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I read someone who took a year to take all the experience "in" from a psychedelic experience. Don't worry, everything will be find ( hope it's shorter for you ), it's a transition period I had the same after LSD, too much is crippling because your identity fight the new ideas very hard ( it cause a subconscious duality I suppose something like ). 5 Meo is maybe harsh on the realisation, I know this advice doesn't really help, but maybe go a bit outside of "spirituality" and try to do something you never did, or assume, like drawing or something you have a curiosity for. try to use this time, to do something weird, what's keep you from doing anything or building a new dream ? ( but you should better not kill people or something that will reflect "hard" on yourself .. )

I like your new answers leo this one summarize it I suppose

I find that electronic music push something in my mind especially when you rythmic dance on it ( the head and the body ). ( as a producer, I want to know everything about the metaphysic of edm, the source ) https://journals.openedition.org/volume/3647 the beat is very hypnotic after a while, you enter a trance like state, almost every genre is based upon the trance effect like. Dubstep, DnB, Psytrance/Trance, Techno, House etc... look this genre, it's only made for "trance" like his name. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fL3DjAlsFAA&t=168s what's your feeling ?

religion is 'evil' himself, it's in the duality mind realm.. religion is all about purging the world from evil. but who defines the fucking evil but yourself and your "satanic side". to see evil, you need to know what is evil, so you need to be the demon himself. Someone who don't know about evil, can't be evil. ( and I m not saying killing people is great, there is still a law of energy magnetism .. people who look for evil, becomes evil ) people who look for love, find love. etc.. Evil is only a mind construct at first, so when you want to destroy "evil" you create it. if something was a "satan trap", it's probably religion and dogma. the only truth is the one you create for yourself, takes Jesus if you want anyway, but if you start washing evil, good luck with it, you will probably have to kill yourself.

I already know every psytrance mix on the internet dude :D, and I m mainly focused into dubstep because weird noise rules the world ! Psytrance is my secret jam to chill out or draw ( dubstep is too crazy too chill out, but perfect to absolutely being full mind and body on the song ) sure it put my brain in a phase ( dubstep can aswell ) I even had a weird experience while listening attentively to psytrance in my bed, I can loose track of existence for like 1 hour and go back without even having "sleeped" just "phazed out" without thinking, and hour pass like a "sleep time" without sleep. is that what you experience on deep meditation or is it just something else ? I didn't meditate, cause I listen 3 hours of music per day eyes closed and that's only when I m not producing music !

reading your post increased my awareness of what I want in a "couple". probably why I m so outdated with the attractive game, my ass is between trophy girl and "unicorn" you're right, when the mind can't see the beauty you only focus on the physical shit and .. self deception ! btw your wife is very beautiful .. so what ? haha as you're aswell I suppose ( no --- ) you look like a good friend, you two are very harmonic !

I never had a "déja vue" I don't even know what people are people talking about reading wiki. ( I m 25 ) and I did LSD, I had mental loop on the moment, but nothing who makes me even think that I already lived this life or lived in another.. nothing related to it. Probably a feeling mixed with matrix idea in your subconscious guys, but nothing tangible for me. I m not sure about that time don't expand in a way, I know we can advance in a futur, but we can't go back in past. I don't think the universe is a both way time line. There is a time expansion. ( maybe not, but still for me, there is a road we follow, and we didn't ever go back this road, we can stop moving or go fast, but we can't go back )

someone have a good book about meditation and creating mantra for creativity ? I m currently off from tabacco since 24 hours, and didn't take anything stimulant since 2 days Really need to empty my mind, and "wash" all my "hate" against "ignorant". My ego stab me very hard ( probably because quitting tobaco/weed ) ( I've reduced since 2 weeks, but that's still harsh ) if someone have a book, or advice, can I meditate with psytrance on a couch ? or do I need to be sit and in silence ? this is psytrance : https://soundcloud.com/max-tavener/blue-moon-full probably been created for this "purpose"

Even If I prefer bill gates material and I never buy anything Apple related. ( never ) do you know some people/video related to this meta sharing of insight ? I'll never ever be a monk, I choose to suffer my human path in the maya. if this is a game, be aware that I m a gamer.

