Peter Zemskov

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  1. I know. But there's a problem. Some baltic people really dislike russians (for a good reason though) and as a russian I don't feel that its safe. Normally people who live in rural areas are less concious and they may hate me because i'm a russian. I heard stories that houses in small villages have been burned by the hateful locals when the owner left. I just won't be able to leave my house and go.
  2. I'm 15 years old and my dream when i'm going to grow up is to have an isolated place somewhere in nature to which I can come to rest of civilization. I don't want to live isolated but I certainly want to have an isolated place where I can go to and where nothing will distract or worry me. My question is really simple. What are the best natural places I can go to live in, in europe? The only thing that I want from that place is isolation, lots of greenary and it has to be in europe. Those of you who travel a lot can you advise me something?
  3. I think that that's the most concious way of dealing with it. But it's emotionally very hard not to get affected by what they say
  4. In my experience competition often creates envy. Compering yourself to others creates an unhealthy self esteem that is dependent on how you match in comparison to others (and not how you really are) which inevitably creates envy. Also competition is a low conciousness thing because it's really your ego which wants to be better than others.
  5. That's interesting. They won't listen to me if I just tell them my opinion because they'll dismiss it as being an excuse for my laziness but if I'll teel them some quotes from important people I think they're going to listen...
  6. They are. Naturally i'm not an envious person but they force me to be one. It's a problem of giving to much attention to their comparisons of me to other people
  7. It's true for my dad. He tells me with pride stories from his childhood when he got the best marks and always puts himself as an example that I should follow. He just doesn't understand that I don't have the desire to compete with anybody. My dad always felt pride in being better than other people. My mom is different though. She's a typical stage orange person who values success over everything else. She doesn't compare herself with anybody but she does compare me to others. She wants me to live up to her expactations and always tries to put me in a rat race.
  8. I'm working hard on not being envious and comparing myself to others anymore but my parents enforce the envy that I have towards other people and it make the job nearly impossible for me. They always compare me to other people and that sometimes makes me very envious. For example they always compare my marks to my friends marks and encourage me to compete with them and when I tell them that I don't want to compare myself with other they call me a looser and think that it's because i'm afraid of competition. It's really hard to get rid of my envy and self comparison in this situation so what would you recomend?
  9. I face that problem too. It's really a shame when such an effortless thing as meditation starts feeling as an obligation. I think the problem is in moralization. We shouldn't say we should meditate
  10. Thanks for the advice. Really helped me not to doze off today
  11. In my meditation practice I faced a pretty annoying problem. I noticed that I can't meditate productively after not getting enough sleep the night before. And the problem is that even if I sleep 7 hours I can't meditate without facing sleepiness/drowsiness problems. To properly meditate I need to sleep at least 8 hours but my life conditions don't always permit me to sleep those 8 hours. It's really annoying when I haven't slept 8 hours one night and my meditation session gets ruined. And the fact that I'm a night owl adds on top of that. Give me some advice on how I can meditate better when I hadn't the opportunity to sleep 8 hours.
  12. Hell yeah! Ego is not bad. It's bad if it controls you. Ego is there for your survival and your job is not to eliminate it entirely but to get complete control over it.
  13. I already did it and had the same thing. But it affected only my good hand. By the way the experience was mad. The spasm was really strong so even if I pushed my hand into normal position it would get twist back up
  14. Same thing happened to me but only to my good hand. My broken hand was ok and this incredible energy peak just affeted my good hand