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That's exactly what I was thinking! You have a unique style of telling stories. It's hard for me to articulate what I want to say the way you do, but you do it so easily and in a poetic way. It's not just my opinion, many people will say the same thing, and many have said it already! ❤️

Because life is beautiful.

Definitely! For the seeking folks, don't take this pointer literally. Try to read between the lines. It's pointing you to surrender the ego.

I think @Nahm

I know

@kieranperez I would be careful with the word "child" especially when I myself play video games, and especially especially when I'm using it to describe someone who doesn't. I spend my spare time here giving advice and asking instead of playing video games, not because I force myself to do so, but because I enjoy this forum, and I don't enjoy them anymore. It's not my problem that your maps don't allow liberation at a young age. In my maps, it is possible. I'm not a master of self-actualization, I have a lot to learn. But I am liberated, and I don't care what you think. What tests would I putting myself to? You see, I can't be liberated if I think that I should endure some tests to prove it. The proof is the amount of suffering while living the ordinary life, and it is the bare minimum. I would bet you wouldn't be able to live my life, especially in the country that I'm in. You live in a first world country and suffer, what would you do if you lived in a third world stage Blue country like mine? And seriously, how do you think someone can hold themselves accountable? Scientific research? I don't ask people to trust me or believe me or follow my advice. That's why I don't care about proof and accountability. Take whatever you find helpful. I know I'm above you simply because I actually am. That's not to say that I'm better than you, but that I have progressed further into the path. If you don't believe me, then how would I be able to predict your explosion? I simply know how you think right now, not the specific thoughts, but the pattern. It's pointless to even keep talking to you because you're going to reject everything I say. I know it and you know it. My only deluded advice to you is to commit to yourself until you awaken. Because otherwise, you won't, ever. Bless.

I suppose the two were blended together in certain cultures, like Buddhism and Hinduism. The enlightened master should be both self-actualized and self-transcendent, and can't be either. 'Either' is not enlightenment. He must be both. So, as he's teaching enlightenment, he's also monitoring the ego development of his students. The goal is to not 'give' enlightenment to poorly developed individuals, since that'll make them Zen-devils. Only the best of the best, the most selfless students are 'given' the enlightenment title, and it is meaningless to them, so they are the best people to lead. Self-actualization is like the safety valve to ensure that no devils can pass. To be self-transcendent is to be free, and to be self-actualized is to be well-educated, nuanced, and systemic. To be enlightened is to be both. I believe that is the case, and it takes a genius to create such systems!

The label is not important. I could also call it 'fear of change' or 'fear of chaos'. The how also is not really important, but the why it is.

The absolute awesome! Leeeeeoooo! ❤️

I was intellectually and emotionally inferior my whole life, thinking that I'm superior. When I let go of that fear, I became actually superior What lies on the other side is freedom.

Seek or don't. You are it.

@kieranperez What's your message? Are you trying to hurt me? Put me down? Become my master? Or is there no message at all? I would have told you that you're just projecting, but you probably know that already. So, obviously, I should lie next time or stay silent because the internet is just another dictatorship that forbids authenticity and free speech. Anyway, I can relate to where you are because I've been there. Now, you might explode once again thinking that I'm lying and trying hard, but that'll just keep you stuck where you are. The other option is to fully focus on yourself and let others delude themselves for a little while, it won't hurt you, but it's probably the last thing you want to do.

@Emerald Thank you so much. That makes perfect sense, and actually the fear started dissolving right away since the reason became apparent. I will do some of the suggestions that you made. Thank you, you are absolutely awesome! ?

This suggestion might seem silly, but please bare with me. Think of your problem as a 'fish in the water' problem. You are so deep in your story that you aren't able to see what's outside of it. Think of it as the 'romantic paradigm'. Think of it as just a perspective and then try to imagine what there could be outside of it. What could be the case if your ex never existed? What could happen if you stopped replying to him? What could happen if you could let it go and start looking for something better? What could happen if you told your ex that he's a jerk and that you don't need him at all? Think deeply about this suggestion, some great things you might find by ridiculing the story. That should make it easier for you to detach and then eventually let go.

@Emerald @DrewNows Earlier today, I was talking with my little brother (20 years old) about this topic of homosexuality. He doesn't seem to share my problem. He is straight but he accepts that everyone can have their original/made preferences as long as that doesn't affect him. So, as we were discussing my problem, I remembered that I had a traumatic event when I was 13-14 years old. I was invited to an older guy's (married to a woman and is nearly 40 years old) apartment to watch porn (I never watched any porn at that point), and so I naively went there, only to find him waiting for me completely naked. I remember how I freaked out and ran away as quickly as I could. The guy was a colleague at work (yes, I used to work since I was 12 years old). He left the job one week right after that incident. I think he was afraid that I would tell someone about it. However, I never told anyone about that besides my brother, and that was like 4-5 months ago as part of our shared shadow work. I couldn't tell my parents as I knew they would shame and blame me and moralise to me and probably beat me up. I didn't tell anyone else about that incident until now, as it is so much unaccepted in my society. That seems to be quite the reason for my homophobia. Waiting to hear from you guys about what you think. What's the next step?

It's a pointer towards nothing. Someone who's realised consciousness is not a beginner. I don't know because knowledge is not possible, not because I lack it. No one else knows anything as well.

Not yet. I heard that it's awesome, I recall it's about the French industrial revolution? Anyway, movies don't spark my interest like they used to do. I think I'll read a Wikipedia summary of the plot.

They can't be cured. Suffering is the only cure and I don't have the ability to 'make them suffer', let alone the right or courage to do so. They're a lost cause. It's really challenging to interact with them.

Consciousness does not even exist, let alone observe.

That's my answer to the seekers whom you were talking about. My colleagues are the most unconscious/selfish people that I've ever met (besides myself). Think of it as in evolution terms, they're completely backwards, they must go extinct. Yet, they don't, so they create more problems rather than solving them. What would you say about a doctor who does not give a fuck about their patients? A doctor that all they care about is money and status?

@tsuki Go hug microbes as well. You're welcome any time bud. Just try the ordinary times, not while I'm outrageous, which is fortunately very rare.

@Matt8800 You're just propaganda.

@Esoteric No.

Don't detach from the thoughts, be them. You're creating duality as you're trying to detach. Let go and accept.

Kind of the same here. Perhaps I should stop trying to give such advice to newbies