Forestluv

For now, I would simple go for the facet of Nothing/Everything awakening. Adding in God realization to Nothing/Everything adds in variables. The mind has evolved and is conditioned to perceive separate things. It is conditions to form and perceive distinctions. There is nothing wrong with that - things and distinctions are cool too. . . Yet there is also the deconstruction of distinctions to One Nothing/Everything. . . Conceptually, image One Everything. Look around the room you are in. Imagine every thing in the room is One Everything (including you). . . Now point to one hint that isn’t the One Everything. You can’t. You would need to separate out a “thing” from One Everything. Yet there are no separate things in One Everything. It’s One Everything. So there is No-thing. There is No-thing to contrast Everything with. Thus, Everything = No-thing = Nothing. This is one way to approach it. The resistance of the mind will be: “But wait! There are things!”. Yes there are also things. The mind creates separate things from One Everything/Nothing. Psychedelics stimulate nondual awareness and can be helpful for this awakening.

If you want to invest more of yourself into the relationship, I would clearly communicate that this his behavior is a serious problem for you and the impact it has on you. And it’s not the type of relationship dynamic I want. I would be open to introspecting my part in the dynamic, yet it would be essential to me that they are willing to introspect, acknowledge their part and be willing to grow. For example they may say “I think you are being over sensitive, yet I can also see how I am being overly critical and I haven’t been doing it to make you feel bad.” Then perhaps they reflect on how their parents were overly critical to them and they developed the habit and want to change it. Or at a deeper level, they may reflect on their own insecurities. I would also look at myself. It’s shared introspection and growth. However if they got defensive, refused to introspect and put the blame on me . . . that would be a major red flag. That is a character deficiency that is toxic in a relationship. For example, if I got vulnerable and opened up about how this behavior is hurtful to me and they responded like “You are over sensitive. This is your issue. I’m just telling you the truth and if you can’t handle it, too bad. If you hadn’t gained weight, there wouldn’t be a problem.”. . . That’s a form of narcissism, lack of empathy and desire for control that creates toxicity. And I find it interesting that he wasn’t bothered by your slight weight gain until you told him about it. That is telling to me.

Threads merged. @Bryanbrax Please don’t start multiple threads on the same topic. Also it’s best to provide some context to threads/videos. For example, you posted a couple interesting videos about “paranormal” manifestations from yoga practice. Give us some context, we would like to know more about you. . . Why are you interested in the videos?

Based on how you asked the question, I would be cautious. This is a nuanced question with many variables. What is the baseline conscious level of the person? What is their experience with psychedelics? Are there psychiatric issues? Is medication involved? What are the dosages? How will the dosages be measured. What is the trip setting? Will there be a trip sitter? Has the person plugged before? It is high risk for newbies to jump into psychedelics and try taking three different psychedelics in three days.

Good point. If I may add in a bit. . . The transition into Tier2 is enormous and involves the dissolution of attachment and identity. There isn’t as much of a sense of “my perspective” and “your perspective”. And not so much debate of trying to show “my perspective” is better than “your perspective”. There are various perspectives floating around without a strong attachment/identification to a perspective as “me” or “mine”. Yet this doesn’t mean that yellow considers all perspectives to be equally relevant or valuable. In terms of hierarchies of worth, the personal aspect dissolves - yet there can still be a developmental hierarchy. For example, we could say that a 12th grade student is at a more advanced development stage than a 6th grade student. Yet this doesn’t mean we are making personal judgements of worth. We are not saying that a 12th grader is a better person than a 6th grader. . . . Similarly, we could say that a human is more evolved than a fish. Yet this doesn’t mean a human is better than a fish. It’s totally appropriate to be a fish when the environment is an ocean. In this environment, it’s actually better to be a fish.