I think I had one sleep paralisis ( being aware of a deep feeling of fear for like ~~ 15 sec ? ) One lucid dream or two without visual but I feel I had been in.. lot of feeling though. All my dream are feeling' i never remember any object'wall'or three. It's only émotion. Only nightmare or no dream Is my brain fucked up ? Is it because I live reality through my 'head' ? I wish I get a dream again Some people tell me it's like movie. Mine are like you After an entire vodka bottle. Without abuse in my meta

I don't think so, I studied the capitalist success since many years, most "number one, god tier" think they are ignorant and still learning ( even napoleon hill book told so ), they all have this need to work more and more, because they want to surpass nature itself ( and they all know they can't ), they don't work for being the best, they "work/effort" because that's how they conceive life, and being the best is a byproduct of this work, they never think of themself as "being the best", they are so much working, they don't even have the time to think of them that they are the best. people you look who claim to be the best, are the best to claim it, they are shitty. the best ones are hidden, and don't talk too much about being the best, they do not have time, they are working. good lesson for myown self right now, enough forum talk for today

in a grounded term : because you blind yourself to think that you already know things better than some people ( I m talking from experience, the more you learn ( more than 4k hours on a same subject, for me : music ( and I did a lot of side art in all domain, recording, etc.. ) you'll integrate how ignorant you are of anything the more you learn about something, on all others domain of life ). Then you judge people not having a right to your attention because you have illusion trait to think of them as valuable or not. I m sure by this question you never worked as much on a domain to FEEL how limited you are in what you know. you can feel good about yourself though and be glad being and learning more, we are all lost ignorant child until the next step, and then we are still aware of being ignorant. experience in life is the best teacher, sometimes old people try to "save" young people from misstake, what they don't get, is .. human need misstake to integrate. you need a lot of misstake to believe in some wisdom shared by people. you can read a sentence really mindfully right now, and it will resonate with you maybe only in months, because you lacked of integration.. ( I mean, like when you're in love, you know that you are, when you get new perspective, you feel it everyday )

it help to love yourself for sure, but loving yourself and judging others inferior isn't helping your "superiority" sort of paradox, you can't be superior if you think of yourself as superior to something You could have been born in Africa with no food and you would never be on this forum having this idea of cultivate your superiority, but I suppose everyone his time, and each one his own pace/path/moment in life to cultivate an energyidea maybe it's in your best interest right now to feel superior, so I m not even judging your thinking

wtf superior and inferior are relative to something else and relative to a point of view. nature is nature, it's not because you cultivate a different illusion than you're better than someone else. Just don't judge nature for pushing, society is human, humans are nature ( even if everyone here as the illusion that human stop loving nature ) Robot are man made, robots are natural evolution. We are just a part of the balance. See a metaphoric imagery : to balance a system you need 30% earth ( stabilize system ) 20% water ( stabilize system ) 30% air ( balanced ) 20% fire ( burning and creating ). The system need everything to work,everything is connected. maybe the fire want to judge anything, because it's his own nature to be fire. So he will never get why there is "water people" or "earth people" ( and you can put the model in many ways that fit ) it doesn't exist ( or it exist ? ), it's just an image that I share to see things. Every element judge others to not be a good one, because every element has is own way of adapting to life. we all do our animal thing ( it's just how I see things ) so my best advice, would be, fit to your element and don't try be another one that the one you are. But cultivate your OWN mastery

I m sure you're born After 1995. Instagram is more dumbing your mind than doing héroïne everyday. It's all " about me me me me I like me like me please notice me I need attention this is how I il feel happy, please follow me, trying copy to persuade people I have a great life " need to be a mindless zomby, take care of what you're, playing a role. it's so much joy to use instagram, I would advice personally someone who want to start being shitty, he would be better doing cokaïne than instagram. Be proud of not being a part of this and that's not me, this is through the eyes of an instagram girl. so this is what you want to be living, go for it, let people do their shit, do your own. for the feeling, you'll just pass it with time, cultivate your own life by working hard and a long time on what you love. new feeling will appear, and most people are not happy ( especially young one ), people who are happy tend to not show it ( or being with unhappy people ) ( because if you're happy, most people are not, and dumb you down if you show them that you'are .. just my relative viewpoint ) edit : you'll probably never fit, no one fit in anything but his own way, find your mates, your way, and don't care for being a part of the herd. cultivate your own life, but don't criticize the society, they are just like a river, a part of nature. And you're a part aswell find leverage friend, one good friend is better than 10 shitty ones.

