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haha I don't even know how to answer the question, many things, read philosophy books, biology of human brain, social bonding, etc.. ( if you're not really into spirituality and this sound too spooki for your right now ) it's a web of knowledge and personnal observation that assure yourself that there is nothing. People who hated on me, I don't even think about them, it's like they never existed, and their own words doesn't even exist in their mind probably right now. when you know how human mind observe reality this sound trivial to worry about people thinking. When you understand your own bias toward people. ( but you should complete this madness with others things.. not just think "idgafuck" it's more balanced, but if people talk.. let them talk, if many talk, ask yourself if there is something wrong about what you're doing, or why are you hanging with those peoples ) "Lot of people like me, but if they hate me, I feel that pleasurable, they think of me, what loosers, I m working while they empower me talking about me." ( before spiritual realisation ) this is kind of the mindset, or just discover nature of reality and be aware that everyone is lost cause in intellectual manner. who can judge you ? a human being ? a society ? be "above" all those ants concept. Your mind is the realm. if you live through the judgement of others you can only walk backward.

yep, no one can cure yourself, everytime here someone point with his fingers, you fucking describe his hand, not even his finger. And the moon is not even a thing you consider haha : I would say, go in China, you'll see if girls don't like you. it's all a matter of bubble

yep only true for me, I can't give you the truth.. no one can, there is none. I can only give you mine. I have pointing the fact that I m not ugly on a basic, this is maybe "why", I m not saying you're ugly, and many ugly people makes it anyway, by cultivating other point of their mindset.. ( what is "ugly" anyway ) if you focus on your flaw instead of your strenght, everything you believe, is always true, if you can't love yourself, why a girl would love you ? who can love you ? instead of complaining, complaining, complaining. First work before "loving girl" is "love yourself" and it's the "secret", but if you hated yourself so many years, it's hard to persuade your subconscious, that you have "value".

humm you don't see the point, I don't play video games since more than 4 years.. only with some friends at their home. You just want to see how flawed my reasoning is, your choice. I m trying to push you to see others situation than yours, but you don't want to. I aswell want a girlfriend but don't complain anymore about not having one, time comes when my mind want it, not other way. ( I want a girlfriend "hard" I m very curious, it kills me to not know, and I never had intimacy : my old mindset ) I complain about not having girlfriend like many years.. ( no more ) it's when you don't look for girlfriend that you get one.. that's fucking idiot, but this is how it happen'd ( my kisses with girls ) Do you really think that having sex and having intimacy will last for eternity and cure your suffering ? I m not even denying that you need it. I m denying it will cure you at last but if you want it for cure something, you'll never cure anything, put a nicotine patch on someone who like to smoke 50 cigarets a day will do nothing. ( it's a "magic pill philosophy" ) See for yourself, I m not telling you to believe me, I m telling you, where does come all your believe about ' I need that to be happy, or this ' it's a fucking lie to yourself in hope to "cure" and this guy "win" his life aswell, good grades, girlfriend, still good in marketing and doing what he wants. what do you call a winning life ? ( this post has been edited )

