NoSelfSelf

On the one hand i love people on the other i hate them,on the one hand i want to meet and have a gf but on the other i hate it, i can go on and on i dont understand this conflict it makes me depressed...anyone have this?I cant even start because i know i hate it but there is no going around it...

@PsiloPutty Yeah but now fear is subtle then before... @Leo Gura Yeah im not thinking as much but it still happens,i have resistence like before(negative programming)but not as much fear or anxiety as before i cant see how to make it fun it sucks...

@Leo Gura Lets say i want to meet someone but i see how many suffering and work it will have to take to work so i start to hate it and i dont do it...

@Caterpillar Well i want and i dont want its f up thats why im asking wtf is this...

@Caterpillar For example you want to go out meet people but on the other hand you hate the idea so in the end you dont do anything and your social life suffers

@Caterpillar Do you have real life example with real life impact

Started to contemplete what is communication and got 2 good insights everything else is boring stories or things i already know going in circles over and over again....

@Pernani yes its so tough @Caterpillar thats true

You evil people made him stop saying hello to us damn you ???

Stop looking what will happen etc and start being in the present

@Leo-Tzu I may be wrong but i think he got it right his book teaches the fundamentals and its a must read..

I also wonder how it works so i can come to resaults quicker i think it has to do with energy, with kriya yoga practice you make energy flow better and unblock you on a body level thats just my assumption....

@kieranperez what i mean you can merge them and pick another you like

Your first 2 can be in one and your 3 and 10 also same values.. 1.Self actualization 2.understanding/knowledge 3.Progress 4.Fitness 5.Creativity 6.Significance 7.Passion 8.Self expression 9.Connection 10.Adventure

@Viking I understand you very well ( you had some childhood trauma i suppose )by find i meant being in the presence in some group it will motivate you to learn about the theory first its again all linked to ego unable to being vurnable comfortable with yourself and understanding opposite sex being a nice guy low self asteem all mashed up together (probably all caused by some trauma)there are so little people mature for relationship in spiral dynamics people in turqouis are able to have meningful relationships and they are rare...

Having a purpose is male energy thats what you need and did you find someone that you like externaly and internaly,i found that many times you like girl internaly but dont like her sexualy and vice versa...and thats where you problem lies i assume

I read somewhere that when you ejaculate you prepare to give life and thats exausting its normal

Are we finally going to learn how to land that hot wich girlfiend in just 4 hours of explenation?

@Leo Gura mybe because my conciousness hasnt found how to share my gifts with the world...yeah true some experience i saw that im the t shirt in front of me could feel a connection sometimes i could see infinity far away in the distance sometimes my vision becomes really sharp its always different...

What do you mean? Ive experienced infinity many times without drugs i dont have super human level of conciousness

@11modal11 i told you enlightement is a label to point to yourself when you understand what and who you are then thats enlightement

@MiracleMan hahah i hope it is...@11modal11 Enlightement is finding who you truly are not what you think right now that you are body and your thoughts(your name etc)if you are happy then everything is ok but i have yet to find someone truly happy with an ego..

@ajasatya who cares what you did,idk if you are trolling but buying stuff and sex cant fullfill you ever...

@ajasatya you saying buying stuff and having sex will satisy you completely?

Destroying all knowledge is wisest thing to do