https://thehumanist.com/magazine/september-october-2007/features/can-meditation-be-bad-for-you an axiom thought on it ? true, untrue, both ? this article doesn't exist ?

think for yourself, you 're your best own guru, everything else is tchat, no one can provide you with certain answer, as no human never get certain answer. the best answer are the one you find for yourself, if you feel peterson has something valuable for your right now, just follow it. and don't start to be like me and ask everyone for "go for it", just fucking do it without side thinking everything, sometimes bad instinct is the best instinct. if you have to find an answer it's only within you that you'll find it

fire burn, water flock every elements his place for order, there is nothing to change

this is your answer that is dangerous and abused. yes I abused my whole life believing whore don't like to be whore. You should experience more about human psychology, you reflect your own place feeling as a abused slave around ignorant people who don't "green agenda" their life. In fact this is your feeling reflected on everyone. This isn't TRUE. ( it's your ego if you want ) SLAVEs LOVE SLAVERY, this is a fact, you can't believe it, but fucking believe it, ask them, why don't you fight for freedom ? but .. I m not a slave ? in fact by saying people they are slaves, when they wasn't aware of being it, you convert them to your ideas of reality, they never feel themself like slaves. GUESS WHAT I WAS WRONG, people who have a life of misery love it, they love it, they care for it, if not, why they continue ? better die than misery ? no, and the proof is this sad people/nihilistic, they see the world as shit, but they keep striving, why that ? because WE LOVE OUR MISERY. we love this game of hard and good, if it was only good, maybe we would find life misery in the end, and the cycle would tell us, to go back to our old misery. because otherwise they would kill themself if they wasn't happy of their condition/life or ! fight to not be in it. ( mental fight at list ) slavery as liberated itself. You can't liberate the mind of a slave who isn't aware of being a slave. And maybe telling him that he is one, is only makes him feel suffer for no reason. You can't help or change the world, the only part of the world you can change is yourself. this is why I started this work, change myself, my view, not the world ( as I wanted when I was kid ), maybe the only thing I can change is my place in the world. You can't tame a wild river with your hand, > life is the fucking river in the picture

Sound a lot with what leo teach us.. he is clearly NOT ORANGE, nor red, nor green, probably a "10% red 90% yellow" if that's possible. Slave morality Masters are creators of morality; slaves respond to master-morality with their slave-morality. Unlike master morality, which is sentiment, slave morality is based on re-sentiment—devaluing that which the master values and the slave does not have. As master morality originates in the strong, slave morality originates in the weak. Because slave morality is a reaction to oppression, it vilifies its oppressors. Slave morality is the inverse of master morality. As such, it is characterized by pessimism and cynicism. Slave morality is created in opposition to what master morality values as "good". Slave morality does not aim at exerting one's will by strength, but by careful subversion. It does not seek to transcend the masters, but to make them slaves as well. The essence of slave morality is utility:[4] The good is what is most useful for the whole community, not just the strong. Nietzsche saw this as a contradiction. Since the powerful are few in number, compared to the masses of the weak, the weak gain power by corrupting the strong into believing that the causes of slavery (viz., the will to power) are "evil", as are the qualities the weak originally could not choose because of their weakness. By saying humility is voluntary, slave morality avoids admitting that their humility was in the beginning forced upon them by a master. Biblical principles of humility, charity, and pity are the result of universalizing the plight of the slave onto all humankind, and thus enslaving the masters as well. "The democratic movement is the heir to Christianity"[5]—the political manifestation of slave morality because of its obsession with freedom and equality. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Master–slave_morality what do you think of reading F.Nietzshe ?

