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@4201 Very relatable post. Dopamine addiction issues here as well. Judging by your manner of speech, I think you'd enjoy reading or listening to Peter Ralston and Jiddu Krishnamurti.
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lmfao replied to XeRnOg's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Sounds like your technique is good but you're exaggerating the facts of the matter because you're high on the results it's given you, which is good if you are high on that and what others to experience that high. If someone could hold their breath for hours there would be a world record, so your factual claims sound bullshit. From practicing kriya yoga or meditation you can experience states of deep relaxation and focus where you don't breathe as frequently, or breathe very slowly. I've had this, others can have it, so it's not like there isn't a kernel of truth in what you're saying obviously. And samadhi is often described in terms of not breathing iirc. But it mostly sounds like you're exaggerating things because you're excited. I will give some criticism to your technique and instruction though. Asking someone to not think about breathing is like asking someone to not think of a pink elephant. -
@Iksander Morality and principles are the shadows of "right action"
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@Elshaddai I procrastinate decision making and seem to magically think I can make a decision later. But if I can't make a decision now, there's a good chance I can't make a decision later because later will be now when later arrives.
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Old people are generally lower in the spiral because the location of a collective on the spiral usually increases as time elapses. The driving factor for time elapsing being significant is young people being born and old people dying. So the observation that the collective evolves over time shows younger people tend to be higher on the spiral.
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I talked to some old high school friends of mine today. I remember feeling uneasy during the conversation, that these people hadn't changed and were still entertaining the same dynamics. In the back of my mind, I've known for a long time that a lot of my trauma accumulated from high school. But I've denied it, got very triggered when reminded of it, but then ultimately try to forget about it. But I think I should stop doing that. Anyway after that conversation with my friends, I was feeling anxious for no reason, and the feeling just mutated slowly over time after the convo finished. I ended up feeling a bit manic, racing thoughts. I was in such denial and had such low awareness of myself that I didn't even realise this conversation and the triggers to my past were why I was feeling this. So I then decided to do some kriya yoga. After some mahamudra at the end, a lot of negative emotions from the past came flooding up and I suddenly became aware of why I was feeling this way. So now I've decided I have to heal this trauma for sure this time, no more just forgetting about it. I will revisit Leo's forgiveness video, but I've still other things to consider. The problem I have is that I don't know where to begin. Everything is tangled. Leo's video is about considering individuals and sometimes particular events. I can think of a few events sure. But the problem is that the trauma I have is from the collective. So how to address that I don't know, and am seeking help about that. The entire environment I was in in high school. I went to a prestigious, rich white kids school (not white myself and there were traces of racism). The atmosphere was authoritarian and soul crushing. Part of the problem is that I almost just hate everyone there. So how do I narrow down targets and go about this... Since I can think of a few events, I will use those but my entire experience there felt like the event. The issue with that though is that the more I think about it the more everything I remember can be considered an event to address. --- My natural temperament has always been philosophical and deep since I've been young. I switch between the capacity of being logical and impressionistic/jungian, thinking in artistic images and metaphors. I've always gone through my life feeling like everyone around me just doesn't see what I see. They can't see the bigger picture, can't see the meta structure of things, can't appreciate what's important even if you fully lay it out for them let alone deduce it for themselves. And then the authoritarianism, the group think, the feeling isolated and rejected from the tribe for being different.
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Read the lyrics of it as well.
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Sounds a bit classist but sure Sounds biased against stay at home moms and poor people. As nice as an idea as having philosopher kings sounds, you can't impose your will on a people who are mostly resistant to what you want. If I'm some stage yellow ruler of some stage red place I can't just impose my personal values on everyone, even if my values are more developed. It doesn't work.
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Miss me with that sieg heil shit
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@IJB063 Just because IQ is significant statistically doesn't make it this godly measuring stick for human worth. IQ correlates with a shit tonne of things, and sure you can fairly confidently say quite a few of those things are causation rather than just correlation based. Even if that is true, you seem to appreciate no other nuance about the situation. And you seem to be all the much too eager to use these facts in the service of your political narrative. Genuine question, no sarcasm here. Do you view most of the people giving criticisms to you on this topic as cucked and "not based"? IQ is a statistical force and predictor. This doesn't make modern science, and it's associated ideological culture/circlejerk which you seem to be unaware of, or IQ to be the divine authority over metaphysics, philosophy and truth. Put IQ in it's proper place as a partial truth and statistical force for outcomes. This is also a point but cba to go into it fully. Perceived value and the worth of IQ for life outcomes is shaped by whatever standards the people interpreting the data hold. Western thought and empiricists are concerned with very crude things like GDP as measures of success and brilliance. And also bear in mind that society can be shaped in such a way that only certain types of people flourish but others don't, in a one size fits all approach. Statistical forces and correlations in these IQ studies say absolutely nothing about the deeper workings of human brains or consciousness. But you seem to ignore that in your worldview, and now you've reduced something first order to reality like intelligence to something as silly as IQ and these shitty little studies.
