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@LoveandPurpose ??

4daysleft: realizing I still have lots of work to do stress is kicking in again? 3daysleft: worked at home, wasn‘t very productive having a detailed structure helps me to finish chapters in a fast manner

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5daysleft: did almost nothing throughout the day in the evening a little bit of fear kicked in and I used it as catalyst to do some work

Day37:

@Vitamine Water hahaha yes dude! this morning I went on a run and almost jumped over a bench too without knowing this scene? 6daysleft: had a meeting with an expert got many insights and new material to write about, that will fill up some pages worked with my bro and his friend, brainstormed together having insights on how to connect more dots

Day36: is it tho?

@d0ornokey We came up with it spontaneously. @lennart forced himself to meditate for half a year, then he stopped. I wanted to find a way to establish a habit more effortlessly and I asked him what he loves the most: it was music. So we came up with the idea to listen to a song right in the morning as a core habit and then connect conscious breathing to it.

7daysleft: same as yesterday there‘s an intense feeling that I have already done it and this is not the case... today I‘ll work with my brother again, that‘ll push me

Day36: ?

8daysleft: not very productive, feeling too confident I realized that when I tell myself I‘ll do "just a little bit" there‘s a pleasant emotion, where as the automatic thought of finishing a whole chapter at once leads to no emotion/fear/disconnection so I did that successfully and it helped me to at least start

Day35:

Today I dreamt that I went into a room full with boxes of supplements and nootropics made by @Leo Gura. One was called "EX-X" and it was made to help especially during the breakup with your ex girlfriend/boyfriend by imitating the effects of ecstasy? This is what it looked like:

9daysleft: studied in the morning and at night my focus is much stronger at around 1am Now in the final phase of the theory, the practical part will hopefully be a quick process, because everything is prepared

Day34:

@now is forever No, but I‘ll research it a bit and order if it fits. I asked a friend and he said it has a calming and focusing effect, sounds good. 10daysleft: countdown... worked on it for 1,5h in the morning, then lost focus and after fighting with myself for a few minutes to continue, I left the library Had a long nap, worked out, meditated and so the day passed at night I was in bed and couldn‘t sleep, always with the thought that I will continue in just a moment I had an emotional mini-breakthrough during the day and saw that it is worth fighting, I remembered that and felt like I knew why I had to study my arms reached out and took the laptop?? Finished lots of stuff

Day33:

@Draconis Chaser Thank you man! Yeah, I did something similar, sneaked in funny sentences, used wordplays and so on, just to keep myself entertained whenever I re-read it? I wish you lots of success with your work! 11daysleft: drank coffee again, but in a lower dose, helped at first, but fired back during the day studied for about 3 hours in a loud environment and with all the pressure on top it was overwhelming Found that short meditations help to restore my capacity

Day32:

12daysleft: was really tired the whole day, drank coffee the day before and didn‘t have a good sleep but I finished some of the to-do‘s in the evening I panicked a bit, but meditating helped to wind down, connect to silence and sleep early

Day31:

@Zigzag Idiot Thank you?? @now is forever Ok, I‘ll do that. Thanks! 13daysleft: met with my bro and we structured everything and cleaned up the text helped me to know exactly what to do for the next few days that minimized the fear to continue the work, because I know what to do and how to do it I realized that giving up is connected to a hurt and sad self image Instead of identifying with that I remember the self image of me already having finished this work successfully

Day30: what a coincidence, we both got the same band today?

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