@Nivsch Green is often unattractive to Orange. And yellow can appear as more attractive. Especially to intellectual/conceptual types. So when an Orange-centered person wants to expand, they will often want to bypass Green and go toward conceptual Yellow. They may take some intellectual interest in Green yet aren’t willing to do the work to embody green. This creates a poorly integrated yellow that tries to have an outside “meta view” yet doesn’t “get it”. They are in an academic/conceptual space lacking green embodiment and modes of being such as empathic abilities. There is often a green shadow. For those that have embodied green it’s easy to pick up on. Green isn’t just about conceptual theory. There are also deeper levels that come through practice, work and direct experience. This cannot be theorized it comes through direct experience. For someone cognitively based, I’d estimate at least a few thousand hours. I found direct experience through immersion in marginalized/stigmatized groups to be most beneficial. For example, I volunteered within a psychiatric hospital with patients for five years. I would sit and listen to them and learn. Yet not an theoretical type of learning. These were patients that attempted suicide, had psychosis and victims of domestic violence. There were times, I would get severe anxiety or feel psychosis. Some nights I had trouble sleeping. I started to “get them”, yet not intellectually. As well, I’ve worked with drug addicts and alcoholics. I’ve also lived in marginalized impoverished communities, such as a poor village in Honduras. There is no substitute for this type of direct experience. It’s is a not a conceptual form of understanding. It comes through direct experience, embodiment and skill development. It is a different type of “knowing” and it’s totally obvious when an Orange or poorly-integrated Yellow lacks this green-centered embodiment. To me, an integrated Yellow is the gold standard. That integration includes conceptual understanding, transcendence of self, meta awareness and green embodiment that came through a lot of direct experience and work. There are many flavors of poorly integrated yellow with green shadows.

@rnd If you are this concerned, I would recommend traveling with LSD or nothing at all. It is literally a tiny piece of paper. Every traveler carries paper. If you told an officer “I have a piece of paper in my bag”. He would be like “so what?, who cares?”. You would literally need to tell him that you are carrying LSD. Or, be so nervous that you raise suspicion. If you are this nervous, I would consider traveling to the country and getting a psychedelic there. For example, you can buy San Pedro in shops in Cusco, Peru.

Yes. I’ve traveled through customs. No one notice. Like I said, it’s hard to get caught with LSD. It’s a tiny piece of paper. You would need to try to get yourself caught. “Excuse me officer. Did you take a look at this scrap of paper? Maybe it’s not just paper. Maybe there is a drug on it. Perhaps you should test it for a drug that starts with “L” and ends with “D”. . . Or to be so nervous you panic. You would literally need to give yourself away. Research chemicals are practically as easy, because the amount needed is so small, we are talking milligrams. Five trips worth can fit into one tiny pill case, which can be mixed with other pills like allergy meds. To be discovered, you would need to act suspicious and give yourself away. Like being super anxious or nervous. . . “Hmmm, what’s going on with this guy that he is so nervous he is sweating, trembling and his voice is shaking?”. Custom officials are trained to detect suspicious behavior, not to detect a tiny scrap of paper.

@MAYA EL We aren’t on the same frequency. That happens sometimes. I wish you good journeys. ❤️ ?

Reminds me of Leo’s bullshit video when he recited dozens of mental constructs as bullshit.

I tried to explain it in a logical way which didn’t connect. So I tried to explain it in a post-logical way - which also didn’t connect. Sometimes non-sensical pointers can bypass mental barriers and lead to back door realizations. We can miss something about the contextualization of experience because if we are subconsciously immersed as the contextualizer of experience. It’s human nature to believe we have experiences and that others have experiences. The breathrough comes when one has the direct realization that their experiences never happened and there are simply constructions appearing Now without an experiencer. Yet this involves a deep level of personal death. I could speak more, yet you don’t seem open or interested, which is fine. People can be interested in different things and can be on different frequencies.

Ego composting. . .

