Aquarius

I don't see why am I selfish for having ideas and wants. But you might be right, I either have a relationship or I don't.

Your English is finee Might sound blunt, but have you tried dating sites? I had a lot of luck with my sex life on those apps. I tend to use okcupid when I am looking for something like that.

Pros: You gain a lot of experience, learn techniques. Have variety, can make a difference between quality sex and bad sex. Might get a girlfriend, or cuddle buddy, or fuck buddies, etc. Respect from men. Maybe also women, depends. Confidence, self-respect. The enjoyment of doing it. Can give advice to newbies. Expert on the field. Can maybe write a book about how to do stuff properly in bed. Cons: Can leave some girls pregnant. Can get STD. Some people might get possessive or attached to you. Some people might feel used if they find out what u do Some girls don't like guys who sleep around I honestly don't care about the amount of sex a guy has had when I consider dating him. Some might. If you practice safe sex, have healthy boundaries and if it's consensual, feel free to do what you want. As someone else mentioned, the act is different than the idea.

This is completely messed up.. if he talks with you like that, you should stop talking to him altogether. He cannot tell you what to do. He is obviously controlling and toxic. You don't need people like that in your life, sorry to say..

I have quite a few crystals. When I started out with them, I used to hold them in my hand and communicate with them. To talk to them. I would look up the uses of each online, and bring similar topics that I talked with them. They are said to be a lower form of living being, not quite like animals or plants, but some form of life structure. You can also just concentrate an intention on a specific blue stone and bless it, then put it on your throat while you are laying down.

Try reading nonfiction, studying Actualized material, taking care of your diet and exercise..

But if you had all those problems, why didn't you seek to resolve them instead of seeking enlightenment? Maybe all you need is a normal life, and to make life the way you want it. Enlightenment doesn't make you superior to anyone, it's something for yourself. The need to feel superior is ego. Maybe you could do other things than spirituality?

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I am looking for Netflix movies or series for each stage. Preferably documentaries. Also YouTube channels. I would like to study the Spiral a bit more. For green it is easy to find, i just google 'spiritual netflix episodes'. I'm mostly looking for Blue and Orange. Or if you don't know any suggest me google search keywords. Thanks in advance!

Hi so I made a friend and he was all sad lately like telling me how hard it is and he cant do it anymore etc. Then he confessed he has HIV and that he approached about 200 women in his life but everyone turned him down. I was trying to support him and I told him that i accept him and we can hang out anytime and be good friends. I also told him most guys approach much more than that many girls and have even less luck. And finally I told him that life and happiness doesn't depend solely on relationship and he shouldn't base his happiness on someone else. But he just kept feeling sorry for himself. He did appreciate my words but he is below himself. I told him to work on his depression more. After and during the conversation I felt really bad and heavy on the chest, I even cried. I feel horrible and miserable and I don't know why.. I just feel so bad everything makes me feel bad, I feel something similar to guilt, some sort of energy blockage, i cant feel grounded or myself, i feel a deep woe in my heart chakra area like everything is gray and dull and muddy. So my question is, why do i feel so bad and heavy? I feel helpless that i cannot help him but is this why i am feeling guilty? I cannot connect with my emotions.. That conversation totally drained me emotionally. Should I continue helping? What should I do? What can I tell him to help?

Thanks guys, all answers were super helpful

Hello I would like to buy a succubus. I found a satanic website and they sell them for about 200-1000 euro and I was wondering if it is worth it. It's my first time hearing about this, if anyone knows anything about purchasing succubus please let me know. They seem very serious. Leo says in one of his videos how entities and gods can appear in front of you in meditation. I have a good feeling about the website.

How can I stop feeling bad?

Cmon guys, he is just human. He didn't mean to insult the person. You are criticizing his way of talking and not the content of his speech. I think that's just his style.

It's just art. As someone above said, it just reflects a facet of society. Maybe for us it seems 'low consc', but for other people it reflects back their lives. And we need all stages.

You don't have to tell them.

