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@B_Naz I have studied self-development enough to "know" all of this, i know that we all have potential, that's exactly my problem, althought i "know" this, i don't FEEL it, in fact, i feel the exact opposite and tried to use lots of tactics to create success and develop discipline and work ethic but i feel that i am fighting an uphill battle and no matter how much willpower i spent, it is never enough. @Leo Gura Thank you, that's exactly what i need! I was aware of such techniques but i think i never really believe in them. Now i see that i have a problem with self-image (started to read psycho-cybernetics) and visualization could be just what i need. And as i trust that you are a smart person, i will follow your advice, in fact, i started yesterday. @exhale Yeah, i don't know much people to model. I have a best friend that was kind of disciplined as me but has developed an awesome work ethic in the last year (studying 6h to 8h a day, 6~7 days a week), i tried to use him as a model and "fake it until i made it" but i found that i backslide every time. @Feel Good I agree with you, in fact, i have almost completed Leo's life purpose course but i don't think i am ready yet, i have to address this problem of belief, it is not sustainable to try to achieve success with only willpower. @Nahm The thing is, i really believe that i can "get" enlightened in this lifetime but i find it hard to believe that i can have a successful career or something like it. It is illogical, i know, but it is what it is. @Caterpillar I agree with you, in fact, i was guiding my life based on this "truth" so i basically made my spiritual development my main goal (including enlightenment) in order to be happy in all situations and i am kind of successful in this manner BUT i also noticed that i was pursuing enlightenment because i assumed that i would fail at everything else in life (specially career and financially) so i HAD to be happy in all circumstances. I feel that i am bound to be a failure and my life is kind of going in that direction making me fearful, insecure and anxious each day.

I also noticed this, although i am not practicing formal meditation daily, my "spiritual development" has been growing exponentially, not linear. My kundalini is getting crazy (huge energy spikes flowing through my spine and shit like that) lately.

I made a report here: Very powerful experience, gave me new motivation to follow my intuition (aka divine intelligence) with more faith than before. Until yesterday, i had some glimpses but i was basically following the spiritual path blindly, hoping that it would work, now i know that it will work, i feel that enlightenment is possible and it is not as far as i once thought. I was trying to hold back my spiritual development in order to function better in the day-to-day world, pursuing a career and stuff like that but now i see that it is out of my control, its inevitable, i just have to surrender and it will be alright. If you really contemplate the truths about reality and non-duality, it is shocking and i was afraid to let go, afraid to get my mind blown away and my reality shattered. Now i see that i will serve humanity better with my full development.

What you call evil beings are just playing his part in this play.

Yes, indeed. Yesterday i had a profound experience triggered by this movie.

I need huge balls to follow my intuition only by faith, i have had an increasing urge to drop everything and live in the country in nature, by myself. It seems that, really, i have no choice, the universe is taking care of everything, i tried to slow down a little the process in order to pursue "worldly things" like earning money (i am 26 yo and am totally financially dependent on my family, currently ending a law degree but it isn't what i want to do and i don't know exactly what it is that i want to do) but it seems that it "failed" as i feel that i am advancing at a huge speed in my spiritual development and it is accelerating each day. I have some fears if i get enlightened i won't have the motivation to have a career or something as my family is super dysfunctional and lots of them will need financial support in the next years.

