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@Shroomdoctor well done dude! Actually putting in the work and trying to create order when your feeling as low as you say, that's bloody brilliant. ?? X2 ❤️

@Preetom Exactly! I'm on 3A and I'm like "woooooaaaaaaaahhhhhhh". He's confirming things I thought I was getting wrong (via the experiments). Highly recommended this series. It's brilliant Preetom. Cheers dude!! ❤️

@Preetom Loving the way this guy is narrating his vids. It's like non duality for kids ? (not the teachings, the way he executes it) Richards a G

Okay so I came down a tummy bug. Not such a nice experience Starting to pass now (yay). So I failed the mock exam by 2 point's which was inevitable really as I've been so lazy with maths. Really need to crack on with it over Christmas half term because my main exam is in January (15th I think). So yeah, I did go down to reception and go and speak to a couple of tutors regarding university and what I'll need to do to there. I have a slightly clearer image of my next steps. I'm willing to do whatever is needed to get to where I need to be. I think the job itself will take me away from home a lot but I'm peaceful with that. Mum ordered me a yoga mat last night as a Christmas gift. A beautiful looking mat made from cork from Scandinavia so I'm hoping to take my practice to the next level with this mat. Buying the right mat is literally like a potential bf/gf. You have to work together in order to create something beautiful otherwise it just won't work. Looking forward to the walking meditation today with the dogs as I weren't able to do it yesterday but I meditated in the morning during the stomach cramps and nauseous feeling which was not pleasant I have to admit but also interesting at the same time as it opened a door for more surrender practice.

@rounder Really helps rounder thank you so much. Glad it works for you ?❤️

Guy's report made me laugh but also interesting.

This morning. Woke at 6am, no alarm. Full of energy. Queen on whilst I sing my heart out and finish some chores. This man's legendary. I had a strong feeling for hunger which is weird for me because I fast everyday but since my body was hungry I ate an apple. My body seems to be able to recover so quickly from exercise pains, don't know if has something to do with a plant based diet or what but I remember back in the day when I was an omni it used to take me maybe a week to recover, now it's like 2 days. So that's a massive bonus. Been looking at Vipassana retreats for next year. Definitely mushrooms and Vipassana next year ? I'll need to quit my ecig before the Vipassana obviously otherwise it would be even further torture. This ecig habit has not stopped niggling at me. Absolutely sick of it. I've eradicated nearly every bad habit but this one is proving difficult. I know I can do it. The answer is do I want to? Yes and no... Ffs ? Math mock exam today... Yaaaaay ???

Curiosity Zest for life Demons (hidden emotional trauma) Also maybe a feeling of being 'lost'

Knee pain. sometimes numbness in one or more fingers and parts of my legs (possibly from degenerative disc problem I have in low back)

@SageModeAustin Take your own signature advice and do what is needed ❤️

Agreed. I'll be using this also. Thanks dude ?❤️

@How to be wise hey thanks so much for responding, I really appreciate your reply. Thanks for pointing something out. Nah I joke. I'm just humouring you Am I aware I have a people pleasing mentality? No, I think your basing that opinion on your own judgements not what's actually true. I was brought up to be kind and use manners and FYI British people are well known for being over friendly and over using manners ?

@Aquarius A lot of what he said was about him... Actually all of it was. If your looking to date authentic people start by looking in the right places lovely ❤️

Do you trip @Outer

Maybe shift this over to the nootropics mega thread @Cudin you will probably get more responses

@ajasatya I just had a scan through the link and have absolutely no idea what it's going on about Could you explain in laymen's terms please

Today... Another beautiful day. Tell you what though monkey mind is in full swing (get it?). like I'm pretty sure I've noticed a pattern of when I'm due on the mind just will not shut up! Might be hormones or something idk. It's actually interesting to observe because I used to be this way all the time. It's hard work Was walking today with the dogs and sometimes this 'thing' just happens... I'll be walking or doing whatever and like there's a massive shift in perspective for around 2 seconds. It hits me that hard I go "woah." I don't question it because it's happened that many times I'm just like meeeh. But I do notice my heart suddenly starts to pound. Definitely not a panic attack. Was talking with my friend yesterday about being a possible trip sitter for me in her house. I explained theres too much negative energy in my house from panic attack memories and that and she said she'd be up for it so that's sketched in for next year. The calling to do mushrooms still hadn't gone I'm still deeply called to them so ? Talking about mushrooms look at the size of this I found today ? they're so beautiful! Also a beautiful pic I caught ?

@rounder you dont half make me laugh Know what you mean dude. I had an idea as I'd spoken to people on here and heard a few other vids but I love how Leo went into super detail with this one. I was agreeing with everything. "Yep, yep yep." Suddenly felt less... Bad. Has it helped you rob?