I remember @Leo Gura mentioning in one of his videos that for certain serious problems therapy is what works, because it saves you a lot of time and effort. Of course, do the work, buy and read the books, meditate, but I'm just saying that sometimes you need someone. However this is just a suggestion. Good luck anyway, @Shroomdoctor !!

I don't think people care much about what someone standing on the street does. Your thoughts about them thinking you have 0 social life is not true, because you stated above that people don't care about other's business which is true! The things you say about cringy or cool are just labels.@Javfly33 Also good job at working on your inner workings, I think you are doing great

Pretend You saw me and said to yourself that I'd be someone you could love. Someone passionate, honest and full of loving kind energy. Is that true though? Am I the person you are trying to imagine me to be? Or am I just someone that you dress with imaginary qualities? In any case.. I am lonely as fuck. I don't have anyone to go out with. I'd gladly settle for less.... And I try, I try to love you.. but you're sooo not my type. I cannot possibly feel any type of attraction towards you. I try to pretend, day by day.. and well, shit getting serious.. You're giving me expensive gifts, I don't even know how can you afford that to yourself! Your mom grew fond of me.. she's giving me gifts too now. I feel vulnerable... I fell asleep with her ring on my hand. Guilty as hell. How cruel can love be. A dirty exchange between man and woman. Or two individuals, for the matter. You give me comfort, I give you care. You give me abundance, I give you a home. You give me pleasure, I give you my loyalty. You give, you give, you give me and I take it, take it, take it and transform it. The polar opposites of yang and yin in motion. Although, I well know it's just a matter of survival. You are thinking about our next big move.. a family together, outings with your new car.... But me!? I am lost about thinking about my next big hit. My next jackpot of a man's heart I can win ... then toss it away, like the other ones. No one will replace my first true love. A love I keep in my heart, while on the outside I'm just a cruel vamp looking for the next ride. L’amour fait les plus grandes douceurs et les plus sensibles infortunes de la vie.... I know I should feel bad. And I do... on a different level. I do allow myself these dreams, of something different, of something safe and a place where I can get all the nurture for my growth. But I'm here... you tell me that you love me, and my chest contracting, I think of all the guys I talk to, and I reply "Cute. I do too."......Damn it. Sometimes I just want you to give me what I want, so I can have it then move on. It's all I'm here for. And yet, our partnership seems to grow stronger roots, stronger bonds... I feel like it is growing into different dimensions. You're dreaming of the romantic France.. a new life there, a new beginning. For me, death itself. A new opportunity to get away from you. But I'm next to you. Wonder how much it will last. I try and remain patient. Chacun voit midi à sa porte. Qui court deux lievres a la fois, n’en prend aucun.....