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lmfao replied to Spiral Wizard's topic in Society, Politics, Government, Environment, Current Events
@Spiral Wizard Around the online MBTI communities I has hanging around, there was this dude who would hop from server to server, finding places to troll but he always got banned extremely quickly. He had his own server though which I joined for a tiny bit to see what this guy was about. He was an odd fellow. I talked to him a bit on voice chat, he was a disgusting person. His version of having fun was pathological lying and provoking. I did manage to have a few "genuine" conversations with him. He's been diagnosed irl with ASPD, seemed like a sociopath for sure, probably a narcissist as well. My first convo was when I was talking to him because he said he was seeking a philosophy that matched his "naturally hateful way of being". I asked him why he thought this was a fundamental part of his nature, why he couldn't become kinder or calmer. He claimed he was incapable of otherwise, and that hate and aggression is his default. I got the feeling that most of what he was saying was bullshit excuses. I asked him if he's tried psychedelics. He said he's tried them before (I remember he tried LSD, cant remember what else) and they don't anything. I recommended maybe trying again but he was adamant they won't help. I don't know to what degree he was speaking the truth or making shit up here. I'm no psychedelic user, and I don't know how it would work on people like this. He started his own community/server so I got to see that side of him. He established cult-like dynamics. Now observations about him as a person in general. He enjoys and revels in making truth indistinguishable from falsehood. It was all just psychological warfare and pointless manipulation for whatever imaginary gains his petty mind conceived of. He was a control freak. In his conversations he needs a very particular power dynamic. The person he's talking to needs to be humble, respectful and somewhat meek. And he's the brash and aggressive one. And in reward for fulfilling this dynamic, he would metaphorically suck your dick by giving you compliments of being intelligent or ascended. He claimed all his compliments were genuine. More of that in the next paragraph now. There is one caveat to what I'm saying. I don't know how much of what he was doing was intentionally manipulative and deceitful. He tried to give off the image of someone who was brutally honest most of the time, and that the lying was all just him trolling and having fun, and it's your fault for being a sucker. And I think that image was at least partially true if not mostly true. He was certainly imitating (or actually was, rather than imitating) , to a degree, what self proclaimed (some of which are genuine and not just self-proclaimed) biological psychopaths on Quora exhibit. What I mean is that he gave off the vibe of someone very un-neurotic at times and there were times when he was serious that he felt "raw" and charismatic. He felt like the real deal. Extremely blunt, logical and pragmatic. Excellent at rational, matter of fact judgement at times. Good at seeing through inconsistencies of emotion/belief and calling out fake shit. First time I met him I felt a weird fear just from his manner of speech and energy. He felt like an alien, and there's the conflicting feelings of intrigue and fear someone feels when encountering a dangerous and unknown entity. In the end though, I mostly decoded it all. It wasn't that mysterious or amazing really. Psychopaths are just people with a smaller range of emotion, and it limits their perspective and what dimensions of consciousness they can explore and grasp. ---- I am currently in a place where I struggle to see low consciousness as being loving and as a part of reality to accept and "surrender" to. -
This question could be moved into Serious Emotional Problems if mods want to. I can't say what the mistake is, but I feel a lot of shame about it. Like I've hit rock bottom and worthless. There are no tangible reparations for what has been done, albeit perhaps private ones with myself in the process of healing. Anyone here ever had intense events/mistakes they've overcome, and how they healed? I'm thinking of adopting shamanic breathing as a weekly thing. I'll watch Leo's forgiveness/trauma video. How does a sinner/criminal repent and heal?
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@Boethius Right I see. @Mu_ Good walking through of things.
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lmfao replied to Knowledge's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Knowledge Pointless question here no? So the way I'm reading this question, you're asking why we've forgotten our "first memory"? What you mean by memory here is confusing. But that aside. Isn't the answer just that people forget their first memory. So doesn't that make your question become "Why do humans forget memories they've had?" ? -
I haven't gotten into it but there are green/yellow postmodern intellectuals, a lot of them dead. I've heard good things about Jacques Derrida. I have a book by Foucalt I've barely touched. --- https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Postmaterialism
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@Osaid Right, I need to be careful in what I ascribe as being my identity. The mind is full of many forces. Mind is host to a bunch of senators, and an evil one came out the dark. But I'm the president. @Artsu Yes. I've calmed down a little now. I'm getting a bit conscious of the fact that I'm mindlessly falling into the patterns of thought that the collective, which is ultimately retarded, has. Whatever conclusion I get about myself, I need to do it from principles and come up with a constructive way to work from it. I need to journal privately and rest.
