that says that's horseshit, needs to question how saying that's horseshit was in shackles and couldn't be expressed freely as saying that's horseshit. Saying this is horseshit took no effort. Everything is effortless. Even constraints needs no effort to be constraints. 

This is what freedom is and it is all there is. 

 

[Princess Arabia]

The person is constantly working on themselves. Constantly trying to find peace and happiness. The tool kit is always out except when in sleep. Knock, knock knocking away at themselves. If I do this, then this WILL happen. Always in the next. Always hoping for something else other than what is. There is no next; there is no what if's there is no I will be; and there are no future endeavors. Please show me any of those things. Show me. Do you see any 'next' occurring but only as a projection and as a concept and idea. 'I will be' where is it. It's an idea projected unto reality. 

The person is a projection machine. No reality on it's own. It needs relationship to survive. It needs to be held up by something or the other. Typical construction site. Tapping away with the tool kit. Always more and never satisfied. It prides itself on it's achievements and it's yearning for excellence and high ambitions. It needs that to feel a certain way because how it feels now isn't good enough. It takes it's perceived feelings to be it's own but just as $5 isn't enough to buy a car, it needs more achievements and goals and whatever else to be able to purchase more expensive feelings. 

Sadness, unhappiness, guilt, shame, unworthiness, are all cheap feelings not worth much, it strives for happiness, fulfillment, joy, excitement, bliss, those are Armani suits and the Lamborghini's of feelings. Those are worth something. Only peasants and slaves and broke people should be feeling cheap feelings, I want to feel expensive feelings. This is pretty much the same thing as what's going on in materialism. It's just projected unto spirituality and self-improvement instead. Then we look down on the poor people who are the religious ones, the ones that aren't highly conscious and go to bars and drink beer all day or watch twerking videos. These people are cheap and are investing in cheap feelings, the spiritualist says. I'm investing in top-notch feelings and feelings of an elite nature. Most are sad and miserable, that's Walmart stuff, I want to feel like Nordstrom and Calvin Klein so I will be still and meditate and go to a silent retreat. Yeah, that'll do it.

NEVER LASTS. Always will be more and more and when those things don't work it turns to psychedelics and then more and more dosages gradually increasing then that gets burnt out for something else and it never stops..,..,WHEW!!! All along THIS is what it searches for but it's not extravagant enough. Not enough lighting and effects. Not enough adrenaline. The wrong type of adrenaline. It wants to feel divine and holy and fulfilled. It wants the EMPIRE. HEAVEN. PARADISE. This is it and there's nothing else. All is happening are empty experiences with empty results that leads nowhere. Show me someone that has gotten anywhere - spiritually speaking. The construction site always gets knocked back down to WHAT IS HAPPENING and what is happening is all there is....NEVER WHAT WILL HAPPEN. The tool kit can never produce the future, it can only produce what is and what is is never enough. So it will never be satisfied, fulfilled or at peace permanently. Practice all you want. A practice can never supply fulfillment. A practice is just that a practice. It can only result in effects just as practicing lifting weights can result in bigger muscles. Stop practicing and the muscles go away. They never had a reality on their own. It's all a pipe dream and no one wakes up. The illusion is that there was never an illusion to begin with. Never a person doing these things to begin with. All energy. energy seeks to energize itself. To become something other than what it is. It can't. It deluded itself thinking it can. It is also the thinking and the delusion. That's why it never gets anywhere than where it is already. It's everything and what's everything is all there is. IT'S DONE. 

[Princess Arabia]

There is no suggestion here that anything needs to change or anyone needs to start or stop doing anything. Nothing I say or write is suggesting that. It's all free flowing writing and energy expressing. Life is perfect and nothing needs to change. Thought I'd make a note of that.

[Princess Arabia]

What happens with the seeking energy is it tends to think there's something of importance to attend to; not wasting time with a bunch of morons on a forum. This is useless gibber gash, we need to write books and do some shadow work and go to retreats and figure out life and all the seeming important stuff that it deems important. If that's not happening, then whatever is happening is unimportant and serves no purpose.

Leo is also expected to live up to an idea we have of him and what importance looks and feel like. It doesn't look like an administrator who spends all day on a forum he designed and put a lot of hard work into to make this post even possible; and it doesn't feel like just sitting at home or wherever reading a bunch of posts from ordinary people. That's not a extravagant enough and seems like a waste of time taking away from doing extraordinary things. Things that can give the me it's expensive taste in feelings. 

You must be doing this or that or else it's a waste of time; meanwhile doing the very same thing it said was a waste of time. I'm referring to Alexop's post to Leo but don't feel like getting into an argument about it so I'm expressing my views and thoughts about it here. If he reads this, he's free to comment.