Sprint Picture this: beautiful sunny february morning. I wake up, no energy, completely lethargic. I get up, look at the clock and it's 8 am. I do some things around the house, then I remember I have to workout. I do some stretches but it's almost like my body isn't responding to my desires, something isn't right. I can't work out. I lay back in bed. I feel horrible. And it's not laziness. I ask my intuition waddup. My intuition tells me something like this: "You can have all the answers to the universes greatest questions. But you have no questions." This saddens me. What happened to me, where am I? I just lay in my bed and I swear I heard something falling. Gravity at it again. No thoughts, no emotions, pure stillness within. I close my eyes and meditate. And as I lay there it's almost like I see the room around me, except I have my eyes closed. I am in a deep trance. I feel cut off from God. Is this what dark night of the soul feels like? Why is it happening to me again? A family member comes in. Asks me if I'm sleeping. I open my eyes and glance at her, she smiles, radiates her love at me, but I'm empty. Tells me she goes shopping. I tell her I help, she shall give me time. Quick! I need structure, what to ground into now?? I thought maybe I watch my favourite astrology show. I'm lost. No, I cannot do that, astrology makes no sense at this level... I get up and we hear the doorbell ring. Distant relative comes to visit. Is it 11 o'clock already...? I carefully observe him, without judgement. Without expectation. He yells at me that "Wow, what a mens haircut you got! You look great!" I am not able to get out any intentions from his words. It's like I'm spiritually blind. I tell him that it's a womens haircut. He asks me what I do, and I tell that I practice sports. He asks me if I go to the gym or if I jog. I tell him that neither, I practice at home. And he starts making robotic movements with his hands. "Like this?" And I sort of started joking around, making a robotic dance. "Yeah like this!", I say, and I smile. He goes on to tell me that "There was a woman twice as fat as you, and she jogs 6 kilometers every day. Now she looks like you." And he makes wavy gestures with his hands, staring at my body. In my minds eye I see an hourglass. I think that's nice, seems like a compliment. I smile. I got an idea that maybe I could go outside and jog too. Then I start to make excuses "But the psychopaths, but the mud!" "They won't harm you, just do your thing." My relative says. I ask him what weather is outside. "Sunny. And pretty chilly..." That's all I need to know. I dress up in my nicest clothes: a shirt, jogging pants and some fake Vans. And a beanie to cover this messy hair of mine that I ruined with cheap hairgel about a moment ago. I want to bring a sweater but I don't have any, all of the old ones are either too small or dirty right now. Shit... I wasn't aware of my surroundings for weeks now! What do I do now!? I get so angry, I don't know what to do. Pure chaos. I figure I'll need water. I get an old mineral water bottle and I fill it up with water. My distant family member laughs and asks what if I'm bringing water to my exercise, and laughs again. "It's ok sweetie, he doesn't know anything about sports, and you know so much!" my close family member reassures. Her words fuel the chaos even more. What!? How ignorant my relative was really! - I tell myself in my mind... How should I jog without water??? But I'll also be cold, I have no sweater. Am I forgetting something else too, maybe? "You'll be cold!" "Who cares if your clothes are dirty! Nobody will notice!" I look in the mirror. I'm very pretty. Now I can tell my distant relative disrespects me. "Yep. THIS is she." he says and laughs aggressively. I don't know what to say, because I feel in a weak position. "I can be left alone now." - I say in the end. And I leave the house. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I go outside. It's about 3 Celsius I figure. Very energizing. I'm not sure where to go, I go in one direction, but quickly change my mind because I'm sad and I want to see my lover. I think he will be so angry if he sees me dressed in a simple shirt.. then if he yells at me I will have no energy to jog. He will shame the fuck out of me. Feels like a maze. So I just run. And so I do run and run, but my backpack is annoying me. So I stop and I get my backpack off and quickly repair the issue. It was too loose. What the fuck, this really feels like an impossible maze with big and small monkeys walking around my path, and I'm an invisible monkey. I cannot see myself but everyone.. no, EVERYTHING sees me. The All There is To Be of Life. I am cornered from all directions. I cannot do anything without causing an effect! I get up, put on the backpack, the animal that I am, and I sprint again. I am blind, I am deaf and I am mute. The only thing that is real is the extreme wind blowing to the opposite direction I am going. I use it to center myself. My sprinting slowly turns into a walk. Proud monkey. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I got so far. I am now connected to All There is To Be. So instinctual. Mind empty, I don't feel anything. Reconnecting to the senses. What do I see? The sky, the trees... people again. Somebody stares at me and I clench both my fists as a sign that I want to be left alone. Sort of like that hamster from that cartoon meme. I probably look like an angry gorilla now. I kinda care. But I continue my walk. I went too far, it's time to return now because I'm getting cold. So I return and I go home. On the way home I get many stares and unpleasant reactions from people. I get asked by someone if I'm not cold by any chance. My instinct tells me to look him in the eyes and talk to him, but my conditioning tells me that talking to strangers is a bad thing. My mind is empty so I figure it's better to ignore. So I do so. He shakes his head and laughs. I sense that he isn't a bad person. I contemplate how much people care about each other. It's so beautiful. God is real.

I told him I take medication, and he told me not to, because they just ruin your life, which is true. I used to not take medication for a long time, then I felt bad bc of withdrawal syndromes so I took a higher dose and fell asleep for a longer time. That's all. But it's still no reason to drink yourself dead over..