I never had love neither so I can talk on this topic ( I m 25 soon ), see the limit of my nihilim ( nihilism even if "true" is a delusion as "love" is ) why fix your attention on nihilism and bad things, if that's the thing you don't want ? it takes time to cure this habit, it's a work daily for more than a month, it's about focusing on the work on yourself and never complain about no result, because result appear when you push for real and challenge your own thinking. If love is stupid, why nihilism is smart ? And you want to know something.. I m beautiful and many girls love me. I m just very very autistic and don't know what I want from a relationship ( the truth ) before I was saying "girl don't want me because x" now I can see the flaw in myself. You think people have better life because they have "sex" ? my brother is not "aware" or very spiritual, he has a BEAUTIFUL girlfriend, very kind and smart.. ( maybe too "normal" though ) but he have plenty of sex, guess what, HE COMPLAIN, he would prefer play video games and have his own time. ( and he has everything most people want ) and he is doing and want exactly what "lonely people" do. ( he even buy a big computer for playing games last week ) he even lie to his girlfriend to play more sometimes.. so .. happy ? I m happy to push on him now some "budhism philosophy" I think it helped him a lot. ( he was a very "angry kid" before ). And guess what, he has sex with girl since more than 5 years ( he is 22 y ), and I m still virgin ( I don't care really, like really, not like a lie to myself ) I didn't have for a reason, and thinking about "why" isn't doing anything anyway, there is no answer to a "why" for this, and every answer I can have for it, will be "negative" or "positive" depending on my thinking/emotion, not on a " personnal global reason" I have another friend who had many girlfriends and in love ( he loved his girlfriend for real ) ( for 8 years ) he masturbated everyday like 3-4 times ( he told us, he don't care, he is a funny friend ), but when he prefered smoked weed ( and his girlfriend had a problem with family drug, so she kind of left him after a year ) but .. life goes on it's a fucking joke, but you can understand that, the mind is the only thing that trick you ( and you subconscious belief ) how to fix ' bad belief ' by watching more "large" looser complain, winner improve, and I learn the lesson from another friend who played league of legend and was top 500 world top ( a game who has more than 5 000 000 player ). ( I've seen him change from "middle looser" -> like me and my team, to him GROWING HIS MINDSET, playing to win, complaining about HIS OWN failure ) he even created another account, he win 25 times in a row, without never loosing. ( he pushed 3 accounts to rank "diamond" just to show people, there is no "luck" ) guess what ? 90% of people on league of legend complain being with NOOB. When the only shitty noob is them and their mindset of looser. My friend played to win, when he had dumb people, what was his mind guess ? "I should be even stronger to cary all this stupidity !" He was an unaware enlightened player haha just knowing this friend told me a lot about what you can change, only by changing yourself, ( so even video games can teach you things ! )

Better way to deal with it .. is art not heroin. If you want to abuse one stupid drug. Do weed everyday.. Music cure the soul it's not a joke go for a try take a D.a.w for free if you have no monney and average pc'mac Drawing help calm.anxiety.. no joking. Heroin will destroy you. One of my dealer was an addict at 16 he told me on eyes to never do it very friendly after telling me why he do it ( parent hated him ). ( Yep lol he was selling mainly weed. )

I read someone who took a year to take all the experience "in" from a psychedelic experience. Don't worry, everything will be find ( hope it's shorter for you ), it's a transition period I had the same after LSD, too much is crippling because your identity fight the new ideas very hard ( it cause a subconscious duality I suppose something like ). 5 Meo is maybe harsh on the realisation, I know this advice doesn't really help, but maybe go a bit outside of "spirituality" and try to do something you never did, or assume, like drawing or something you have a curiosity for. try to use this time, to do something weird, what's keep you from doing anything or building a new dream ? ( but you should better not kill people or something that will reflect "hard" on yourself .. )

I like your new answers leo this one summarize it I suppose

I find that electronic music push something in my mind especially when you rythmic dance on it ( the head and the body ). ( as a producer, I want to know everything about the metaphysic of edm, the source ) https://journals.openedition.org/volume/3647 the beat is very hypnotic after a while, you enter a trance like state, almost every genre is based upon the trance effect like. Dubstep, DnB, Psytrance/Trance, Techno, House etc... look this genre, it's only made for "trance" like his name. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fL3DjAlsFAA&t=168s what's your feeling ?

religion is 'evil' himself, it's in the duality mind realm.. religion is all about purging the world from evil. but who defines the fucking evil but yourself and your "satanic side". to see evil, you need to know what is evil, so you need to be the demon himself. Someone who don't know about evil, can't be evil. ( and I m not saying killing people is great, there is still a law of energy magnetism .. people who look for evil, becomes evil ) people who look for love, find love. etc.. Evil is only a mind construct at first, so when you want to destroy "evil" you create it. if something was a "satan trap", it's probably religion and dogma. the only truth is the one you create for yourself, takes Jesus if you want anyway, but if you start washing evil, good luck with it, you will probably have to kill yourself.