Are there things you could do to increase your chances of being struck by lightening? You bethcha. . . During a lightening storm, you could climb to the top of a hill and hold up a metal rod. . . Are there things you can do to increase your chances of a mystical experience? You bethca. . . You can take a psychedelic. You can do a sensory deprivation tank. You can practice lucid dreaming. You can practice flow states of consciousness through playing music or sports. You can attend an Ayahuasca retreat. Regarding the "if god doesn't want it". You seem to have a framework that there is an internal person called "Schahin" in your head and an external thing called "god". Some type of external entity that wants or doesn't want things for the Schahin person. . . This is a common construct in religions and can be transcended. . . Imo, the belief in an external anthropomorphic god interferes with letting go, transcending the illusory self and having mystical experiences. . . If I believed an all-powerful space kangaroo was deciding whether or not I was allowed to have mystical experiences, it would be a distraction to actually having mystical experiences.

The Journey is the Destination

@Chives99 Knowing knows itself without a knower.

@MAYA EL Mesmerizing Captivation. In the silence, an owl calls! By grace the trance is broken. Home is revealed.

Is there any type of governmental oversight for religion-approved Ayahuasca ceremonies? Such as competency and safety standards/regulations. Or can a group apply for a license as a religion and do their own thing?

I haven't heard of that one. Sounds like something out of Harry Potter, lol. Good luck and keep us posted. . .

Yes, the OP offered a contextualized experience. Notice how you also offer a contextualized experience. . . We can create an infinite number of contextualized experiences: The OP had psychedelic hallucinations and is delusional. . . . The OP had an awakening that only psychedelics can induce. . . The OP had some insights, yet now needs to integrate those insights and get grounded. . . . The OP had some insights, yet those insights don't have any practical value. . . The OP is misinterpreting the insights due to his inexperience with psychedelics. . . The OP has had a spiritual breakthrough that would have taken years of meditation. . . and on an on. We could spice up our contextualization by adding in "authorities" on the matter. "Martin Ball says the OP's experience is. . . Leo says the OPs experience is. . . Manny P says the OPs experience is. . . Ram Dass says the OPs experience is. . . ". A sprinkle of alchemy adds some lovely flavor. . . All experiences are contextualized. You can create all sorts of contextualized experiences. . . Yet an actual "experience" never happened. A creation of a thing called an "experience" is occurring Now. . .

@mandyjwInteresting. I wasn't aware of gender difference and color perception. Sometimes I wish I could experience someone else's perception for a day. I know you are involved in creating art. Have you ever noticed this difference as having an impact with artist? I would imagine artists are more sensitive to color perception than the general population. It's all stories. Including the story about Infinite Creativity. . . We humans love to create and tell stories. This can be wonderful. Yet humans also have a tendency to get attached to the stories we create. With the transcendence of material, it is tempting to grasp immaterial and reject material. Yet, this is another duality. Immaterial = Material. Cone cells/neurological structures have absolutely nothing to do with color and absolutely everything to do with color. I was telling a story about how cone cells and neurology relate to color. . . I could also tell a story about how cone cells and neurology don't relate to color. . . So many stories, so little time. . . Don't forget about the Causeless Cause vs. the Non-Causeless Cause duality. . . Nice story. I like all sorts of stories. Thanks for sharing this one. Terms like "is" and "there are" are great for constructing stories. Yet all constructs also deconstruct. Redness is Quintessential. . . . Redness IS Redness. . . . There are are-ness. . .

Ime, 70 hours per week is not sustainable. I worked 70 hours per week at times during Grad. School and during a new teaching job. Yet these were short periods (up to four months). It was a high price to pay, yet the reward was high as well. After a month, mental and physical health consequences appeared and after three months, I was so fried and counted the days until it would end. I suppose it also depends on the type of work and how much you love it. If part of the work involves easy-going, relaxing tasks that can help.

