The Princess Diaries

[Princess Arabia]

Do this, do that, don't do this, don't do that. Be this, be that, don't be this, don't be that. Become this, don't become that. Watch this, don't watch that. Read this, don't read that. Eat this, don't eat that. Walk this way, don't walk that way. Sit this way, don't sit that way. Lay this way, don't lay that way. Sleep on this side, not that side. Chew this way, not that way. Drink this, don't drink that. Speak like this, not like that. Dress this way, don't dress like that. Obey this, obey that. Stop this, stop that. Wear this, don't wear that. Act like this, don't act like that. Want this, don't want that. React this way, not that way. Respond like this, not like that. Say this, don't say that. Like this, don't like that. Breathe like this, don't breathe like that. Meditate like this not like that. Think this don't think that. Look like this, don't look like that

And we wonder why we need relief, have stress, get depressed, have anxiety, get tired, frustrated and suffer. It's not that we shouldn't strive for what's better for us, it's that there are so many things that's bad for us as a species. We have to be on alert at all times. On guard. So many toxicities and poisons, so many ways to harm us if we're not careful. So much to look out for. So many potential harms. We are very resilient beings the body is magnificently designed to protect itself from outside invaders but it's still in danger. Some we can avoid and some not so easily. It's hard being a being. It's challenging to be and stay alive. Not to mention mental health. Everything is a fucking challenge. We have to watch for everything. 

Who designed this crap. Why put us through so much. If you say to grow us, then you've been misled. All plants need to grow is water and a little fertilizer proper environment and some love and care. They don't need all that extra shit to grow. All animals basically need is food. The rest as in shelter and health care depends on the type of animal. Most can survive in the wild just on food. Why humans. Why do we have to go through so much to grow. If you really take a deep look into it, it's basically only humans that go through all I've stated in the first paragraph. Does your cat have to watch how it sits or chew it's food or how it breathes. Does your dog have to watch what it watches or sees or how it sleeps and responds. 

This is utter madness and we claim to be the most intelligent. Why can't we figure out ways to not suffer or be challenged or have to go through all the shit other animals don't have to go through if we're so intelligent. We can't even stop our homes from being flooded or how not to get mad but we're so highly intelligent.

It's very tiring being a human. Try not to stress so much unnecessarily. Your body will thank you for it. Relax more. Take it easy more. You're wearing yourself out and causing the body distress. Don't put the body in shock. It doesn't need the extra baggage.

Edited April 25 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

It's interesting to see the craziness, weirdness and ordered chaos of Absolute Infinity play out right Infront of my eyes. It's so fucking wild, spontaneous and free that it needs an ass whooping to tame itself down and behave. The poor mind is having a hard time accepting how free it is to do what the hell it wants to do and be however it wants to be that it tries very hard to cope with the insanity but it just can't handle it. This is utter madness and i can see why things are the way they are or more people would end up in the insane asylum. I'm half-way there; but thank God, I'm able to contain myself and cope with it somewhat. I'm probably the type to just burst one day from over exertion like a gas tank ready to explode. Hopefully my time here on earth expires by then. 

[Princess Arabia]

Not everyone you see viewing your profile did it on purpose. I can't tell how many times my finger slipped while scrolling and hit someone's name by mistake. Just something to keep in mind.

[Princess Arabia]

Something weird is happening here. Not in the sense of weird, weird, but WEIRD. I just can't put my finger on it. I might go insane if I figure it out so i might as well not even try.

[Princess Arabia]

Some people are seeking enlightenment but don't even know what enlightenment is. They can probably tell you what it's not but not what it is. Pretty insane to me to be seeking something and not know what you're seeking.

Can you learn how to become a teacher from something or someone that doesn't know how to teach. How can a book, a mantra or practice make you enlightened if that thing doesn't know how to become enlightened. I can read a book on how to become a teacher, the book isn't telling me how, the author is by telling me with words using the book. The author knows. I have to do the processing of the words. I have to understand what's being said.

How can something tell or show you how to become enlightened without you processing the information. There are lots of things involved in this process. How will you know when you've reached enlightenment. That's also a processing that has to happen. You know you can teach once you've processed that information that you know you can teach. A person who hasn't taught before can still know they can teach because of other competencies. Knowing you're enlightened still requires processes and knowing. If one is enlightened but doesn't know it, since it's not considered as a process, who is there to know it if they don't know. If you know, then it required a process and someone has to be there to process that knowing to know. You cannot 'unknow' something and knowing is separation. If you know you're enlightened, you're only enlightened to the notion of being enlightened. Can't be both. If you're a teacher, you are first and a teacher second. That's two. You are/I am enlightened is separation there's nothing separate. I am a teacher is not the I AM. I am enlightened is not the I AM. 