I already know every psytrance mix on the internet dude :D, and I m mainly focused into dubstep because weird noise rules the world ! Psytrance is my secret jam to chill out or draw ( dubstep is too crazy too chill out, but perfect to absolutely being full mind and body on the song ) sure it put my brain in a phase ( dubstep can aswell ) I even had a weird experience while listening attentively to psytrance in my bed, I can loose track of existence for like 1 hour and go back without even having "sleeped" just "phazed out" without thinking, and hour pass like a "sleep time" without sleep. is that what you experience on deep meditation or is it just something else ? I didn't meditate, cause I listen 3 hours of music per day eyes closed and that's only when I m not producing music !

reading your post increased my awareness of what I want in a "couple". probably why I m so outdated with the attractive game, my ass is between trophy girl and "unicorn" you're right, when the mind can't see the beauty you only focus on the physical shit and .. self deception ! btw your wife is very beautiful .. so what ? haha as you're aswell I suppose ( no --- ) you look like a good friend, you two are very harmonic !

I never had a "déja vue" I don't even know what people are people talking about reading wiki. ( I m 25 ) and I did LSD, I had mental loop on the moment, but nothing who makes me even think that I already lived this life or lived in another.. nothing related to it. Probably a feeling mixed with matrix idea in your subconscious guys, but nothing tangible for me. I m not sure about that time don't expand in a way, I know we can advance in a futur, but we can't go back in past. I don't think the universe is a both way time line. There is a time expansion. ( maybe not, but still for me, there is a road we follow, and we didn't ever go back this road, we can stop moving or go fast, but we can't go back )

someone have a good book about meditation and creating mantra for creativity ? I m currently off from tabacco since 24 hours, and didn't take anything stimulant since 2 days Really need to empty my mind, and "wash" all my "hate" against "ignorant". My ego stab me very hard ( probably because quitting tobaco/weed ) ( I've reduced since 2 weeks, but that's still harsh ) if someone have a book, or advice, can I meditate with psytrance on a couch ? or do I need to be sit and in silence ? this is psytrance : https://soundcloud.com/max-tavener/blue-moon-full probably been created for this "purpose"

Even If I prefer bill gates material and I never buy anything Apple related. ( never ) do you know some people/video related to this meta sharing of insight ? I'll never ever be a monk, I choose to suffer my human path in the maya. if this is a game, be aware that I m a gamer.

I think I had one sleep paralisis ( being aware of a deep feeling of fear for like ~~ 15 sec ? ) One lucid dream or two without visual but I feel I had been in.. lot of feeling though. All my dream are feeling' i never remember any object'wall'or three. It's only émotion. Only nightmare or no dream Is my brain fucked up ? Is it because I live reality through my 'head' ? I wish I get a dream again Some people tell me it's like movie. Mine are like you After an entire vodka bottle. Without abuse in my meta

I don't think so, I studied the capitalist success since many years, most "number one, god tier" think they are ignorant and still learning ( even napoleon hill book told so ), they all have this need to work more and more, because they want to surpass nature itself ( and they all know they can't ), they don't work for being the best, they "work/effort" because that's how they conceive life, and being the best is a byproduct of this work, they never think of themself as "being the best", they are so much working, they don't even have the time to think of them that they are the best. people you look who claim to be the best, are the best to claim it, they are shitty. the best ones are hidden, and don't talk too much about being the best, they do not have time, they are working. good lesson for myown self right now, enough forum talk for today

in a grounded term : because you blind yourself to think that you already know things better than some people ( I m talking from experience, the more you learn ( more than 4k hours on a same subject, for me : music ( and I did a lot of side art in all domain, recording, etc.. ) you'll integrate how ignorant you are of anything the more you learn about something, on all others domain of life ). Then you judge people not having a right to your attention because you have illusion trait to think of them as valuable or not. I m sure by this question you never worked as much on a domain to FEEL how limited you are in what you know. you can feel good about yourself though and be glad being and learning more, we are all lost ignorant child until the next step, and then we are still aware of being ignorant. experience in life is the best teacher, sometimes old people try to "save" young people from misstake, what they don't get, is .. human need misstake to integrate. you need a lot of misstake to believe in some wisdom shared by people. you can read a sentence really mindfully right now, and it will resonate with you maybe only in months, because you lacked of integration.. ( I mean, like when you're in love, you know that you are, when you get new perspective, you feel it everyday )

it help to love yourself for sure, but loving yourself and judging others inferior isn't helping your "superiority" sort of paradox, you can't be superior if you think of yourself as superior to something You could have been born in Africa with no food and you would never be on this forum having this idea of cultivate your superiority, but I suppose everyone his time, and each one his own pace/path/moment in life to cultivate an energyidea maybe it's in your best interest right now to feel superior, so I m not even judging your thinking

