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thanks

tbh i was skeptical about bashar at first but i realized it doesnt matter. even if the guy is faking it or having some mental disorder the stuff he says is helpful

are there any books on this in the booklist?

dont expect any experiences to happen for the first like 4 months its gonna be a boring daily practice.

@Matt8800 thanks ill try to meditate on it

for some time I experience stronger cravings for food, masturbation, movies, etc. I think thats because Im starting to get aware a lot of this pointlessness and i subconsciously think that stuff will fulfill me somehow. what changed recently is that i started doing yoga for peace 5 min, meditate 20 min and then yoga for self exploration 5 min. those yogas are from the isha site, from sadhguru. I feel irritation, restlessness, and whatever i do i feel like its not interesting, doesnt have meaning, like for example watching movies. what can I do? or why is it happening?

I havent found anything that excites me and im still feeling shitty. its not just that im unfulfilled but I have anger, sadness, discomfort, discontentment... Nothing bad really happens in my life situation but I feel like shit. I started exercising daily and doing sometimes the wim hof method and it doesnt help. Still have cravings for pleasure.

in the past i did holotropic breating, osho meditations, chakra breathing, and more energetic exercises. Already a few months I have this energy (pressure) in the back of my head (medulla) and it wont go away, it seems a bit new agey but I have a feeling like i have to concentrate on that point so it will explode, thats the feeling i get. when i concentrate there or do some exercises something my head jitters. I did the wim hof method a few days ago and at the end of a cycle one needs to get a lot of air in and pressurize the head (the neck expands a bit too). I felt something like an explosion when I did that only once for a brief moment. when i do that pressurizing i feel some pressure in the area near the shoulders too, but i guess thats normal. should I do anything about that? did i damage my nervous system somehow? it doesnt interfere too much yet with my daily life.

@Etagnwo I realized that I have deep self esteem issues that show themselves only sometimes. I believe that im a shitty human, I study physics but im stupid, im lazy, I dont want to do hard things, im bad towards others, im extremely ignorant of how other people feel and in general about life, all i do is hedonistic stuff like eat and watch movies girls will be able to tell that I hate myself, should I still try to pick up girls? if i be myself i wont get any attraction, I can tell because often when I was myself people saw an unattractive energy in me, they say im a nerd and they acted in a way that avoided interacting with me.

there are possible negative effects of meditation that you can get through, leo has a video on it.

I define being present as being aware of thought movements, not being caught up in them. Everybody says "be present", when you walk, eat, do laundry, whatever. I see this as a waste of my life. I could at the same time entertain myself with music, listen to an audiobook, contemplate, for example about how to improve my life or others'. This is much better than "being present" because presence is so meaningless, it has no point, meaningless is the same as not having a point, why in the fuck would i do something that has no point? I meditate because it improves my concentration, and im more aware of myself WHEN I NEED TO. for example being present allows me to delude myself less, but that rarely happens (or at least it rarely helps), also being present allows me to be less emotional. I dont see a reason to be present ALL THE TIME. Why would I need witness consciousness in my daily life? it only helps with problems, which is less than 1% of my daily time. the rest of the time its just trying hard for no reason whatsoever. also I dont believe in the concept of being fulfilled all the time, if you inquire yourself out of every meaning you have youre going to have a shitty life, empty, and emptiness is... emptiness! its nothing, why in my current state would i want that, i want to feel life, who the fuck cares that its the truth, what i care about is fullfillment. What I think the best life is, is maximizing the time spent in meaningful engagement (yes meaning doesnt really exist and I create it but it feels good and thats all i care about) by following passions. That may entail truth seeking for best decision making, knowing what to do in life, but still, thats to create more fulfillment. Im pretty convinced intellectually that im not the body, nor the mind, even though I know I still believe that, I think its hard wired to believe that. What I think I am is whatever is watching, AKA what is being watched, awareness. BUT THAT HAS NO FUCKING IMPLICATIONS on my life at all, all the desires in "my" mind say that fulfillment is the best, so this body is going to try to achieve that, and not go to a monastery and waste it's life for example. obviously I dont know some stuff (a lot) and havent experienced shit, but thats what I believe right now.

i dont do these techniques on a regular basis, i do them very rarely. @Toby thanks that cleared things up for me, i won't do energetic meditations for a while. ill some how those techniques also. do you think that psychedelics can help too? i remember on an lsd trip like a lot of blockages were opened a little.

i wouldnt pay too much attention to it, i dont see a point, whatever happens, happens

@Salvijus exactly

@pluto ill try

@billiesimon doesnt necessarily have to do with validation, it's just more fun to be with a fun guy, thats it. would you consider hanging out with people which are boring? maybe you're more openminded than most people but still, it doesnt necessarily have to be like that with women only.

dont be, remember its cherry-picking, if even 1% of all people who went to meditation retreats would come back like that they wouldve been banned long ago. she probably had a certain predisposition to psychosis, thats stuff is extremely rare. its like one of those things like dying in an airplane crash or getting eaten by a shark. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zIKQCwDXsA#t=15

I didnt read the article or watch the video, but do you think his methods are wrong too? his 5 minutes yogas and inner engineering and all that. Of course if you gather a large following people will worship you whether you want it or not. Of course sadhguru can say ignorant stuff sometimes, like that science backed up water memory and such. but does that matter if his methods work? If you actually take his inner engineering courses and you actually have amazing results, does anything else matter? I appreciate your alarm though, I appreciate people who remind me not to be a sheep because sometimes i can slide unconsciously

Im having trouble with that, because my circumstances dont allow me to- I have 2 options, doing something in the computer or with people, other stuff doesnt really interest me. I tried going out right now places where people at to try to talk to girls, and there were only 40-60 year olds, so people are off the list because i dont have friends that are free. In the computer I could watch movies, videos, read, do the life purpose course thats the stuff i enjoy usually, but right now i feel like its lame. im out of options really, because i could also do psychedelics, but i have exams right now and i dont have whole 2 days or a day to spend, I am planning to after the exams, but until then i dont have anything, thats in 2 weeks.

this will open your eyes

I think you're correct on some level, but if your game is good, they will realize that attention is much shittier than actual attraction. you have that opinion because there are barely any men who know how to attract and just want to get laid, and women feel that, therefore the best next thing for them is validation. if a man is actually honest and displays his sexual attraction in a genuine non-creepy way and the girl picks on that, she will be so attracted to him too, because she can feel his energy, and that feeling is much better than validation.

cant help it, all my thoughts drift that way right now. no idea why im so upset

@sky_dreamer i dont want to fuck a prostitute, for a few reasons: hygene, i wont get hard, social conditioning, i dont believe its going to raise my confidence, i would feel disgusting with myself after that, if anything it would decrease my confidence, thats my personality. I tried tinder, tried very hard to make good photos, barely got matches and the matches were shitty. top 1% of attractive guys get most of the girls and the rest get nothing. I have no chance because im not that attractive.

@Salvijus I never traveled and i wont be able to for the next 7 years because i have an army contract (im 20). maybe the isha yoga is better or more effective than from leo's books, which is what ive been doing, but i cant attend to learn the yoga because its abroad. i dont think im doing the yoga by the books correctly, and ive no idea how to do them correctly.

@Etagnwo I got your point though, it is how you come across, and in public looks dont matter because you can come across good without extreme looks.