Maybe all I'm saying here is a bag of crap anyway and a bunch of nonsense, but I just was writing from thoughts and what I believe is the case. I don't know shit.

Edited April 29 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

No seeking is also a form of seeking. There's no point in seeking and there's no point in not seeking. Freedom cannot be escaped; it is all there is. Seeking is a concept, and non-duality cannot be applied. If one feels relief from not seeking, that is just a function of the seeking energy. If one says they'll keep seeking because it's all bullshit to not seek, no one is doing that but the seeking energy. It's energy. Seeking energy can be nothing other than a seeking energy. It cannot stop seeking because then it wouldn't be there to stop itself from being itself. I don't mean seeking for a lost purse, i mean seeking for things pertaining to spirituality. Seeking for a purse is still seeking it's just the content is supposedly or seemingly different. Stopping the seeking for a purse that was never found still implies that the seeking energy stopped the seeking of the purse, not that the energy is no longer there. If an orange turns up missing and seeking arises again, that's the seeking energy appearing to rise again. No one is seeking for the orange, seeking is what's happening. If someone decides to not seek for enlightenment, no one is doing that, it's merely the still apparent seeking energy appearing to not seek for enlightenment. That's what not seeking means by that's still seeking. 

There's no one to even know they're not seeking anymore because knowing is also the seeking energy appearing as knowing. There's not actually anyone seeking to begin with and no one knows this. You can analyze, think through, dissect and rationalize and analyze all you want, there's no escaping the seeking energy because it's the same as knowing. A baby isn't seeking but there's no one there to know that. When it cries for food, that's the body's response to hunger and not the baby knowing it's hungry. Man's dilemma is the tree of knowledge. That's where the eating of the apple from the tree of knowledge came from. Good thing is it never really happened and is just a story just as everything else written or told including this post.

[Princess Arabia]

 

Life is an after effect. Your life that is. We are living in history. What happens happens. Any words describing what happened is past history. Any reaction to what happened is reactions to the past. Any response made is responding to history, the past. We can never live in the present moment. There's no such thing. We are not living in the present, we are responding to the past and reacting to the past. A happening cannot be lived or experienced because it would take an outsider for that to happen. By the time one has processed what happened for it to be lived, that's a response. 

That's what it means to say nothing is happening because to know that something is happening that requires a knower and to be a knower there has to be time and an elapse. By the time one can process that something is happening that moment has already slipped by. We are so deluded and in fairytale land and think we can outsmart this and know anything that we even think there's anything really happening. No it's not. What's happening is us being in a dream of nothing that never really occurred. That's what emptiness and nothing looks like. It looks full because it's full of baloney and tricks. Hehe. Silly me.

 

 

[Princess Arabia]

I like how he/she explains this stuff. This is just one episode and sharing this clip not for any particular content within. Just to share the speaker. @PurpleTreeIs Alexis a male or female. I thought male and then I saw tits. Hehe

 

[Princess Arabia]

Jesus fucking Christ. I've been saying that for the last hour or so in my room. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. I'm just able to stop saying it and in a position to write this post. Nothing dramatic or anything like that but it's not OH GOD tonight, it's JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. Oh God, is for beliefs, Jesus fucking Christ is for when time and time again you've said Oh God and keep giving the benefit of the doubt and keep saying test one more time, and one more time, and one more time, and one more time, and one more time, and one more time, and one more time for the 50th time until by the 51st time it's now Jesus Fucking Christ. 

I was going to make a post in this journal today saying I'm doing this test and it's been passing for the last year or two and I just keep putting off the fact that I keep passing the test saying, it's just coincidence and I don't want to seem like a fool. About 2 wks or so ago I made a post here about manifesting and to keep the focus on the end result and that night was when I pretty much  kinda confirmed something but didn't want to over react but I felt the urge to write about it. 

Tonight, earlier I was going to write about it again saying I'm at the point of pre-test again and i was going to play a game to see if I would past the test. I was going to make a prediction post earlier saying ilm at the point again where i'm at the point where something has to happen for the test to prove itself once again for the umpteenth time. I didn't because I was like it's all coincidences and it's not going to happen. 

