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@Gianna I know, pretty disconcerting right? ? I do think it's a positive sign though, it's usually a symptom of your kundalini energy being activated which is a good thing (and an essential part of spiritual awakening for most people, I believe) - article on the subject here that you might find useful

I don't find autism and difficulty communicating unlikeable qualities - if anything, I think they make you all the more worthy of love and compassion, because it must be so difficult to live with those conditions.? Exactly, beautifully said ???

I'm so sorry to hear that, my love, I can't imagine how difficult that must be for you I do understand about self-hatred, though, that's something I've struggled with for much of my life, too - I think all most of us really want is love, and so to feel fundamentally unworthy of love is painful beyond words. Yes, I completely agree Self-love is complete self-acceptance I think, and that includes all the anger, hatred, sorrow, despair, etc., that may be lurking within us. Easy enough in theory, rather more tricky in practice - we build up so much resistance to these feelings. So we have to make that resistance conscious first, and allow it to release.

Sorry, I know you weren't asking me, but - I think just giving yourself some attention and noticing what's going on inside you energetically and emotionally is a very loving thing to do for yourself: Drop your attention into your body. Notice where you might be feeling tightness and tension, and allow those areas of your body to relax and breathe. If you notice certain feelings starting to arise as you do so, that's fine - just keep allowing your body to breathe, let those feelings arise. ?

It really is

@ardacigin It's all over my head, I fear. Appreciate the input though, thanks!

Pretty much nails it for me

Funny, I was scrolling through my recent song choices the other day and thinking that they were very male-dominated, and now I find myself listening to predominantly female vocalists - it really wasn't a conscious choice, though, I just seemed to gravitate towards certain songs. It's like a part of me was feeling the need for feminine input. My higher self operates under cover of darkness, I swear

@ardacigin Hmm, not quite following you. I'm particularly struggling with the following line: What do you mean when you say that the occurring of craving 'polarized consciousness'? I'm struggling with that phrase.

Love this! ?

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Cheers Preets, currently drowning in my own drool. That devil's fart bread looks sooo appetising...

I love the disclaimer at the end: 'This is not a license to be an asshole or a criminal'. I feel like that was very necessary ?

Same, I don't see the value in forcing the body to be rigidly still - if anything, it seems counter-productive to me if it's creating resistance in the body. I find sometimes that my body will start rocking or circling, and I just let it if that's what it wants to do.

So funny, I'm currently drinking my inaugural cup of ginseng tea (on the advice of Gianna - cheers darl )! Very refreshing it is, too.

Yep, that's the big cosmic joke of it all - you're right, it's shocking when you realise. It's something I realised a few years back. Problem for me is, the realisation quickly hardened into a dry, dead belief - it became nothing more than a thought in my mind. Dissolving all the resistance I'd unconsciously built up against love turned out to be a hugely difficult and painful task. The energy of love feels like such a destructive force, though I understand that the only thing that will be destroyed is illusion. It's just that the illusion seems so real. And I'm scared that there will nothing left when it's gone.

I understand, Preety. I'm so sorry your mum behaved that way towards you

@Spideymon77 Wow Very cool song though.

I'm feeling very conscious of my solar plexus chakra at the moment, I was initially feeling a lot of upset in that area; when I felt into it, though, the upset gave way to a feeling of anger that feels very destructive, it makes me want to brutally attack someone or something. Which would be, y'know, a tad anti-social, of course, though there's a quality of righteous indignation to it. It's actually kind of fascinating and even amusing to observe, because feelings of volcanic rage can give way to feelings of wailing grief in the blink of an eye, and vice versa - it's like, bro, make your mind up ?

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