Peter Zemskov

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  1. I'm not very flexible but don't have any flexibility problems either. And I don't have any spine problems. If it's kundalini than how much more time will it last and what is going to happen when it fully awakens?
  2. Easy to say but its extremely hard to meditate when you're twisted in souch a way that your back hurts as though somebody stabbed you in the muscle. I literally have back pain for 15 minutes after a meditation session. But what is positive is that my willpower has grown enormously because of those sensations. I feel that i'm a lot more resistant to suffering than before. Also it sort of deapend my meditation. In those rare days when I have less movement than normal i'm meditating a lot deeper than I did before because now i'm acostumed to meditate in "hard" conditions
  3. Well kinda yeah. But I meditate usually about 20 min. I could've meditated for an hour easily if it wasn't for those sensations. Now about the technique. I think I gain a lot from this do nothing meditation because out of many techniques that I tried it works the best for me.
  4. I also have tickling sensations in my shoulders sometimes. But I never had any emotional breakthroughs after mediation. Well I had it once after the first deep meditation but since then (2 years have past) I never had any.
  5. Almost a year now I'm having weird body movements during meditation that sometimes make it very hard for me to concentrate. First I thought that its just my bad posture but then I understood that it's something else. In one session I had my body leaning towards one side and then revearsing and leaning to the opposite side. That can't happen because of bad posture or muscle relaxation. What happens is that my body and my head start to lean or twist towards one side and this causes a lot of discomfort and sometimes even strong muscle pain. Sometimes I literally had my head twisting backwards and had to stop meditating because I felt as though my neck was going to break if it twisted further back. Usually its not that bad but still it makes meditation feel like torture. For example today my body was leaning to the left pretty badly and the only thing that I could think of was when is the session going to end. I couldn't meditate properly because of that. Does any of you have anything similar? What is it and what do you think is the best way for me to deal with it?
  6. I know. But there's a problem. Some baltic people really dislike russians (for a good reason though) and as a russian I don't feel that its safe. Normally people who live in rural areas are less concious and they may hate me because i'm a russian. I heard stories that houses in small villages have been burned by the hateful locals when the owner left. I just won't be able to leave my house and go.
  7. I'm 15 years old and my dream when i'm going to grow up is to have an isolated place somewhere in nature to which I can come to rest of civilization. I don't want to live isolated but I certainly want to have an isolated place where I can go to and where nothing will distract or worry me. My question is really simple. What are the best natural places I can go to live in, in europe? The only thing that I want from that place is isolation, lots of greenary and it has to be in europe. Those of you who travel a lot can you advise me something?
  8. I think that that's the most concious way of dealing with it. But it's emotionally very hard not to get affected by what they say
  9. In my experience competition often creates envy. Compering yourself to others creates an unhealthy self esteem that is dependent on how you match in comparison to others (and not how you really are) which inevitably creates envy. Also competition is a low conciousness thing because it's really your ego which wants to be better than others.
  10. That's interesting. They won't listen to me if I just tell them my opinion because they'll dismiss it as being an excuse for my laziness but if I'll teel them some quotes from important people I think they're going to listen...
  11. They are. Naturally i'm not an envious person but they force me to be one. It's a problem of giving to much attention to their comparisons of me to other people
  12. It's true for my dad. He tells me with pride stories from his childhood when he got the best marks and always puts himself as an example that I should follow. He just doesn't understand that I don't have the desire to compete with anybody. My dad always felt pride in being better than other people. My mom is different though. She's a typical stage orange person who values success over everything else. She doesn't compare herself with anybody but she does compare me to others. She wants me to live up to her expactations and always tries to put me in a rat race.
  13. I'm working hard on not being envious and comparing myself to others anymore but my parents enforce the envy that I have towards other people and it make the job nearly impossible for me. They always compare me to other people and that sometimes makes me very envious. For example they always compare my marks to my friends marks and encourage me to compete with them and when I tell them that I don't want to compare myself with other they call me a looser and think that it's because i'm afraid of competition. It's really hard to get rid of my envy and self comparison in this situation so what would you recomend?
  14. I face that problem too. It's really a shame when such an effortless thing as meditation starts feeling as an obligation. I think the problem is in moralization. We shouldn't say we should meditate