Well tonight it happened. Without spelling put the details of what it is, I play this game with myself. It's been for about a yr and a half. Every time I keep saying it's a coincidence. For a year and a half. When I made that journal entry about 2wks ago it was dramatic then and happened that day but not enough for a confirmation. Today, was a day for a test but decided not to write and say I'll be looking out for that thing to happen once again. Well it did. All I could say after it happened was jesus fucking Christ for about an hour while crying. 

It happened again. The test was passed. This is going on now for about a year and a half and tonight sealed the deal. Confirmed. Jesus fucking christ it's all me the whole time. There's no one here but me. There's no me. Everyone is not a figment of not my imagination but everyone and everything is me. It's me doing it. It's me , me me me me, me me me me and not me at the same time. There's no me but there's a me that knows there's a not me. I don't know how to say it and it doesn't matter. Anyone I believe is reading this......wait, I don't believe anymore and its not a knowing either, its all me and there's no me at the same time. This is not about some there's no me concept or no I or no self, its about I'm in my own bubble of me. There's no one else in this bubble but whom I put there. Your bubble might be different and I don't even know if there's any one reading this all I know is that I live in my own bubble. Nothing is how I want it to be but everything is as it is. There's no one here that can get what exactly they want and desire but I will get to realize that I'm creating this illusion but only if I want to. Only if I inquire, only if I give myself permission to. It is only for those that want to, it will not be forced upon you. I have not confirmed anything but I gave had enough clues now to tell me this is what's happening. Tonight sealed the cake after a year and a half. I've had enough of testing. No more test. Tonight I decided to test again and it passed. I couldn't believe it. It's done, it's sealed. I'm not sure what is, but there is nothing that can tell me otherwise that this is not my doing. I don't know who I am I don't know what I'm doing here and i don't know anything other than this test is over and it passed. I don't need for things to go my way and i don't need to be comfortable and not suffer. All I know or realized or whatever the word is is that it's me all along and I'm in my own bubble and nothing i say or do can change that and there are no comfortabilities here, just a matter of realizing that it doesn't matter even if I'm going through hell and suffering because all that is a fucking game I'm playing with myself and using others to do it. This post is all over the place but it doesnt matter and nothing matters. It's not even obvious, it's not even something I recognized or realized, it's that the experiences is it, the circumstances tell for themselves, there's no one over there that has their own experience. My bubble is my bubble and if there is even other, which I don't know if there is then their bubble is their bubble. All I know is this bubble right here is all there is and it's only known to the one in the bubble if they want it to be known. Other than that, it will be not be revealed because one has to ready to be able to process this. Tonight I'm confirming that it's all me but not a me that  has an opposite but a me where it's nothing but.

 

[Princess Arabia]

People here like to talk about high consciousness as opposed to low consciousness and how they've raised their consciousness or how other people are so low consciousness, doing high conscious activities watching high conscious stuff etcetc but the section of the forum for high conscious stuff,  didn't do too well to the point they had to close it down, well not really, you just can't make new posts but you can add to the already existing ones. It's the section with the lowest amount of views and least visited. It wasn't very popular and got quite mis-used actually, where people would post Guess Who's Coming To Dinner stuff there and Popeye eating spinach..lol. 

[PurpleTree]

14 hours ago, Princess Arabia said:

I like how he/she explains this stuff. This is just one episode and sharing this clip not for any particular content within. Just to share the speaker. @PurpleTreeIs Alexis a male or female. I thought male and then I saw tits. Hehe

 

Well from what i heard non binary.

Prefers to be called “she”

But when the self dissolved also that kind of personality about being non binary etc. kind of dissolved.

But i don’t know.

[Princess Arabia]

2 minutes ago, PurpleTree said:

Well from what i heard non binary.

Prefers to be called “she”

But when the self dissolved also that kind of personality about being non binary etc. kind of dissolved.

But i don’t know.

Ok, thanks

[Princess Arabia]

Doesn't matter what I say and what anybody says, life will do what it wants including what I or anyone says. All these dramatic posts I make means nothing and are all just words typing on a screen. Means nothing.

[Princess Arabia]

Sometimes you need a little reminder. 

[Princess Arabia]

it can be quite interesting in a good type of way to really analyze reality/life on a day-to-day basis and on a practical general level but also seeing it on a metaphysical level. Just noticing the changes in the experiences, how they begin and end abruptly, how they popped in and out just like that. How it's different every single day, even if you're doing the same things day in and day out. Witnessing the "thinking of a person and they show up" type thing. How you can feel emotions through interacting with someone through a computer screen no differently than in person.