Earlier today, after months without meditating, i had an intuition to meditate and i just sat and did for like 1h easily and during the meditation i had lots of strange things happening, mostly i felt lots of energies throughout my body and even more in my head where the spine meets the skull ( remember a lot when i practiced kriya yoga) i had a hard time to "wake up". A few hours later i decided to watch the part 1 of the "samadhi" movie just because i saw the part 2 in the suggestions on YouTube, things were just clicking like never before, i feel deep sadness during the movie and at some point, the narrator said something like: "you have to give up everything in order to be free" and i just felt my body relax instantly and a fucking huge energy started throughout all my body, i think i freak out and it stopped. A few moments later i tried to replicate the feeling and i was able to do it although not as powerful, i tried to surrender (this was the problem, "i" was trying) a success a little but it faded soon after but y body was vibrating like hell, my head was buzzing, my heart raced and i continued to go deeper. I noticed that i was unconsciously moving a huge amount of energy from the bottom of my spine to my head and i was successful every time, it was like an energy punch in my skull. Now i remember that i had a couple of those experiences as a child, a couple more as a teenager and a couple as an adult after pursuing enlightenment seriously. What the hell was that guys? This is dangerous to do? When i studied kriya yoga, usually it isn't recommended to move energy like that without some preparation steps and i am going through some kundalini crises for some time now but i am going deeper and deeper into enlightenment and away from egos achievements although i try to fight it a lot (i need to earn money). it seems like i don't have much control, something is guiding me like a video game, Someone had some experience with this? I am kind of excited and scared at the same time, this was powerful.

Yes, everything is here to help you, look for Matt Kahn.

This is so true, i am in a stage that i feel the need to drop all knowledge and contemplate what i know or just stay silent.

Fucking made me a vegan. Tear up a little too, no homo lol This one blew my mind arguing on the consciousness of planets:

Same here, i saw a recommendation of this book, downloaded but didn't read. I believe in channeling and recently i often listen to "Kryon" teachings so i think this isn't so far away. Funny thing is that until a couple years ago i considered myself an atheist and now i believe in aliens that talk through humans lol But, who knows, recently i learned humility, had to acknowledge that i don't know shit, so i keep my mouth shut and my mind open.

Holy shit, guys, just had a critical insight of my biggest fear and that caused me lots of fails and extremes amount of unnecessary suffering. I fear failure o much that i simply don't do shit, procrastinate a lot and feel large amounts of anxiety during the task IF i overcome the gigantic problem of procrastination. If is especially true with cognitive tasks like read a technical book, study for college or some super important goal. I have this fear since i can remember but i remember a particular event where i took a test to enter in a school, my parents where pressuring me a lot and i kind of said that it was an easy task for me because i was smart (i had like 14), i took preparatory classes all year but i failed the test and my parents freak out, my father almost slapped me (and he never hit me) calling me "smart ass" and stuff like that, it was very traumatizing, i remember vividly the fear i felt that moment. Since then, my academic success just plumbed every year and with it my motivation to study, although i managed to enter in one of the best universities from Brazil i still procrastinate like HELL, give up easily and feel extremely anxious when i am in class or reading a book, especially when i don't understand something right away. But now i understand my dad, he was only projecting in me his insecurities, my parents are both failures, even though my father is SUPER smart, he still kind of failed in life (in his perspective) and i simply feel his sadness every time i see him and it crushes me to see him like this. My mother also failed terribly in life, her life is simply HELL, she is a drug addict with hardcore mental issues, fucked up the WHOLE family, committed several crimes and is responding in justice for it. She wasn't as smart as she thinks she is but still, breaks my heart to even think about her and i don't see any possibility to see some improvement in her situation until she dies. What can i do, guys, i feel that this is my biggest block currently, is holding me down in a big way and there are lots of people who counts and aunt. Almost forgot: my root chakra is pulsating a LOT this couple of days, never felt anything like it. Suggestions and insights would be great, thanks guys.

I thought a lot about it since i had this insight and came to the conclusion i have to focus (through visualizations or something like this) on the success to counter my overwhelming worry about failure. I talked with my therapist about the issue and we came to this conclusion. I really believe that thoughts are energy that attracts similar energy, if you think constantly in failure, you will fail and if you think in the success you will succeed. This is a big problem because it was an unconscious automatic pattern of thought, i was assuming that failure was inevitable without even being aware of it and, as consequence, i was manifesting into reality. The thought of success for me is like another reality right now, it's surreal to imagine myself being successful and this is what i am going to focus. My plan right now is research and create a success visualization routine and habit. Would love some tips on this.

