Karla

75/365 This morning before my strength class I felt super lost lol. Like kinda bad and my mind was stuck on the whole "naturalness of being" from that Wayne Dyer video-- there is something to this combination: Being "wholly" the person you want to be Being present in the now with that energy/ let go anddd Knowing that every though we have is externally manifested Anyways I can't always get to the bottom of these lost feelings like this morning. I feel completely different now-- I have one more class then a walk by the canal. It's super nice out. I am making progress with my one scary action per day yay. This is the only way to balance theory and practice for me-- otherwise I am slipping. The reflection video is hereeee:

74/365 Sentence Completions ✔ Reflection video...

Naturalness of being/ having/ achieving. This is what I talked about last week.

73/365 I am reading that habit book thats talks about what to do if you skip... It says NEVER skip twice in a row he he. So I did my sentence completions an hour ago. Ugh so harddd ha ha. Today was productive af so not too bummed I almost got off track with sentence completions. Video reflection... I am doing a tumeric, manuka honey and banana (yumm) face mask becauae my skin is out of control-- mentiones in the video.

Too bad everyone already has schizophrenia.

Happy Birthday! Super grateful you were born and created something amazing in the world. Do you even care about birthdays?

Cool— Sounds like you are just progressing toward clarifying your life purpose. I get this. I believe “bad” habits get phased out as you get clearer and more committed to doing what you love. SOmething that works for me is writing down my vision/ how my purpose plays out daily even if I miss in the morning, I just do it at lunch or bed time and it is very empowering and enjoyable. In a way, we are just our purpose and not an identity so much.

Reflection video from yesterday-- day 72. Re-Insight: you can't be fully conscious of truth and have low self esteem at the same time, in the same moment. Low self esteem is to be unconscious of reality. Lots of ahas today that aren't new just feel more profound. Someone recognized me from my fitness YT channel again today he he-- she was in my class this a.m. and zaid something afterwards. My ego loves this he he. No autographs at this time.?

That last part is interesting!

Perhaps random... I was looking at this mindfulness studio online last week that's downtown near where I live. I noticed one of the instructors bio mentioned that she was becoming a bodhisattva and I was like... Hmmm "I wanna do that... I think he he." So *of course*, I googled it and love this little step by step guide on wiki how?: https://www.google.com/amp/s/m.wikihow.com/Be-a-Bodhisattva-(Buddha-of-Love)%3famp=1 Once I do some more research, this may be my next goal to track/ journal on before or after that 5 day fasting mimicing diet. Sometimes it's easier to know who we want to be versus all the things we want to do-- for myself anyways. What a great high level goal to make everything else along the way seem like small potatoes, ahhhh. I can't think of anything higher atm. Excitingggg!

For real? You can do this?! ?

I love that your name is proactive and you want to be more proactive he he he. And those intros that Leo used to use in the beginning of his videos! Seems like you may want clearer goal. I know after I first started exercising regularly (a looong time ago), annoying people got on my nerves less... and less and less— and eventually I just didn’t care about stuff that once bothered me a lot.

