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Cheers dude! This is the only reason I've avoided these type of nootropics because of the adverse effects on the body, like you I have a strong connection to the mind body so it's like ultra sensitive whenever something doesn't agree. Will definitely look into a nootropic to help with exam's approaching. Could help with the 'leg up'.

Oh my god I had to try and imagine a room with one corner and now my head hurts ?

@Seed knows her stuff about public speaking maybe she can provide some advice

I highly recommend it @zambize not only for the benefits of other beings but for personal growth also. It's mad how much growth (when managed properly) can come from this type of work.

I've just realised something. Whenever I walk into a room to sit I always go into the corner. Something that just randomly hit me ?

@zambize exactly!!!! ? That was the exact scenario. Oh aye! About 21 between the whole group but it was pretty quiet in Manchester today to be honest. Do you do any?

@zambize Not gonna lie though he did sound like he was reciting from some sort of cult. He's the highlight of my day though

@zambize I learnt so much from him. He does a retreat once a month. I thought wow that's a lot. He said he needs to purge. I am not gonna say he's mental or whatever because that's labeling from my personal perspective. I asked him who's it? Who he keeps referring to and he replied the devine. He was told through mother Ayahuasca to deliver these messages, to warm people that the time is coming.

@zambize both happened ? I also stood and spoke with a guy who's on his 8th Ayahuasca retreat, believes the government and queen are reptiles and we are all inside a matrix (no shit) ? Guy tells me there's an Ayahuasca retreat 30 minutes drive from my home town ?? I think he was a zen devil.

On my way to do some activism. Bring some stage yellow on their vegan asses (note to illusory self () don't get involved with testosterone riddled men, they're bad news) ?

@Serotoninluv @John Iverson also I'm currently trying out reishi again dude. Bought some yesterday

@Serotoninluv wow nice one serotonin. That's helpful. Which of the three would you say don't particularly raise your heart rate to the degree where it's pounding out of your chest??

@Joseph Maynor ?

Still alive Will update later ?

Been a tough old few days. Starting to feel better again. Mock exam today, went as well as it could of done. Came home and I went shopping for paint for the house. Then tea time approached and I thought I'm not hungry, I battled with plating it up or not. 2 minutes later I thought fuck it I'm going gym. Just got back from the gym and I'm buzzing I went.

@John Iverson random!! ?

@John Iverson yes they are different. Then don't contain psychoactive ingredients hence why they are legal.

@John Iverson i have no idea why I experienced headaches John. My experience? I echo the comments above. I was completely grounded and in the present moment effortlessly. Monkey mind was almost quiet.

@Uncover I'd say this comes down to a reflection of how you truly feel about yourself and your projecting onto other. E.g. Are you seeing a therapist currently?

@Zigzag Idiot ah right. Fair enough.

@Shin really?? Bit backward ?

@Shin thanks Shin. ❤️ @Zigzag Idiot pain pills? As in paracetamol? Jesus from what you said it sounded like you really did suffer greatly. I feel you bro ? it's horrid. I've just bought some suppliments to help with blood sugar levels recommended by a nutritionist. See how I get on with them. Glimpses of normality do shine through now and again and it's like being able to take a massive deep breath and filling the lungs. Like a rabid dog, exactly. Well done on getting through it mate. That's a whole lot of addiction you quit!

@John Iverson dont forget to really do your research into reishi. I took it for some time and ended up with the worst headaches ever although I really loved the benefits of it I decided to stop after reading so many warnings about it. https://www.webmd.com/vitamins/ai/ingredientmono-905/reishi-mushroom

I'm being way to harsh on myself. Mum said I am trying to do to much at once. I agree. I'm going to back off from some things for the time being and go back to basics. This week: Increase meditation More exercise Better study balance

How do I even begin to explain yesterday... I'm not even going to bother. Head was everywhere. I had some cannabis on Sunday night, an extremely small amount and then Monday morning I microdosed with mushrooms. I should of thought twice before doing the mushrooms with the weed still in my system. Also I think I'm due on my period again as I've been extremely emotional over absolutely nothing. Yesterday I battled with food cravings again and studied and slept the majority of the day. I slept a further 2 hours in the day time which is not like me. I paid for some suppliments the CNM students recommended to help control sugar levels (cravings) I got them next day delivery as I'm that desperate so they should be here today. I'm definitely gaining a bit of weight Starting to wonder if this quitting nicotine is worth it. 95% of mind time is literally consumed with food thoughts and it's becoming that bad like I'm crying as it's torture.... Nah, it is worth it. I'll get through it. It will pass. Gonna have another brew and then sit for some serious meditation.