I think you are right, I have come to that conclusion before, researched a lot, did lots of stuff, got out of my confort zone tones of times, got better in so many levels but I still feel like I am not smart/capable/good enough etc.

Awesome, I am going to try although my insight came after a long time of contemplation, I believe that if I am not good enough(aka fail) , I will not receive love (I think this is the core belief). I don't really know what to after that. @Nahm Thanks for your opinion. I consider myself a relatively happy guy, I realized that being happy now its the most important thing since now is all that is but I don't know if I became a homeless or something similar I would still be happy and I notice that I care about my family opinions a lot, they put a lot of expectations on me plus my ego is of someone that suppose to be successful but I am not (mostly because of the unconscious fear I talked about). But the thing is that this belief is not rational, I simple feel a crippling fear/anxiety mix and self sabotage a LOT every time I have high stakes on the line. I "know" that I am a intelligent guy but I don't feel like it and when I try to study some difficult and important topic I notice that my brain just shut down, I became extremely distracted, anxious, procrastinate a lot and every minute that I am sitting trying to do the task I have to be fully present to not give in to the ever-present tentation to give up and do something else.

I am in the same position, looking for a job that let me impact deeply on people lives, healing of some sort and that i can live near nature. I thought in some kind of massage, or holist therapy or something like this. I prefer to work manually, earn less but do it consciously then have a high paying job that is boring and stresses the fuck out of me.

Awesome, just what I need, I also resist like hell, I think I have success block, I don't think I am good enough to do the work and success so I get really anxious every time I try to sit and do some work (when I am able to get over the Procrastination) and I continue to be anxious throughout the entire work. How exactly do you do this visualization?

For some reason, i don't resonate with him, i don't know what it is exactly but i think i sense a certain "try hard" vibe, he seems a well-intentioned guy but i don't think he actually realized most of the things he talks about, looks like he is just repeating what he read somewhere and try to emulate this spiritual persona. But i could be wrong.

I am a vegan and don't like angry vegan activists because: 1. The vegan movement is based on compassion for our fellow animals and failing to be compassionate towards humans is just pure hypocrisy and lack of self-knowledge. 2. Until you became vegan you were eating animal products, you had to go through a process, let other people go through their, who are you to judge someone process if you yourself were in his position until you had your insight? 3. What are the chances of you changing someone's opinion by screaming at them and calling them names? On the other hand, some vegans see animals as equals to human beings so if they see a pig getting his throat sliced, it could be a human child and it will be the same for them and if you see the world like this, it isn't surprising that you would freak out every time you see an animal getting tortured and killed.

What do you feel when you watch this video? Do you feel compassion? Anger? I feel nothing but compassion for a fellow human being the surely suffer a lot, but i didn't have a family member shot dead by him, what do i know. Do you think it could have been prevented if his brother were more open and loving to him like he shows in this video? For sure, that's why i am committed to living a life full of acts of love and compassion, you never know how deeply you can change someones live with a few loving words.

I loved to read this, i also resonate with his teachings but failed to follow through with his exercises and you are the first report i read about someone who is committed to applying them. Definitely going to try this one. Where did you find this exercise?

Great thread, makes me want to meditate again.

Tell me i am not alone on this. This forum and lots of others like fb groups i am part of seems to be full of non-sense posts that( i guess) were intended to be super deep and profound but ultimately make no sense at all even to spiritual standards. I am not even talking about grammar here, because my english sucks(for writing but i understand perfectly) and i know the limits of language on those topics. But if you are in a forum, my guess is that would make more sense to try to make your message clear. Seems to me that there are lots of spiritual delusion going on (yeah yeah maya, is all an illusion but you still have to communicate).

Isn't everything?

That's not how it works, You don't HAVE to be something to see it in the "outer world", worry, fear or plain curiosity usually do the trick And that's why you don't take a teaching and repeat it without realizing it's truth.