72/365 I had to make a small tweak in the sentences stems. The wording was a clash with that Neville Goddard stuff I like to listen to. I want to not only feel aware but I want to feel inspired to a higher expression sooooo some of the wording was not quite right. Words like “if” in my brain made me feel like I was putting off my transformation and actions into the future. This is a direct conflict with embodiment— goes back to the cognitive dissonance video I did early on with this work. Anything we aspire to be, we must embody NOW even if it’s bumpy and ugly. This is how we learn everything. We learn to walk by walking, we become masters of our craft by doing our craft not studying it. This was just my reflection on why I needed to change up the sentence stems— I was feeling punked out kinda with that wording because I know that doesn’t work for me. It’s the same as beginning with the end in mind. Anything projected into the future verbally or in our minds usually ends up staying there. When I reflect on what it means to use everything I know What it means to use everything I know means that I be not do Using everything I know is to utilize my speech and thoughts to reinforce my vision Everything is energy doing and failing is better than not doing = nose bleed seats I sleep Playing the game Playing my game Being a match to everything in my journal and vision When I take full responsibility for my choices and actions I live into my choices and make them from my gut I already do this but where am I not doing this? I am more married to my schedule I focus on health, growth and feeling good in my skin I embody my highest expression and take ownership I can choose wtf I want even when that sneaking feeling of obligation comes up I don’t need to explain I reflect acceptance back to every part of me When I take full responsibility for how I deal with people I seek to understand I listen for what they aren’t saying I can practice self love through other I can be patient with the talkers I can be honest with the talkers I can be fully present and not escaping into mind movies I can listen with all of my senses WHen I remain in full mental focus every moment today it feels good because I know this is the way for me I practice and get stronger every day I experience now and not the clock I get to be authentic and not in thoughts I keep bring myself back as needed I get more done from a place of flow and play I am in awe of how everything is just right I am so grateful When I am creating from a place customers trust and admire my company I am transparent and honest I don’t waste words, time or create filler I keep it real with myself first I trust and admire the company and create from there I don’t hide I live into the vision of ten years from now I teach, work and create from seeing their highest version I share my experience and how I am seeing from their end

Day 71 reflection video

“The Hero Path We have not even to risk the adventure alone for the heroes of all time have gone before us. The labyrinth is thoroughly known ... we have only to follow the thread of the hero path. And where we had thought to find an abomination we shall find a God. And where we had thought to slay another we shall slay ourselves. Where we had thought to travel outwards we shall come to the center of our own existence. And where we had thought to be alone we shall be with all the world.” ― Joseph Campbell

Day 71 is an Implementation and reflection day. The sentence completion feels like a broken record when there aren’t actions to back up the completion and it’s torture. I also think I need to be answering the stems in present tense so as not to see the completion as something far off, or out there. For me, in order to allow embodiment, it has to feel like I am it now. Natural and aha like. Yesterday's reflection:

70/365 Did not want to do this today-- feeling super confronted about doing a cop out cheeseball video yesterday and will just redo it. Sometimes I hide by doing really plain jane info shares and then feel super grossed out later like wtf? I'll have to share on this a bit later. If I were to commit myself to achieving greater financial success: it would be more of a priority I would focus on specifics stop consuming lots of info and take more direct action reduce doing so much free stuff streamline my schedule clean up some of my financial messiness track money better on the daily-- incoming and outgoing If I were willing to work using everything I know I can stop over informing and start allowing some mistakes/imperfect action stop putting my work on a pedestal and offer more I would hide less and quit doing average info shares so boring I feel so overwhelmed, with stuff that needs to fall off so quiting some of those gigs produce something everyday perfect or not and share take action even when I feel like running away like today If I reflect on what it means to take full responsibility for my standard of living spending time daily hashing out what this looks like to embody higher self stop second guessing before and after then just move on to the next damn thing remembering that one day I am going to die but today I can just do the damn work just do the work every day til it's done and then move on enjoy this fully and surrender not care what it looks like from the outside at all more room out than in If I reflect on how it might feel to commit myself fully to financial success taking a day for just implementation starting with reflection on all the last month no more waiting around lol would feel empowering aligned and easier info flow f it -- freedom and full on why am I still procrastinating expansive to just be going for it gahhh A really innovative approach to my work might be using more historical examples I love this opening up about my own hurdles with expressing and wellness inserting more fun with experimenting in wellness inviting my audience to try new wellness stuff with me this could also go in the calendar customization being an option for upgrade Tomorrow taking a day for just a little bit of reflection & a few tasks for implementation. Too confronting to keep doing these sentences ugh. Reflection vid for day 69

