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@WaveInTheOcean Just wanted to throw in that after I coincidentally read a few of your posts today, I felt resonance, your pointers are quite helpful for me right now. Thanks for your quality posts

@ChimpBrain Your thread finally led me to explore this (had no idea what it was but heard the phrase thrown around a lot). I'm listening to the Abke playlist, do you like the Gaia one more? I'm only a few videos in, and it's impressively interesting. This is basically the stuff I've always wanted to know. Of course I have no idea how true all this is, but from my current stand point, it seems possible, very possible. And just that fact alone is pure awesomeness. Thank you for sharing ??

Genius!!! I always planned to go into a forest just for screaming I once worked in a cinema and I was the one to turn of the projectors and stuff when nobody was inside the building anymore. I thought it would be perfect to scream in a soundproof auditorium, there were many in the building. I always went in, standing in front of an empty, TOO silent room... and I could never scream longer than maybe 1 second. It felt sooo weird. I tried many times

This! Amazing insights, I have had some of those as well And definitely, bringing that into the real world is equally important (and equally beautiful)! Not at the moment, but I feel that over time, I'll need to. There is so much being processed, putting it into a kind of written log would probably be very helpful.

It was the same for me despite a lot of consciousness work and breakthroughs. I think it's not that unusual. At some point it just happened, as if an energetic blockage just burst through. It was more than clear what happened on a feeling level. Trust the process and keep going. As a practical advice, this is one of the best sessions for nourishing that connection to the heart and to feel it fill with love. Give it a try if you feel like it

I have no idea what you specifically mean by mobilization. But yes, this path is incredibly challenging, sometimes more, sometimes less. What I can recommend you is to really sit down and be 100% honest and sincere with yourself: What do you want? Do you want truth at all cost? Do you want harmony, love, peace, health, compassion etc. in your life? Do you want to embody that? Or do you prefer struggle, pain, pleasure (as in: short-term feedback loops of feeling good), deception, fantasy? You need to be completely clear about what you want, notwithstanding the temporary pains you feel at the moment. Then, you can assess where you are and how and why you are embodying the opposite of what you want in the respective areas in your life. It has to be understood deeply why and how your thoughts keep resisting the truth. So yes, it might take that daily awareness and clarity and bringing in the energy to change. You might have to do the above again and again and again (after years, I still have to do that regularly, I think most do). At some point though, truth provides you with fuel, so the clarity strengthens and your reminders don't need that much work All the best, you got this

I'm super under-developed in this area as well. I've read quite a bit of David Deida and find him extremely helpful because he grounds whatever he recommends in truth & infinite love, and he specifically says you can't fake authenticity. I agree with that. I don't know if I should watch videos that teach me how to act, it always felt inauthentic. I don't want sex. I want a deep relationship - but I realize that even for that I'll need attraction... "skills"?

@spaghetti11 That sounds amazing, thank you for sharing I read the book, too, and I've been curious ever since. I might try this at some point!

@Skanderb Would you mind sharing your affirmations, I'm curious Also, your post is the last drop of inspiration I needed, I've been on the edge of getting into affirmations again. So thank you for that kind sir

I'm not consistent at all, but music is also (atm) not a priority for me. But - whenever I feel stuck but really do want to make music, I just start sound design. I love designing sounds, exploring random FX chains, modulating the shit out of a synth and see what I can make out of that. It's almost completely intuitively experimenting without expectation. And once I have a few sounds going and already spent a while on this, the flow kicks in and I'm gone for hours Also, inspiration:

@Leo Gura @modmyth Good points, thanks for being honest. It's a great practical example of taking all these perspectives in without holding on to any of them. Let's see how this is going to develop.

I am just rereading Diamond Heart Book 4, and I saw you mentioned the new videos. So much content! Even really old lectures. I always wanted to see and hear the origin of these transcripts, to get a feel of a young Almaas. Looking forward to explore

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Interesting that you share that, thank you! This has been a point that had been throwing me off sometimes, but I didn't even catch it fully before reading on this site how they feel he is so immersed in his book knowledge that he just mixes it all together and a) pretends to understand it all, b) pretends to understand it better than anyone else, and c) poses things as his own truth. I'm not judging, I've seen parts of that in myself, and it's obvious to me that this is pure ego inflation (at least within me). It's interesting to note, and I'm gonna withdraw from his teachings for a while. This, I think, is the major take-away for me Thanks for the reminder <3

