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  1. So many formal rituals and beliefs they have, a shame it is that their practices hinge upon dogmatic thinking. If prana does exist, and if there is some sort of hidden science to spirituality, I don't think its crazy to rub human ashes on your body when meditating. And the whole thing about using human skulls as a cup to drink from, I like it. Buddhists do it too. Things like eating dead human flesh, eating animal faeces, leftover food from a garbage dump, animal urine. Such a thing probably works for them raising conciousness, it sure as hell ain't healthy for their physical body. Because these teachings are done in the framework of dogma, these bizarre practices will be limited in far they can take you because you have fundamentalist belief structure.
  2. It's a common occurrence for me and for anyone meditating, you sit down for a long time and neuroses inside of you just start bubbling up faster and faster. The physical pain in your body from sitting down for a long time (especially if ur doing a SDS) may or may not serve as a catalyst for your suffering, but regardless of that your mind starts to almost go crazy with suffering from the mere process of doing nothing and sitting down. And when this happens, I feel the intense urge to just jump and lunge out of my seat, but I often just stick it through till my timer goes off. It's sometimes like there are explosive thoughts you can't do anything about. A random thing I do when I feel a stagnant with suffering is to just say to myself verbally in my head "its ok to have pain and suffer" , to try and avoid the trap of suppressing things when meditating. How to raise your consciousness without suppression of yourself is probably the greatest paradox out there. It's kinda related to idea of how desire is the root of suffering, but to desire to get rid of suffering is still another form of desire which makes you suffer. Anyway, so what should one do when the neuroses inside them starts building up intensely? My impression is that the approach in various traditions is to just stick it out, never lose faith in the situation not being all that bad, and eventually the stormy clouds will clear up.
  3. @Shaun I open this thread at 23:33
  4. There is often something special about the first component/element of a system, so I wonder if there is anything on Beige you wanted to say. Maybe you'll end saying that Beige shows what we're all doing in its most obvious form: survival. And further developments from beige to stage X are all about more sophisticated forms of survival. Purple + Red would be fun videos.
  5. @Leo Gura How do I enter literal hell realms? It seems that most people who claim to have visited them were having near death experiences, in which case I wouldn't deliberately visit them. Only other thing I can imagine working is psychedelics.
  6. @Tom T I'm no expert in food but I think that if you pay enough attention to what it feels like to eat quorn you'll notice that it's hella processed. How good Quorn is for your health relative to red meat, I don't know.

  7. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Thursday 27th June 2019 04:08 Ever since receiving some bad news about my university not allowing course transfers for what I want I've been having a bad mood recently, but I've calmed down now and I'm collecting myself so things should be fine. At most, it should mean I'll be spending 1 year longer (or 2 but I hope not) to get what I want with the added bonus of a theoretical physics degree. Although the area of research I wanna go into is mathematics, but right now this is my best option and that is to finish my physics degree. My meditation routine has gone to shit for the past week or so. I need to reel it back in. There's so much neuroses trapped inside, I don't know where to start or what to do. Too many things to do but I struggle to get myself to start 1 task. At some point, I have to confront it head on and suffer like hell. I must become fine with the suffering, and not fear suffering. Should I fear suffering, try not to become fearful of being fearful of suffering. Once that state of effortless ecstasy is realised, everything reveals itself. I think I should start my own handwritten journal for myself, something about writing words with your own two hands feels more satisfying than pressing buttons on a keyboard. It's as though handwriting has a certain flair, character, human-ness and idiosyncratic nature to it that I'm attracted to. In contrast to this digital form of transcription where the thoughts and emotions off all authors blend together to form this grey, dull conglomeration of binary digits. One's own handwriting is like a fingerprint, unique to you. I think what it is, is that I've always had a particular taste for things that allow for people to express themselves and reveal their inner colours. Something that feels "authentic" to me. I think this part of me is perhaps linked to the introverted feeling function in MBTI, but also introverted sensation function perhaps. I like the feel of paper books in contrast to digital books, in some ways I have an aesthetic preference for the non-technological ways of things. I want to sit next to a real fire burning coal or wood, not a fake holographic fire which is just a radiator running on electricity. I like the sensation, physically and emotionally, of things that feel "real". I hate all things standardised and cookie cutter, causing the world to lose its differentiating colours and dissolve into goop. In other words, I want to fucking live! I hate herds of people who all walk, talk, think, dress and act the same. I hate the idea of working in a office cubicle, in a room filled with 1000 other cubicles which are identical in their monotone dull look. I hate the idea of becoming slaves to the system, the idea of losing yourself in favour of becoming another cog in a machine; anything but that is fine with me.
  8. @Revolutionary Think I can't think of any politicians who are as strong and explicit in what they want to do. It's just that he really is a man of character, if he ends up becoming the democratic candidate and he runs against Trump, you can call it gg cuz Yang would win. That's because Yang doesn't stoop to a low level. Only Hillary could have failed as badly as she did in the previous election.
  9. @Revolutionary Think Idk if Leo really does like Bernie in preference of Yang, one possibility is that Leo thinks Yang has no chance so he's gonna push Bernie. Yang is yellow and ascended as fuck though, not a shill at all, very honest, uses facts and is straight forward in conversation. He's a democratic on the left advocating for some extreme views yet he still finds a way to have very civil conversations with right wingers who end up liking Yang. He's a man of the people.
  10. #yanggang lets grab the bag son.
  11. @Aakash You're just trolling at this point, only thing I'll say is don't be surprised if you get banned.
  12. me too Solipsism is a concept which is (identical to)/( a semantic/arbitrary rewording of) the concept "all is one". It doesn't have to be any deeper than the realisation all is one. The point of this all is to look at what is.
  13. That really is a nice youtube channel for self actualisation if you're looking to just listen to something chilled and philosophical to get yourself motivated.
  14. Teach me how to do so, sensei! @Hellspeed
  15. Its better than non-organic, non whole wheat pasta
  16. @Shaun Quite recently, I've started to get a deeper glimpse at deep rooted demons/patterns in my psyche. I'll be meditating, and my mind will keep doing this repetitive behaviour over and over again and it feels like it can't be stopped. And it only ever can stop if you're fine with it not stopping. Which is hard. But the emotions you feel, your level of suffering, I feel it really is something that "you" are doing and generating in the sense that its your mind. You just cant get your own mind to stop. Honestly, I don't think purification of the self could be summed up better than in this quote When you're hot, touch the furnace. When you're cold, submerge yourself in ice. Become one with it. Only by diving into the heat can you escape the heat. [I'm speaking metaphorically here, don't literally touch a furnace. And if its not obvious cold and heat are metaphors which generalise to all forms of pain and suffering] And if you decide to continue engaging with sources of information regarding spirituality and non-duality be careful. In my view, Leo himself and people on this forum say too much about non-duality and conceptualise it too much. Reincarnation, God this, God that; forget the word God. Forget and unlearn everything. Beyond instructions and tips on how to open yourself, all other theories are garbage in their essence.
  17. @abrakamowse
  18. Just nice audio of a talk given by shinzen young.

