The Princess Diaries

[AION]

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[Princess Arabia]

1 minute ago, AION said:

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.....and what is that emoji, may I ask. What does it mean? Looks like a frog.

Edited June 18 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

I'm finding myself not really resonating with anything anymore. Not against, and not for, just neutral. I might speak on things, disagree with things (I'm talking spiritually), but the disagreements are merely just beliefs and perspectives, which aren't real or factual anyway. Just a way of interacting with life and expression. If I see where someone says something on a spiritual level, I see it mostly as words talking. So what, is it true or not; so what, is it false;  so what, do I agree; so what. I might respond or I may not. I put up an argument less now because I realize that none of it is true and all of it is true; none and all of it is false in the sense that it's what is. 

There are different explanations, different, meanings and interpretations, different opinions, ideologies, perspectives, perceptions.....you name it. Which one is true and which false. My thing is it doesn't matter much as it's all nothing BEING IT ALL. Me resonating with any is a position and localized so it has to be false because whatever this is, is not. It's everything so nothing is true or false. On the relative level, yes, but relativity is also the Absolute so that's also a matter of what is. 

I also feel sometimes I act from the sense of I and also not from the sense of I. Makes no sense, that statement, which means it's not from the sense of I. I wouldn't have said something like that because it definitely doesn't make any sense to say I'm acting from me and acting from not me. That's what I mean. Even though there's no one in this body, I still feel the sense of it but sometimes I also don't feel as if everything done or said is from that sense. There are times when it feels automatic without a conscious being behind it and sometimes it does. It's weird. I'm not saying I feel unconscious or act from a state of low-consciousness, I'm saying sometimes it seems the body is acting on it's own but realized by something other than the sense of a me. Like I'm not seeing the body acting and saying to myself, look at the body move. It's after the fact that I reflected and either said I don't recall a felt sense of presence when that act was being done. Hard to explain.

 

 

 

Edited June 19 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

The sense of a separate identity is so neurotic and unstable, it tries it's best to cope, to become, to not do, not act as. It doesn't realize it's not those things it's avoiding being already and that it's only a felt sense, it thinks it can act it's way into being the Absolute. The Absolute can appear neurotic, looking for the absence of the separate self not realizing it is appearing as a separate self and that the separate self it thinks itself to be isn't really there. 

It likes to play the game of hide and seek with itself. It can't escape itself because it's everything, but it can surely appear as if it's not. This is me writing as if I'm saying something to an other. Then when other responds, it affirms that other. What if I was to go about life and in a world where no one ever responds to me. I talk to people but they don't acknowledge my presence. Everywhere and everybody. Do you think I'd feel as if I'm alive or here. No I'd go insane or thought I was dead. Well, that's what happens with the sense of a separate self, everybody confirms it but because it's not really there, there tends to be neurosis that arises and a tendency to develop dis-ease and feels traumatized and depressed and anxious. The body senses a person there but gets confused because there's no one really there and it throws it off-balance through the nervous system. Dysfunction galore. Therapy galore. Guru galore. Worshipping galore. Bipolar, Adhd, Ocd, narcissism, psychopath galore, all types of personality disorders can arise from this dis-ease of the body feeling a sense of self. Thus the need for balancing with the aid of teachers, gurus, priests, gods, idols, therapists.....you name it. And the stories continue.......FOREVER because there is no end nor beginning to the Absolute that's being all these 'things'. Oh my!!

[Princess Arabia]

R.I.P Anne Burrell. I used to watch you back in the day when I was glued to the Food Network Channel. Rachael Ray taught me how to cook delicious recipes just from watching her 30min meals program and I learnt a lot from the network on how to prepare meals especially Mediterranean style cuisine. I would sit there with pen and paper and make notes and write recipes down for future reference and your show was one of them. I enjoyed your show amongst many others of which one was Iron Chef. I remember when you beat Bobby Flay. Loved your hair and style and you were one of the greatest chefs on the Network. I was shocked to see the report of your passing. We surely lost a great chef and cook. 

[Princess Arabia]

This is pure magic. Magic surrounds us everyday. We've just gotten used to it. Imagine seeing the same trick for 20-80years. Not magical, but pure raw magic. It's all magic. It's fucking magic. Magic, magic, magic. Nothing but magic. 

[Princess Arabia]

Tons of songs have clues in them. This is one. The Absolute speaks through music, as music, for music.

Edited June 20 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

Freedom is searching for freedom. What a joke.