How mental exhaustion differs from physical exhaustion but both still drains you in both ways. You can feel the physicality of a mental exhaustion. 

When I sit down to just look out the window to catch my breath or just for a sense of being present, that alone can feel so enriching. I see a lot of trees and nature when I look out, so that surely helps. 

[Princess Arabia]

Unconditional Love is the last thing anybody could want. We think we do but we don't. This takes a high level of Spiritual maturity and level to be able to endure. Imagine realizing that unconditional love is that rejection, that mass shooting, that bear mauling that man to pieces, that spousal argument, that annoying teacher, that racist, that psychopath, that rape of a child, also everything we consider good things, it's everything. No conditions. 

When something unwanted happens in my experience, I'm just reminded of how unconditional Infinity is. How anything goes. Nothing is off limits and anything can appear. I don't have to accept it or like it and i don't have to not judge it or criticize it to be right or wrong. A response will happen no matter what I preconceived it to be. Take note how you might say "I won't respond like that anymore, or I won't do this or that anymore and we end up doing the very same thing we said we wouldn't do. That's because we put limitations on the Infinite and wrapped it up and placed it in a box. It's called discipline for a reason. We have to be 'disciples' of the infinite if we want to even attempt to box it. We have to sacrifice ourselves for that, it comes at a cost. 

[Princess Arabia]

Most people (I'm assuming), are into Spirituality for what they can get out of it. How it can benefit them. Values they get from it. How to make their lives better, less suffering, etcetc. Nothing wrong with that but I'd like to point out it's no different than wanting a house or a car or a job a wife and kids or that vacation. Some are now addicted to Spirituality instead of Crack and use it as a coping mechanism. I keep it raw. Some will relate and some won't. Some will understand this, some won't. Some don't realize it's a true loss not a gain. You will try to get a hold of what you're losing and try to hang on, but it will only breed frustration. When you really get that there's nothing to get, it will devastate the one trying to reach somewhere. 

The irony is, some are trying to dissolve the self but trying to get something that benefits the self. It's a fucking endless loop that leads to neuroses. I want to dissolve the self because I'm suffering but it is that very selfish self that they want to dissolve that is looking to benefit from it's own annihilation. Make that make sense. I will not suffer when I am no more because it is because I am why I suffer. Could you please help me dissolve the self that will be the only beneficiary of this insurance policy, please. 

Sugarcoat, it's not just you, so I'm not just talking about you, if you read this, but you are one, yes. Don't you see how silly that is.

Unconditional love includes everything so it's all good. Nothing is off limits. 

Edited May 6 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

Thought loves to keep itself going. Imagine thought not being a thought. That's what it is, a thought. This is why we sometimes want to meditate. We stop the neighbors from entering our yard with fences and barbed wires and gates. We try to protect ourselves using tools and safety measures. Well, it's the same thing with thoughts. Thoughts can be cruel, negative and outright dangerous in our eyes, and what is it that we use to help in our defense from thoughts - MEDITATION. 

You see, some accuse me of parroting and just repeating what I've heard. What they don't understand about me is that I'm a true psychologist, a playtime philosopher. I like to see through things. I actually went to college to study to be a psychologist but ended up doing only one semester. (Pavlov and the rat). Point being it's in my bones to analyze and to not see things only on surface levels. Not saying, I'm pro at it or I know what I'm talking about or any of that; all I'm saying is I enjoy peeling through the layers and I'm genuinely curious. So, all the stuff I've heard that interests me, I delve into with my own mind and thinking, and I enjoy unraveling it and putting the pieces together. That's what I get from it. I enjoy the unraveling and seeing it all come together as One - so to speak. This is also a reason why I resonated with Leo and his 2-3 hrs rambling on videos. He was unravelling and leading you up to something which made for a better understanding.

So most of the things I say I understand what I'm saying, even though I could be wrong, that's not parroting. Parroting is just repeating words without understanding their meanings and why you're saying them and can you explain them in your own words and give analogies to help to explain what's being said. One can still be wrong in all that but it's not parroting.