Yes.. I don't have a problem breaking off from them... for me, I am not attached at all.. it's just, they keep coming around. He actually contacted me again and we started going out and stuff, but he keeps telling me, actually, yelling at me how I think he has no problems on his shoulders and how I keep asking him what';s the matter when it's so obvious he is in such a great trouble.. and when I ask him, like yeah, what's the matter though?? he said, better to keep quiet than stir the waters. And I was like wtff, he is hiding shady things from me?? And I noticed that he always tells me stuff about himself, but he is clearly "coloring" it into something nicer, I feel like he is lying and justifying a lot on his inadequate behavior, relying on victim mentality to feel better about himself..

A guy added me on Facebook. I didn't know who he was but I added him back. He wrote to me and we started knowing each other. I viewed him as a friend. Not as a best friend... but an averagely decent friend. A friend friend. Friend. Anyway he told me he is from my town. I was like, mmm.. sound cool?? Opportunity to grow new friendships?? Next day I told him to go together to drink a tea or coffee or anything. He came outside.. we basically live ON THE SAME EFFIN STREET LMAOOOOO! He paid for two soda drinks (what a gentleman wooo!, and we went walking a bit.. he told me he never goes outside. Later on I found out it's because of scandals he has with people who are jealous of him.. physical fights and all... I mean he seems SD Orange and maybe has a bit of green because the empathy and heart of gold he has.. And most people where I live are SD Red or SD Blue. Many are going SD Orange. He used to own a popular bank. A bank that didn't work and they closed cause they had problems and all. The idea is, he is a business man. Sad that his business failed. But he said he is good in this. Just saying to you guys get an idea who he is... Where he worked till now, he was the best worker.. helped everybody there become the best. Got many jealous enemies that fought him. He had a hard life. Cried on the phone to me. I listened to him and comforted him. He said I am a blessing. He says "I love you" every 5 minutes. He's 27 years old but only had one girl friend. He seems to have pretty high self esteem. He says he has haters and enemies because he is too good for them. Which is a nice mentality to have... but I feel he is still secretly affected by people's behavior, else he wouldn't have cried.. I think a guy's ability to cry in front of his girlfriend is a good sign he has a soul. Many people told him he is absolutely ugly. I think he is OK looking. About 6.5 / 10, except I don't use that dumb rating system (nor the alpha/beta btw) when I am in real life, just on forums like this. He doesn't seem beta at all! He could fight everyone, and sometimes does so. Anyway, I care about intellect and character when I look for a guy, not necessarily looks. Just saying the rating to help you guys form an idea about his looks.. My first bf was 7.5/10, second 8/10, third 9/10 (third lasted 1 week... he said he is too good and intelligent for me *eyeroll*). There is a thing about me. I am, as my username suggests.. an Aquarius. A strong one. I am the embodiment of the archetype. I seek intellectual debates. To be challenged on the intellectual level... The guy is a Libra, so we fit well! He also reads astrology, DAILY!!! ^^ wtf not even I do that and I'm an astrologer, kinda.. I think he doesn't stimulate me intellectually as he should... he has bad grammar when he writes. Or maybe just lazy grammar. I know he can do better.... Some things I like about him... He is very agreeable in the relationship.. I noticed that when I said he would look good with a tiny beard, he said that he will grow it out. The way I want him to grow it! Very emotional, cries easily, has all kinds of emotional theories about life Loves to read his horoscope in the morning Little sexual experience is an advantage for me. Can't really kiss and is kinda unexperienced, since only had 1 gf... but this only makes him more emotional and agreeable, to care more about me and appreciate me more... since he had so little experience. So... Fulfills all my safety and love needs. Promises to protect me from everyone that would ever fight me or threaten me or make fun of him. Promised to find me a job and we will move to one of the biggest and richest cities in the country... I will have the opportunity of a good job because he is appreciated there, he used to work there. Loves me more than anyone did till now. Always gives me gifts. I was gone for a week in a different town before these guys kicked me out... I am back to small town, until next week when we move to even bigger town than the other I lived in! We will lived there definitely together