You are a handsome musician with girls approaching you!?. . . That is a huge asset. Just let go of the needy stuff. . . Imagine you are playing the role of a musician that attracts women. It shouldn't be that hard to do, because it's already happening. It's like someone who is 7 foot tall playing a game of pick-up basketball with high schoolers and saying "I'm know I'm 7 feet tall, yet I'm not very good at basketball because I'm worried about what people will think of me if I dunk the ball and block their shots".

My understanding is that the optimal vaporizing temperature of 5-meo is considerably higher than 428F, yet my dry herb vape only goes up to 428F. At 428F the vaping efficiency is inefficient and there are losses. Yet I only use a few mgs per session so it it is only 50% efficient, I don't mind losing a mg here and there. I would need about 3-4 inhales for a significant effect. I have not tried 390F, yet the vaping efficiency would be even lower. If you have freebase and just want to check to see if it's legit - you could try dry herb vaping a few mgs at 390F and take 7-8 inhales. You may get a moderate effect and know it's good. Yet I doubt 390F would be good for exploring all the potential of 5-meo. Yet it could let you know its legit and then you could plug. . . Or who knows, maybe 390F would work for you. Try it out. At worst, you lose a few mgs. You got 500 mgs. I've only tried vaping freebase. My understanding is that salt forms don't vape very well,.

Colors don't exist. You have cone cells in your eye that convert wavelengths of light into projections of color. There is no color. It is a hallucination that your mind is creating. Humans have three different type of cone cells - each produces a different subjective experience of "color". These three types of cone cells can interact with each other producing a perception of various colors. In theory, there is an extremely large number of mixtures possible. There are subjective colors that cannot be imagined due to neurological limitations. For example, dogs only have two types of cone cells and cannot create a subjective perception of red. They cannot create this hallucination due to having only two cone cells. In contrast, the mantis shrimp has 16 types of cone cells. This expansive set of cone cells allows the mantis shrimp to create hundreds of color perceptions that humans cannot - humans can't even imagine these colors because we only have three types of cone cells. I think the subjective, relative nature of color is one of the best ways to break through attachment to an external, objective, universal reality. . . Most people see a tree and say "that tree is green". There appears to be an objective, external reality of a green tree. . . "Duh!! That tree is obviously green, just look at it!!". Yet that tree isn't green. There are no objective, external colors. The mind creates color internally. It just makes it up. Color is a relative hallucination. Different beings perceive different colors and we have no idea if we perceive the colors the same. What you hallucinate as "green", I may haullicante as "blue". Humans just agree to call a certain colorless wavelength as "green" and another colorless wavelength as "blue". . . Imagine in the future, we can temporarily trade visual systems. . . If you got to experience my visual system you may be surprised. You may realize "Whaaat??!! You've been calling Yellow, Green!!".

When you say "my place", will you be living in Latin America? If you are tripping solo at your place in Latin America - it essentially boils down to aquiring 5-meo and traveling with it. Once you have 5-meo, it is easy to travel with and trip. I've traveled and tripped with various psychedelics solo throughout Latin America without problem. A half gram of 5-meo is tiny and essentially odorless. It's not like you are traveling with a kilo of weed or cocaine. . . You just need to be mindful about where you trip. I would be very careful about tripping in public. Traveling with a psychedelic is a piece of cake, maintaining your composure while tripping is more challenging. Imo, that is the greater risk of getting caught. For example, tripping at a cultural event, getting overwhelmed, freaking out and creating a scene. In terms of "reality enhancement" in foreign lands, I wold choose other psychedelics over 5-meo. For example, I took a low dose of 4-Aco-Dmt and hung out in the town square of Antigua, Guatemala. It was indescribably beautiful. The colorful clothing, the music, trees and water fountain. And I chatted with so many beautiful people - both locals and travelers. . . LSD is super easy to travel with. It's just a tiny piece of paper. I'm totally comfortable traveling with LSD anywhere. Including airlines. I just put a couple tabs in a book or my wallet and don't even think about it. . . It's actually hard to get caught. Someone would have to put in effort and try to get caught traveling with LSD.