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  1. I have a question about Maha Mudra, as well as Kriya Pranayama more generally. When doing Kriya Pranayama, you're supposed to constrict your throat when breathing in (ujayi pranayama breathing). As well as constricting the throat, you're using alternate muscles to breathe in it seems. Somewhere in the diaphragm you have to put force/pressure into it. I find that when doing this, I get exhausted afterwards and it's quite strenuous. I feel short for breath when doing it as well ( I try to do 12 in a row without any normal breaths in between) With Maha Mudra, the inhalation is supposed to be around at least 10 seconds (the book says up to 15). There's no instruction in the book about constricting the throat or anything, but to achieve a 10-15 second inhalation you have to force or manipulate your breath in some way. I find it strenuous to force it this way, putting pressure in my throat or diaphragm to do it. And then ofc Maha Mudra is strenuous because of holding the breath, constricting the anus and concentrating with the ohm's. -- Did Kriya Yoga today. After doing Maha Mudra, I still had Kriya Pranayama to do. Whilst doing Kriya Pranayama, my throat was involuntarily vibrating constantly and making my breathing jerky. I realised I was straining too much, and I lowered the pressure. Even still, my throat was slightly vibrating, twitching and jerking. What's going on? Is this just tiring? After doing Kriya Yoga I now feel exhausted
  2. Only sharing this. Don't know, myself. I've always leaned towards deconstructing attachment in the form of "love".
  3. Seems I'm slytherin. I could see myself being ravenclaw as well but this makes sense. Some part of my shadow is quite arrogant and elitist, so this is in line with that. Also, Hufflepuff is the most bland house lmao. I feel like everyone who read the books agrees.
  4. @Cosmin_Visan This forum has gotten more dogmatic/lazy over time. But I don't know you, so what I'm seeing may not be the same as what you mean.
  5. @mandyjw Nice childhood story. Adam and Eve is certainly very interesting. Good questions, I don't know. What my inquiry that day led to was wondering "Is fear desirable?" or "Should I abandon all fear?". Shouldn't I be fearful of things that can cause me physical harm? For example. If you're not careful when driving or walking near or road, you could die if you make a few wrong steps. When fear is so deeply ingrained to this level, how can I hope to fully overcome it? ---- About the Adam and Eve thing. Whilst the story was good for communicating what you wanted to say, you were also considering the story in of in itself, so I feel the need to examine that story. Yahweh, and the Bible in general, is a mish mash of a lot of things. He ranges from pure ignorance on one end to enlightenment on the other end, depending on what part of the bible you're in. And so I don't readily take in mainstream interpretations of these biblical stories, since so much of it is humans projecting their shit onto "god". --- What if Eve never sinned in the first place but believes she sinned? What if reality was never dual but was believed to dual? What does this make us? What does that make this? What nonsensical crap am I even saying at this point. I feel like you could invent a Koan out of this. Or write a rumi poem.
  6. @Flowerfaeiry I had an idiosyncratic insight the other day that any notion of sin or karma engenders fear. We carry unconscious guilt and shame over thinking in one way or another, we have "sinned". Which causes fear that "god" will strike us down in vengeance. The "sin" may be just a shame towards our existence. We believe we have sinned, and so we walk around being fearful of universe, because we're trying to be on guard from god's wrath. This manifests in hyper zero-sum game attitudes towards the world. Where nothing is free or easy, and everyone is always out to get you. -- Whatever beliefs me and you have accumulated and swept under the rug of "karma" aren't true. Maybe some advanced Yogi out there understands what it means in a non-fearful and loving way, but for us, we don't. So it's best discarding it as bullshit. --- The angry god in the old testament and Quran is so fascinating, feels like I'm seeing the unconscious parts of humanity brought to light. The mindset of someone in hell is that they are a sinner and are worried that they've killed god and are divorced from him, because they believe they negative karma or have sinned so much in the past, things are hopeless. In believing you have sinned, you invent and create that conceptual reality for yourself.
  7. Phoebe's my favourite of the gang right after Chandler.
  8. @blankisomeone I fucking love friends, that shit is my childhood. I watched this episode not too long ago. Ross is whiny and annoying all the time. Hilarious how Phoebe at the end lost respect for Ross. "Don't get me started on gravity"
  9. @mmKay I'm not gonna defend astrology because I think it's bullshit but if you talk to the astrology crowd they'll say zodiac sign alone is nothing. What's important are these charts, and you need to enter the exact location and exact time of your birth. With as much as 30 mins or 1hr being a massive difference to how they'll read your chart. I talked to some astrologists to read my chart(s). Some of the things they said were true but some things false or a large stretch at best. One guy said the next 6 years of my life will be "self discovery" before my life enters a phase of romance or love for 7 years. We'll see if he's right, I won't be holding my breath or hoping so.