Yes of course it is I don't even know how truthful these accounts are, but reading them they feel authentic and coming from accumulated pain, even if it may be dramatized. I feel that, otherwise I wouldn't have listened to him for years, even before you recommended him here. But in this case, I have to throw the ball back to you: The point is, that it seems to be more complex than that. Isn't that how cults can form, even around genuine gurus? Maybe he doesn't even comprehend (or allow to see) how much he's hurting people. Hurting and using people in the ways described by these people does not seem to be the most genuine action to help them awaken. Okay fair point, but have you read the account I linked here? The section about him and his past is interesting as well. His behavior doesn't seem to reflect the deep care he is showing in other situations, which creates this psychological push-pull movement within his students. I don't try to state any facts, it's not simple. But just saying "well he wants you to awaken and needs money, so he emotionally abuses people and shows signs of arrogance and megalomania (if that is the case) - sure!" is, to me, not a refined enough way to look at this situation. But it depends on what perspective we're taking, how we interpret the situation

@Bojan V I think he means "there is nothing AS healing as this"

The only medicine the soul ever needed

Well yes, but do you think "he gotta survive" justifies (in a moral sense) the manipulation, the superiority behavior and the seeming ways in which he tries to pull people out of their lives so they serve him monetarily? So he can have a luxurious lifestyle and keep on milking people? It's not easy to see this kind of behavior for what it is when right in that same person there also shines truth, that's why this is shocking to me. Reading the accounts opens to me the possibility (taking his past into account as well), that this is really a cultish development, even though it might have crept in over the years and now he doesn't even see it. Embodiment truly seems to be the hardest part, even for advanced sages who don't like to admit there is a lot of shadow work left.

These are honestly some of the most insightful videos I've been watching lately, better than any fictional stuff because it is real people in real interrogations, often times only a few hours after they killed someone. What a time to be alive. You learn so much about the human psyche, like: - how people lie, even though they know that everyone knows that they're lying - to what lengths people go to keep their story intact -> mostly they can't say the truth of what they did because this truth would destroy their own story about themselves - how people psychologically uncover lies, the strategies of professional investigators - how human beings like you and me can commit horrible crimes, and seeing how it makes sense that they do so - how much projection and demonization is going on, how people don't understand that these subjects need help, not being hated for the rest of their lives - and of course, the parallels of these people within oneself (in the lying, deceiving etc.) Fascinating stuff!

Have you seen this? https://www.satyoga.exposed/anonymous6 I just spent a good while reading what's on the website and the account I've linked above. It explains a lot of subtle feelings and cues I have felt but couldn't quite yet understand. I had been diving into his teaching a lot last year, and I still like him, especially his guided meditations. But this is just showing me how much I still got to learn in understanding people.

Why can't it be? I feel like it is the exact same source, namely being the problem the ego faces that it thinks it "lost what it once had" - absolute love and unity with what is true. Trying to return to that state, our psyches use different, albeit futile, techniques. Insecurity could be seen as the tendency to guilt yourself for having lost something, thinking that you're actually not good enough, that you did wrong. Arrogance feels like a layer on top of that, an inflation which serves self-deception, so that we think we are actually more worthy than others, and we should get what we want. It's all rooted in creating boundaries and differences where none are.

If you do use music, I recommend minimalistic, soft ambient. Example: Lull - Like a Slow River Brian McBride - When The Detail Lost Its Freedom It's really hard for the mind to hook itself onto this kind of music. I personally don't use the music as an anchor, I don't even listen to it. It's like the background sound of where you are meditating. And the peaceful flow of the music can help get into that trance like state.

It's really not easy, I'm regularly struggling with a similar "conflict". To me, the only thing keeping me on track is grounding myself in truth, and letting the discipline be an embodiment of that. Think of those monks and yogis who dedicate their life to truth through Karma Yoga or decades long meditation. There might still be ego, of course, but that's not the point. As long as you're as authentically acting FROM truth, you are as present in each moment as you can be. Presence, especially in those mundane, automated actions, is the "answer"

@Loba Great response! @ThaOreoBoros Drawing from experiences, I think there is also the collective side of this phenomenon. The collective, unresolved shadow, and it's huge. On some trips of mine, I seemed to "enter" this realm and was asked if I was really willing and ready to go further. Processing the pain, and accepting the dark sides of love in this collective energy, doesn't result in individual resolution. There is nothing to gain for an individual, it's the whole cleansing itself through a seeming individual. And this has its own flavor of immense beauty. This truly feels like the ultimate altruism. And out of this shadow I can imagine that energies may manifest within our perception in various ways and we interpret them as actual entities. That's what DMT can feel like at some stages. Also, I heard Shunyamurti talk about ghosts in some video, and he said that when egoic patterns are extremely dense and violent, they can energetically perpetuate even after the physical death. Who knows, but sounds interesting and somehow makes sense. So maybe it's not all our own psychological shadow.