So back to the thoughts and the battlefield. We're annoyed with a natural phenomenon called thoughts and we're trying to get something from life and it's stupid phenomena called thoughts isn't in the picture because it can be cruel, so I meditate to slow their occurrence and to try and manage this curse. We believe in thoughts and think they are ours, so we try to do something about them thinking we're so great because we meditate and go on silent retreats. No you're not, you're not realizing who you are (not) and you have identified an enemy of the state and you're trying to protect yourself from harm. We don't realize how it's the very same practices we're doing that is stopping us from awakening to our no already selves and recognizing there's nobody home but the chickens. Every one of our practices leads to strengthening the self. These thoughts belong to me and i need to silence them because they're driving me crazy. 

Ok, your silent retreat is about silence and you being silent from what. Ain't it thoughts. A naturally occurring thing. You're in battle with life. At war with it. Your meditations and silent retreats aren't special and you're no more holier than the bar hopper that needs the music and loud speaking buddies to drown out his thoughts. It's just at the other end of the spectrum.

ALL THAT SAID MEDITATION CAN BE GOOD AND SILENT RETREATS CAN BE BENEFICIAL. In fact, I'd love to go to one and i do meditate on occasion. So this is not about criticisms of spiritual practices. It's about recognizing them for what they are. I may practice gymnastics or I may do spiritual practices, same difference. The gymnasts is stronger and more flexible and the same for the meditator, only it's the mind benefiting and exercising while the gymnast exercises the muscles. 

 

[Princess Arabia]

Are you happy forever, sad forever, joyous forever, miserable forever, angry forever, moody forever, anxious forever and so on. No, they come and they go. Why chase any emotion. Energy in motion cannot be chased. It's always in motion. Why are we trying to be happy and stay happy, it feels good, right. Sadness feels like shit. We go to anger management classes or get sent to by the judge, why doesn't anyone send us to happy management classes, sad management classes, joyous management classes. Anger is an intense emotion. More intense than the love emotion.

We're so in love with something that something else makes us angry. That anger overpowers the love in that moment that we can't seem to think straight and we do dumb shit. We love whatever it is that was in opposition to what made us angry so much, it was so off-balanced that it turned into anger and rage. 

Whatever it was that made us angry, something else was being loved at that moment. Maybe we need love management classes instead of anger management. Love is the essence of everything and we lose sight on how to balance that love and now anger and fear takes over. We're attached to the love we have for a thing and anything that gets in the way of that, breeds anger, resentment and fear. Anger doesn't need to be managed, love does. 

[Princess Arabia]

If God is everything what is there to see. How can it be seen. I would start a thread on this, but nobody would be able to answer it so why bother. They couldn't answer the 'where are you going' and the 'before and after enlightenment' ones the one where I asked to show a before and after of an enlightened person, all I got was a story an enlightened being telling how he got enlightened. I don't see anybody on the forum that reached enlightenment. There's a reason why these questions cannot be answered. I was a bit disappointed when I didn't get a precise answer for where are you going with all this spiritual doings. 

Back to if God is everything how can it be seen. Why do I need a higher state of consciousness to look at a tree and see God. To look at a cat and see God, to look all around me and see God, if God is everything. Is God everything or not. Is the tree God or not. Will I see the tree in a different light if I elevate my state. How. In what way. It won't be a dumb tree anymore, or an ordinary tree, but a divine tree. Everything is God, so however I see anything is how I see God, if God is everything. If I see a dumb tree then I'm seeing God as dumb. If I see a tree that is magnificent, then I'm seeing God as magnificent. I don't have to elevate my inner sight, or get into a different state; all I need is a different thought. I can do that on the spot. I can change that thought and see God differently again. I don't have to see anything the same way. Shapeshifting means thought shifting, consciousness shifting. That's the beauty of the Divine it's everywhere and can be seen as dumb or holy or ugly or beautiful or serene or noisy or whatever. It is all those things and none of them simultaneously. 

Everybody is going to go try and elevate their consciousness to go see God when the All is right here, right, now appearing as everything, anyhow, and everywhere. It isn't really everywhere because it isn't localized but that's good enough. It cannot be seen, it can only be thought of. A thought has to appear for one to think they're seeing or not seeing God. Saying I'm seeing God is a thought. 

Can a bird see God. Birds see differently than humans, apparently anyway. So do cats and dogs. Bats are supposedly blind. Can a blind man see God. How unfortunate. If he can, then what is he using. His other senses. So when one changes their state are they changing their senses. Maybe. How am I seeing God VS how does a blind man see God. Think about these things. I am. Until I get it. I never will because I'm using thought to grasp thought. It's a loop, a never ending cycle, a circle jerk of dreams.