When we look around us, the clues are everywhere, but only if you know what to look for. People who constantly bash this place and the people here but are always coming back for more is a sign of an unstable seeking energy looking for something it cannot find. They have put Leo up on a pedestal and without even realizing it; and when he doesn't live up to their standards of whatever idea they have in their heads about him, it's problematic and the projection begins. It's your fault, Leo, you spend too much time here at home where you built and take pride in, you should be out there writing books and teaching courses so I can invest in some high-stake feelings. You're not helping me by sitting around answering nonsensical questions all day and I'm left in the cold because I want to not feel lonely so I come here but I'm not happy with our relationship. 

I write about these kinds of things all the time, I'm just pointing out a real-life example of what I'm referring to. I spoke about high-end feelings before and how we yearn to feel them and many more things that plays out right in real time. I don't just make shit up, might interpret wrongly at times, but my observational skills are to the roof and curiousity sense ain't going nowhere. I'm very curious about life and I'm constantly observing myself and other. No such thing, but it certainly seems that way to the dream and dreamer. I'm back and forth, back and forth, dream, no dream, reality, no reality, existence, no existence, like the waves. It's fun and because attachment isn't the case it can appear sporadically and all over the place.

 

[Princess Arabia]

Of course suffering arises here. Why wouldn't it. There's no separation between anything. You think there's something I can do to keep suffering over there while I'm over here. It's simply energy. It's free flowing and can be felt and sensed at anytime. There's nothing that i can do or not do to stop that sense the same way there's no stopping or starting the smell sense or taste sense. The responses to circumstances might not be as intense or as contracted, so the suffering sense might not hit as hard or for very long or it might, nothing here can pre-determine how energy responds. 

The neurotic sense of self can see it as "my suffering" and I need to do something about it. That's what neurosis looks and feels like. I speak about that too. No one sees this much because it pervades throughout society and just about everyone is 'infected' so it seems to be the norm. Energy running around like some neurotic fool thinking and believing life is about it, everything is happening to it and it has power to turn on or off what happens. It's illusory, and has no power. It is the very 'thing' it tries to eradicate. It cannot stand outside of itself and do something to something else or stop something from happening. IT IS EVERY FUCKING THING. Energy has no power; it is power. It has no choice in the matter, it is choice. It has no say so even though it tries. 

This is what you see with people. It's energy. All sorts of dysfunctional energetic behaviors. It's like charging a car using the same charger you charge a phone with. It just fucking explodes and produce all sorts of erratic behavior and then tries to fix itself while all along there wasn't any car being charged with the wrong charger but energy at play, playing with itself. Nothing to fix and no one really being out of place and being neurotic only seems that way. Observer energy sees wrong and right and criticizes and judges. I say I'm always observing and am curious about life. Suffering energy loves that. It loves to play with that. Good news is something here recognizes it's all a fucking play and it doesn't get too serious about it so suffering doesn't linger around too long. You'll never see me posting looking for advice about anything suffering related. It's a dead-end battle. Suffering isn't happening, there's an observer present and observes suffering to be happening and claims it. The observer is illusory, so all suffering related problems are also illusory. Something here gets that, sees that, and would laugh at itself if it ever took that suffering seriously. This is me and don't expect to project that unto other and will be compassionate about others' suffering, but ut's quite obvious here no one is suffering and nothing is wrong. When I'm sleep....tadaah, when I'm awake.....tadaah.,observer effect.....illusion. 

[Princess Arabia]

We will build AI's, phones that can talk back, robots that can do just about everything a human can and humans will still believe there's a person inside these bodies. We will say robots and AI's don't have souls and can't think or have consciousness or have a heart or truly love or whatever beliefs we will come up with why they'll never take the place of humans. That's how arrogant and cocky humans are. What does it even mean to be a human. We've made up all types of stories on what it means. All types of meanings will be said. We don't even know what thoughts are and where they come from and without a mirror we wouldn't even know what the back of our heads and butt holes look like, but we want to claim autonomy and want to be authentic. We can't even stop ourselves from suffering and we cry and whine like babies when things don't go our way, yet we want to claim autonomy and control and have free will.

What it means to be human - cocky, arrogant, self-serving, neurotic, narcissistic, vindictive, jealous, hateful, fearful, envious, cowardly, selfish, ungrateful, psychopathic, paranoid, egotistical, and everything in between and also every opposite of every word said. Ever seen a neurotic or a jealous stone. Ever seen a tree being vindictive. Ever felt hate from a rose. Ever seen a mountain acting cowardly. Yes, we have positive traits, but I'm stressing on the negative one's because that's what humans do. We love negativity. I'm being human. 

