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Should I meditate or self enquiry like I normally do while being high?

Any instructional video or guide of how to use weed for Enlightenment? I found snow white to be one of the strongest ones. It's more like a hybrid but it has amazing effects

Is it better to get growing kit and cultivate them yourself or should you search on street? (Again for beginner who has never grown shrooms)

Can you tell me which mushroom types are good for starters? Already have some experience with molly and solid experience with weed. So I guess time to move to different meta. I decided to stop fkin around with Enlightenment intellectually and actually start practicing it...

Have any of you been to Burning Man festival which is held in Nevada? Is there a perfect Environment for gaining Enlightenment insights? It is very free of social baggage - you have no money there, everyone is equal, lots of room for love... I am thinking to attend it in the nearest future. And generally do you think that such gatherings with lots of open minded people is a good influence for someone who seeks the Enlightenment?

@Be Yourself what is the best way to get shrooms in Netherlands? Is it legal? Can I grow them myself? What are the differences between different types of shrooms. I don't really wanna go to deep web. Which one is most effective lcd or shroom for Enlightenment?

What are the signs of breaking through? Signs of seeing through tiny cracks? Lately I feel very sleepy and exhausted everytime. Reality also feels like a dream I mean literally. I have terrible brain fog. I feel alienated in social situations. It seems like I can no longer identify myself and it seems like everything in my vision is blended together. I feel numb. Usually I was in a depression quite often but now it seems like I'm becoming completely numb and unresponsive to my feelings. I was constantly overthinking my future and past but now it seems like I easily let those go and take everything as it is. It also feels lonely - as if there is nobody around even when I am among people. It feels like I am only one. What is happening with me? What should I do now?

@Lauritz I very much like the idea itself. But it seems so uncomfortable that you have to do it in stranger environment. Doing it home seems much more comfortable. Because maybe I'm overthinking it but you never know what these strangers can do with your food or while you sleep. It just doesn't feel safe to me subjectively. And keeping my mind quiet seems impossible for me. But hey this is me and you may be completely different person.

@Leo Gura Recently when I was doing self enquiry (looking for myself) I've observed an interesting fact. When I close my eyes and move my head it seems like my feeling of self is following the movement of my head. But... when I try to move my hand or leg it does not seem as "Me" is following these movements. Sort of it seems like feeling of "my self" is located somewhere in the head. But again it's hard to become aware that there should arise another question - " who is aware of all these above mentioned observations?" Why can't it be self aware?

But why do I see those changes occurring in me? I don't even do self enquiry that often. However since my early childhood I always have been seeking for the Truth. I've never believed that this world is real. Maybe my curious personality is more suited for that Enlightenment work? Maybe my whole life searching for the answers contributed to my fast progress? Is that a possibility?

Is it safe to do these solo for the first time? In my student house room?

Who or what was the first "ego"? if a child is born and noone "teaches" him false belief about how he is separate self then will this child have sense of separate ego when he grows up? Do animals also have ego? Can animals be Enlightened? Where are the boundaries of what we call ego? Do plants have ego? Do objects have ego?

1) is it ok to do self inquiry while laying in the bed? I find that the main reason why I sometimes skip this practice is because I'mlazy to get up from the bed when I wake up and use the 20 min gap I have before I go to uni for inquiry while sitting. 2) can you achieve permanent Enlightenment? Or fake life movie will always suck you back to illusion after a while? 3) when I do self inquiry should I focus on present moment and start looking for myself with the silence of the mind or ask question: "who am I" in my mind? 4) which is the most effective self inquiry method you have found?

Does reality disappear if I close my eyes? If so why can I still touch a chair with my eyes closed?

But which shrooms should I get and where?

which psychedelics are best for Enlightenment purpose in your opinion other then 5 MEO DMT because starting with it seems quite dangerous...

@Leo Gura in his last episode describes the fact that ego creates boundaries between good and evil. Leo you say that in reality Evil does not exist... Then what is killing, raping and other terrible evil I don't even want to mention? even if you and me become awaken that does not change other evil people and they will still do it. If there is no boundary between good and evil then why don't you kill, steal money and do other evil things for living? - If all these are not different (there are no boundaries?) from creating quality videos on youtube, having passion and guiding people to spirituality?

you mean tripping on psychedelics? The problem with my loneliness is denial from my current social circle. I study abroad and everyone is just concentrated on totally different thing and in order for me not to fail I need to integrate and become social. But at the same time when I practice self enquiry and meditations when I'm alone it somehow makes me weird and different when I'm going back to mandatory social interactions.

What are the best methods on that path other then self inquiry and meditation? It feels so lonely when nobody understands you and you have to go on the Path of Enlightenment alone. What if I get lost on it and move to a completely false direction. That's why I'm seeking people who might be also aware of that path. Maybe I could find some of them at Burning Man where else?

ok what is dream then? Is it projection within the projection?

but how one projector can show different projections simultinously as me, Nahm and Leo for example?

1) Will he do it? if yes why? if no why? 2) But still "you" are talking to "me" why is not it reverse? Why my experience does not feel like I am Leo responding to egoless questions? 4) If there is no separate self for Enlightened person (awaken- for example you) why does not he transfer all his money to us all of the forum members if we are all one? If physical death does not mean anything anymore for him why does he need money and food anymore?

1) I mean literally killing other people for example. What stops Enlightened man to kill or harm other person if there is no boundary for him between good and bad? 2) "Who" decided for Leo to be born as Leo Gura for example and not as other ego? why "your" ego experiences different things then "mine" and if we are one who decides that split between imaginative roles? 3) Ok.

@Lauritz That would be really tough challenge! Good luck! But why can't you do it at your house if you live alone?

Jokes aside I know that I just can't grasp all these intellectually no matter how hard I try. But something just does not align with each other or I just misunderstand some of your sayings. My main questions are: 1) After Awakening will I commit much less evil then I do now? Let's say evil from our ego's perspective. Can Enlightened man kill or harm someone just for sake of reality experiencing itself? 2) I also don't quite understand what no Free will mean? Does it mean that I can sit whole my life in the chair doing nothing and I won't be lazy because that's how it was predetermined for me? 3) What do you mean in Infinite reality can every possible scenario even non realistic ones from our perspective exist in it?