Hello from Russia

I often get fears that if I go completely nuts with my life purpose I might get assasinated by one of these guys, zzz Have you developed any frameworks to cope with it? You say radical stuff, I remember you mentioned you get death threats. How bad is it?

Yeah, in a very big way

What's interesting is that it happenned after I kinda went too cocky with a substance I had around 2 poofs with it and nothing was really changing. Then I was like - "Wtf is that bullshit substance, not doing anything for me". And then I took a really deep poof and omg, it took me to other realm pretty much quite literally in seconds. And I felt as though I was "punished" for my cockyness. It taught me some humility and the neccesity to have a respect for substance

Yeah, I had my first bad trip with DMT It was as though I was possessed by a dmt jester (or dmt elf or whatever, I saw the jester shapes) and he sort of played evil jokes on me, showcasing me a lot of imagery of my deepest fears. For example I was very afraid of snakes from my childhood. And the room turned into full snakey-like shapes for some moments. And other simillar things like this, it was terrifying. Also for like 30 seconds I felt the total loss of control of my body/experience and it was very terrifying and fairly traumatic, especially with this imagery. I felt some hairs turn gray in real time during this all I remember reaching out for my phone and feeling as though my hand went beneath the astral plane of a phone, I just couldn't get a firm grasp on it. I was then like "Okay, no phone then" . Thank God that shit lasted only for about 3-5 minutes

@Leo Gura With DMT I felt like I was enhaling some ancient powder that is very wise and you could say even "eternal" Sort of like a psychedelic spice in Dune's desert feel

@Leo Gura Do organic substances have a disctinct different feel in your experience? Maybe you are able to summon some ancestral magical stuff or whatever more?

Damn, if he'd come to this forum it'd be such a gift Though he might probably be too old for forums...

Nice

Mindfulness is like having a big dick

@Leo Gura All these people still provide enormous value to society despite having some limitations, right? I often times way too critical of people too, even of the most conscious ones, and I sort of start playing the avoidance game, not really engaging with them. But this seems like a trap. I feel like we all need more higher consciousness socialization, even if some people will have certain limits Perfectionism is damaging here too it seems like

Would you say new agers are kind of more advanced in that regard? Especially new age women

Lmao

Why not just sell the car?

Don't be friends with people who are being stupud like this

It's okay to have fights here and there and that they can actually be beneficial But where do we actually draw the line? How much fighting is okay? Is fighting every week okay? What if for 6 days you have an ideal amazing loving relationship and 1 day a week you fight very badly and the situation is consistent? How damaging is this situation? How much fighting is too much and how much fighting is too little? I invite you to discuss this I personally had a great deal of experience in a scenario discussed above. 6 days in a week it is an ideal relationship, 1-2 days it is an utter nightmare. I was excusing a lot of it because these 6 days felt so great once we "have worked on an issue" . But now in retrospect I see how damaging it was and kinda even regret it. I'm not sure what personal standard to draw here. The biggest thing was that it usually was happening during the weekend. I am pretty ambitious person and I like to work hard or go really balls to the wall with meditation/learning. That entails I really need quality rest and recharge time. And instead of it I was constantly dealing with shit load of nonse drama that would take an enormous energy tax on me and lead to a heavy burnout after a while.

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It's classic Don't worry about it too much

There is a material component to weight loss (I.e. creating calorie shortage) and psychological (getting on track with loving your body and having the strength to do it all) Seems like your book can help with the latter

Yoga retreats, there are plenty of them https://bookretreats.com/

Try yoga

What do you mean by that? Just judging and criticizing people and their creations? I guess you could become a critique of some sort People do a lot of this in political commentary, films reviews etc

I once worked a sales job selling river cruise tickets (on a Moscow river, lol) I worked only 3 days and then quit, but with these 3 days I approached more than 1k people. All I did was constantly approach people on the street and try to shove them tickets. It really grew me a lot and killed a huge chunk of my approach anxiety

I don't know about religion but If you'd actually look up spiritual gatherings it is dominated by women Probably 80% women, 20% men ratio, but then it depends on a type of gathering of course https://bookretreats.com/ https://retreat.guru/