69/365 Kinda in a rush today gahhh. I was observing my sister’s “insanity” today and I am super motivated to get out of my head and focus solely on fully expressing and living today without repressing. So convinced that disease is stuffing down of energy or not letting flow happen. Same as if we hold our breath! Some of this is written with annoyance because i just want to slap her face and tell her to snap out of it. If I were to commit myself to achieving greater financial success I would start every day with some selling and money tracking (check) I would stop over emotionalizing money and showing up for the cash I would have to get real and say my prices like nothing Be more open about my stuff to sell Feel more comfortable about having and making more money like no big deal I woul have to focus all day about making sure to tell people what i have to offer and doing the stuff I know sells my work Stick to my schedule which feels good If I were willing to work using everything I know I would enjoy this on the die empty tip I can just stop trying to fit into a box of boring I can be excited about speaking more and educating my fitness peeps on wellness I would keep it real with Janice and my clients that are stuck with results I can hold back less and less such a drag Get more on top of my schedule and using my tasks as way to stay out of my mind Step into boss mode and stop settling for shit I am so over but replace it first (DPU) Close that gap —cognitive dissonance Live in integrity If I reflect on what it means to take full responbsibility for my standard of living Get real, I am so capable of this Drop the stories and the comfort that is actually uncomfortable Waking up and taking action on elevating my lifestyle I am the one that chooses this and have always chosen this It means I get to stop settling for anything that doesn’t fit It means I can live into purpose and keeping it real Insanity is not taking responsibility If I reflect on how it might feel to commit myself fully to financial success Feels super good Some fear around it being hard but I have to face those fears today Feels like breathing in and out— life is an exchange an ebb and flow Serving up my soul work unapologetically Less day dreaming and more day tight compartments I am financially successful no big deal and no over thinking What I focus on expands A really innovative approach to my work might entail Having more fun and more exploration That wellness Rva idea is the bomb No more pedestal-putting of my soul work already Why do I dislike this question So repetitive Live events- Next level whole person wellness Assessments— great response from the 10 year journal prompt Yesterday's refelection vid:

day 68/365 To be disciplined in my soul work. To speak my truth as naturally as I breath, without a thought just the way my heart beats and as effortlessly as my eyes blink. Sentence completion: If I were to commit myself to achieving greater financial success: I'd apply for speaking gigs like my life depended on it I'd unaplogetically sell my shit I'd address my blocks and exhale them I'd let go of my old identity It would be easier than waiting and putting off I could just be real with my financial goals and making them a daily priority If I were willing to work using everything I know I would have fun just letting it out and being next level Karla I 'd let it be easy I only would have time for that which is moving me along I could feel gratified at the end of the day that I emptied my power I could feel worthy of my what I want (oops I need this as a precursor!) I might seem over the top If I reflect on what it means to take full responsibility for my standard of living I am empowered I sometimes feel too disorganized to do this I have some things I need to get complete with that I keep putting off and not facing I feel like I do this hot and cold I put my foot down and do the damn thing already how can I get this to be a constant daily focus that remains at the fore front of my activiites I am wiling to get real with my desires and making them real... If I reflect on how it might feel to commit myself fully to financial success ideas of being greedy arise fear that it could be hard to maintain I can learn and it I may enjoy learning I would have to face what I have been afraid of and ignoring and putting off That for me it has to be a whole person endeavor Only on soul and that feels amazing I can sell more and get comfy selling and become amazing at it A really innovative approach to my work might be Taking it into schools Using expression as a cure making it a whole person experience live my myth show I fee like I keep saying the same thing for this one Yesterday's reflection.

I like that idea! Soon I will do a 5 day fast journal but there are some things that don’t fit in my self-esteem journal that I sometimes want to post and I do see my journal as a way to teach the old me or remind me where I was because it’s easy to forget exactly what it felt like along the way, once we out grow a rough patch. I’m feelin’ This! I like the idea of a shared journal too because I automatically get to see what is going on here as if it were my own journal.

