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@Preety_India we are done here,im trying to help and im just triggering you nothing coming out of it...miscommunication...hope you will solve this some other way peace <3

@Preety_India then listen to people and things that you wanna hear that appeals you, you are not actually growing that way, but i get you are emotional women and operate differently and would answer this with another emotional response thats how it goes,facing truths is hard and the truth is always within us not out there,blaming men even though they are wrong would never grow you but ok...

@Preety_India You are attracting them that's why they are approaching you ?

Root cause :seems you attract narcissis all the time check it out for yourself why?

@Leo Gura True,got caught in numbers and what people are doing... Ill try really low doses and built it up from there... Hahah this is funny/scary and conforting at the same time

Here we go! first ever psychadelic trip experience! First a little background story,ive been practicing spirituality for 8+ years hardcore and in most of my day im in no mind and so called nothigness with being concious of infinity(not too strong) had over 10 enlightement experiences without drugs so i could compare it and knew whats happening...Considering that i didnt want to take even 1g because i knew it could open me up bad but didnt know how much, so i took close to 1g of dried mushrooms on the empty stomach as first try.I took it at 11:20 am,i started to feel changes 20 min after eating.What was left of ego started to melt and i already start to see infinity better nothing special but could feel changes...already in 40 minutes into a trip i went into what i was calling God head(but its not really just really weak one thats taking shape)everything was light and fun.My intent was to find out some queastions about authenticity and life and test how it will open me up since ego is not strong as regular person..in 50 min in it was still 2 steps back and stronger infinity experinece than 10min ago(as i compared it with my sober enlightment experience)... Suddenly i could feel vibrations through my fingertips and after each vibration i could feel joy/happiness, everything around me got a sense of erotic feeling(remembered Leo saying its like making love to reality thats what i thought atm but its not related)at this point everything was nice until suddenly i could feel the shift hour and 10 into a trip..Suddenly i wasnt conected with my body i could easily see im not the body and when looking at hands i could see those are not my hands(had that experience sober so nothing new)...until suddenly oh boy it hit me i was faced with my death all this thing called life dissaperead it was just pure experience and it was so shoking that it freaked me out...i was facing with my death no association to the body whatsoever and diassociated with this thing called life! At the time that was really tough thing to swallow,didnt know how i would relate to anybody and life in general because there is no life! And shock didnt end there i got face to face with Gods presence like never before and first thing i noticed how powerful he is (immidietly saw why they call him allmighty God) its so much power that all i could do is to go on my knees in his presence it felt like im just a spit of dust...you could feel how alive he is and that hes holding the strings of reality..this is what i wrote at the moment:"God is no joke hes all powerful Respect at his knees Now i get it!!! Face to face with god it was too much Im inside pure conciousness its unreal This is serious shit im not even kidding dude Im completely dead its so radical that its too much" At that moment realized why supressing experiences is a feature not a bug some experiences are too much to handle that its sometimes better to deny it to save yourself! At that point i started to pray to God please dont go deeper i dont know i can handle more its too much it was scary because i didnt know how deeper it will take me and it could take me much much deeper and i took close to 1g...this lasted 30 min or so but sense of time is seen as imagionary so i dont know...slowly it took me back to what i would say nonduality phase and there it was for 3 hours or so but big problem was that i got disconnected from my body and when you are,body sends signals of anxiety hits i would call like little knife..this lasted whole day it was like hell and i was doing grounding exercises to help with it some weird energy that was shooting in my legs got also fear that i wont get kundalini awakening or something ? whole trip lasted from 11:20am when i took it until 11pm when i went to sleep exhausted...my conciousness is still expanded until now... I dont think i would take psychadelics anymore mybe in a year or so because it opens me up so badly and Truth is so radical that when it hits you its so serious that its hard to stomach and you see why illusion/mixed with enlightement is best for me atm...next day it was freaky to talk to people because you can see that Gods speaking to you not a person ? It was lifechanging experience but wouldnt want to experience it again or rather not soon because i feel like i survived with my head almost chopped off?

@Leo Gura Yeah i could see that,it could go so much deeper,it showed me that im so attached to this life that i want to first live it then let it go thats where that huge resistence came from...im not sure how to dosage because this was a light dose and it killed me, so many people dont even get an ego death with 3g of mushrooms.. @Gregory1 I was looking at it and sensing something is missing ?@OBEler Yeah when i drink a glass of beer my conciousness expands...i immedietly knew somehow that this was most important thing in life @Batman Previous awakenings were not this strong it was desolutions of the ego everything would become more alive and colorful rush of energy would flow through me i could see that im the whole room and everything is made out of me...but the deeper you go God becomes so real and strong that you dont look at it as yourself because it freaks you out how itspowerful and holding whole reality together! With every awakenings without drug ego mind would become less and less loud... @Vincent S Yeah i got a taste of what door im barking on and its 1000 more serious than i expected its no joke @eggopm3 Yeah everyone i talked in real life were confused as how i could trip 10+ hours on light dose@SgtPepper Thanks for reading! @Yousif i had 100s of ego backlashes in my life i dont think i could get serious one anymore the resistence is to surrender life for awakening and honestly havent lived to the fullest yet to let go of it...acid is even more powerful i assume? I wanted truth so bad but deeper ones are just so radical that you are not so eager to surrender to it at this point ?