wtf superior and inferior are relative to something else and relative to a point of view. nature is nature, it's not because you cultivate a different illusion than you're better than someone else. Just don't judge nature for pushing, society is human, humans are nature ( even if everyone here as the illusion that human stop loving nature ) Robot are man made, robots are natural evolution. We are just a part of the balance. See a metaphoric imagery : to balance a system you need 30% earth ( stabilize system ) 20% water ( stabilize system ) 30% air ( balanced ) 20% fire ( burning and creating ). The system need everything to work,everything is connected. maybe the fire want to judge anything, because it's his own nature to be fire. So he will never get why there is "water people" or "earth people" ( and you can put the model in many ways that fit ) it doesn't exist ( or it exist ? ), it's just an image that I share to see things. Every element judge others to not be a good one, because every element has is own way of adapting to life. we all do our animal thing ( it's just how I see things ) so my best advice, would be, fit to your element and don't try be another one that the one you are. But cultivate your OWN mastery

I m sure you're born After 1995. Instagram is more dumbing your mind than doing héroïne everyday. It's all " about me me me me I like me like me please notice me I need attention this is how I il feel happy, please follow me, trying copy to persuade people I have a great life " need to be a mindless zomby, take care of what you're, playing a role. it's so much joy to use instagram, I would advice personally someone who want to start being shitty, he would be better doing cokaïne than instagram. Be proud of not being a part of this and that's not me, this is through the eyes of an instagram girl. so this is what you want to be living, go for it, let people do their shit, do your own. for the feeling, you'll just pass it with time, cultivate your own life by working hard and a long time on what you love. new feeling will appear, and most people are not happy ( especially young one ), people who are happy tend to not show it ( or being with unhappy people ) ( because if you're happy, most people are not, and dumb you down if you show them that you'are .. just my relative viewpoint ) edit : you'll probably never fit, no one fit in anything but his own way, find your mates, your way, and don't care for being a part of the herd. cultivate your own life, but don't criticize the society, they are just like a river, a part of nature. And you're a part aswell find leverage friend, one good friend is better than 10 shitty ones.

https://thehumanist.com/magazine/september-october-2007/features/can-meditation-be-bad-for-you an axiom thought on it ? true, untrue, both ? this article doesn't exist ?

think for yourself, you 're your best own guru, everything else is tchat, no one can provide you with certain answer, as no human never get certain answer. the best answer are the one you find for yourself, if you feel peterson has something valuable for your right now, just follow it. and don't start to be like me and ask everyone for "go for it", just fucking do it without side thinking everything, sometimes bad instinct is the best instinct. if you have to find an answer it's only within you that you'll find it

fire burn, water flock every elements his place for order, there is nothing to change

this is your answer that is dangerous and abused. yes I abused my whole life believing whore don't like to be whore. You should experience more about human psychology, you reflect your own place feeling as a abused slave around ignorant people who don't "green agenda" their life. In fact this is your feeling reflected on everyone. This isn't TRUE. ( it's your ego if you want ) SLAVEs LOVE SLAVERY, this is a fact, you can't believe it, but fucking believe it, ask them, why don't you fight for freedom ? but .. I m not a slave ? in fact by saying people they are slaves, when they wasn't aware of being it, you convert them to your ideas of reality, they never feel themself like slaves. GUESS WHAT I WAS WRONG, people who have a life of misery love it, they love it, they care for it, if not, why they continue ? better die than misery ? no, and the proof is this sad people/nihilistic, they see the world as shit, but they keep striving, why that ? because WE LOVE OUR MISERY. we love this game of hard and good, if it was only good, maybe we would find life misery in the end, and the cycle would tell us, to go back to our old misery. because otherwise they would kill themself if they wasn't happy of their condition/life or ! fight to not be in it. ( mental fight at list ) slavery as liberated itself. You can't liberate the mind of a slave who isn't aware of being a slave. And maybe telling him that he is one, is only makes him feel suffer for no reason. You can't help or change the world, the only part of the world you can change is yourself. this is why I started this work, change myself, my view, not the world ( as I wanted when I was kid ), maybe the only thing I can change is my place in the world. You can't tame a wild river with your hand, > life is the fucking river in the picture