  19. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Thursday 13th June 2019 18:33 Woke up at 6 am unfortunately and couldn't go back to sleep, so I'm quite tired right now. In the morning I did the longest strong determination sitting I've ever done, 90 minutes, and boy was it amazing. The process of SDS brings out your primal fear and anxiety, some of the cleanest purification you can get. I won't lie though, it was extremely painful for me. I felt my body completely filled up with this raw fear and anxiety. For at least 20-30 mins of the practice it almost felt like I was in hell. I would have equanimity for a few minutes before going back into suffering, then back to equanimity then back to suffering, over and over again. Whilst SDS is extremely good from a purification and just mindfulness point of view, I suppose a small bonus to it is that if extreme emotions come up your body gets a sort of chemical high that a thrill seeker would enjoy. I think I have some chronic fatigue problems, I need to go to the doctors and fix my lifestyle up. Fatigue is probably one of my worst demons, being responsible for a lot of my bad habits.
  20. Why didnt I type like this before haha
  21. Shinzen Young wrote this in one of his blogs https://www.shinzen.org/from-vipassana-to-zen/ So how might a strict zen monk differ from a strict Vipassana monk in their practice? Thoughts on this quote? Theres this video as well I know that I myself like being bouncy. Anyone experienced in this matter and know what the differences are? I've perhaps been exposed to how zen people talk, but idk about vipassana.
  22. When someone responds to me online my first inclination is to respond with the ? thinking emoji but I guess that doesn't work here. I liked the ball of yarn analogy and the cross-section thing.
  23. Leo has made a few different awakening videos, saying he goes deeper and deeper. Perhaps he ends up going deeper and deeper. I will say that on the whole the concepts in all the videos feel identical. I'm just a bit confused when Leo thinks he's experienced states of consciousness beyond what is taught in conventional non-dual wisdom, I mean to me it sounds like Leo and Hinduism for example are saying the same thing. For example Alan Watts gives the analogy of the fact that everyone is a different expression of God, and that you're playing hide and seek with yourself. And the ideas of formlessness, the void being beyond all language.
  24. @zunnyman a zen master might answer your question by suddenly clapping really loudly, throwing something at you or by shouting some non-sensical noise. There's a reason that well formulated philisophical questions are answered in such a way.

  25. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Saturday 08/06/2019 09:32 I've finished exams now, all thats left for me to do is to just do this lab report, do two more experiments and I'll be moving back to my family in a week or so. I feel quite inspired to change the quality of my leisure time and stop severe internet addiction. Instead of using discord or watching Netflix I'll change my sources of info to purely reading based, only allowing myself to watch videos which are work related or the very occasional personal development and/or non-duality video. I'm even going to stop myself from listening to music 24/7 like I normally do. I hope to force change to happen, and even quitting something like music is important I think. I'm trying to recalibrate my mind and senses from the damage of excessive technology use. And to do that, I want to make myself as old school as possible in my lifestyle (at least temporarily) but still using technology for important things like work or necessary networking with people. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- General reflection on the internet By design the internet amplifies our minds' ability to become neurotic and distractable. The mind is always looking to run away from discomfort, whatever form the discomfort comes in. Your mind tries to turn outwards, looking for some "golden goody" to relieve your unhappiness. The internet has a million and 1 ways to keep your mind in the unconscious cycle of neurotic seeking and turning away from the present. The internet really can become a drug. When a person does drugs in contrast to meditation they are trying to solve the same problem but in the opposite direction. Drugs work by sending you into this weird, cloudy haze of unconsciousness such that you temporarily seem on the surface to be relieved of your problems. Only issue is, those painful emotions are there the entire time you take the drug and the presence of those negative emotions only make you indulge harder and harder, and you end up entering this positive feedback loop of suffering. In nature, such large amounts of stimulation didn't exist compared to what the internet offers. It should come as no surprise that technology then becomes an amplifier of dysfunction.