as a happy couple.. Anyway, when I came home he awaited me with a chocolate. And soon I will get a silver ring as a symbol of our relationship, almost like a marriage without the religious and church stuff. He just lost it somewhere in the house was very nervous about it but I was like woooow don't be, I mean the whole intention even made me feel good. And he promised a white gold ring when we move in the big city. When he ordered online, he ordered to that city, so it's a surprise. wow.. He will, from now on, take care of my sexual, emotional, love, food, shelter, job and safety needs. Others I depends on myself (actualization and esteem). He doesn't have many friends. He is introverted, like me.. He loves children and animals and is very good with them, just like me. So in these things, he is perfect and rare. Some things I don't like about him.. He is not that intellectual as I would expect..I don't feel challenged for the slightest. And well yes, there are 9 types of intelligence... I am talking about spiritual and intrapersonal intelligence. Look, he is not stupid at all, and I think he is very social. It kinda disturbs me though that he has such a strange relationship with people, like many many fights and scandals. It can't really be his fault since most of those people are strong and debilitated SD Red.. People with high intrapersonal intelligence don't attract those toxic aqcuiantenceships and dangerous encounters though. He doesn't speak English. Many people here where I live who do speak English tend to be fluent in internet culture and I noticed are generally more intelligent and humorous... they have more options to find content that grows them and stimulates their intellect. With him not speaking English, the material he consumes is very limited and low quality, generally SD Red, SD Blue.. SD Orange tops. He also only watches mainstream culture. Since he doesn't speak English, it would be hard to introduce him into the self-help culture. I don't think he is into psychology, or these things... a plus is that he appreciates my personality. HE says I make him calm, with my mere being. I think that's how average folk feel about people who are developing themselves spiritually, as I do. Which is interesting! Because a person from this forum, if they'd meet in in real life, they'd know why! But you see, he doesn't!! Which adds a layer of mystery to my personality. He talks very loudly. Kinda yells. Talks with a country accent... I mean I do too but due to my lisp I sound slavic, which I think is a plus? Many people compliment it.. He has a typical country accent though. The accent is ok. But he yells. He speak loudly and I feel awkward sometimes.. He wants children in the future, and a family. I don't want no child........ he says, let's have children in 3 years. I said minimum 5. Ugh, young Libra men these days... All the scandals and enemies he has. And problems with police and city hall because of the bank and enemies. Why can't he be more responsible about his acts.. When he is nervous, he drinks. Sounds like a red flag. This is the only red flag he has I think but... idk. I don't like it when men drink. But at least he doesn't hit me or anything. Just feels more relaxed. Has a lot going on, poor soul... he should take care of this in a more healthy way. So these are some things I feel. I would love some replies on how to work on the relationship, on how to get him into higher consciousness states like I am in. How to find common ground... ?? How to develop together? He actually mentioned " you seem like a person whom I will be going forward together". Does that mean he wants us to grow together??.. as a family??? Ok so give advice about the things that I don't like Also tell me guys what you think about the whole post.. P.s.: @Shin You were right... Since I let go of that toxic fuck I am happier.

Not really, but they have that behavior, like ... I talked to his friend once and when I didn't understand something, I politely said "pardon me?".. and he was like ohhhh my god... haha no way this girl is........ damn Because many people are Red and when they talk to a yellow/green person they feel weird about the whole calm and collected behavior and good manners. And many times I was told to wear more make up, grow long hair... And generally people make me feel retarded, I always was considered the most stupid in school. Even though no one knew me... it's just people liked to pick on me..

I think children are really bad, uneducated and nasty for the most part. They do anything to get their ways. Most of them are spoiled and egotistical, especially in today's materialistic culture and with the media poisoning their minds. I tend to think of them as unpolished diamonds. As they grow, and if they're lucky, life may lead them on the path to higher states of love.