[Princess Arabia]

The Absolute is very child-like in nature. It borns itself just as it is and then blossoms and blooms into all there is. 

[Princess Arabia]

Stevie Wonder isn't blind and you do not see. 

[Princess Arabia]

I like talking and writing about this stuff. There are no teachings here. This is just simply expression. It's a joy and a genuine curiosity that emerges here about life and it's expressions of love. The curiosity that comes with awe and wonder. It energizes me, everything about it. Even the lows are looked at with awe and wonder. Seeing how they come and go, seeing how they flow with the highs, seeing how I can get so sad and miserable one minute and joyous the next. I look at all that in awe and wonder and with curiosity. 

I am amazed at life. I'm amazed even when I'm not amazed. Even when I'm miserable sad and suffering. I'm amazed at the mundane stuff, i'm amazed at people, I'm amazed at when I'm feeling shitty and feeling happy. I'm amazed at everything. Not amazed as in looking all excited and happy and all that, no, but amazed to myself as to it just being here. All of it. I will cry for no reason and laugh for no reason. Sometimes I wonder if I'm insane. I'm amazed at the thoughts, the way I see things, the way I act sometimes, it's all amazing. Not nice and lovely, but amazing. i don't see amazing as good and fluffy and all great and all i see amazing as the fact that anything is at all. I'm amazed at death - that is the most amazing thing to me, death. I cannot fathom death so it's amazing to me that there's even such a thing. I won't get into the concepts and how it's not real and blah blah, for now it is and I'm amazed that one can be living one moment and the next moment not. Everything is amazing, even an ant. Even when I just want to die, that amazes me. So, this here isn't talking about happiness but amazement; to me it's all amazing just because and for no reason. I don't know why, it just is.

Edited June 20 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

People are only basically looking for happiness because they're uncomfortable feeling sad. Getting comfortable feeling sad is the recipe to happiness. Being happy about feeling sad. Not feeling happy about feeling sad. BEING happy about FEELING SAD. That's hard to do but when you instill it within that the sadness won't last forever, that will BE something to be happy about. Neurosis is what leads to all this anxiety about needing to feel happy all the time. Getting comfortable with life's ups and downs and realizing the nature of it all is the recipe for peace and understanding that peace can also be disturbed in the world of duality. We're wanting the unchangeable in a world of change. If that's not neurotic, I don't know what is. It's amazing, see, that also amazes me. 

[Princess Arabia]

There's no need to talk about people and how they approach spirituality. I hope I catch myself doing that, if I ever do. It's a personal thing and everyone approaches it differently. It's no sacred or divine than anything else because it's ALL sacred and divine equally. The mind has made the distinction. Not saying we need to treat it as such, but to recognize it for what it really is. Treat it special, yes, but realize it's a bias. You're saying God or the Absolute is conditional and limited if you think spirituality is special and divine. That's just for human corruption and self-gratification.

We don't go in the health section and say, you're acting like a health nut and that you know everything and thinking you're some kind of expert on the matter or in the dating section and say you're not a coach so you have no business giving advice or even responding or saying someone has no business talking on the matter because it's divine stuff, why do it with spirituality. It's all a matter of pov's and how we see things personally. That's what a forum is for as long as we're not crossing the guidelines. Disagreements happen and that's to be expected. Spirituality talk is just that, talk. It's to be respected, though just as anything else in life and not be singled out or else we're singling out the whole for our benefit and how we see fit. I'm guilty too, so I'm also talking and messaging myself as a reminder.

[Princess Arabia]

Children are so loveable and great to observe. They don't have a care in the world and they're not trying to impress or be a particular way. They just act. They do without thinking and are spontaneous and free. They always put a smile on my face. They have temper tantrums because, instinctively, they just want what they want, no excuses. They need to be trained and disciplined and told what to do and not do because they are raw and direct. They are without filters and a sense of identity. The very young ones.

Both children and animals put a smile on my face except for barking dogs. I grew up with barking dogs and open gates and I developed a small tiny phobia surrounding that. Jamaica didn't have dog rules and laws and they would just roam freely around the neighborhood. Mongrel dogs. Most were tame and of no threat and the ones that were, were usually behind a gate, but sometimes you'd get a couple that were not and started barking at you. Never run from a barking dog, just act normal. I was a kid then and never got bit by a dog, but just the sound of one barking gives me the creeps. I'll pet a dog now especially over here in the states where most are just house pets, but I'll ask first if it's ok. Little chihuahuas don't scare me but the Rottweilers do. I've never petted a Rottweiler. I love service dogs, so quiet and loveable and smart. I just love animals.