@Adamq8 Yeah,you can hear about it,you can think whats like but when you face "him""you" just wanna shrink in a ball and acknowladge his strenght ?

Paradigms,beliefs,social programming,experiences,trauma,identity You have to self destruct to be congruent to the map of yourself and the world you have and you not aware of it that you have it... You probably try to work on yourself and push your comfort and response from that is self destruction to get you back to your map...

It seems its in human nature when we see some weakness we try to poke at it... expecially if it seen that you are trying to hide it and being dishonest then expecially... Your trauma is poked at and you have a mask to protect yourself from reliving it again , fear comes from you showing who you truly are i assume they see all that(but dont know deeper reason)and having fun with it ...social conditioning/trauma/beliefs is behinde that mask... If you dont tease back or show its not serious(taking yourself seriously) then they will laugh at it for some reason Im all over the place its not easy situation i know that feeling its terrible..

Lets forget about it..

@SQAAD Do 3 hours of determination sitting and notice you can only experience yourself and its only you thats more exciting than any video

I have same problem and i found out its just we try to hide behinde what to talk about because we are not comfortable showing our true self(thinking we are not enough) and we are not familiar with who we are so we dont know what should be said because we dont know ourselves thats what i got so far...

I was studying corey waynes content and what hes meaning by stop caring resaults come is that you dont focus your energy on the girl but having your amazing life and that will give of a vibe that you are busy and she will pursue you and that in interactions you dont show her you like her directly that she always wonders and not validating her overly...you start to invest as much as she is and you can let go when shes in love with you you always make her work for it basically... This comes off as manipulation if you are not truly high value but it works...and nice guys care too much and they overly text overly pursue overly validate girls and dont make her earn it (care too much) and that repels them...

If your goal is to date 9s and 10s then better not do it imo... missing the point of pick up, pick up to me is journey to self mastery poking your inner demons and getting rid of them...everything else is bonus Doing it for validation like :i got 10 look at me how special i am is nonsense and stop doing something you wanted to do just for someone saying that you should get 9s and 10s is also pointless you do it for your own benefits you got affected by seeking for approval i know how it is but living like that is hell.... Pick up should help you with what i see in your post looking for approval,caring for others opinions more than yours and getting swayed from your path easily(validations) having strong sense of yourself that is not influenced by others thats what pick up is for,the core of it! Not women...

@Vincent S dream charachter will always be here but its seen as dream so its losing power...while dream world is different to truly see thats is a dream its not enough to see dream character and mild level of conciousness its a high levels that doesnt depend on if you are suffering or not...

@flowboy have that ever worked for you asking for a relationship right of the bat?

Im aware that im dreaming with my mind and that imagination is not reality but just one aspect of it...to see that you are imagining body etc would need really high levels of conciousness and i dont see whys that important?

Why does it matter if its called girlfriend/boyfriend? If you are having amazing time then sometimes its not even mentioned its obvious whats going on...you shouldnt fixating on that, fixate on being more attractive and having amazing time thats it...

Interesting that you see both sides usually people see only one and fight for that side...embracing both sides equally and making it a whole part of yourself its whats the healithiest and key to being your true authentic expression...

By not trying to put a front to stop being nervous show you are nervous and say that every time someone opens up you get nervous but go on i wanna hear anyway...it gets awkward because its dishonest and it becomes weird...

Overanalyzing comes from not being sure of things (low value) if you are sure and not have to do something extra and watch every step you have to take and do.... Its a shift from i have to do something to make things work(doing) to im the thing that makes things happen(being) Removing mindset ill have to do something to im that thing and if you are that thing you dont overanlayze... Remove layers of whats blocking you from being and stop trying to come logically to what you already are (being) if it makes sense ?... If it all goes wrong then you are confident you will handle the pain now you try to control things to avoid pain... All problems comes from you so you have to come to Im the solution Im confident im sure already no need to overanalyze... Dont know how and what to do just be sure in yourself and thats it ? Its a balance and dance in the end... Edit:its tough to explain and write hope you get something out of it

I think dumb means carefree and not attached to anything, producing most fun as possible, while logical serious makes everything not that fun and reminds them of everday life=boring?

Lets start fresh <3