every time I hit my self on something, I cry of joy now. Just before I hit my foot on something, and then I start to tell my mind, ENJOY IT, and then I enjoyed it, lel. I did this a lot when I was a child, sucking my blood and loving being hurted. Suffering isn't a choice, suffering happen, we shall embrace it when it comes, not avoid it, it's the proof of our human experience. It's tcheating to meditate/avoid, I believe it only resonate for certain type of humans to apply such behavior ( when the need is from the inner want, like wanting the end of suffering ) , I m the fire, I need to burn, that's my LP, I m not a monk, I bring peace with fire. every pain I have makes me glad and I'll enjoy every physical pain, every mental pain, not that I'm looking for them, but avoiding them is failing to his duty as an human being. I don't think "end of suffering" is a virtue it's the contrary. LOVE is. A love for the trip, the trip that his life. real hero suffer, real hero is broken, real hero take the journey, then fall in love with life, kill for love, die from it. I m still not convinced that every human being should take a path to "enlightment" enlightment is a path for SOME humans. we think we can act out of who we are, it's a delusion, we have a belief system, even if fucked to the ground by psychedelic, looks leo, still with this focus on Trump, why, why ? can't you just give a fuck and love trump for makes suffer your own belief identity ? ( if you have none, you should accept that Trump is a product of human nature ) if everything is god, so the cycle is, everything is already perfect, evil and good are perfectly in balance, this is only your human mind quantifying feeling and misinterpret what you feel for something true. assure me, you do not believe that what you call being honest/true, is listening your "sense" cause your sense are just a stack born from identity. The energy is real though I listen my sense all my life, this is why I had so many problems with life and never find love. because the human sense are fucked up. They are grounded to what you call a dream. if you truly believe it is "truth" that comes from within, learn at it's only the stack of your memory working per axiome of feeling. I used my sense all my life and only find nihilism, and never love. Not that sense are useless, but sense are like the mind, they can't be trust, they are just like a second voice, that sound less "conscious" but that's still a lie whispered in the bones. So if I believe my sense, I should follow my LP that his to be the fire ? ( creating music, and having an indecent life ) I m fucked as a human being. ( my sense makes me come here ( ok fact ) , and then my sense in the SAME WAY created an energy of scepticism ) Scepticism makes me met leo, so scepticism isn't ego. or ego find leo, so leo is ego nurturing others ego, so leo is the contrary of a zen monk. ( or I don't get what you fight for, I think that's just for month paycheck I suppose, survive, but maybe something else, maybe a inner dream of reality, an agenda ) Enlightment is a scam ( to my mind , not to everyone ). unless you want to call it the truth, from a perspective where you believe that everyone perspective is "true" it is, but not really. You can't push truth on people, if it's not "their truth" Like if god/infinity would you to sit down, if something give you an experience of suffering and all, it's for you to play, not to quit. So meditation is only a way of playing, not "the way", unless you "don"t want to suffer" but what If I want to suffer ? I want to feel pain, I want to feel love, I want to feel hate, I want to feel fear, but I absolutely don't want to feel borred by being. And if enlightment is about this, I'll never ever be enlightnened ! , that's my greatest fear, since I m a child. ( feel borred ) my main problem with everything, is the feeling of intense boredom, everything was hacked easyly by my mind. Since I m a child, it was total open mindedness from 6 to 12 ( I tolerated gay people, weird people, outcast people ) I ve always been what you call "non dual" . until I lost it, for obvious reason. I started creating an identity like everyone, maybe after 13 I started to get the cue for "social norm" To my child mind. Reality was borring at 6 I hacked everything and questionned everything. I m this kid 1/100 who annoy the all class by shitty metaphysical question, hey that's me. , and I prefered play video games, I remember myself telling at others 7 years old, that doing bike is shitty and playing games was more exciting. ( I ve always been a weirdo and KING of myself ) never listen to any kind of authority, at 6 I laughed of religion, then I was green, then Orange, then.. today ? believe what the fuck you want of me, I don't care. I listen to leo, for makes life more meaningful, not to find that life has no meaning ( even if this is true, it's too nihilistic, and this is exactly why so many people kill themself after listening budhist stuff from their westerner background. EXACTLY. ) You can check for this fact, many westerner kill themself when they realize partly non duality. Because the mind is not allowed to change DEEPLY. ONLY IN SURFACE. The mind you have at 3 is the last mind you'll have, you can't grow out of your league. ( I believe in this for now ) You can't make trump love life, I think even if he took DMT he would just kill himself then ( for instance ) some people can transcend some ideas, others absolutely can't. I m here because curiosity and wanting to control my mind this is how I fall upon Leo, I don't care for ending my suffering, I love it. If god created suffering and pain as a possibility it's for a reason. it's like a "spiritual method" instead of a scientific method. I do not believe that everyone perspective is true at all. I believe in engineering the mind So maybe I lost my way, anyway. can you self actualize if you never feeled love ? I m only 24 and soon 25. All I know from life is mainly through a screen. I never feel love, so maybe I didn't suffer ? or maybe I already suffered through all my young ? as I was "insane" to many people what is suffering anyway, just a thought today. I m not sure, even if this path is the "end path" of human consciousness ( what I'll think at 60 y + ) I can't transcend anything before acting in the maya, don't you think so ? All my saying on the idea of "cycle" with consciousness comes maybe because of this movie : ( PLEASE LEO WATCH IT, I know you have a cringe eye on me, but this movie, is really really a topic you'll like. ) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spring,_Summer,_Fall,_Winter..._and_Spring so pushing consciousness over people, is meaningless, consciousness happen with age and experience, and inner feeling that are created by all of these. from the "inner want", you can't sold the idea to someone who do not want to buy, and you can't makes someone know what an orgasm is by speaking about it. ho I get the trap video video now, but what's the point to convert people to model ? humm ego game ? who would want people to buy idea but an ego ? I think we take a shortcut in consciousness here. That's great, but the circle will come back anyway. talker will talk, fire will burn, water will watered ( .. : p )