@ajasatya Nice! I'll give it a watch later ❤️

@PsiloPutty I love you man. Yeah course I remembered them, you opened me up to the world of vegan pulled jackfruit burgers ??

okay so I'm definitely going through an ego backlash. Fuck knows why ? I didn't finish watching all of Leo's video on ego backlash but I was called to it this morning and I ticked every box. By the end I was like. "Thank you leeeeoooooo." Just clarified everything for me. I notice I have around 2 a month. Maybe 1 a month. Sometimes short sometimes long. Little dickheads ? So yoga yesterday was amazing. Not much to say on that front. Prana was a flowwwwwwing. Aching like a mother today though after the gym Saturday and yoga Sunday. I then took a walk with the dog yesterday, I crave them, they're like a meditation. ❤️ So after yoga I had a quick brew with my buddie then went food shopping, on the self service tills where people wait behind you, tap their foot or huff to hurry up, this actually the one place where I've practiced mindfulness a lot. In the past I used to rush for them, it gave me anxiety and unnecessary stress. But since starting PD (personal development) I got to a stage where I was able to observe the thoughts that arose whilst I was rushing, packing my shopping. This literally dissolved all the stress and anxiety. From that I took my time, naturally and packed my shopping consciously. Yesterday it has come back with the vengeance since this backlash ? I noticed the thoughts after I had packed, noticed my current state and went. "Fuck!" ? Leo mentioned this in the video this morning about too hard on yourself when your not mindful enough which then makes you feel worse. So glad to hear that this morning. So I've dropped the guilt and hard feelings on myself as of this morning and I'm going to get through this with so much self love. Feels so counterintuitive but right. Last day of college tomorrow for this year's term. Have another mock exam. With regards to college, I think I'm being too lax. I don't think I'm trying hard enough or taking this seriously enough. My friends at college like all know the ins and outs of their uni degree and what they need and I'm like ? I tend to just deal with 6months of study at a time and then when the time comes to applying for uni etc I'll manage it then. I don't know if I'm being to chill about this in a healthy way or too lazy and not taking it seriously enough. ... I just thought about that for a while and I've realised I'm being too lazy, not taking it seriously enough. So yep, time to step up my game a bit and at least make some sort of plan instead of winging stuff ?

Oh man I can totally relate. When let them off the lead and just let them do whatever they want. How much does your heart fill? ?❤️ Oh that's brilliant!! The dog whisperer ? Well it must be a very rewarding job. Well done by the way! Helping the animals to live their natural state (outside, free etc) ❤️ Cheers rounder! Why don't I buy them food? Erm... I get what your saying but I don't buy meat and the majority of food on offer is animal based. Also on top of that, I prefer to give them cash to do whatever they want with it or buy whichever food they personally prefer. Thanks again rounder. She will always have a place in my heart but to be perfectly honest, I felt the emotions so fully and raw they haven't actually stayed, they passed within a few days now just the loving memory of her remains ❤️ Sweet cravings are still there but yes totally feeling you with the dark choc. I usually buy 80% cocoa or more but the thing is with being vegan is any chocolate I do decide to have is usually dark anyway as it doesn't contain milk, so that's a win win ? Have you tried cocao powder? That shit is well nice as a hot chocolate ?☕ @Aquarius Bless you lovely. Thank you so much. Much love to all of you ❤️❤️❤️

I woke up to the darkness. It was blindingly dark. Utterly peaceful. I didn't care what time it was, it was now. I was excited to get up and start living. There was a genuine excitement in my tummy just to get up. Dogs lay either side of my body. Harry noticed I started to stretch and wake up so he made his way up to me and lay on my tummy. He then creeped forward a little and rested his face right on my cheek. I melted with love. Yoga this morning ? My friend I met on Friday is coming also, she is good friends with the yoga teacher. I've noticed this year I have no desire to put up any Christmas decorations, not through being a humbug or whatever, I don't know. Even Christmas shopping this year has been chilled af. I'm not the type of person to ask for gift's or even desire any. If anything I find it's a time to think of others who have nothing or to think of people who have lost a beloved. I've just had a thought. I'm gonna research ways in which I could donate gifts to children/adults who have nothing. I was Christmas shopping the other day and I noticed how many people where begging or living homeless. If I have spare change I will always donate. My friend said. "They will use it for drugs you know." I replied "hmmm". Truthfully, I don't care what they spend it on, that's completely up to them and not for me to judge, non of my business. Anyway. Yes stubbing my toe a lot recently, this gives great opportunity to surrendering. Oh my gosh is it tough ? stub your toe, trap your finger, stand on a plug and watch the bodies immediate reaction. Tense tense tense. Transcend it. Relax and surrender in that precise moment. I've also been doing this a lot in the cold. If you fully surrender you can see that it's not happening TO YOU, it just becomes a sensation, like emotions for example. They're a happening. It's starts to feel like it's happening outside of 'you'. Takes practice but very insightful once mastered.

@Aquarius @rounder (sorry rounder it keeps the tag there for some odd reason ?) @Aquarius Thank you! Fully agree ❤️❤️ @DrewNows wow how's that going? Being surrounded by dogs all the time ? bet it's hard work walking all them different energies at the same time ? or do you get to know the dog on a personal level first? Thanks for the video. She made me realise a few things. Thank you ❤️