All made up, all labels we've put on ourselves, all invented. No such thing as a human. No such thing as anything. It's all energy, whatever that is. It's not a thing but can transform into anything. The human energy is just the most narcissistic, neurotic and most loving of them all; yes, most loving and that's why we exude all those other 'off-loving traits' because those are also expressions of love. Love is the absence of separation and humans are the only species that feels separate and therefore all those traits are a result of that feeling. There's no one inside, just energy transforming.

 

Edited Saturday at 11:57 AM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

We say this is duality and there's an opposite to everything. Hot/cold, tall/short, up/down, in/out. What's the opposite of free will and choice? That probably doesn't, to some, have an opposite. It's always free will and choice for the cocky and arrogant human except for when they're suffering and the moment of death or to choose never to sleep again or never take a shit again or to unsee this post or the free will to think differently about this post.

Shit just happens. Even the choice to believe in free will just happens. No one chooses to believe or not to believe in free will. Even that isn't of one's free will. Let me see you 'unbelieve' in free will right now on the spot or believe in free will right now on the spot or believe or unbelieve in anything right on the spot. Can't happen because you didn't do it in the first place. Infact, there's not even a person believing in anything. Belief is just simply happening. Hard to compute for the arrogant little bastards who think they're in control of anything, yet we can't even choose to sneeze or not to sneeze ever again. 

Edited Saturday at 12:13 PM by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

Notice how defensive and triggered you get when someone speaks down on another someone who either changed your life for the positive, taught you something of value that you deeply appreciated, respect and admire and sometimes even idolize, etcetc. Always about me. Don't you dare talk bad about that person, they changed MY life, they were of value to ME. I bought an expensive feeling from them. You're attacking MY credibility when you attack them. You're saying I'M a fool for investing in the feelings that person bestowed upon ME. 

Notice, the person in defense mode or explanation mode as to why that person doesn't deserve the 'bad talk', will more than likely say something that that person 'did for ME', changed in MY life. Me, me, me, me, me, me, me. Don't give too shits about that person; only what they did for me, me, me, me, me, me. 

Don't believe me, take notes. Don't believe anything I say, take notes. See it for yourselves. Don't you love to go by direct experience. One will say, what's wrong with that. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. The difference is we seek authenticity. There's no such thing when life is just about me, me, me, me, me. Nothing authentic about me, me, me, me, me. Me doesn't even exist. 

[Princess Arabia]

Now the human wants to meditate it's way into stopping thought. Humans didn't produce or create thought so how can humans stop thought. It's like suicide. The human is the thought. Suffocating itself. No wonder some experience heart palpitations during certain meditations. You all think this spirituality thing is a joke. It's a shock to the body's natural systems. Spirituality is man-made, an ideology, ideas and concepts. The body is real. The body is not an illusion, you are, the person is; but the body can feel the effects. Lots of spiritual people have gone insane or develop some type of dis-ease. 

[Princess Arabia]

Humans are seemingly putting rocks in the river of flowing water. The river is flowing smoothly and we put rocks and pebbles so it disrupts the flowing movement of the river. It's still energy. Energetic. No one is doing that. It is it's own creation and destruction; seemingly so because energy cannot be created or destroyed only apparently. This shit is crazy weird. Infinite. Nothing is stopping anything from happening. It's all done. The effects feel real, though.

[Princess Arabia]

The man with the pants hanging down off his ass cheeks who loves rap music and drives a mustang or walks in the hood with 3 baby mamas VS the man with a long white beard, a robe and wearing a colorful dress with pants underneath and a red dot between his forehead and sitting in a lotus position on a mat on the floor saying the same exact things (spiritually speaking) and talking about reality and consciousness and the likes......which one would be believed in more and taken more seriously. That's the self-deception we've created in ourselves. Don't fool yourselves. Do you think you can undo the thought that arose when you envisioned both and the belief that came with the vision. We're trying to do the impossible, become something else that isn't. Override what we've created. It's all a dream. Dream of what could be, what can become, dream of next, dream of continuity, dream of hope and what can be. This is why it's called a dream. It isn't based on what is, but what seems to be and what seems to be happening and what might happen. Let's open ourselves up to the cosmos is dream dreaming.

[Princess Arabia]

This is just a story, but when I first came on this forum I was so naive spiritually speaking. I've grown a tremendous lot and have pretty much gone full circle. I'm not feeding into the ego's bullshit and not saying things people want to hear. When they get backed into a corner, their only defense is to accuse me of being advaitwhatever. I don't listen to advaita and I don't watch teachings to get anything from spiritually. Only Leo and a very few I might take notes on; and Leo, only because he says some radical things that I see to be the case, but I also pick and choose there what sticks. 