still many misstakes, my point is my own placement on the circle of life do not allow my mind to cross the wall too fast, and I think that's the case for many people. ( as some people people believe they can "trigger" people to get higher stage of consciousness ) Some spiritual teachers do not take student, because they know their students will not improve from the learning. But on internet everyone can pick what he wants.. this is probably why I should now quit spirituality for a while and EXPERIMENT more with life before having a giant map where I steped in nothing. I'll try to really think and experiment life and the dream instead of remixing my ideas, maps and model. But I think that's a misstake to push people into a truth they are not ready for. if more awareness I need, more awareness my ego will ask for. I think enough truth for me. Good luck to everyone, I'll leave the "spiritual self improvement reading" that is becoming a busyness for my mind. will try to not come back for a long time. ( just reading answer on my last post and end/ ) good luck to everyone to find your own meaning and path ! ham thanks @K vil not my art though :'( hope having this skill in a year or two ;>

sound like something I had, does it makes sense to your life ? but for me it was from psychiatric drug ( I suppose it played on the dream ) ( a really "blocking dream" ) half lucid ( my thought was aware of "me" ), cause I couldn't move and remember for like 10 seconds I couldn't move, then I tell my self "wake up" but I couldn't at all. But was aware not being conscious or "in reality" I had the feeling I was dead, but for real, I wake up sweety, just remember of this weird texture not moving, that was like a "glitch bug" in a game. And feeling alive in front of this, was the most horrifiant of my life. ( it was like 2 years ago ) my mind watched this weird flat black oranged texture and I see the texture, but couldn't take my "eyes" of it, I loose all sense of me and feel my life quitting me, like if it was ok, in 3 seconds, I m dead, and I accepted it, but I was sad for loosing everything I ve made. maybe this is when I had a sort of ego death, induced by dream. It's not like your's but that's one of my "worst dream". Only a feeling of dying.

hated it for the same reason " loosing my consciousness" where weed doesn't fog the real, it makes it tasty. @perlita for me aswell, it's magic, I do not wanted to buy weed today, and WHAT WHAT HAPPEN WHAT S ON MY TABLE WHO PUT THIS who roll this , is someone HERE ? I m out of this topic !! THINGS POP IN MY HAND !!

sometimes they take both after. take care, but for me it worked a lot like this. but not for everyone, I ve seen many friend fall for both. ( I do not drink alcohol seriously 1 year after starting weed ) But I NEVER did alcohol at home alone ( or just a beer ) I do not drink any alcohol besides, even at event. ( It has been 3 years without being "drunk" but I was high for sure haha ) I love weed, it's already enough to calm down ( with music it's bliss ). Choose your tool, not every tool. Alcohol don't sound like a wise choice at all. Focus on all the bad feeling after alcohol, best way to hate it.