My fav, of course, are cats but I like them all. I love going to the zoo. Some people don't like the zoo because they see them as caged animals that need to be in the wild. They don't understand that most of those animals wouldn't survive in the wild as they were born in a zoo and that's all they know. My favs at the zoo are the monkeys, tigers, apes and dolphins. I like the elephants too. So intelligent. 

Edited June 21 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

"God is pure power". That explains the power dynamic in humans. Why it's so essential to obtain it for some. Energy is power. When we're separate and seeking, we seek for things we deem we're lacking in. It's very painful - separation that is. If we have no power over something, we feel worthless and useless and lacking purpose and value. Power gives a kind of control over things and that's where the ego gets it's strength and motivation from. Without it (power), it weakens it.

I'm just writing out my contemplations and having new insights from what Razaard just wrote on Squaad's post about God not caring about people's struggles. New way of seeing things and I'll try to fit it into my existing views to see if it fits. If there's a missing link, that's OK too because it will just open the doorway for more curiosity and musings. I never have a closed book. It's always open.

[Princess Arabia]

I'm still trying to wrap my head around this Truth thing. For me Truth is simply what is. From reading Leo's new blog post, I see his version of Truth seems more nuanced. More involved, More relative, though, and not Absolute. I think what he means by Truth and Truth seeking is on the relative domain. The Truth about the world; how to live in truth and not be self-deceived. Truth of how life should be lived, how to reach certain states of consciousness by seeking truth. If that's the case, then it's different from what I viewed truth to be.

First of all. I say there's no truth, just what is. It's all the same on the Absolute sense but the relative is also Absolute so truth is relative in terms of the human and sense of separation. I'll further contemplate this a bit to see where it leads. I cannot just blindly follow if I'm genuinely curious and love this path for it's own sake. I don't consider myself seeking for spiritual gain but out of love and passion. That's the serious part for me, not whether I gain something from it or not but how seriously passionate I am about it but not in a neurotic way and more for the enjoyment of it. There's always room for growth and change on the relative domain even though it's all encompassing and there's no real separation. Cannot live from the Absolute level because that's death.

Edited June 21 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

There's no 'other side'. This is it. No one dies and reincarnates or end up on the other side. THIS IS IT. Stories galore.

[Princess Arabia]

High conscious  VS low conscious in spiritual circles is equivalent to sin and morals in religion. They judge by sin and morality and spiritualists judge by low and high conscious. Both are guilty of all by their terms, meaning they both do and say things that breaches what they've categorized the terms to mean or stand for. For example, a religious person who preaches against sin and immorality engages in sin and immoral behavior by the standards they use to represent these terms. A spiritualist that calls people out for being low conscious, also engages in low conscious behavior. Can't help it because no one is doing either.

If you can't see the inconsistencies in life, I don't know what to tell ya. This is free flowing and does and says whatever the hell it wants. Go ahead and do your high-consciousness behavior but when you cheat on your gf, tell a lie, drink to get drunk, smoke that cigarette, curse that person out, fornicate in your mind, think ill of someone,,,,,I could write a book here, don't judge yourself or be shocked and disappointed in yourself. That's what happens to the me, it wants to be and become, wants people to be and become, then whenever the Absolute appears however the fuck it wants, neurosis kicks in, guilt, kicks in, shame kicks in, regret, envy, all sorts of emotions and feelings arises.

So we go meditate even harder to try and become something that's not appearing in hopes the Absolute appears as that holy person one day and we'll be saved and liberated from our sins and low conscious behaviors. The Absolute is also being that. Can't escape itself. Neurosis galore.

[Princess Arabia]

It's fun to see the Absolute at it with itself on the forum. This is the ultimate magic. I know I wasn't saying that when I was pissed yesterday. This is why I just can't hold grudges for too long or at all. Never was like that even from I was a child. Half of the time I'll even forget what I was pissed or arguing about. Something really bad like if I got raped or something or someone tries to kill me, sure, but for normal interactions and disagreements and arguing, I can't stay mad at the person for too long. Not in me. If I ever argue with someone and only interacted with them once, I'll be forgetting who it was and probably say something nice to them on the next interaction while they'd still be fuming from the last one. Remind me please, because I'll forget.

[Princess Arabia]

Anything can appear.