Doesn't matter, though, as I'm not looking to get anywhere spiritually. That's all illusion and pipe-dream stuff. Nothing needs to be done. Who the fuck am I. It's all the dog chasing it's own tail anyway and the crabs trying to grab the other crab from getting drowned. People are too blind to see this because they're too busy looking. 

[Princess Arabia]

There is nowhere to go and nothing to get. Only to the store and work and to get an ass whooping or to get laid. Expect no one to give you anything that will last and without you wanting more and that includes all gurus and all spiritual teachings. IT'S AN ADDICTION FOR THE SENSE OF SEPARATION. You'll still end up typing away, reading away and looking up at the sky hoping for redemption. This is it. Don't believe me, give it time and that's exactly how it happens. TIME. No such thing. That's the sense of separation itself. There isn't the appearance of time and the appearance of the sense of self, both are one of the same.

[Princess Arabia]

See God in that twerker. That twerker has no idea how it's twerking. That's Divine intelligence twerking.

See God in stupidity. That stupid person has no idea how to do stupid, it just is. Ask a stupid person how it became stupid and it wouldn't be able to tell you without it being a story. 

How to see God in everything. Realize that God is the seeing itself. God doesn't see, the seeing is God. The eyes aren't seeing. It's just seeing. The eyes are merely a costume. A blind man is no different than a man that seems to see. Same with hearing. Hearing loss is not a thing. Hearing just isn't happening.

[Princess Arabia]

This is what I think is happening, but I don't know; here goes:

I think I'm here. What I experience is all there is. Say I'm in my room now typing, all that exists is what's in my direct experience. If I get a call from my, say, my sister, telling me about her vacation in Paris, that's just a call from my sister telling me about her vacation in Paris. Sister doesn't really exist and neither does Paris. Just a voice telling me a story I assume is my sister. Say, she gets me a ticket next month to go vacay with her in Paris. I go to Paris. Paris exists then, the plane, the bodies on the way to the airport the trees the airport and so on, exists then but only then. Any other time it's a story, an idea and a memory. 

I come back home and Paris only exists as a memory now. My sister calls on the phone and it's just a body talking or a voice I'm hearing. If she comes to my house, then she exists but still only as a body but with nothing inside. If I was a masochist and chopped her to pieces, I would see blood and bones and whatever else. That's just if and a story. Not happening, so I can't even say that. If someone on the forum tells me they're from China and how beautiful China is, doesn't prove China exists, i just saw words typing on a screen. All that I experienced was me on my computer reading a comment. The comment exists, but China is just a thought and an idea then. Say I end up in China one day, doesn't mean China existed then but it exists now. When I leave China doesn't exist anymore. If I get a call from someone I met on my trip to China saying nice meeting you, come back soon, all that exists is a voice telling me to come back soon, still no China. If I watch the news about China, all that exists is a TV screen with someone talking about China. Pictures shown - even live, still no China just a TV screen with pixels depicting China.

This goes for everything else. Say I have to go to school in the morning and have been for three years. That school only exists when I go there, other times it's memory. I say there's no world, only what appears in my experience. Everything else would be memory, stories, ideas and concepts and thoughts. No cosmos. Only what I can see in the moment that I look up, nothing else. Everything regarding the cosmos are stories I'm hearing. What would exist is what I would directly see when I loom up in the sky and nothing else. If there's no sun then and I see a sun in the morning, that's when the sin actually exists. There is no moon then. No galaxies or trillions of stars, only what I can see in my direct experience.

This bubble goes on and follows me everywhere I go. The back of my head doesn't even exist until I either touch it or look in the mirror at it or someone talks about it and even then, that's just someone talking about it, doesn't mean it's actually there. I would ho on to say this goes for everyone else. They exist too but only to themselves. Say I'm talking to someone in person, thats me talking to them and them talking to me but I'm just a body to them and they're just a body to me, but I'm really here and they're just a body. To them, they're really there but I'm just a body to them. Everyone is really here but existence to them is only what they can see and experience and the same with me. There is a world but this world is my world and your world is your world. Nothing exists apart from either and that's how all this operates and nothing is actually here but what I consider my feelings, hearing, touchings, smellings, tastings. Same with other. 

So there is no creation. I can only see but so far and whatever I can see is all that exists and nothing is being all that in that moment and nothing else. I won't even go over that nonsense to check for errors as it was just automatic writing, I'll just leave this silly post as it is.