  10. Jordan Peterson New Book

    lmfao replied to SS10's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    I skimmed 12 rules for life, it was just an okay self help book. Nothing special, nothing terrible. He had a few interesting analogies and pieces of imagery though. Lobsters being one. Biggest weakness was that it felt narrow and simplistic otherwise, not very insightful. Also his shadow does bleed into it. I'll be skimming Beyond Order perhaps. Not because I care about learning something useful from it. But because I'm invested in the story of this man Jordan Peterson. I want to see if the way he's thinking has changed. It won't achieve anything, this is just my version of following celebrity drama.
  11. Is Narendra Modi a good person?

  12. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    ACIM bringing out my past trauma with religion into consciousness I haven't been doing ACIM workbook exercises for a long time and instead decided to read the textbook chapters/theory. Due to Christian langauge and themes in it, it unexpectedly triggered or uncovered trauma or fears I had. Because I was a religious Muslim in the past and all that, it seems I have a lot of left over fears. What I still have embedded in my psyche is a punitive and fearful worldview of god. Afraid that god will strike me down for sin. Afraid of being luciferean in my thinking lest god strike inflict vengeance. Made me then realise that any notion of sin or karma engenders fear. You think you have sinned against god, and hence you see the world as a form of vengeance which will strike you at any moment. You walk around thinking the world always has strings attached, which is further elaboration of seeing the world as a place of vengeance. Because in the unconscious is shame about your very own existence and you don't think you're worthy to exist. Funnily enough, the material in ACIM is about undoing exactly that, and I initially projecting all of that onto ACIM. This is all described pretty well in this thing I found. https://facim.org/the-fear-of-god-and-compassion-for-others-part-1/ -- I was also afraid of being dragged into another belief system by reading all this due to all the phrasing, since I had been harmed by belief systems in the past And then I realised a more general fear I had A general fear of mythology, images, stories, beliefs. Fear of being confused, being lost, fear of my own mind and fear of chaos. The strange terminology of "Father", "Son", "Holy Spirit", etc made me all scared whilst reading, untill I saw this other quote in the book. Made me realise that fear of defilement or of dirtying oneself is ultimately falsehood. Which is a fear that you've killed god. Fear being the opposite of love. And then I thought about how hard it is to overcome fear in practice. But I can't bring myself to abandon fear, I tell myself, because there's a purpose to it surely, etc. The world is that harsh. To be fully loving is metaphysical suicide --- I'm not sure what emotion/state is worse than shame in its pure/abstract form. Since shame is the inherent hatred of one's own existence, and that entails self destruction and suicidality eventually
  13. Lol so much shitposting here, seems fun @Ponder Don't let the haters get to you girl
  14. I find it really strange that when you google Leo Gura the first thing that comes up is RationalWiki, followed by videos made by this random guy called Andreas Carlund who has 600 subs.
  15. Self proclaimed Certified PhD MBTI Typologist here. MBTI is a very particular way of framing personality, you shouldn't be hoping or aiming to change your MBTI type for growth or self improvement. Second point, it's all so vague and open to interpretation that to take MBTI seriously you have to impose convoluted mental structures and mappings that in the end bear no resemblance to the structures you started off with and built upon.
  16. Human instrumentality is real but the conspiracy theorists been looking outwards rather than inside (Watch Evangelion and EoE, probably one of the most non-dual pieces of fiction, extremely direct metaphor)
  17. @Conscious life My dude, I think you need to just forget about spiral dynamics. You don't need it and it isn't helpful or accurate. We're talking about non-duality and mysticism here. But hey, I might be wrong in denying the use of models. I think what you're looking for could be in Ken Wilbers formulation of "tier 3" stages in his book "the religion of tomorrow". So, Ken Wilber formulates "growing up" (spiral dynamics, jungian shadow integration) as being separate from "waking up" (enlightenment) I haven't read what he's written much, but my guess (which might be wrong, I'm completely guessing) is that tier 3 occurs when growing up and waking up join together. So you need both factors to reach tier 3. Or rather, tier 3 is defined as arising from the union of waking up and growing up and evolution resulting from that. I preface this all with the fact I don't believe any of it, I'm just delivering someone else's worldview.
  18. Someone's been watching Peter Ralston?

  19. Doxxing at actualized.org

    lmfao replied to Arcangelo's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Nice ?

  20. Doxxing at actualized.org

    lmfao replied to Arcangelo's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    @Rilles why your pfp looking like an ECG lmfao