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@Marten Yeah the book is genius. The author is really good at describing things vividly. I don't have to watch the film to know the book is way better.
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@K VIL How can I bitch about my family and friends without anonymity? Also dude, you're probably fine about this Conservative thing. You spend all your time talking in this forum which is clearly biased towards liberals and the left. If I was the sort of person to judge someone I knew in that way, I would consider that.
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@eggopm3 I think part of what it is is that you're a "lateral thinker". Reflecting on myself with this. Often times when I'm in a discussion with someone about something, I get excited and mention a lot of different things and "tangents" at once. And not many people will understand why I'm saying what I say. And I'd feel dejected/sad about that. Unweaving that feeling of dejection, I unexpectedly find a large number of things about myself I never looked at. I'm gonna guess different things that may or may not resonate. Would you say it's the case you feel a compulsive need to talk in certain domains of discussion? Like you're anxious for people to hear and understand your viewpoint? And this expresses itself in you accidentally interrupting others, or staying on a particular point after the conversation has moved on? Is part of your self image one where you are the source of clarity/reason? A few ideas come to mind for me: 1) Whenever you're typing a sentence, look back at your sentence and delete any unnecessary words. This is a practice I 2) See if there's any sort of emotional or psychological compulsions at play here which go beyond just the natural way you think. --- An anime youtuber now called "Digi-nee" made his own personality system called "neurotyping" which you might like. It has two dimensions. One is " lexical vs impressionistic" and the other is "linear vs lateral". From the sounds of it you're very lateral. (And unless extremely lexical, even lexical leaning people will struggle to be understood by most people if they are very lateral). I wouldn't be able to guess how lexical or impressionistic you are, other than saying you aren't at the extreme of being very lexical.
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lmfao replied to Yarco's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Leo Gura What teachers, dead or alive, are in touch with these advanced stages of awakening? An example I can think of is maybe David Hawkins. https://youtu.be/tBTRLp9JOI -
Man I'm feeling weird today. I went on an intense bike ride, was super fun. I got a rush out of the high speeds. I then mowed the lawn. I had a big meal afterwards. And then I lazed around. Nofap streak broke from feeling fatigue and wanting a release. But I'm not too beat up about it. I'll handwrite journal to myself in detail later about everything anyway. I have a very peculiar feeling. My stomach is stuffed. But I'm hungry and want to eat. It's weird. I'm wondering if this is a side effect of reducing my zoloft medication from 100mg to 75mg. Either way, body and mind is weird today. I can't figure it out. Maybe these are flu-like symptoms from decreasing dosage. So I just took a moment to pause and look at myself mindfully. There's a bouncy, irritable energy. It's not terribly bad, but the energy is jerky. The waves of sensation oscillate frequently with a low time period. For some reason I'm seeing it as bad and uncomfortable but I can't tell why. Just irritability as well. Edit: I'm feeling unwell like I have a flu, the rest of the commentary is delirium. Maybe even severe hay fever after the amount of time I spent outdoors. Cutting grass? Spending time in countryside bike riding? The delirious commentary being sustained by me not taking a second a look inwards. And I put off looking inwards by drowning my brain in YouTube videos by Dr K and Vaush. But now I'm listening to chill Durarara track Anyway, I feel good and okay. I'll kriya yoga before sleep. I havent even stretched after working out or showered. Too tired to shower, just stretch
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@EpikurSpeaking of the devil, Tim Pool has unironically gone off the deep end brah. I didn't know he was this retarded
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@Someone here journalling. For my personality in particular, it's been a massive help. Led to insights about myself and why I do certain things. Only after sitting down and writing did I figure out yesterday for example that one of the reasons I did this particular bad habit was literally because I hated myself. And it was an actual insight, not just hearing someone else say it, it was an unexpected discovery. Journalling has helped me stay off porn and ween off anti depressants. Like @member said you need to just stop doing it. But. In order for that approach to work, you need to have consciousness work practices and be prepared.
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@Epikur The left vs right scale is relative.The conceptions Americans have of the scale is biased towards the right. Biased in that direction according to my personal standard. What I mean by this is that Americans will call someone left when in fact they are centrist or slightly right. I would call Tim pool a centrist, maybe leaning right in some areas. Bland and toothless. I liked his appearance on Joe Rogan's podcast though.