Video reflection from yesterday... almost not shared since I look a hot mess but it’s a good ego flog to just post anyways. Day 67/365 4/14 Sentence Stem... For the record I did this earlier but just posting now lol. On that new habit flex. If I were to commit myself to achieving greater financial success I would be more productive daily I would have a daily, weekly , monthly and annual income goal to focus on and commit to I would allow it to be easy, aligned with soul and fun I am committed to achieving greater financial success so that I can be even more expressed I would not make it personal, I would make sure I could feel good about it and really providing some good ish I have to elevate my conception of self as a habit and allow it to be easy If I were willining to work using everything I know I would incorporate it into a holistic wellness offering Make it local first and on my YT the wellness calendar comes to mind which i would actually enjoy I would have to think bigger and in terms of lifetime accomplishment My self image would need a makeover I can have a lot of fun with this and feeling fully engaged I can make sure my surrounding support me including my own wellness alignment If I reflect on what it means to take full responsibility for my standard of living This puts in offense not defense I get ideas in droves but I only need one or two to feel committed and dig in I feel empowered to act now I have to be more disciplined and in touch with the healthiest of habits— whole person I have to focus a lot more and get my time management in check I would create something new instead of doing the old stuff that I always fall back into I can wake up earlier and just get grounded in a reality where this is an easy result I am aligned with my birth number, abundance and power If I reflect on how it might full to commit myself fully to financial success It has to be in soul and full expression, no more half assing life or anything that I require I am required to be all of me without hiding Alignment is required Really fun and allowing no holding on Open and free and full on Alternating between workshop/ retreat and intense writing/ creation A really innovative approach to my work might be Behind the scenes of book completion A play in real life party where we get to come dressed as our higher selves— workshop Coming full circle would include something in Philly maybe the Franklin institute or in Costa Rica A personal development series —whole person expression story book series — hard though Vulnerability guide allowing the lines to blur in all things so the fitness end, the soul stuff and the body confidence offering into one workshop

60 day summary-- I realize I am still delaying quite a bit of action: 1. Evolving my YT channel with more wellness vids and offerring a wellness calendar 2. I am not actively seeking speaking opportinities and applying Mainly because my self image is still largely stuck in an old version that is a mismatch with these goals. Ain't nothing to it but to do it. Especially anything that seems scary. Creating new habits is going well and it's obvious that I need to sentence stems in order to evolve. Quote from Ernest C. Wilson, Soul Power

Interesting tid bits here! How do uou see this evolving as a teaching platform? Teaching is a powerful learning tool. For instance, I like to teach/ share what I learned after reading a new book, workshop or experience to help me internalize what I've learned and re-learn from the student's perspective through their insights or ahas....