  21. Resources For INTP's

    lmfao replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    @nitramadas I hope your understanding isn't shaped by websites like 16personalities.com. Because that ain't MBTI That site is literally Big Five, they literally admit it on their website. --- When you so blatantly dismiss how the cognitive functions work I question how well you understand MBTI at all. An INTJ will not evolve into an INTP. I've met many INTJs and many INTPs. These dichotomies of Ti vs Te, Ne vs Ni... aren't arbitrary, just because they're both thinking and intuitive. The differences between introverted and extroverted attitudes of S, N, T and F are quite stark. Is it meaningless that INTP and INTJ share three letters? No. Are there some very loose commonalities between all thinkers? Yes. But the differences are huge, and you'd understand that if you knew the theory better. An extra layer to what I've said so far is that the thinking (and intuition) functions for both types are in different positions in their stack. I mentioned this in my previous post, but you seem to have ignored it. You asked "what happens if an INTP becomes judging". This whole "judging" business was an invention that Jung never stated for the sake of constructing function stacks in MBTI. The assertion of a P vs J as a scale isn't MBTI. P vs J is about whether you introvert or extrovert your perceiving and decision making functions. As a heuristic for a newbie you can correlate it to conscientiousness, but that's not the same as causation or its definition. --- Whilst personality is often fixed, I'm optimistic and open to the possibility it can change as well. But in regards to all you've mentioned, 1) The personality change needn't be expressed through a change in MBTI category (since this is just one lens. ) 2) A single unit of change needn't happen along any of these 4 scales/axes in XXXX, because XXXX being a 4 scales was never the right way to view it. XXXX is a code for function stacks. I don't think about mbti much in my day to day thinking because I don't think it captures anything meaningfully mechanics wise, and it might just be a categorisation of outward correlates that don't reveal anything substantial. Sort of like if a child categorised everything in reality by what physical color it was. Hence if you're interested in personality growth and etc I wouldn't think about it in these terms. ____________________________________________ Also, at the start of conversation, you ended up trying to make a lot of judgements and guesses about me rather than engaging in the topic of conversation. Projecting whatever you did about spiral dynamics. And I've seen a few of your posts elsewhere. It seems like an unconscious mentality where you're comparing yourself to others too much. Spiral dynamics is this standard for worth and so your mind is obsessed with knowing your own position on it, and also knowing where other people are on it. The same way many people are always comparing how materially rich they are with each others, using fads like shoes, phones and cars as proxies for self worth. Or like a kid in high school comparing his test scores with other kids. The real truth of the matter behind what I'm saying though, is that I just dislike you. The rest is probably just an extra layer of deception.
  22. @Leo Gura everyone and their grandma is a conspiracy theorist now. There used to be a time when being a conspiracy theorist was actually cool. Old school 9/11 truthers were swag. Old school conspiracy theorists were bipartisan and had their own opinions. Now every patriotic boomer is claiming covid is fake because they love daddy trump and want to shit on the libs. Normies ruin everything, conspiracy theories being one of them.

  23. Resources For INTP's

    lmfao replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Brother, watch the video I linked in your other thread for understanding ne vs ni

  24. Resources For INTP's

    lmfao replied to Leo Gura's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    @nitramadas Alright, there's communication mismatch going on here. I've only shown you a small part of the web in my mind, and now you're curious about more but it takes forever to unfold it all. I say that not in an arrogant tone, but am just lamenting that whenever I type things like this I end up having to unpack a lot. So to clarify things. intp and intj have a lot of similarities. But also a lot of differences. Viewing XXXX as 4 scales works roughly and well enough for a newbie. What I was going after isn't you saying intp and and intj have similarities, but I'm stating how the system should work at a ground zero level. Stating things like "xxxJ types tend be more organised and conscientious" work, but they are secondary things from how it is definitionally. xxxJ means your dominant perceiving function is introverted and your dominant decision making function is extroverted. Is describing xxxJ types as conscientious a good heuristic? Yes. But it isn't the same thing. And I state these exact things about the system because that's how I see the starting point and foundation to be. You're very right to state how there are similarities between all xxTx for example. But I'm laying things out definitionally. Because I feel that if someone is a genuine student of these things, there's a right and a wrong way to do it. In summary, what I've been on a tirade against is a semantic issue where people define mbti definitionally as 4 scales from 0 to 100. And they end up conflating the system with Big Five. Prior to mbti in the chain of things epistomologically is this. Sensing, intuition, feeling, thinking, these things can be thought of individually. And there are introverted and extroverted expressions of them. As jung described. And mbti is a further imposition and set of assumptions on how those elements are structured. --- Look man, my mind is a massive tornado of things with this all, I could talk forever. It would take too long. I'm not trying to be emo or edgy, but the only reason you perceive me as orange is that you've only seen one side of me, and my mind is a lateral mess that takes forever to verbally unweave because I have a lot of things at once in my mind which I can't all communicate immediately. And putting my thought forms into words takes a long time and could go on forever. English and writing was always my weakest subject. I have a good ability to talk about all these semantic details but it brings me little pleasure at times.
  25. @jim123 I'm not sure what you meant by worshipping death. And then you went to a few different things. I'll just briefly say what I find important about death. Death awareness is the universal spiritual practice for all people. We walk around in the dreamstate, and death is ultimate slap in the face to all illusions and hiding. It makes a fool of all ideology and sheep-like ways of living. And if I or you stay asleep, in one blink we'll both be sitting on our death beds, realising we let it all slip away. Death, impermanence, flux, these are things you can observe in your experience.