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Oh wow, very interesting! Feel like I need to get my hands on some psychs, I've never tried them Yes, completely agree! Those blockages can be very dense and stubborn, so it does take require lots of patience and persistence for them to start to break down I think.

It's a fantastic suggestion, but I don't know how I'd get into contact with her - we used to communicate through a forum we both used, but she deactivated her account and I don't know her phone number or email address. I doubt she'd be willing to engage with me anyway, the last few times we talked she was rather cold and aloof, I could feel her keeping me at arm's length which was frustrating (but, I could understand her behaving that way given how badly she'd been hurt by my rejection of her, so I figured we were just going to have to work on our issues independently of one another, for the time being at least).

Because you've been conditioned to repress certain strong emotions. So when those emotions are stirred up in you (by the music, in this instance), they trigger those patterns of emotional resistance in your body and that's what creates the discomfort.

Fantastic, consistency of practice is so important I think - sounds like you're doing really well on that score

Just floating a theory here so don't take my word for it, but maybe it's because your feelings weren't validated by your care-givers when you were a child, and consequently you unconsciously learnt to bottle them up instead - you came to believe that it wasn't all right to feel these feelings, and you acted accordingly to repress them. This is where learning to self-parent is so important I think, we have to give ourselves the loving attention that we didn't get from our care-givers when we were young. (I love you, my darling soul sister )

@Proserpina Definitely going to try those suggestions, thanks so much for sharing

I've been acutely conscious of pressure around the bridge of my nose today, particularly when I was meditating this morning (it reminded me, as I was sat there quietly despairing at this seemingly impenetrable blockage, that my ex had told me a few years back that I had a blockage in my nose). This might seem at first glance to have little to do with the issues in my heart chakra, but actually it appears to be intimately related - I noticed as I felt into this blockage that there appeared to be a corresponding blockage right in the middle of my chest. Again, I think it's just a matter of time, I can fall into frustration and despair at times but the awakened energy is gradually working through those blockages. Smarts like a fucker sometimes though

@Gianna Isn't it? ?

This is brilliant, I don't think I can overstate how important it is to be able to grasp this - because it's how we access true intelligence.

Hope it's useful for you

@Gianna

@Gianna I know, pretty disconcerting right? ? I do think it's a positive sign though, it's usually a symptom of your kundalini energy being activated which is a good thing (and an essential part of spiritual awakening for most people, I believe) - article on the subject here that you might find useful

I don't find autism and difficulty communicating unlikeable qualities - if anything, I think they make you all the more worthy of love and compassion, because it must be so difficult to live with those conditions.? Exactly, beautifully said ???

I'm so sorry to hear that, my love, I can't imagine how difficult that must be for you I do understand about self-hatred, though, that's something I've struggled with for much of my life, too - I think all most of us really want is love, and so to feel fundamentally unworthy of love is painful beyond words. Yes, I completely agree Self-love is complete self-acceptance I think, and that includes all the anger, hatred, sorrow, despair, etc., that may be lurking within us. Easy enough in theory, rather more tricky in practice - we build up so much resistance to these feelings. So we have to make that resistance conscious first, and allow it to release.

Sorry, I know you weren't asking me, but - I think just giving yourself some attention and noticing what's going on inside you energetically and emotionally is a very loving thing to do for yourself: Drop your attention into your body. Notice where you might be feeling tightness and tension, and allow those areas of your body to relax and breathe. If you notice certain feelings starting to arise as you do so, that's fine - just keep allowing your body to breathe, let those feelings arise. ?

It really is

@ardacigin It's all over my head, I fear. Appreciate the input though, thanks!

Pretty much nails it for me

Funny, I was scrolling through my recent song choices the other day and thinking that they were very male-dominated, and now I find myself listening to predominantly female vocalists - it really wasn't a conscious choice, though, I just seemed to gravitate towards certain songs. It's like a part of me was feeling the need for feminine input. My higher self operates under cover of darkness, I swear