66/365 Sentence Completion If I were to commit myself to achieving greater financial success I could feel confident about my money management I might enjoy this expansion and expression I could test my limits here I might feel a bit greedy I honestly feel like this is just another form of expression and growth I am down for the ride and the play in doing this This is now a daily habit soon to be easy and a part of who I am This could be a fun thing that becomes easy and in flow If I were willing to work using everything I know I love this and then it requires all of me to expand here I am willing and it could take a lot of uncomfortable growth in the beginning I feel this is necessary for self actualization Higher levels of expression would become a reality This is not so foreign and doesn’t have to be struggle It would have to be for soul work at this point or not at all my biz knowledge, my fitness knowledge, my hr knowledge and leadership knowledge and all of my life experience So inspiring and a bit scary to play with this thought If I reflect on what it means to take full responbsibility for my standard of living I have fallen short here and allowed others to take care of me but I can do this for myself I want to fully experience all of the pieces of fully living into my fullest expression I desire to do this well and have fun in the process This is empowering af We all have a birth right to be expressed and use all of who we are to support that and expand This on the daily could seem ugly but I just have to master the pieces I desire to live well and travel when I want and travel with my workshops If I reflect on how it might feel to commit myself fully to financial success This feels exciting but I know it sometimes might feel like work I must commit to this daily and take actions in that direction this requires learning and I enjoy growing my knowledge It’s not just about me and that feels empowering to accept I have learned some things that I just need to practice more consistently here I commit to learning, listening and incorporating a habit here daily I am excited to begin today and commit to a book I can soak up here daily for 30 minutes I am excited to do this and feel more confident in living financially free I can commit to a budget that allows me to pay debt, increase earnings and invest A really innovative approach to my work might entail A book tour and workshop to my favorite cities before my book is even launched he he a game to my workouts and for my fairytale Might be fun to add some family tree stuff, see where old, passed down patterns can be broken and properly aligned/ utilized for max expression & healing Creating interactive calendars for. My clients with ideas stolen from passion planner Working on my books behind the scenes Introverts guide to full expression —incorporate some speaking/comm knowledge Make my wellness tree into a calendar or useful workbook component Add a magical makeover upgrade to my workshop and “sprinkle some fairy dust” themed, just googled & already exists in amazon— ? Feeling super excited after the sentence stems today andddd watching Leo’s duality video upload— The more I feel good inside the more expressed I am. The more expressed I feel, the more I just feel a part of everything and less in my head space. SOmetimes I like being in my head space but mostly just out: Favorite things for getting out atm: Sentence completion <3 FUN exercise writing being transparent/ vulnerable even when it seems irrelevant like who cares Creating things— outfit combinations, meals, workouts for FOTB

Yesterday's reflection: I got lazy with the titles lol. I wasn't going to post my swntence stems but I attempted to believe I wouldn't so I could be honest he he. I was also slightly worried it was too much to post but "too much" is a comparison and I am trying to give that addiction up? The new stems are so fresh and new gahh Day 65/365 sentence stem *If I were to commit myself to achieving greater financial success: I would get my tech stuff-- sales page and the opt in sheet done and get out into the world I would sell my workshops unapologetically I am focusing on selling my soul work every day Contacting more places for speaking gigs on the daily I would get the calendar offer out on FOTB channel, for clothes and my book and the workshop there as well I would stop worrying about why I can't and just do the work I am here for and only that I would sell my offers and make money every day pay my debts and get my ish together with tracking money every single day *If I were willing to work using everything I know: I would live every day as my best life and live every day like for real I would not give any fucks and just sell and have fun too I would never question my worthiness to sell and be fully all of me say whatever I want Id have to shut the f up and just do the things and continue to test my knowledge without hesitation I can stop constant learning and start using my knowledge Dig in and let 'er rip honestly there is a lot I could be doing but I always get muddled in worrying about stuff that doesn't matter *If I reflect on what it means to take full responsibility for my standard of living: I have not done this consistently and sometimes feel like I don't have the power I blame my lack of organization and my discipline I am just rooted in things that are not true I can take full responsibility now my daily habits must include this and taking action I feel empowered to shine a light of awareness in creating financial wealth I can learn more here and increase my financial acumen *If I reflect on how it might feel to commit myself fully to financial success: I desire to commit to this daily in my habits I can track my spending and earning better and make a difference in my financial security I am able to do this and empowered to see myself in this light I am going to use the energy either way I might as well use it for financial success I am grateful to know that I can be powerful here I think about my birth number and why I am so inconsistent here but doesn't have to be that way I know money is a symbol for value and doesn't have to come with baggage *A really innovative approach to my work might include: Seeing myself as an Osho or Rumi poet that has products with my quotes on them I want to be Clarissa Pinkola Estes and deconstruct stories from my life and those I admire Incorporate fairy tales and story lines from folklore to share spiritual truths that can help people feel empowered More vulnerability and expression every damn day-- the feeling of oops I said too much tmi peel back all the fake ass layers we learn and laugh at them as comedy relief Include it all --whole person wellness workshops and retreats I could let it be messy and unpolished most of the time AND actually not care that it is Day 65/365 Reflection Videooo